*~*Falling Apart...Sequel*~* 'OS' [PG 20/11 March 2015][PM 2morow] - Page 10

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awesome OS yaar...this is the most funniest OS i have read...love to see AR in these new avatars...kash serials main bhi aise hote hai...anyways yaar thanks for the updtaes u sent me...they're amazing...& sorry for the late reply...was busy preparing for exams...tc

* ~ * Falling Apart *~*

*AR OS*

I swallowed the lump formed in my throat ...it feel like I m just hanged till death...


But why??? Did I committed some crime??



"Yes" if love is a crime than I actually committed a huge crime...i loved him...i still love him...isn't a big crime?? loving someone more than yourself



I m still standing where I was 5min. Before...i tried to move but it feels like my feet are glued to the hard floor who was silently mocking at me...challenging me to go..Let go..



My vision blurred with each passing second...A single tear slipped out from the corner of my eye...whom i was trying to hold back from the last 5min...



"Why??? why me?????" my heart whimpered...pleading to the time to tell me that last 5min never came into my life,,...begging to god to make this reality some nightmare ...or just take my life right here...



i tried to breath but it felt so hard as if something or someone is choking me to death...did god heard my last wish??? i stumbled few steps backside and my back felt the wall behind me...giving me the support i asked silently...


My body slumped on the cold stairs lifelessly...and more tears ran down on my cheek...i sobbed forgetting the world and people around me ...while hugging myself ...


i tried to control myself but his last words still ringing in my ear...



"Don't Call On This Number Ever"



Is it so easy for him to move on??? M i nothing to him???? How could he do this to me??? All the promised he made were fake??? Why??? Why me??


"but see the irony of destiny i cant even blame him...curse him for making me cry like a baby...i cant coz...coz its going to hurt me only...how can i curse someone whom i love ...how can i blame him, accuse him??? when i always asked

for his happiness..."



i stared at the phone in my hand with teary eyes...hoping against the hope that may be he will call me...to tell me that he was just playing some prank...



i cried and cried until my eyes begged me to stop...



Why it looks like i just lost my life?? Every single hope crushed into million pieces but no one heard the sound of my broken heart...i never hoped for anything in life...but this time i did..i hoped Armaan would love me the way i love

him...but now he is being practical and i m here being sentimental, emotional...



The loss of losing him is bigger than any lose in life...my head throbbed with ache



i know my eyes must be swollen by now...i m looking like a complete mess...but do i care how am looking right now...???...




As soon i opened my eyes they burned like hell but this pain feels nothing in front of the sting my heart is feeling...first time ever in my life I m actually begging to god to just finish my life if he can't give me love of my life..If he can't
help me at least he can make it easy... giving someone death who have already died is not a difficult task...is it?????..



But did god ever saw my tears??? The damage i m feeling this moment?? NO...coz if he had,... he wouldn't have dared to snatch him from me...



I sat there I don't know for how long...Just hugging myself, crying silently and pleading to god knows whom to just take me away from the rest of the world...Away from the where people treat someone's heart like a toy...


after a long time, i got up wiped my tears and dragged my lifeless body to my cabin...where I have to finish my pending work...



People looked at me and started whispering making me teary again...i felt like yelling at everyone – i don't want pity...i want him only him..


I stared at the PC...and saw my own image on screen...a girl whom i lost few hours back



I m barely breathing coz the smile which use to adore my lips is gone...now i have trembling lips which i bite to stop myself from crying out loud...




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After long day i walked out of my office...only to be gritted by the silence of parking lot...



I felt hard to even stand forget walking...i feel so drained...as if someone has just sucked life out of my body...


The moment came which i was dreading to face...I tried to stop myself but my gaze went towards the area where once he had parked his car when he came to surprise me by his
sudden visit...



i stood there rooted on the spot...i know my body must be trembling badly but my gaze fixed on the spot...



I gulped but the damage was done coz i heard my own muffled cries as i tried to stop myself by putting hand on my mouth





All the moments came rushing back...

The way he had proposed me...

The way he always used to wink...

The way he use to tease me by saying "whom u going to choose – If you will have to choose b/w me and Your Karan Singh Grover..."..

The way he uses to hold my hand...

The way he use to kiss me..

The way his hard lips use to move against my soft lips making me dizzy...

The way he use to make me feel safe in his strong arms...





Tears trickled out of my eye lids...my sobbing increased with each passing moment



Why can't i just hate you??? Why my heart still begging you to come back?? Why can't i just let you go out of my life like you did?? Why Armaan?? Why you broke my heart??? Why you punished me for loving you i never forced you to love me??? Than why???





I turned and strolled myself towards the bus stop...eyes full of tears...tear stained face..Swollen eyes and wrecked heart





The more i tried, The more i realize - I m broken beyond repair...he killed my soul ...he killed my innocence which i let him see...he killed my heart..



i trusted and dared to love one person and he broke it in such way that i can never trust anyone else...i can never love someone else..Coz I'm holding on...still holding on to him



It doesn't matter whether i agree or not i know slowly-slowly i m falling apart...



with each step someone whispered in my ear...




The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart

I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

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"Hey My Lovey Dovey Readers...i don't know what crap I wrote but...here it is...felt like writing something very-very sad and it turned out like this...request don't curse Armaan ..please i beg to all of you...now waiting for ur response...i know its not best OS..but I think it came out as I wanted it do be...good or bad do give ur opinion...as it matters to me a lot...and if ur eyes got teary or you actually cried while reading please tell me...i want to know how deeply this OS touched your heart..."

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Res...

Beautiful os...loved it.
Please do write more.
Thanks for the pm, take care.

so touching! loved it so much!
beautifully written!
thnx 4 pm
Sunita

awesome os

hey, 😊

oyye jannat