So I wrapped half the crap bunch for tonight - kese kese ajib bache exam dete hain yaar *head desk*
Nur - yes! That's what I mean, she always wanted him to be the best of the person he was. When he was a kid, and when he grew up. Everytime she is disappointed in him, it is solely on account of failing the hopes she has in his potential and goodness - not in failing to become his elder brother. And although Vasant hands over this dream to her - somewhere, right from the word go, Gulaal can see in Kesar, the good the others can't. She recognizes, and connects so instantly with the golden heart inside that brat of a kid - because technically, that's a trait they share! While in Vasant, she finds the 'ideal man' to fall in love with - in Kesar, she finds shades of herself - the extent of goodness, and the extent of punk. Kesar is not the 'selfless' good guy, but he's is, I repeat, a golden heart! He can hate and love with so much passion - he can bear a grudge for a decade, and he can let sour strains go in a second. The way he shuns her initially - let's not forget the stone throw welcome 😆 - and the way he opens his heart to her is so natural to him... he's a candid heart, and he doesn't gift wrap his emotions or intentions, good or bad! How can someone not be drawn to a character like that - especially Gulaal, who is so much like that herself! Or at least characteristically was, when she first met him, even if she tried to adjust and change herself with time and circumstance!
This entire 'love yourself' scenario is quite common to both Gulaal of that time, and chota Kesu 😆 And in a strange way, even their goodness for the others, the welfare of those they love so much, comes through this 'seeming selfish' strain! I remember the scene where a villager loses his cattle to the drought and Kesra comes back and tries to force his own cattle to eat the dry straw, because he fears they will lose their animal too - one can trace down that by-the-book selfish streak in him, thinking of his own animal when he sees another's loss - but it is the way he shows his love! Even for the animal!
And oh - I've deviated long from the original point in my Kesar alaap again ☺️ Yes, Gulaal recognizes the golden heart and its potential, because she can literally see the mirror there! So she for one never wants him to become 'Vasant' but only become the best he can be. And there are no scales fair enough to measure the best one human can be, compared to another!