he'd picked her up in his arms....
& to him she felt as light as a feather....
all they did was stare at each other...
grim..while yudi & shalini danced at ease...
ziya standing on yudi's toes...
laughing...
they'd clicked instantly....
Mausam mausam tha suhaana bada ....
Mausam mausam maine dekha usse .....
Hua main paagal bas pal bhar mein, ....
Aake basi hai voh mere mann mein ....
Uski kami hai ab jeevan mein ...
Voh door hai meri nazron se ....
Kyoon usse main chaahoon ....
Oh, sach keh raha hai deewana dil ....
Dil na kisi se lagaana ....
Jhoothe hai yaar ke vaade saare ...
Jhoothi hai pyaar ki kasmein ...
Maine har lamha jisse chaaha, jisse pooja ...
Ussi ne yaaron mera dil ...
Toda toda, tanha tanha chhoda ...
"mat karo yeh sab raj..
tamaasha.."
"tamaasha!...dance hi to hai...
tamasha to tumne mera bana diya nia...
it's hard to believe everything was a farce...
all promises..all our dreams...
fake...sab jhooth tha..."
she shut up...
Sundar sundar voh haseena badi ...
Sundar sundar main to khone laga ...
Uske nashe mein bin piye baheka, aah ...
Ek din usse bhoola doonga main ....
Uske nishaan mita doonga main .....
Chaahoonga na main us patthar ko ....
Jaa usse bata de ....
"nishaan mita doonga....bhula doonga...
itna aasaan hota to baat hi kya thi.."
he hated every word of the song...
"bas ek baat sach hai...
patthar ho tum naina...
you've got a heart of stone..."
his words were like arrows..
piercing through her heart...
she was sure dat he despised her...
"put me down..."
OUT!!...
someone screamed...
yudi had stepped out of the paper,..
"congrats guys!!.."
lots of them yelled in the hall...
naina and raj had won....
yet they had lost.....
.................................
he was walkin away from her....
angry..frustrated..broken...
wen B.C. stopped him...
"aah..main nahi jaanta tha ki aapki aur meri
niece mein is hadh tak dosti ho gayi hai...
i knew you guys were friends but...."
he referred to the dance..&
their evident closeness...
he had no clue that the time
he'd chosen was pathetic!
"kya tum..captain...do you love her..?"
"koi aur kaam hai sir??"
B.C. stared surprised at the rudeness
dat flowed from his voice...
"well..actually yes...
We've recieved some encoded messages from the
ministry..
aur kyon ki case tum sambhaal rahe ho..
you're required to decode them..
prepare a blueprint...
& ..."
"u'll get it soon sir...
please excuse me..."
he walked off leaving his superior stunned....
"ah..uncle..uska mood kuch theek nahi hai..."
navin who'd heard the exchange explained...
..........................................
the night had been a disaster for our couple....
naina wondered whether dis had been the
worst b'day of our life!!
by the time the party cleared almost everyone
was aware dat naina was leavin for london...
& expressed their disappointment to her...
adding to her misery...
.............................................
at home:
"teri job ke saath koi panga nahi tha sis...
then why're u leavin?"
they all sat in the living room...
raj distressed..
forced to attend this conversation...
"kyon ki mera promotion hua hai...."
her voice was flat...
"but don't u love him??"
she remained silent...
"main jaa raha hoon..."
raj got up....
"keep sitting!"..navin added ..sternly..
"babes..listen to me...very carefully"
aalekh knew it was time to talk ...
"ek time tha...jab humaare beech bhi kuch tha...
but our careers came in between.
main india training ke liye aa gaya...
& u..u went to study furthur....
dat was a right decision at the right time!
we were probably drifting apart anyway...
par aaj...raj ke saath jo tum kar rahi ho..
dat's wrong....you've already made a mark
in your field..
ab thode sacrifices kar sakti ho...
don't leave him..
you've got no idea how much he loves you!"
"aalekh...shut-up!"
she screamed and ran off to her room...
tehzeeb followed..
"main samjhaati hoon usse..."
.........................................
"we need to talk naina"
"no we don't"
her face was tear-strained..
"yes we do....
main jaanti hoon kya baat hai..
i know...."
"you wat??"
naina stood up...
horror filling her eyes.....
they talked for a while....
naina's cries became more pronounced...
"oh my god!"
she exclaimed...
"par..kisi ko pata hai?"
tazz shook her head...
...
..
....
...
after about an hour naina
finished talking...
"ab tum bataao mujhe ...
main kya galat kar rahi hoon...???
his life is most important to me tehzeeb...
i'd rather stay away from
him..than see him die....
shaayad meri kismat mein hi yeh hai...
i never wanted to attach myself with him..
par..par mujhe kab pyaar ho gaya..
pata hi nahi chala...."
she trembled badly..& tehzeeb took her in her arms...
"shhhh...."
"i'll run away....."
naina had a distant look in her eyes...
"sabko lagta hai main usse dhoka de rahi hoon...
par mere dil par kya beet rahi hai..woh....
koi nahi jaanta...koi nahi.."
.................................................
meanwhile aalekh had handed a glass of water to
raj..who didn't bother drinking a sip...
he felt as if his lifeline was on hold...
everthing depended on wat was goin on in dat room...
Now Girl ....
I remember everything that you claimed ...
You said that you were moving on now...
Maybe I should do the same...
The funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name ....
Thought it was me and you baby...
And now, it's all just a shame ...
That I guess I was wrong ...
they came out...
& tehzeeb's face said it all....
"raj..naina ko london jaane do...
she has to leave...."
tehzeeb was holding her hand...
he shut his eyes tightly.....
clutching the glass he held in his hand...
Don't wanna think about it
Don't wanna talk about it...
I'm just so sick about it ...
I can't believe it's ending this way ..
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it....
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fate ...
Is the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye? ...
the glass shattered into million pieces...
many entering his flesh...
his hand bleeding...
but he didn't wince even once....
a screamed escaped naina's lips..
& she ran forward..
taking his hand into his....
fresh tears falling down....
he pushed her away...
got up...
his eyes shouting the fact...
dat this hurt..
dis anguish was nothing compared to wat she'd
done to him...
he left...................
........................................................
she hadn't expected to see him the following morning...
but to her surprise he was present...
not only dat...
he took her suitcases & loaded them into the car...
remaining mute throughout....
she didn't want him to come to see her off at the airport...
but he meant to accompany her....
no one said a word to him..
wen navin tried..tehzeeb pulled him back...
"karne do usse jo chahta hai...
he has to get a grip on himself...."
they had all decided to bid their final good bye's
to her at the airport...& sat down in d car....
the radio played...
Pyaar hai ya saja, aai mere dil bata...
tootata kyon nahi dard ka silsila...
is pyaar mein hon kaise kaise imntihaan...
ye pyaar likhe kaisi kaisi dastaan....
ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar...
dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar...
naina sat next to him as he drove..
since dat was the only seat left in d car...
it was clear dat this was his way to avenge her...
she pressed the stop button...
but raj put it on again...
she noticed the severe scars on his hands..
& winced...
no bandage...no medicine..nothing...
she knew they still hurt him
kaisa hai safar wafa ki manjil ka...
na hai koi hal dilon ki mushkil ka..
dhadkan dhadkan bikhri ranjishein...
saansein saansein tooti bandishein....
kahi to har lamha honton pe fariyaad hai...
kisi ki duniya chaahat mein barbaad hai..
koi na sune sisakati aanhon ko....
koi na dhare tadapati baahon ko...
aadhi aadhi puri khwaishein....
tooti footi sab farmaaishein....
kahin shak hain kahin nafrat ki deewaar hai....
kahin jeet mein bhi shamil palpal haar hain....
ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar...
dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar...
.........................................
they'd all waved her a long bye
while raj just stared..
dead ..lifeless..watching her stepping out
of his life...his dreams...his ....
it was as if his soul was being pulled apart..
torn into halves....
naina glanced back at him just once..
unable to meet his eye again...
for she was terrified of wat those deep...
beautiful eyes reflected.....
she promised secretly...
Main kahin bhi rahoon ae sanam...
Mujhko hai zindagi ki kasam...
Faaslein aate jaate rahe..
Pyaar lekin nahin hoga kam.....
raj almost fell down...
but navin & aalekh rushed to support him.....
her flight left for london......
and dat was the end........................................
"hello ma..navin bol raha hoon...
naina theek se pahunch gayi???"
"haan beta...bas...thodi der hi hui hai...
le baat kar...."
"nahi...nahi...rehne do..
main thoda busy ho...bye ma.."
he slammed the phone down....
"kya hua..baat kyon nahi ki nia se??"
aalekh asked navin..
"mann nahi tha...."
"nanoo!..she's your sister ...
kab tak naaraz rahoge naina se??"
tehzeeb felt angry....
"dekh tehzeeb...filhaal to
mera dimaag gusse se phool raha hai..
raj ke saath jo us ne...."
"raj..raj..raj!!!...
nia paagal hai kya navin???
koi to problem rahi hogi na...
stop blaming her...."
she almost shouted..
defending her sister-in-law...
"tum dono ki kya baat hui thi??"
"har cheez tumhe bataaon
yeh zaroori nahin hai navin..."
she went away...
........................................
aaj sab ke liye ek naya din hai...
ek naya savera...ek naya ujaala....
par meri zindagi mein sirf andhera hai...
sirf andhera......
he didn't remember wen was the last time he'd been so drunk...
staggering on the road...lonely....
then it struck him that he'd
never been so miserable before..
so depressed...like a lonely leaf....
flying from one place to
another with no meaning in life...
aimless...without any destination...
without any goal...without any love.......
his life was needlessly going on...
he touched the bruise on his cheek..
he'd got into a fight with
some local guys at the bar for a very trivial reason....
he relished the pain...
he was aware of the fact that
army men were supposed to be stronger...
more composed...
they weren't the ones who lost in life..
but the ones who won...
he smiled.....
is dard ka bhi apna ek mazaa hai..
yeh bhi to ek junoon hai....
Maine dil se kaha, dhoond laana khushi...
Nasamajh laya gum, to yeh gum hi sahi....
..
Bechaara kahan jaanta tha...
Khalish hai yeh kya khala hai....
Shehar bhar ki khushi se...
Yeh dard mera bhala hai....
Kabhi hai ishq ka ujaala...
Kabhi hai maut ka andhera...
Bataao kaun bes hoga...
Main jogi banu ya lutera....
Kayi chehre hai is dil ke...
Najaane kaunsa mera...
Hazaaron aaise phaasle the...
Jo Tai karne chale the....
raahe magar chal padi thi...
Aur peeche hum rah gaye the...
Maine dil se kaha, dhoond laana khushi
Nasamajh laya gum, to yeh gum hi sahi...
...............................................
"ek hafta hone jaa raha hai tehzeeb...
aise to yeh khud ko ..."
navin was tensed about his friend.....
"hmmmmm...he's ruining everything...."
tehzeeb answered,...
wondering naina kaisi hogi...
much worse.....
"it's worse dan dat yaar!!
he's skipping his meals...
aadhi-aadhi raat ko ghar aata hai...
abhi tak usne woh blueprint ready nahi kiya...
i mean..God damn!..he's the best soldier we had...
aise apne mission se deviate hona.
.&..&
i've never seen him drinking so much...."
tehzeeb was worried...
aalekh suggested something then...
"ek kaam karte hain...
lets .....hook him to another girl..."
he hadn't realised wen raj
had stepped in the living room..
drunk..
but still able enough to make
head & tail out of the conversation...
"thanx aalekh!..
bahut hi accha idea hai...
waise bhi..ek ne to maar hi diya hai..
ab doosri dhoka degi bhi to farak nahi padega...
aakhir dene ke liye dil to bacha
hi nahi hai mere paas..koi kya bigaad lega..!"
aalekh felt himself going pink with
embarassment...
"mera..woh matlab..."
he waved him a bye..
& went upstairs humming...
rehne do chodo bhi jaane do yaar..
hum na karenge pyaar.....
........................................
yet another uneventful week passed...
with more or less similiar situations reoccuring....
"navin...main chalti hoon phir...
i'll see you soon hopefully..."
tehzeeb kissed him a good-bye....
she was going back to kashmir
to fulfill her last modelling assignment...
since she was under a contract
she couldn't step back...
but they'd decided that she'd
leave her job after marriage...
& maybe find another one in delhi....
"2 months..isse ek din zyaada nahi haan...
i can't stay widout u..."
navin bade her a goodbye at the airport..
"neither can i...raj ka dhyaan rakhna..
i'll stay in touch with naina too.bye..."
& she flew to kashmir.....
............................................
after a couple of days...
wen raj's condition seemed slightly better off to navin...
he realised his thinking was wrong....!
"raj...raj!!"
aalekh was banging on the
bathroom door,....
"2 ghante se andar hain..
kahin kuch..."
"don't worry..
itna weak nahi hai ki khud ko kuch kar le...
itna bharosa to hai mujhe us par..."
navin said all this in a raised voice..
so that raj heard every word....
he was fine indeed...
just lost...
his arms on the wall...
he stood under the shower...
letting the icy-cold water pierce his body
like needles in this chilly weather....
forcing all the hurt to disappear...
to vanish...
trying to reach out to life again..
he felt it was time he began healing his wounds....
both physical & mental....
it was time...to serve his nation again..
time to drown himself in work....
Chahe jitne bhi aanson bahe...
Saaasein Seene mein chubhti rahe..
Muskura kar har gum sahe...
Dil se ho kam kabhi...
Na yeh dard tera...
Phool jaisa lage har zakham tera....
the knocking on the door was persistent now...
he knew they were calling him ....
calling him back to life...
back to that harsh world....
but he was ready...
all he hoped..
was never to see her again in his life....
never again....!
before they broke the door open..
raj had stepped out...
and the friends hug him tightly...
relieved to see him back....
"navin...blueprint ready karna hai...
chalein..."
navin's face broke into a smile...
"chal raj...chal....it's high time anyway dost!...
high time!"
....................................
"navin..aalekh!!"
raj shouted...
"jaldi aao!"
they came to the living room...
"wat?"
"ministry ne jo encoded
message handover kiya tha..
maine decryption system
se usse break kar liya..."
"that's great...wat does it say??"
....................................
"oh my God!!..
goodwork captain shekhawat"
B.C congratulated him...
"par sir...ab aage kya plans hain...?"
"ministry hi bata sakti hai...
by the way..does the message talk about ki
defence minister aur prime minister ko
kis cheez ka khatra hai??..
i mean the type of attack..."
"unfortunately no sir....
it's just a chat transcript that
our team at kashmir intercepted via
their network...
sirf itna likha hai ki 4 and a half months
mein hone waali peace talks
par jo delegation jaa rahi hai..
unki jaan ko khatra hai......"
"hmmmm...i'll inform u about the proceedings..
dismissed..."
....................................
the rest of the half month passed
in anxiety for all of them in the army....
under this project..
raj slogged day & night on it....
often working late nights...
"so jaa raj...3 baj rahe hai.."
navin yawned....peeping through his door..
he'd gotten up to drink water &
had been astounded to see raj still up..
"hmmmmmm..."
"do u work so late at night ...everyday...?"
"hmmmmmm..."
"back to your workaholic ways ..huh??"
he remembered d day naina had met him
& changed his outlook a bit...
atleast he'd calmed down a bit...par aaj..
phir wahi raj se mera saamna ho raha hai...
a raj with no fun..no life...
he sighed....
"u still miss her don't you??"
this was the first time dat raj looked up...
"who???????"
he asked sarcastic....
navin knew better dan to
answer dat question & left...
leaving raj lose himself in
his pain yet again...
Bheed mein bhi hum tanha rahe...
Tere gum ne yeh halat kar di...
Kabhi khud ke liye kuch soch sake..
Itne bhi nai fursat di...
Teri yaadon mein har pal kate...
Khud se Teri hi baatein karein...
Dil ek gaou sa banjar rahe...
Humko manjoor hai har sitam tera...
Berukhi bhi teri bewafapan tera...
Jam kushiyon ka peena nahi....
Ke bin tere jeena nahi....
Aankhon ke talash jo hai...
Woh hai tera chehra...
Dhadkan dil ke paas to hai...
Lekin hai bewajah...
Mein hoon shak se abb koi...
Patta Tuta hua..
Mujhko yeh hawaein bulaati..
Re har jagah...
............................
" captain...since we're the academy at the centre...
the ministry has assigned the security of the
delegation to us...
4 months hence...5 of you...
captains...amardeep huda..abhimanyu..
aalekh..navin..& yourself...
escort the prime & the defence minister to kashmir...
you'll be heading them..."
"right sir..."
..........................
tough preparations...
mock drills...
strategies...
conversation..& a lot of armament practice
yet again....took place...
& the group was finally ready.....
all set...for a battle against terrorism...
against their nation....
...........................
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