IPKKND:SS: A New Hope ~~Chp 18 Uptd on pg 35 - Page 15

I returned to India, it had abt 20 months since I had seen my family, so when I return to India, I went to Hostel In Lucknow, left mything there and came to delhi to look for amma bauji, I rented a small room near Laxmi nagar & for a few days went to laxmi nagar to catch a glimpse of them. I did see them a few times, but a lot of times amma looked sad, it hurt me but aleast they were well fed and financially secure, I was happy.

In one of those visit I met bedi ji, actually i had been observing them from the corner & rain started pouring & I slipped due to mud, bedi ji/happiji had been closing his garage at the moment and he saw me, & i moved but he followed me & then I had no option but to confront him, he told me abt everyone at home, how bauji had started recovering & how amma had cried for days for me & he told me to return home to them, what else could I want , ye I assured time wasnt right, he said he doesnt know the whole story but part of it was related to you & I cleared his doubts & told him all was well among us & soon i will visit amma bauji with you when the time was right, he has a kind soul, they didnt question me further just blessed me &moved, I realised I couldnt stay in delhi anymore so that night I left for Lucknow agn, I met Shukla ji agn and I realised he had indeed managed my work well & after working few days with him on financials and I knew I couldnt join or take the business from him, I guess my horizons has broadened being in Paris

I started working from Hostel with textiles & manufacturing, with my credentials a lot of ppl were willing to gv me a try, I hadnt still decided abt Aditi & Anirudh's offer. things were falling in place & I was enjoying lucknow, for once I felt at peace within me. I loved the look which I had to look at things so after working for abt 2 months I decided to think abt Anirudh's offer, & on a personal level I felt like taking up a challenge only hinge was for that I needed to travel to Delhi, but once agn my heart vouched to me saying that I wasnt a quitter.

So after a Lot of thought I decided to take the offer. Once I joined It was hectic, learning, working, meandering thru schedules, but my paris stint helped me, Anirudh had hired a assistant for me for 6 months I worked non-stop and hadnt stopped for a breather, At the end of 6 months, Anirudh looked at figures & statistics & he was impressed, infact I too had been awed, we had grown by 200% in revenue & doubled our output, that night when I reached my apartment, I was happy & I was thrilled, but I was restless too I had nobody to share my success with.

Automatically somewhere in midnight my feet, my mind took me to Laxmi nagar & this time I couldnt stop myself from Knocking the door, for moments it didnt open I turned to return bk & amma opened the door, eyes full of sleep yet her face was a bliss when her vision recognised me, she ran & hugged me, tears flowing, now I realised she had lost a lot of wt, she was jus relieved to hv me back, she pulled me in babuji was awake too, tears running on his face. then I realised buaji was there too crying in corner, A big bear hug was the need of the hr & we all sat & chatted for hrs that night, no one slept, my morning we all felt drained yet at peace & thats when I realised what had I done, if they knew soon everyone at RM will know it too, so than I extracted a promise from everyone not to tell anyone not evn jiji & jijaji, I told them if they wont agree I will disappear agn, they had no option but to relent. for the first time since I joined Anirudh, I had taken a leave, & he freaked but Aditi handled it and things went well after that but I kept visiting them regularly for a few months, I came to know abt jiji pregancy's I was estactic.

Me, Amma & buaji did a lot of shopping, for the first time in life, I had enough money to spend on my loved ones, take care of the, I took them to places, malls etc & we all had a ball, for the first time I understood, what it meant caring for the family your way. and then things started to be perfect for me. I was enjoing my loved ones, my sucess and my chirpy self again, success had revived the old khushi back, who used to laugh, then earlier this year, I had travelled to US to work on some workshops with Anirudh, aditi was happy to hv me there with them, she said to me one day, looks like you are happy but the shawdows in your eyes havent left you, I jus told her its just your imagination, yes its a fact that I have been throught a tough time in last couple of years, yet I am happy now, at ease with myself, this time Anirudh spoke yes you are happy no doubt it Khushi, but you are not at peace, something haunts you.

I was surprised because in all my association to Aditi & Anirudh, he had never done that, may be reacting to my reaction he said again, khushi you have been our frnd & yet I had never spoken to you abt this because somewhere I still felt its your life & your decision, being a man I had to respect some boundaries, but since we hv started working together, I hv been amazed at your dedication and now I feel more like a brother to you than a frnd, and hence the suggestion, I will tell you khushi, whatever it is deal with it, leaving something uncomplete never lets you to be at peace. I heard him & silently thanked him, but said to him, will think abt it Anirudh, and left it there, my meetings at US & workshops & everything resulted in a export order from Wal mart.

It was a dream coming true for Anirudh, it was his most amibitious project till date. When I returned it was great for the company, but my responsibilities had grown, but work was a goal for me now, where sucess bought in a lot of personal satisfaction, it 3 months, we delivered our first batch of order & it was one of the most sucessful & appriacted offers, during my visit to US me and Anirudh had decided to form KASR inc, where he & I were partners, & this was primarily taking care of Walmart deal. I m heading the KASR now you know it. NO one knows the full form of KASR but its KHUSHI ARNAV SING RAIZADA. I havent told this to anyone, not even Aditi & Anirudh, they hv always supported me but they hv never questioned me where they thought I was volunteering myself, this trust from them is what I appreciate from them, no amount of money, luxury & sucess replace this respect which they offered unconditionally to me. further working on these orders & supports, I one day got a mail from Anirudh, that walmart & had recommended AR group of industries, they had been in a tie up with AR for years now yet, would like more stuff from them & if we could source, me acting as a local agent for Walmart.

At first I was shocked to hear AR, it had taken me years to build my life without you, & now fate had agn conspired against me bring AR to me, I had taken days to respond back to anirudh,, which wasnt the ordinary case but he got the sense to avoid it for a few days & then he questioned me at first I didnt know hoe to answer him, this was one of the most prestigious orders for us, finanically & socially a lot of our stakes depend on this yet to work with AR would bring me to a personal standstill, I couldnt imagine facing you agn & I didnt know how to handle the situation, I had started pacing my office the whole day, my channas would not able to help me & my jalebi making spree too, even holding my mangal sutra had not helped me. whenever I was in a big stressful situation I would hold the mangal sutra I felt your presence by my side & would sooth me, it was a habit I had picked in paris, yet evrything failed, it had been 2 weeks and I still hadnt found my answers. Anirudh was at his wits end now, but Aditi was holding him.

During that stress one night I had been returning home from work, I was at gurgoan highway returning to my condo, it wasnt very late abt 8 ish in night, I stopped at red light, & My eyes spotted ayoung beautiful couple standing there to cross the road, it felt they had come out from the mall & were waiting to cross over the parking to the other side & sudenly the husband told the wife to wait till he gets the car, they were beautifully lost in each other, the girl agreed & he went to get the car, he got the car & joined the traffic, he signalled his wife to wait till he reach her, yet as most of us restless to get to our loved one, she also was & didnt heed to his advice, the moment she spotted her husband, she ran over ti him, and a speeding car had run over her, I dunt know whose fault it was the gals or driver I dunt but for me it shattered a beautiful dream, she had been recently married beautiful chuda had adorned her wrists & eyes had a twinkling shyness. I was stunned beyond words, it left me drained tears were running down my eyes & in that one moment I realised what love meant, It meant a commitment & a promise, an oath & an vow to each other, how could fate hv been so cruel to them. for me that night had bought back all the agony which I had felt during your low sugar attack, for which I had been partially responsible, it bought me to a point where I knew I had always assumed you had recovered & well moved on your life & I with mine, yet if something like that would happen to you, where would I be.