Part I
Yogini is bubbly full of life she is not very beautiful but is not ugly either. She looks very beautiful when she laughs out loudly with her dimples getting deeper and her eyes speaking so much about how life rocks! She is aged 29, and her mom cries everyday wondering, 'Haiii, Meri Yogini key haath kab peeley hongey, kahin tees(30) ki hogayii to?' She thinks as if Yogini should not turn 30 so soon. She feels scared wondering how it will look if Yogini touches 30 age?.
Tees dekho kahi aajaaye naa, karo tum kuch to bhagwaan,
Hojaye isskey hath peeley, yehi to Dua aur ek hai Armaan..
Yogini on the other hand is chilled, she feels she earns handsomely, she has fantastic set of friends and she adores her family. What is so much about marriage that should make her mom feel everything is hell without it? Yogini is not saying, No to marriage. She wants to get married for sure. She loves to dream about her would be hubby. She imagines herself to pretend she is shy as he will hold her hand for the first time. Then he will say I LOVE U to her. Take her to the honeymoon at some cold hill station. She is going to dress the best at her wedding, she is going to wear that jewllery she saw in that movie? she would dress up so amazingly HOT for her first night. Yogini was very romantic at heart. She even had planned the details U see? should I say more into the details... she had decided which nightgown to wear, Which Aroma candle to keep besides her bed to feel the magic of the most beautiful moment of her life, which flowers to get her cousins to decorate her bed? She wanted everything to be beautiful?and yes she had thought about all these romantic moments and the details form the age 19 itself... as she reached 25 she had planned too many things with the detailing too. As her mom was looking for groom for her from that, age itself? it just that nothing set into place?
Woh pehli baar Sunanaa I LOVE U , aur hatho ka chuuna,
Saat phere hogaye, to Pyaar mey khudko hai Doobona?
Yogini would use the details that she imagined for her wedding, to come to use for her friends who got married. She used those ideas and made her friends to make their wedding the most special one. One by one, most of her friends got married. She was the naughty girl who made every function be it mehendi, sangeet, wedding, reception to be the spiciest and the most enjoyable with her presence, her dance, her singing and her games? Yogini enjoyed doing all this. Somewhere she did feel sad that her time had not come yet but she waited as she felt marriage is a part of life not 'THE life'when people can survive even without a part of their body. Then she was just not having a life partner, she had family, which gave her the life. She did feel left out but always faced life with a great spirit enjoying herself and always happy for others too. This is Yogini who never feels life is boring but feels life rocks!, her dad expired few years back due to Cancer; Yogini had a younger brother who was working as well.
Kya hua jo jeevan sathi ab tak nahi mila,
Dil ke sabhi Armaan ka dam nahi nikla,
Yogini didn't have high expectation about the groom for her, she said the boy even if 10th pass she is ready to marry, the only thing was he should have his own house, a well settled job or business. Now that was not asking for much. Yogini had only one slight issue with herself she had a black patch on her neck, the groom, and their families always had a doubt if that patch may increase. However, it was a birthmark and it would not, but it was not so easy to accept that for even the educated people. She even had to show proof of her childhood snaps, passports to assure them that it's a birth mark and not a disease or some skin problem. For Yogini she felt that patch on her neck was nothing to feel ashamed but she would always smile looking at it in the mirror and say, ' OH GOdji, Aapko eyesight ka problem hua tha? I know U may be having, aajkal too much population too many problems and too much stress? ankhey kitna dekhey kitna samajhey, but aapka number kuch jyada hai kya that to be able to quickly recognize me on earth u have given this mark? kuch jyada badaa mark hai.. kya coin jitna mark chalta nahi.. Why this play card size mark.. Anyways.. I think I like it, its so unique.. Is there anyone in the whole world who has it..? No na? I am ur most loved child na Godji.. So u felt u need to listen to me as if its an emergency.. Right GREAT! I take it' She would smile saying that.
Apney upar aur apney ander Atma vishwas bharliya tha,
Dukh ko bhul khushi ki talash karna yehi uska laksya tha
With age Yogini was getting mature and knew her dreams were nowhere near to be fulfilled? she decided to change her dream instead?now she dreamt what if romance is no closer in life... why not add a bigger dream? She felt she at 30 should start a new phase of her life with a Jewellery Store on her name?
Ab to bohat kuch paanaa hai Chahana hai,
Zindagi yeh nahi rukti, apna jalwa dikhana hai..
She worked as a gemologist? and she designed her name plate, her trade mark how it will be?the jewllery design which will be the most patent in her store? all this she kept under wraps.. She need to save money slowly to fulfill that dream?and she wanted to fulfill at least this dream which was totally hers and depended on purely her skill and hard work... Strange she designed jewllery? but never could wear the necklace around her neck with the black patch always taking the beauty away from her design piece?
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Part II
Yogini was waiting for her mom to come; her brother had gone outstation for work her mom had gone to the neighbours house. They stayed in the locality for almost 25 years and the neighbours were like family, almost all of them. Fights usually took place? but that was also what happens in a family.. Among them, their closest neighbours were the immediate one staying in the next flat? Yogini's mom would go for walking with their neighbour Bhawna aunty to the temple, shared recipes and went to hear Pravachan of almost most of the baba's who must have visited the area. Their neighbour Bhawna Aunty was not keeping well due to Diabetes, Yogini would enjoy her time with Bhawana aunty, Aunty would always praise Yogini and would feel wish she too had a daughter like her. Yogini's mom today sat till 10:30 there and Yogini was feeling very hungry. She knew these two women can forget about time when sit discussing their family problems and give each other a shoulder to cry. At last Yogini's mom came and she was very happy.. Yogini could sense that form her face? she knew these two r more like sister sharing their problems.. And enjoying recollecting the old times...
Ek building mey rehtey sab kaisey ek parivaar banjatey hain,
Choti Choti baaatein khushiyan,aur kaee rishtein bandh jatey hain..
While they sat to have dinner, Yogini's mom, Kamti tried to start a conversation but always stopped herself from saying?Yogini had observed that.. but she was too hungry so she left that and had her dinner. As the dinner was finished? she asked her mom, to ask her fast? whatever she has planned up with Bhawna aunty..or else she will go to sleep and then not to start waking her up and saying.. ' Yeh ladkey ka rishta ayaa hai.. Sun?naa..' Kamti smiled knowing Yogini is very fast at coming to the point and not like her hesitating.. 'Bhawna aunty ne ek baat kahi aaj , and am very happy with it.. Haan kardena beta?' Yogini looked at her and knew she is starting all over and with anger rightly getting to her peak she said ' Mamma? Don't tell me u again sat their discussing Bhawna aunty's Son 'Meet'?' Kamti started to defend herself saying, 'Nahi, jisdin tuney kaha NO, maine kabhi nahi poocha naa hi baat chedi.. aaj Bhawna bohat udaas thi? she only felt U and Meet will be a good pair.. tumdono ki jodi kitni acchi hai.. u both know each other well.. dekh itna padha likha hai woh.. Usney apni Maa ko kehdiya hai? Shaddi karne keliye woh tayaar hai..lekin jo bhi ladki ho Ussey uskey baarey mey sab kuch woh bata dega.. Tu to pehley se hi jaanti hai.. Bhawna pataa kitni khush thi.. U will become her daughter in-law.. We were discussing how much close we all will be.. With u near in front of my eyes.. I tell U. this is best? am so happy she asked herself.. Surely 'Meet' Naa nahi karega.. '
Kitna achaa ladka hai,Kitna achha dikhta hai,
Saath uskey Tu bandhjayegi, Zindagi teri savar jayegi.
Yogini looked immense angry.. and she shot back, ' Stop right there.. no ..I say NO?. I don't want to marry him? with his past? Yes.. with his past.. 'She walked behind in her room and her mom started yelling and crying? ' Kya buraaeee hai.. achaa ladka hai, sansakari hai, dikhta to hero hai, tujhsey dugna kamata hai?. Badoo ko kitna adar karta hai? ghar uskey naam par hai, job mey to woh tariikki pe tarakki kar raha hai? Umra se tere 4 saal badaa hai.. Bahcpan se dono ek dusrey ke sath kehle, badey hue.. acchey se jaantey hain? Kyun Naa karti hai?Main teri dushman hun jo keh rahi hun, Nahi kar?. Mere seeney pe beth key lateey maar? hai meri phooti kismet? 30 ki hogayii to main kya karungi?' Yogini was pissed off with her talks always? but she was firm she won't marry Meet ever? Meet and she together Never?.
Kitni baar kaha mujhe Meet napasand hai, Utha tha bawaal,
Meri zindagi savari huhi hai, Ab daffan karo yeh khyaal.
Yogini knew Meet from her childhood days; She use to remember how he would solve everyone's fights and complaints as he was in the higher standard everyone would do as he said. Yogini had many fights with her brother and Meet would laugh at their fights? at that age his laughter felt like adding to the anger. She would hit him too and would run away and would get beating from her mother ? she remembered her mom would say,'Gundi banegi kya apne se badey umra ke baccho ko bhi maarne lagi.. woh to batmeej nahi hai, isliye ghar pe akey apni Mom se complaint kar gaya' Yogini would feel why didn't he complaint about her brother before that hitting her, and he laughing at it? why couldn't he say that too.. Yogini from that time itself never liked him. Never took help from him like all other colony friends would? he was good in his studies?
Badaa Shareef lagata tha sabko,lekin mujhe kabhi nahi ,
Nafrat nahi karti thi, lekin dost maana maine ussey kabhi nahi.
Next issue about Meet; Yogini around her age 15 and Meet 19. Yogini & other girls were playing badminton in the garden area while boys would play basketball in the open ground of the colony? She remembered one of her friends in the colony was Meena. Meena was very fair, tall very polite and had beautiful eyes light brown in colour. Meena would leave the game of badminton where around 12 girls were playing and would go and watch the basket ball match to have a look at someone? At that time Yogini got to know it was none other than Meet she watched? Actually she knew more than that? She knew Meena watched all, but it was Meet who she felt was the most interesting. Meet and Meena would be hanging around, and Yogini had seen all of it. Her close friend in the building Ayesha , Ayesha's mother was very close to Meena's mother and Ayesha would tell Yogini how Meena had behaved .. How she chats with Meet at night... they have their sign language which was funny?. how he sends flower bouquets for her on her birthday?. Once Yogini went to meet Ayesha and Meena stayed next door? Yogini & Ayesha were standing at the door and as she closed she could hear Meena talking with someone softly outside, as it was night time she could hear it.quite clearly. She saw form the pin hole and saw Meena chatting with a guy? atleast 8 years older than her? he was a known person from the building some friends uncle?. Yogini tried to recollect? Ayesha too was listening with the ears on the door... he said, why she didn't discourage him in the starting if she didn't like him, why smile at him , all the time, look at him standing at the top floor.. Why hide behind the wall and peep out to watch him when he comes back? Meena said, she was not understanding what she wants?and now she thinks Meet is very good..and there can be something.. she still isn't sure though? that guy left from there knowing this girl wants to keep all options open. He went saying, 'U just see.. I will marry a girl who is much more attractive than U.. u B****' Yogini at that time was laughing inside and enjoying the whole drama?
Chaah dikhana, Pyaar jatana phir Muh phirana ajeeb hai,
Pass bulakey, aas jagakey yunh kinarey karna kya theek hai?
Yogini was present to view everything.. Meet knew many were interested in Meena and he always took it as a compliment that such a pretty girl likes only him. Meet knew how to play guitar... he would sit in the balcony and start playing guitar for her.. Meena would smile and encourage him ? Oh.. Those days? Yogini would hear the tune and say, 'Prem kahani shuru? Prem dhun bajii? Iss murakh key dimaag ki ghanti kab bajegi..'
Murakh Pyaar karta hai Us sundar chehrey se, aur piroraha sapney
Dimaag ki khanti jaga Bevakuf, Chalaak hai yeh Iss sey tu bachley..
Yogini didn't feel any pity or sympathy towards Meet ever... She wasn't angry with Meena... she hoped she would get serious about Meet? Meet;s family also knew everything.. It was around the age 18, and Meet was 22, she and Meet's family went together to attend a wedding.. she remember Meet's mother praising Meena who too had come to attend the wedding? Meena wore a red colour gown and Yogini didn't knew what was so beautiful about Meena? a fair skin girl wearing a red gown ? it was an Indian wedding and Meet's mom was always traditional suddenly how come she appreciated beauty and sense of fashion of Meena.. Many occasions, any birthday party or a festival Meena would be there in Meet's celebrations. Yogini would be there with her dad's awesome camera in hand and take pics, Yogini loved to take pics and was very good at it... So Bhawna aunty always called her to take the pics at such occasions.
Yaad hai kaise ghar key sabhi par Meena ka jadu chal gaya,
Meena shayad sambhal jaye yehi dil chah ne lagaa tha?
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Part III
Yogini was 22 and Meet 26, Yogini dressed in her new stitched salwar kammez to attend Meena's wedding, ya Meena married someone else? actually Meet was 24 years old and he met with an accident, his right hand got paralysis and he couldn't even hold a pen in hand? At such a stage, Meet and Meena parted their ways? how .. Meena was working till then and she was busy with her work.. There were many proposal Meena's mom was asking Meena to look at, Meet was at home wondering what future was store for him? Meena as a nice friend did meet him on n off? and told him to take care? ON the other side, there was a Parsi colleague who was in awe of her and her beauty... Meena as usual never ignored such loving friends who liked her and were interested to be more than friends with her? At last Meena decided to marry the Parsi Irani ? what was his name?. Sam? 'Sam weds Meena'? Meet was very happy for her.. as an ideal boyfriend he knew Meena deserved someone better?. Yogini attended the wedding and found the wedding the most funniest?. She and Meet's family came together to the venue? Mr. Meet sat in the front row in the wedding? watching Meena and her hubby? Yogini found that ewe, Meena was all the way enjoying smiling.. The way Meet looked at her and her new world?. Yogini's mom had asked her to tell Meet to come and have dinner after the reception? But he wasn't interested to have dinner.. He was heart and soul into watching Meena every minute of this special day?. Sitting there.. and Yogini looking at him and Meena... got confused to decide who is the biggest IDIOT here? She wanted to Hit Meet... Kick *** *** ?. She was disgusted what kind of Devdas he is trying to be...
Uska khush chehra dekhtey betha, kya pyaar hai,
bevakuf samney beth key karey Us dhokhe ka deedar hai
After her wedding Meet would only play sad songs on his guitar.. and when Yogini would hear him playing the sad tune on the guitar she would get cranky and mad and kept telling in her heart.. 'Meet?. Stop that sad tune? U jerk?. Moron stop it? I don't want to hear the crap?'
Dekho iss Devdas ko, ab to surr bhi dukhi bajatey hain,
Gam ka chola leliya ab, Dusro ko Dukhi taalhi sunatey hain.
Yogini recollected all those days? it's been couple of years and Meet has recovered well. He has joined a company doing awesome project work. Meet worked on his projects all night too.. that's what his mom would tell? he still finds Meena to be the best thing happened to him. He loves to look and stare at her window though she isn't there now? smiling remembering how he always stood there in the balcony for her. Yogini feels there can't be anyone else who's face irritates her more than Him. Not even Meena, as u cant expect more from a person like her but if U r Meet and show U have brains, try to act as if U talk sense.. why U take such nonsense and couldn't see the obvious behind all her charm?
Kaise tumhe who chehrey ke pechey ki sachaaii nahi dikhi,
Yeh kaise hosakta hai sirf uski banavati acchi chuee..
Yogini sat all night wondering how many times she has told her mom not to ever think about getting her hitched with him.. She wondered why Bhawna aunty is also thinking on this line? she doesn't want to hurt her by rudely saying.. plzz anyone else.. but Not Ur son.. Meet NO way? She thought and slept?
Next day in the morning she saw Aunty early morning at her place.. she smiled and asked,
Yogini: Hello Bhawna aunty? aaj itni subha?
Bhawna aunty came close to her and hugged her: Meri bacchi? Tujhe hichkichahat hai.. Yogini .. ek baar baat karle Ussey.. dekho to sahi tum dono ko theek lagega to hi..warna nahi.. baat to karkey dekh.. naa nahi bol.. aunty loves U.. aunty ki itni baat manegi naa?. Naa nahi keh meri bachii.. (She started getting emotional)
Yogini: Aunty? I don't think so? I can't marry him? Aap bohat pyaari hai... I care for u aunty..but this is about life.. I don't want to do anything for the sake of U or my mom.. I know its about spending every minute, the entire life.. and Meet.. ke sath I cant see any future?
Bhawna aunty wiping her tears: Baat kar ke to dekh? Bohat mushkil se raat bhar jhagad ke maine Meet ko tayaar kiya to spend sometime , talk with U.. usney Pyaar mey kitna bada sacrifice kiya( Yogini felt angry feeling, sacrifice.. that wasn't sacrifice that was plain stupidity) Plzz he will come here and u don't have to go anywhere.. Sit in ur house.. talk to him.. and if u both feel yes? then only we will decide.. plzz baat karley tu..
Yogini was caught up.. talking with that jerk for a while and his face reminds her all things , situation she hates.. She cant find anything which may please her.. She said Ok with a heavy heart? she was saying for the sake of leaving these two old ladies to stop emotionally drenching herself with them more n more? ?.
Kya karu phassi main ab milna hoga aur baatein karengey hum,
Sach kehti hun, yeh koi sajaa sey nahi hogi kam..
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Part IV
Yogini wore her casual dress, sat waiting for Meet to come in her house? knowing she is going to say NO?. Meet came both looked at each other with not even a slight change in the facial expression, as if they knew it's not a happy occasion. The elders went into Meet's house.. and Meet and Yogini were left alone to talk freely? the door was obviously open? after around few seconds of silence.. Meet initiated the conversation..
Meet: U know my mom is very happy with the thought that U should be my wife, her daughter in law. She is so glad though we belong to different caste and different language. Yogini U know about my past.. and I want to marry a girl who knows about it.. and respects me with my past.. I have carried on with it... still somewhere it hurts... R u fine with it?
Yogini didn't answer?Meet asked her? again.. Yogini spoke?
Yogini: what hurts U?
Meet: U know right.. What I went through.. How I lost my love.. My first love... destiny made it?. Or else I had dreams filled in my eyes... everything got shattered? It can hurt right.. I have heart? and there is pain?
Yogini: U have a heart that I can understand? but don't u think U need to have a brain as well?
Dil ki baatein kahey jaa rahey ho,
Dimaag ka kya koi wajud nahi maantey ho?
Meet felt offended? and he tried to understand what she was up to ?
Meet: Excuse me.. Come again.. What u r trying to say..
Yogini: leave it.. ur heart will get hurt again?
Meet: No, I want to hear? what's in ur mind? why u enjoy making fun of my first love? If u don't want to marry me? say no.. Don't feel u have the right to insult me?and my feelings..
Yogini: I will say No? for sure. There is not even a percent of respect in my heart for Ur love? so I have to say No? but I really want to take this opportunity to tell u few things which were in my heart from long?. May I..
Meet: Get it out? Let me also know from so many years how u have perceived me? I know only one thing about u? U n me r poles apart?
Yogini: what u liked in Meena .. how u fell in love with her? looking a t her attractive face.. Her fair skin? that is the love u r talking about?
Meet: ya.. may be? Why is not true that beauty somewhere attracts first.. later on there were many things which made me love her? but initial attraction is a part? so ya her beauty attracted me in the first place?. And later our relationship developed..
Yogini laughed: What relationship.. U were a stupid puppet and she was enjoying as u played according to her wishes..
Jo tumharey liye Pyaar lagta tha,,
Mujhe to Ek puppet show jaisa dikhta tha..
Meet: Don't insult me & her? what u know about Love..
Yogini; I know what Love isn't... want to know how ur relationship love as u call developed..
Meet: As friends, we have similar likings.. I liked western music a lot she too? I was learning guitar she wanted too as well? I loved to read harry potter she too liked.. we discussed all these common interest things and we would go together to watch movies of our choice? a lot of songs cds we gifted each other? she had a charm about her.. her soft voice.. her beautiful smile which made me feel she admires me so much.. Her eyes would get wet when I would gift her something which she wanted from long.. her tears and her 'thank U So much line'.. She meant the world to me?
Yogini: And she married a fairer guy than u, a more educated guy than U, a more well built stronger person than U, a more wealthier guy than U? Oh She choose the perfect one she always looked for? U lacked somewhere to fill her calculations?.
Meet: Don't say that.. she asked me.. I told her our relationship was only till friendship. There was nothing more I could do?. U know how necessary is it to marry at the right age? (Yogini looked at his eyes which surely pointed at her life issues) for how long would I tell her to wait.. Its been almost 5 years later then I was able to get on my feet to feel I could take a responsibility of a family man?
Main kuch nahi karsakta tha, commitment nahi de sakta tha,
Pyaar mey maine ussey kho diya lekin Usey Khushi dekhna chakta tha?
Yogini again laughed and Meet was irritated... he got very upset and stood up to go out?
Yogini: Sotp stop there... let me share few things with u? At last if we have opened to get straight at each other.. let me tell u facts..
Yogini: I cant understand ur LOVE for her at all.. I know how bad ur choice is, I know how blind u were in love.. and I feel pity on U and people like u.. u couldn't see what kind of a girl she was?. How could u be such a Stupid fellow ? all the years through out.. I can never ever marry such a fool like u? I still remember Meena watching u all playing basket ball?and u believed she stood there only to look at U (she rudely pointed her finger at him straight stood close to him, looking into his eyes without blinking) and smile at u? she smiled at many others? why didn't that make a difference to u.. why u couldn't feel that? or see that? U were smiling at her? talking to her at the corner of the building?. Oh I know many of the boys who did talk to her, walking along corner of the building just like U.. I almost laughed out seeing U guys wanting her and she treating U all the same way with her polite sweet talk? I couldn't understand what was in her?and I cant understand what fun She got with giving u all equal time and equal opportunity?. End of it.. few she dumped.. for reasons? I guess who gave her what.. who were more interesting and more dominated by her?. U were among the most searched Fool she searched? and even after giving u that space? she still tried to be warm and telling other guys? Oh she still hasn't made-up her mind..so she is still looking out to be in relationship with someone? but U weren't the final one? How couldn't u see that Meet?. The guy she married.. oh his colleague? haven't u seen him around in our building, he did drop her a lot of times? and I know she gave him those looks and smile which always encourage feelings , hope u know what I mean by feelings? If she loved U she would have not given every other good looking guy her time, her smile and her those looks which u all would die for? I mean U like a devdas sat in the front row of her wedding.. wishing her good wishes all through the time.. Funny.. she was smiling glowing.. and u were happy by just looking at her happy face? shame on u.. and shame on her.. but why should she feel shameful she is smart.. and she used everyone.. U were dumb.. and u r still? just look at her life absolutely rocking, she had her set of boyfriends doing everything? even u brought bread , vegetables for her mother.. How cute for U.. How stupid for me? U r a Fool and Ya I cannot marry a FOOL ever?
Shaadi aur tumsey kabhi nahi main ney kabsey yeh tay kar liya tha,
Pyar ke marey, Behvakuf tum thehrey tum Fool ho yeh samajh liya tha..
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Part V
Meet looked devastated by her revelations? Yogini now could sense a change in his emotions? Meet looked at her with utmost anger in his eyes... as if he would even beat someone up? Yogini wasn't an inch afraid she spoke the truth and this had to come out one day on him? Meet had a rush of blood flowing , he didn't knew what his anger could do? so he tried to get out of the place and try to control his anger & frustration, emotions and so many complex feelings running in his mind & heart?He walked out of her house and walked out of the passage?
Gussey mey ubala jaa raha tha,
Kitna tuta kitna bikhar raha tha?
As Meet walked out with such intense emotions all the members of both the families who had set their eyes on the door of the house, tried to stop him and ask him what happen.. but Meet rushed fast? Yogini came out and Meet's mother; Bhawna aunty started crying asking her what had happened? She has never seen her son so angry? he will never get her worried by walking out like this? She was too scared thinking something can happen to him. Yogini on the other hand was relieved that she pour out all the things she wanted to tell him from long? she wasn't thinking about what may be going in Meet's mind as she knew at least now he should think sensibly. As Yogini saw everyone tensed and worried, and telling her what she did, what she said, She felt irritated? what has she done just showed him a mirror of his life?. she was pissed of by their worries.. So she too walked away from there?. As she walked down she saw Meet sitting on his bike... extremely furious and trying to start his bike with rage? Yogini saw him and as if she wanted to get to him today? she walked towards him... Meet saw her and he got more angry... he hit his bike one hard to start it.. And Yogini stood in front looking at him, with a confidence?
Yogini: Gussa aaraha hai?
Meet: Enough what u said, I heard, thanks for enlighting me with the facts, bohat jaldi batayaa... thanks... and about what I should have and what I should now.. U don't need to interfere in my life? Jitna kiya Utni meherbani.. Don't waste ur time on a FOOL like me..
Yogini walked and sat on the back seat of his bike? Meet was taken aback and as if he wanted to push her down?but as she was lady and he couldn't show disrespect... he told rudely?
Meet: Get off my bike... for God sake? Just leave me alone? I came here as I wanted to be alone .. Plzz GO?
Kyun peecha kartey aagayi ho,kyun seer pey naach rahi ho,
Jitna kaha, sunaya utnaa kya kam tha, kyun dil ko aur dukha rahi ho
Yogini: Ride the bike?.
Meet was trying to tell to get down, but she countered him..
Yogini: Looks like U can't even ride a bike, bike start nahi karne atii.. what u will know about life or love? well?
Now Meet was irritated, his anger gave him the push and he freaked out... he drove the bike and with speed took off and took turns and dangerously drove it escaping narrow lanes? and Yogini who sat behind wasn't afraid by all that.. She almost held the back carriage of the bike and the shoulder of Meet on n off but wasn't scared for a sec.. After a while Meet's anger got a bit lessen?. Meet made the speed less and asked her,
Meet: Kya kahena hai ? why don't u leave me alone for a moment.. why come n sit on my head now? I am already very angry I don't want to say or do anything disrespectful?
Yogini: Meet I came down as I was pissed off with what all were saying and worrying about U?. saw u angry felt I want to know U r angry on whom?? sat on the bike as I knew U will show me ur anger?? U will say something.. U may try to hit me?? if u r angry at me? I wouldn't have taken that though.. I would have hit back harder ?. U know I can hit hard.. in childhood I have hit U?remember?
Meet was hearing all this while riding the bike?
Meet: I am not angry on U... may be angry about life? may be angry about my destiny for sure.
Meet stopped the bike in the corner of the road and walked along to sit near the footpath, which had benches. Meet sat and Yogini sat beside to listen to him ?
Gussa hai , aag se tapta jaa raha hun,
Zindagi sey ya dakdeer se pareshan Mayuss horaha hun?
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Part VI
Meet: I have always faced failure where I always thought I had won... I don't know why this happens with me again n again? I had secured 84 % and walked into the house, everyone in class, in my building were so happy wishing me... I wanted to show it to my dad and make him feel proud? my first win... Dad saw and told me, I missed by one percent to get into the list where children r given scholarship... I had not realized that but my dad did.. He was upset and felt Oh.. one percent more could do so much difference? in a sec my win turned into a failure?
Meet said as if looking at that day in front of him. Yogini did remember the day he had scored that 84% and was thinking how come God grace is always with him? how he scores so well? Meet continued?
Meet: When I was getting into college, I wanted to pursue Commerce; I was in the first list itself. My friends envied me as I was among the top 5 on the list of admission? but my dad & mom wanted me to take science and in that I was in the 3rd list and my dad paid money for me to be able to get into the best college he wanted me to get into.. That was another win turned into a failure?
Meet tried to feel the path of failure he had crossed so many times?.
Meet: When I secured the first rank in 11th I remember, my parents were very happy? I felt its my win at last? but destiny always is fast to take it back? my friends told me how the two friends who always stood first had chickenpox so Atlast got an opportunity to win? For me it turned into failure, as I didn't want things to come in my lap by such a way? Always it happened the same way? for small issue for big as well?
Jeet kar bhi kabhi Jeetney ki khushi naa lepaya tha,
Jeet ko samjh paun tabhi, Haar ney apna saaya dikhlaya tha?
Meet continued with emotions almost happy and gay now?
Meet: When I saw Meena and met her, knew she was the most beautiful female in the whole society, her interest towards me made me feel as if I won something? Really I was so happy with that ? I knew many liked her but for me? it was a bigger win? many liked her just like me? but SHE LIKED ME SO MUCH, MORE THAN OTHERS.. I felt I won her heart? It's the most beautiful feeling which I felt? I knew this one win will always stay forever with me? I won her heart?. I wanted to marry her... and that too turned into a failure when I met with the accident? I didn't want her to continue or be part of my failure? I was clueless about my future? every week taking injection to stimulate my muscles, my mom coming with me to the dispensary... it was the worst phase.. a failure for me , creating situation where I was again depended on them each day .. for smaller things as well to do.. I wanted my love to remain a win? for that I was fine to let her go... and be happy with her life... she was happy... I was happy for her? as if I can proudly say My LOVE won? LOVE is about trying to give happiness in every which way to ur partner.. I gave her happiness and a future bright & beautiful.. I gave her away to someone.. she deserved anyone but not me? I felt... My love won?
Meet said with choked emotions?
Meet: But? Can't take this failure now?. Can't take that my LOVE is a failure? can destiny be that cruel to me? NO?.. Don't GOD.. don't do this now.. the only thing which I feel I did best? in life? was my deep love for her? IS this my biggest failure... I can't take that? NO?
Pyaar kar liya, Pyaar mey apni Iss Jeet ko sabsey Upar rakh chaldiya,
Agar Iss Jeet ka wajudd hi naa raha to Haar ka chadar bichh jaye ga?
Meet held his head by his both hands... not understanding how he will cope with life after knowing this reality ?.
Yogini now realized, For Meet this is the time he actually has got to know some facts which he never could? never did? reality about Meena not lovingly him? Fact that He was in love with a person who was not even an inch deserving his affection. Meena had way back open her heart for him?but never wanted to keep him in her heart as a soul mate?
Yogini: U really never understood or realized the things I am telling.. U didn't know how she was playing with ur emotions.. she was not in love as U were?
Meet said with a certain emotional face where the words came from deep in his heart, there was no anger for Meena... but a helpless state for himself...
Meet: U observed these things.. I never did.. may be u r right.. Love is Blind.. I guess for me it applies well... when I looked at her during those basket ball matches.. she looked at me.. and I was happy to be in her eyes .. When she would show interest in me, call me, talk to me, I was feelings how lucky am I, she is so pretty and she likes me too? I did what she liked and I liked how she spoke and cared for me. Making Green tea for me? sitting on the bike with me? praising me, feeling shy when I praised her? behaving very politely gently, for me she was THE girl I would even die for? I wanted to protect her through... I did as well? I wanted to trust her completely... I never listen to other guys girls bitching about her, I never wanted to feel I don't trust her... What wrong was I doing?? Trusting her? Loving her? Wishing happiness for her? If loving someone truly makes me look like a Joker I am? I am a fool...
Agar mujhe bevakuf, Pagal kahena hai kehlo, maine sirf Pyaar kiya,
Pyaar mey doobkar Dil ko bhigoya, Vishvaas par pyaar ka Neev rakha tha..
Meet said I AM a fool, with extreme sentiment as if saying, I want to DIE? Yogini could feel a jerk inside as if is this she wanted to hear?????
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Part VII
Yogini smiled: Meet? U r very funny?
Meet looked at her and her smile? she could do nothing and make him hate her by that smile he felt? though her smile had so much life? but he didn't want to feel happiness, he wanted a sad face with emotions from her side.. that smile would be making him feel alls so well, which he didn't think was? haven't he always thought her as a girl dieing to get married from years... he never appreciated her frank straight forward nature.
Yogini: Meet, Ok don't get mad at me? See I feel sorry I couldn't reveal a lot about Meena to U before? I wasn't ur friend as such so there was never a point where we could share views or thoughts or even facts .. I am sure what U did was not funny as U loved her and trusted her? for us it was funny though not for U, I can realize now? May be when a person is deeply in love as u were? may be its hard to see the things from a broader perspective?. At least U tell me this, Do u think U could Love her even after knowing the facts...
Kya Uss chehre mey tumhe ab bhi pyaar dikhta hai,
Kya sab jaan kar bhi Tumhara dil uskey liye rota hai?
Meet: U called me a joker, an idiot, stupid, Fool? fine.. but am a LOVER.. I know what love is about? attraction can make me to want to get to know her, get close to her? but knowing the facts and I know u r frank and honest always? I am sure she did what all u said? I cant Love a person who played with emotions of so many just to realize what she is searching for is in whom... She is a liar in that process... as she never told me she had feelings or showed feelings for someone... From her side I always heard SHE LOVES ME LIKE NOTHING?. But for her, her family is the most important.. She knows they love her.. she will never let them get tensed.. and I respected that the most about her?. SHE Played with me like anything I feel? .. she almost dumped me I now realize? and I was in dream world thinking I Sacrificed my love?. Bullshit...
Dekho kya kar betha main, Sacch ko andekha kar diya,
Jisko Tyaag samjh raha tha woh sirf chalava tha?
Yogini: Ya? she does lie a lot... U know Ayesha her neighbour she is my close friend?and I know for a fact, that she would blackmail her parents to get them say YES, Ayesha told me, once Meena wanted to go for a trip with her college friends and her parents did not agree to send her? She almost told them she will slit her wrist if they didn't? A huge showdown happened? she was too sensitive her parents kept saying? but I think it was pure blackmailing them and playing with their emotions?
Meet heard and felt how she could do?
Meet: God? I perceived her as something else.. Uff?
Yogini: Meet, I know u truly care for ur parents.. and I know U have never ever tried to go against them?Bhawna aunty has shared a lot of things? and I know u r a very good Son? I don't know what failure and win imply for u? but I guess all the e wrong definitions u have?
Meet looked at her with a stern face?
Yogini smiled again: Don't stare at me, I feel Life rocks ok. LOVE can never turn into a failure ever? I don't know how it could for U who has spent almost 10 years of his life in LOVE... been in LOVE?.
Meet: I don't want to learn from U about What's LOVE is What's Failure is or what defines win? ? To understand pain, Love? U need to Love someone? U need to feel it? U never fell in love then how could u know the pain? U r saying Life rocks... Come on don't make me such a BIGGER fool? Don't I know how many proposals came and from almost 10 years u r searching for a groom and nothing has come through? u have seen failure every year, month may be? Life sucks for u too... I know... We both r failures may be that's why our mothers felt to get us married in some way ? that's THE common thing in both of us ? Don't try to pacify urself by faking saying Life rocks?
Tum ney bhi Haar hamesha jhela hai, Jeet ka daawa Naa karo,
Tum ney Jeevan khushi nahi hai payi, Jhootha dikhawa Naakaro..
Yogini: Hey U R A LOOSER ? and U R most welcome to say that to urself.? I know my life better than U? ya I knew ur life too better than U? but let me get to my life and clear some facts.. atleast show u My LIFE actually rocks? I don't fake? I am frank and honest?as u already agreed on this?
She stood in front of him? and asked him to look at her? Meet found that very weird. In front of the crowd on the road she was standing and giving poses and Meet somehow felt funny to see her giving those poses?as if she is modeling? And he wondered..
Meet: THIS IS HOW LIFE ROCKS? By acting crazy.
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Edited by bhoomikauttam - 16 years ago
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