PART 12
When she finally settled, Daadi got her something to eat.. itna pareshan hone ki baat nahi hain beta. Maan ka office Delhi main hain.. when ever he goes there he spends few days there.
Wo 2-3 din main aa jayega
Geet laughed hysterically ' wo nahi aayega
he will not come!!!
Few weeks had passed neither did Maan call nor did he come back. It was really hard for Geet. Every passing day was like living a nightmare. Her self-hatred only reached its peak so was her hatredness towards him. But it would be lie to say so.. she still couldn't hate him. Deep in her she loved him, longed for him.. missed him.. more than ever. Now after seeing care in his eyes.. concern in his words Oh God !!! she longed to see love .. LOVE!!! she wants her rapist to love her... the thought humiliated her. A shame she had to live with through out her life.
Maan was not in peace either in Delhi. Aa tho gaya tha us se door.. lekin uska dil wonhi tha.. he wanted to give himself some space.. some time away from his urges.. this feel to hold her in his embrace.. away from looking into those eyes.. which held him capitive.. away from the eyes that screamed her plight.. that told him.. how much she loved him.. LOVE!!!! how can she love him.. when every word she utters only spits hatredness...confirms her dislike towards him.. that contradicts her eyes.. her actions.. her passions.. her warmth..
AAAH he screamed in frustration..
trying hard to concentrate on the tune he tried to play for his new album.. Alas!!! every time his fingers played on the instrument.. the tune that played without his knowledge was the tune he played for her. Like music meant Geet to him now.. a tear rolled down from the corner of his eyes.. at his own helplessness.
How is that he could feel her .. her fragrance.. every time he closed his eyes
[tamil poem that depicts his heart plight.. has english translation.. plz read to feel his realization]
kaatrilae un vaasani ingu vandhu vandhu poga
(I can sense you being around me always)
naetru mun indha yosanai ingu kanavillai saera
(Never thought that I would join you ever again till yesterday)
unnai paarkum pothu naalum
(Everytime when i see you)
iru vaanavillum thondrum un kannilae..
(it would seem as if rainbows had become your eyes)
Kanavethu nijamethu kaartil parappathu kaathal seithal purivathillai
(Which is reality and which one is a dream.. You will fly in air when you are in love..)
iruvethu pagalethu puriya nilai ithu kathalin imsaikku alavu illai..
(When is night and when is the day, This love tortures never ends..)
a smile crept on his face when he finally gave into her thoughts.. her feel
Roja pookalum kadum thavangal puriyumae un koondhal serum naal kaanavae
(Roses would pray to god to see the day they can be on you)
siru pullum koodavae ada pookkal pookuthae un viralgal theendidum varam vaendiyae
(Even small grasses started to blossom to get just glimpse of touch from you)
kadhalae neeyum avalai kaathalithu paarthaaya
(Hey love, have you ever loved her?)
kanavugalil dhinam dhinam aval tharum imsai vendaam enbaaya?
(would you say no to those tortures she would give everyday in your dreams?)
enakkul pugunthu en nimmadhi kulaithaai ithu un kannukku theriyalayaa
(Cant you see that you have come inside me and left me peace-less)
vidu vidu enakkindha thollaigal pidikkuthu un mayai ulagirkku mudivillaiya?
(it is fine. I love this nurtures. but isn't there an end to your illusionary world? )
en kaadhalai nee vendaam endrai ithu meiyya poiyya
(You said no to our love is that a truth or a lie?)
irunthum en arugil nindraai ithu vettriyaa tholviyaa
(but still you stood next to me is that my victory or failure?)
unai kaanave naan piranthaenae oru paarvaiyil kondraai
(I took my birth to see you but you killed me in just one blink of your eye)
maru ganamae naan pizhaithaenae pun sirippil vendraai
(I resurrected the next moment and you still won by your smile)
mithakkum bhoomiyum nilaikkum neramum nee irukkum bothu theriyavillai
(I cannot sense the floating world and stilling time when you are near)
silirkkum siragugal koduththum payanillai unai vida vaanam thooramillai
(There is no use even if i get huge wings, cause even the sky is not farther than you..)
by
Kaushal
he sighed sadly... as the realization sunk in.. he was in love!!! in love with his wife.. with his GEET!! & she claims she hates him.. after drowning him into this uncontrollable, unbearable, unleashed emotions churning within !!! he gave in to the flow of tune.. the same tune playing again & again... he worked next few weeks developing the album. His love.. his heart.. he poured everything into it. He was still not in a frame of mind to express his feeling to his love.. his wife. Instead poured all in this new album.. it was like a junnon for him now.
he invested quiet a bit into the audio release, marketing, making the promo video .. He got lot of music firms to invest in his album, but he wanted to do it himself.. it was for her.. he couldn't give the rights to anyone.
He was so passionately involved.. he forgot all abt his other concerts.. albums.. everything else. It was the only thing that helped him bare the pain of being away from her..
the distancing was much required for himself to know understand his own feeling. It was confusing for him.. strange as well. After the marriage he had decided clearly declare to her... his stand on this marriage. He was so sure .. he didn't believe in love.. in relations.. & from day one.. he couldn't stop himself from falling for her helplessly. He initially thought it was just an attraction.. shame.. physical.. but now he knows it was definitely more.. & now.. he didn't even care anymore wat she felt abt it. He loves her & he wants to tell her.. in the most special way. With this album he was going to tell her.. break this silence between them.
it was a big deal in the whole media abt this romantic album in the making!!! with so much at stake for Khurana's. But for Maan it was his heart.. which no one knew.
Just before the actual release another album got released with the same music.. his original tune. It shook the whole Khurana music company. It was all in media.. even an aligation that Maan copied the tune.
Maan didn't say anything.. it didn't matter to him the monitory loss it was more!! he didn't even know how it happened..?? how do they have the rights..
so many questions where thrown on the Khurana's.. Maan just didn't care to answer.. he didn't want to .. he could burn the person alive who betrayed him. They didn't know it was way to personal for him.. he wouldn't spare the person who tried to play with his emotion.
precap
đ˛Maan meeting with an accident
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