IPKKND:SS: A New Hope ~~Chp 18 Uptd on pg 35 - Page 11

That night when I left the hospital, I didnt knew where to go bcz had I returned to bauji's place they would have questioned and after knowing the truth & they would hv been hurt & nervous, so iIjust kept moving where my feet took me with tears running down, I had noidea abt where I was moving and than I realised I was at Purani delhi railway station & it was 12am in the night. some goons tried to misbehave with me but I didnt not react & the station master saw this & he helped me, and gv me a glass of water and some how got me near a bench & he told me sit there till he got some first aid, I was feeling dazed so I nvr moved & he dressed my wounds & somehow arranged some food for me, he tried to talk to me but I couldnt come back with any replies, finally after some time he left, for 2 days I was siting there like a statue & just gazing, no food no water, no movement jus gazing that big zero. than that station master came back n he said I dunt know what has happened with you but something drastic must hv happened, I can make that by watching you, you are young and if you decide you can do anything with your life, no strom can damage a port if you hv the faith to rebuild it, with that he gv me a address to working womens hostel in lucknow and some money, & said my wife was a warden in that place some years back but she has called her collegue there and if you go there you can get accomodation and left.

for a few more hrs I sat there but my mind had been woken, I kept thinking abt what gentlman had told me & thinking that may be devi maiya had guided me once again I decided to go there but I had no money to reach to lucknow as iI had left empty handed no money no luggage nothing.

but than I was determined to pick the broken pieces my life & rebuild so for next 2 days I did all the work I could get and after that I had enough money to buy some groceries & with the help of local vendor I made my special jalebi's & pakoda and instantly all the merchandise got over In that 1 day I made 8 different orders and all got over and I had my first 5000 rs in my hand after 3 days of work, I bought the ticket to lucknow and reached to that hostel. the ppl there were very friendly and they welcomed me with open arms& yet the pain which I had been carrying in my heart was too big a load to share with anyone. for next couple of days, I was like a zombie who nvr reacted to anything, didnt eat or do anything just kept staring & that was the same place where u found me. the moment I saw you I had felt disgust for you but your concern for Di melted my heart bcz no matter how much wrong you had done with me you were doing the right things for your di so I decided not to waste your sacrifices for your di and returned.

The Days I spent here had not bought any answers for me, the whole day I dedicated my self to di & family but at night memeories haunted me and each nite I sobbed to sleep. I would sob & cry for hrs until my body got tired, the pain at seeing everybody was numbing me and it created shooting spears into my existence everytime I saw you.

and then I shut evrything focusing only di & kids everytime I took those kids in my arms, they reminded me of my crashed dreams. each nite when I would smell the babies in my arms silent tears ran down my eyes but I couldnt let all those things effect me for I knew my whole existence had been question marked and with slow agonising passing, the days passed & than the the day came when I left. That day I felt like going throught a 100 tanks of bombardment yet I couldnt stay back & than you came back & you said those words for which I could gvn you anything had they came in normal circumstances. yet they didnt and when they came they bought agony for me. and than again I left, I again contacted the same working women hostel & got the room again, in the time I had been at RM I had some finances, bcz even though you never had bothered with me, yet you had given the freedom to express my self and I had worked with my dabba services. for some days at the hostel I just lived in my room with question haunting me. the most were abt us how had we failed each other????? but than one doesnt survive with question u need to work to earn & survive after abt 6 weeks my mind started working in parts and I knew even though we werent together my responsibilities still were with me, I needed money to survive amma babuji, his medicine n etc all started gawning towards me and than I got in touch with shukla ji and asked if there was any chance of him knowing some one in lucknow who could hire me as a cook or helper. intially he didnt hv a answer to my query but he said he will get back to me. in those days the cook at the hostel fell sick & the 3rd night when they couldnt provide food for the ppl, I just entered the kitchen and made the food and everyone was impressed and than it was like a few ppl came and gave there personal wishes. and than everytime I came out my room or corridor some one or the other praised me, & than one day the warden at hostel called me , she inquired abt my availability and schedule etc. and than she said she had a proposal for me, if i would be interested that is the cook at the hostel was going on a sick leave for abt 2 months as she needed surgery and if I could take her responisibilities, this way we both were to gain sumthing.

I agreed and for those 2 months I was bzy and really bzy, arranging food for 10-20 ppl had I all done but in those day I arranged food for 200 ppl, the hostel had provided me with 2 helpers yet when morning came & when it turned to evning I nvr knew I didnt realise but each day I found a hundred happy faces and thats all what gv me the courage to cruise through those days and most ppl when they went to work praised my food & the quality at work. After 2 months got over I had abt 50000 rs in my hand and a lot of praises, a part of this money I sent to amma bauji as a DD without informing them who sent it to them

and with rest I wanted to start something, around this time when I came to realise that evrytime I left hostel someone kept following and than one day I just questioned the guy, he couldnt reply me but you know by now that if I wana find sumthing I do it and than I kept gving him problem, one day poor guy gv in and let me talk to Mr Mehrotra, though he didnt divulge any details abt you but for me it wasnt difficult to understand who was doing that, & than I told Mr Mehrotra, Sir do you know my story & the client who has hired you, he was very decent abt it and I told him you must hv read abt us in the newspaper& at the same your ethics do not allow you to divulge that name, I respect that & thats why I am requesting you that you can do your job the best you can do but at day time, at night what I do should not be reported to him, and if you do not agree to me, I will disappear & than you bear the consequences, (bcz living with you had given me idea how you worked, I knew you must be paying Mr Mehrotra a huge amount for his services may be more than the normal mkt prices yet there must be some contract somewhere it must state that if you fail you have a penalty to pay. ) + also as a human being I need my privacy, I dunt know what convinced him the sincerity in my voice or the threat any ways he agreed ( Please dunt fire him now) he is a decent man.
& than bcz of stint at the hostel, one day a lady called me on my cell, she said she had heard abt me from her collegue and she had a small party abt 50 ppl for her daughters bday, & if I could arrange the food for the party. She called me for the trail the next.

This lady was a professor at the Lucknow Vocational College. the next day she was very impressed with the samples and she has 2 small children & you have and idea by now how well i get along with kids, so after I gv her samples and made a desert for the kids. the kids and the adults enjoyed it to much. and she gv me the order and everyone at her party enjoyed the food. Soon I started getting similar orders and each occasion went very nicely and 6 months passed, I had started to accept my situation and kept moving with no idea abt future each day came & went. Almost after 4 months the bday party, I met that lady professor again at another such occassion and she started with my well being and she just wanted to know how I started and abt my family, In those I dint like ppl who wanted to know abt me. I just wanted to be left alone and enjoy my work but she didn't mind my brushing her off. then she said I do know what your story is & what life has gvn you to deal with but I see a great Potential in you, you could reach the sky if you want & she said you hv my tel no think abt it and if you ever decide abt taking my advice you can call me and she left.

her words left me dumb folded and then I just let it go. With my work i rarely got time but each nite when I went to sleep her words came back. and with time I kind off forgot them and than one day I was coming back from my work I felt that something was not right with the recent money I had collected after delivering the order, after reaching my room at the hostel I recounted the money it was abt the 50% of the decided amount, I was shocked and I called the client again, they brushed me aside bcoz they thought i was not that educated and couldn't not do anything abt. I felt so cheated & these ppl had been repeating abt the Aukat like you did.

And that night all my pain returned, I didn't know how to survive again & that was when I decide to do sumthing more abt my life.

And than I met that professor again & told her to share her thoughts abt what she had in her mind, she said Khushi I see a lot of potential in you but I do not know whether you are aware abt it or know, if you think you can manage to study and I would like you to visit our college and see if you can get something which will take you ahead in life. She gv me the #(no) for the counselor and told me to meet them at my convenience, for reference I could use her name, that evening I thanked her and decide to think abt her advice. In a week's time I was at the counselor office but very nervous and wasn't sure what was happening, yet somewhere in my heart I knew nothing could go worse that it was already, The counselor was a experienced lady who took me in very pleasantly asked me abt my background which I was hesitant to give at first but when he explained the need I gave her she suggested 2 courses, one was related to food making & other was with the textiles, I told her I would like to enroll in bothat first She was surprised & then she asked the reason, out came the reply one for survival & other for future, she gv me the cost & other formalities to be done and told me get in touch with them in case I was interested, I had got excited abt sumthing after so many days yet it looked difficult to me but I was determined to find a way to do it. My schedulewith the orders was always erratic and to gv committed time for this was difficult. But was determined to find a way, I decided to take orders only for mornings & afternoon because all my classes were in the evening & I joined, but with my adjustment, my work got a blow bcz most ppl do parties or get together's in the evenings so I was in difficult situation and did not what to do, during those days again the smile disappeared which was noticed by friends at hostel and they tried to cheer me up as much as possible and than One day nima from my next room called she said khushi I might have a solution for your problem, she told me her boss & his wife were working & had 2 kids, they were looking for a cook cum caretaker for their kids and were ready to pay reasonably but they only wanted a female as their kids were girls, and if I was interested I could go meet them. I went there next day, Mr Verma & Mrs Verma were very nice ppl and I like them and everything was ok but they felt I was too young for this & they told me if I could gv a trail for 7 dayswhich was no problem for me but the salary they offered was not sufficient for me anyways I told him from the next week I was available for trail.

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~~~~ Chapter 9~~~~

Arnav said No Khushi Its ok. Its quite late & I would notlike you to leave the hotel at this late hour and I have my car parked outside. So she replied

Arnav ji its ok I am only going to buaji house & even my car is there.

Arnav replied I insist Khushi.

A naughty smile crept on her lips & she told him if that's the case than me too insist. She told since this is suite & we are still legally married no one can do anything so why dunt we share it you can use the bedroom and I can sleep here on the couch, Arnav knew Khushi could be stubborn at times like these and so resigned, He said Agreed khushi, so we do your way.