What happened was something has happened with me many times before too when ever I have left my confines things has gone messy. That is the reason why I have to be alone & none are allowed to be with me. My mother left me giving birth to me to live in this world all alone; my father was there only till that another natural calamity which shook more than half of the village when I was a small kid. From that time all I have led is a life alone each day was like a year or even more than that.
Relatives were there to support me but even that didn't last for more than few days as they would fell into deep troubles due to me. So I had spent most of my life in an orphanage far away from everyone who was my family once. This was my curse which I am still burdened with. And today that has spread to Geet, she fell the moment I thought to ignore my curse but it was all present to remind me of the repercussions if avoided.
I still stood the same way gazing at her fallen state; I couldn't gather enough courage to even check her. What if she also just left because of my mistake? It would have been better to be away than to live in guilt for becoming an endangered curse to someone else. With the sudden enormous sound of water gained the attention of Pari & Yash so they came out to check the reason for it and all they could see was Geet lying in the pool of water while I had lost my voice to tell anything to them.
I started to take my steps away from her whereas Pari was trying to revive Geet by patting her cheeks. Yash asked her to pull under the shelter first so that she wouldn't catch cold. They tried to rub her legs & hands it was turning little blue due to chillness of water. Yash looked back at me to ask what happened but what would I reply, there was nothing to tell it was all my fault to have agreed with him to accompany Yash to her place.
My strides were moving fast to just hide myself away from everyone especially from those blue eyes mermaid of my life. I push all the things in front of me & put everything on fire with my own hands but would that reduce the blaze in me. Ripping of my self also didn't reduce the helplessness in me. Why should I be compelled to live a life like this with no love no happiness all alone nothing pleasing can exist around me? Why it is that anything that wants to give me bit contentment would turn into ashes before I could embrace it. Why can't I hold a little bliss in my palm?
All I had heard was they were taking her to the nearby doctor, I so wanted to check on her but it was best with me not going near her. I waited at the shores waiting for the sun to break the darkness, which was actually trying to consume me within it. After what seems like eternity I just couldn't wait more but wanted to know if she was fine, I decided I would only see from far & then will move out before anyone would actually notice my presence.
I stood at the doorway hearing that melodious voice of speaking to the doctor which was a relief till I heard there talks. The doctor was quite upset about something but what was the fault of Geet in all these things which happened.
"Geet, I am telling you last time you have to be careful, I can't hide these things every time. It was just pure luck that your friends bought you to me, what would have happened if they would have taken you to other doctor." Doctor was scolding sternly.
"Doc, I would have managed it." Geet answered meekly.
"Right the way you just managed it today. I have answered others as you got dehydrated but I want answers from you now? What happened & how did it happen if you had taken all the precautions." Doc questioned.
"Doc, you yourself said now that I was dehydrated and that was exactly what happened too." Geet replied
"Okay then be my patient for next 2 days & get your dehydration cured." Doctor said
"2 days, what will I do here for 2 days? I am perfectly fine & I would like to take your leave now as I need to attend the class." Replied shocked Geet on the sudden order passed by her doctor but when did she listen to others.
"I am your doctor Geet."
"No, you are my friend, so bye." Geet stromed out of the room after saying that.
There talk left me in thinking what was it that they were talking about was she hiding something or is she under some medication due to some disease. But if I question the doctor she would definitely not spit out the truth. Doctor must have known Geet for a quite a period and that's why she was so comfortable & then also she hid the truth with Yash & Pari also that too even before she consulting Geet. I should follow her to know more but after what happened yesterday night I need to be very careful & stay away from her.
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I have been observing her more meticulously from past few hours but nothing actual changed in her ways neither in action nor in words. Still we didn't speak neither she nor Yash or Pari actually asked me about that night. It was as if nothing happened, don't know what Geet said to them but they were actually being careful with Geet, making sure that she had lot of liquids. They didn't let her give presentations in seminar also but only person who regretted that was me as I couldn't hear her.
Yash asked me to help them in the last seminar and the group discussions for the year before college breaks for the exams so that Geet could take proper rest. I agreed but I didn't know what I am supposed to do so he gave some notes which I had to go through & speak about them. Seminar was said to be on one of the topics in some subject which we read but the group discussion was just a practice session so that everyone would get good exposure to the presentation skills. I actually wondered what am I going to do as I had not an iota of idea how these are done but this would help Geet is all I know so I had to do it.
Edited by Jeevana. - 11 years ago
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