MG-SS - Kaare Badra - Last Part - Page 77 - June 27 - Page 10

Ab nahi Geet... U can't leave me this time... I'll not let u go ... Tumhe mere sawalon kaa jawab dena hoga... Tum har baar mere saath aisa nahi kar sakti...

My beautiful trance was broking by Maan's restless murmurings. I didn't know when I got so lost in remembering the most beautiful days of my life with this man who now is as unreachable for me as the sun. If ever, we would try to come anywhere close to each other, it would burn us both.

And the reality struck hard... It's time for me to leave... Leave him once again n go... as far as possible from his reach. Time to run again...

I opened the door but stepping out, leaving him again was like the hardest thing to do, I wanted to run back to him, kiss him all over, hug him tight but I know, I can't. I raised my hand to touch him, to feel him just once but couldn't gather enough courage.

I walked faster as soon as I moved out of the hotel, to ensure that I don't break my resolve n run back ending this hide n seek, getting the solace that only his embrace can provide.

Ye kaise Kaale badal hai jo humesha ke liye meri zindagi pe chha gaye hai??? Ye kaisa kaala saya hai jo aapne meri kismet mein llikh diya hai babaji ??? Kyu roshni samne hote hue bhi ye kaale badal mujhe usse juda kar rahe hai ?? Kyu babaji kyu ???

I couldn't go home in this miserable state so went n sat at my hideout dipping my feet in the cold water of Ganga expecting it to provide some calmness to my weeping, burning heart. I so much want to go back to the hotel n cry my heart out in his arms making him cry with me, ending all our miseries, longings, pains. Seeing him after the long span of 2 years is making me weak. But I know can't go back to him, I can no more...

May b it's the effect of last night, looking at his state, remembering those beautiful days, feeling him so close.

I have to go away but... the ache in my heart was becoming unbearable, tears were unstoppable, my feet were denying to obey my mind. In that moment ending this pain forever seemed much easier than to leave him again.

I sat there for hours still unable to decide, whom to listen ?? My crying heart or my mind. One wants to confront the bitter reality of my life whereas the other is pulling me away from this place to save my loved ones from shattering.

Finally, the mind won who made me proceed towards the house to collect a few basic belonging n leave before anybody realizes my disappearance. While my mind was drifting towards Maan again, hoping him to b fine n if someone had reached him or not ?? Although deep down in my heart, I know what he would b feeling when he wakes, I know he can sense my presence even in that state n what my disappearance will do to him. But even after knowing all this also I can't go back to him. Ohh babaji... why ??

With heavy steps I walked towards the house as I have made up my mind to leave but there is a guilt feeling towards Yash n Meera. These r the people, who had supported me when I had no shoulder to lean on, giving unconditional affection n trust of real friends when I was just an unknown, unidentified stranger. They had taken care of me as their own dear family member.

Looking at the time, I know they both must have left for their respective workplaces. And I have to leave before either of them come back. Coz very soon Maan will also b aware of the fact that I live with Yash n Meera. And then they will b in deep trouble just becoz of me...

~o~

My steps slowed as I saw a long luxurious car outside our house n as the distance decreased, my steps became calculative n an unknown fear started griping my heart. I went near the car to check n saw a man in driver's uniform on the driver's seat and the back seat was occupied by a girl. But something about the girl made me anxious so I went near to have a closer look n as if on cue she raised her head to shake me to the core.

Aniee...

Bhabhi...

Her eyes twinkled to have found me there n she climbed out of the car to reach me but I stepped back in that dazed state. This was the moment I had been fearing... Fear of facing those people whom I had loved the most, whom I still love the most.

BHABHI...

No Aniee...

I cried nodding my head n stepping back whereas she rushed towards me. But I can't do this, so ran ... ran off from there to go to an unknown destination, far away ... far ... far away from her, from Maan, from everyone who all care n love me. I could still hear Aniee calling my name running after me but I cannot stop. I have no clue where to go but I have to leave. So I left... left forever...

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