I have come a long way...I have sailed a sea of troubles...but my pain has not receded...it has only grown in proportions.
I wake every day to a new hope that today will be different, that today will be my day, that today I can smile and be serene.
But my pain knows no end, my life gains no succor, there is only endless disdain.
I have no one on my side, no support, not one person who will look into my heart and see that I have nothing to gain but the deepest of open wounds.
I thought in you, Maan, I could find some compassion. You have been kind to me so often in the past...but today, you allowed them to destroy me.
My spirit is broken, my heart is weeping...why can't you see that I am innocent, and like a dried up leaf (sookhe patte ki tarah)...I am flying around all alone...my river of pain is overflowing...the oceans are not receding...another wave hits and shatters me...uproots me...
Resilient
I will fight it out
I am strong
I can win
They can't put me down
No insult is a big insult
My enemies will see me
Emerge out of the embers
Like a phoenix I will rise
And shatter their illusions
They shall know what true grit is
What true determination is
What woman is
What a real woman is
She is the shakthi when she is trampled
Even demons like Mahishasura and Ravana had been destroyed
what are mere mortals?
I shall shine
My light shall shine bright
and blind them
I shall reign
Reign supreme again
Pristine and fine
Respect & Trust
I respect you, regard you, revere you. Through the toughest of times you have been my guide, companion, friend, savior. You never stood by and let me face it all alone, you always stood by me. You gave me courage and strength to fight the toughest of battles.
Why now did you turn away from me? But I know that at the core of your heart you could never turn away from me. That my pain is yours and that if I am hurting you are hurting too. What gives me this belief?
It is you, your mere presence, your every look and the thoughts that reflect in your eyes. Though you yell at me, your eyes speak a different language. They convey so much softness and benediction. They are like pools of love in which I drown. When you look at me...all the world seems to vanish for me, all my troubles seem to be gone from me.
I know that I will always belong to you though unwittingly I might want to believe in some myth that I am apart from you. I know that I only feel complete with you though I barely acknowledge it.
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