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I just loved drashti's acting yesterday!!! it was so touching.... I could actually feel her pain.... Shes the best actress till date on small screen....coz I never thought I would cry after watching a tv show.... but i did and not once but many times... Last time I remember crying was the episode in which dadi tells her that she wants maan to get married and asked geet to help her finding a girl.... The "lagan laagi tujhse lagan" sequence....I cried so much while watching that epi.... cnt describe... The way she misses maan and I could feel what exactly she was feeling.... it was like she was losing something... like something is going away from her.... it reminded me of my realizatrion of love for someone... I realized it in a similar way...he was someone a bit older to me and our religions totally different.....I am a hindu and he being a muslim.... which meant no future...an impossible relation... so I had to keep myself away from that person just like geet...I resisted myself and both of us denied our feelings for about an year...All the eyelock scenes remind me of my story...WE tried even getting out of each others lives totally....but we just couldn't... He was also like this angry young man...totally khadoos...not speaking much,keeping an arms distance frm girls,serious types,very punctual n disciplined. Jst like geet....it was my innocence n fun loving nature that brougt him close to me...Only I know certain sides of his character that noone knows nor will anyone ever know... He was lonely,his parents were no more in this world....So it was his lonliness that brought me close to him and want to take care of him...He also cared for me just like maan,never said anything but his actions showed...Many scenes between maaneet remind me of my painful past.... everything in the show is real,for me no feelings,no twists in their story are fictitious...Just like their love...ours was also a pure one,very pure...and we did nothing wrong in the name of love and wanted everything in a right way but it wasn't possible..... Whatever the circumstances are there but it just shows Geet and maan relationship and future is like impossible.... but love is just having faith in your love and do everything to be together.... But after all its a show....so it has to have a happy ending somehow....and i would love to see that... because in real life its not possible....and most love stories end like mine.... but one thing for sure.... He was my first love and will be the last one too.... I still love him and will always do... I am trying to live happily with all the memories I have....they are really really precious to me.... I hope in our next birth,there are no such man made hurdles like religion and rest 6 of my births....I get him as my life partner... he used to say to me according to his religion...He wishes We would meet in the Jannat after dying... coz here we have to hurt a lot of our loved ones to be together and we cant do that.... I have cut all contact with him now anyways,so that atleast he can move on in life....I know i cant but i want him to....He tried a lot to contact me... but i didnt let him succeed... A few days back i got real;ly weak again and called him but i just cried over the phone and hung up...But all that 2minutes I could feel he is in a similar condition even after 5 months of break up...and he hasn't moved on yet....but I have to be strong for him....so after that I didnt talk to him....he tried even meeting me....but i didn't.... It was just a weak moment coz in the long run....its better for both of us to stay away from each other....I want him to settle down in life....n live happily....a normal life.....
Iss Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon
