It was too late. The other man had already cut off and Angad was left hanging on the phone totally in despair about what to do.
Flashback:
I stirred in his arms. I knew I have to go but what could I do! Oh that masculine scent. And those hard yet tender arms that I am sure were made solely for one purpose- protecting me. Would I prefer to leave him and go to class- no. But did I have a choice- no. Reluctantly she called out to him "Angad?"I was surprised herself at how husky my voice sounded but when his deep baritone replied, that same current ran through my heart that I already know oh so well. "Hmmm?"
"I have to go."
"Yea.. I know…" He sighed as if he was taking no notice but then released me from his strong grip lazily. Angad ran a hand through his already unruly hair as I stepped away from him- overwhelmed at he surge of cold air I felt as we parted despite the sunny time of year.
I was running to class in a minute or two- late, I knew but still not regretting for even a moment. Me and Angad did that often. In fact, I think back and realize that for the past few weeks we have been doing the same without feeling any boredom- just pleasure. Us two under the big oak tree in the park near my uni. The sun beaming down at the two lovers below who need nothing except for each others' hold to pass their time. All day , all I think about- is him. Even when the lecturer gave me an additional lecture on punctuality, my mind can't stop itself from wandering back to Angad. His dark eyes, his deep voice his…
"Kripa!" And with that I am back to earth so that I do not get any extra work or a detention. I hated that. We are adults for God's sake! Why can we STILL not escape juvenile things such as detentions.
It was not long after till I got home and there was Ma- waiting for me to give an explanation. As usual, I side-tracked the question with:
"Mmmm, that smells nice- what's cooking?"
"Don't try it with me Kripa. So tell me, why did I receive a message saying that you weren't at your uni for lunch today?"
"Ummm who, who hai na…"
"What you were with Angad?" I did not need to reply as the telltale red had already crept to my cheeks.
Ma sighed and looked at me concerned. The only time she had that look on her face was when she was going to tell me that Whiskers (the next-door cat) had died. And at that time, I was five.
"Dekho Kripa, Why do you think that you cannot talk to me about Angad. Look I know you love him, and I accept that. He is a very nice boy.All I am asking is for you to give that relationship a name. Can you please do that? For me?"
"Umm ma, I don't know what you are talking about. Nd anyways, marriage is out of the question- I am only 21!" I may have sounded so sure but deep down inside, the thought thrilled me. I wonder what would it be like, to be called… Mrs. Kripa Angad Khanna!? I glanced up at my mothers face and instantly knew, that my answer was the wrong answer. At least for my mother anyway.
"Kripa, you feel that way because of me right? Because of us. Be-because of me and… your dad." The accusations she had put on me were enough to belittle me in my guilt.
"Nahin ma. It is nothing like that. You know I love you. You are the best mother ever." My phone rang interrupting our convo. I glanced at the caller id and instantly picked it up whilst rushing upstairs with only a wave to my mother. It is not that I am insensitive. It is just that this is a daily convo in my house. Alt least this time I escaped the rona-dhona.
"Hi Angad!"
"Hi babe. Do you know what day it is?"
"No why?"
"It's Holi you idiot. You of all people should know."
"What really!?!" A wave of excitement rushed over me. Since I was a child- I could not even live without Holi.
"Yeah, and I just called to say that I am going over to our farmhouse so that me and some of my cousins who are there for a week before going back can play. We will be doing water balloons……." I couldn't listen to the rest as my own disappointment was overshadowing everything. It is MY favorite festival and I seem to be the only one not having fun on the day.
"What are you doing?" Angad's question threw me off balance, I knew I should have been listening and guilt dampened my disappointment as I knew that it was not his fault he was having fun and she wasn't.
"Oh nothing" I thought that Angad would question why but when he ended the phone call after a few words instead- a pang of anger hit me. Huh, he cannot even remember my favourite festival! Well I can have fun without him as well! I thundered downstairs like a child on Christmas day and raced over to ma. "Mumma please please please please please can I play Holi in our garden?"
"No, no ,no, no ,no! How many times have I told you that the neighbors will complain and we might get sued if you continue!" She answered cruelly. What I did not notice though was the glint in her eye as she said it.
"But-"
"No!" I was about to retreat defeated when ma broke another bombshell.
"Kripa, you are coming with me to a possible charity shop location," When I opened my mouth in protest: "And that is final!"
I hated being treated like a child so I decided to take it in my stride and calmly explain why I should not go with my mother to do the most boring job there ever was. And guess what- she agreed!
Oh who am I kidding? All I did was grab my coat, still sulking and seething inside and went over to the car with my puppy dog face. All the way on the journey all I did was sulk. So I sat, with my eyes closed and frown upon my face, headphones in listening to jag soona soona laage form OSO.
Chan se jo toote koi sapna
Jag soona soona laage
Jag soona soona laage
Koi rahe na jab apna (I shot ma an angry glare)
Jag soona soona laage
Jag soona soona laage re….
Okay, okay, I know I was being a bit melodramatic but what could I do? After all, I was being taken to do the most boring task on the most fun day!
The car screeched to a halt and ma leaded me out and handed me a blindfold. When I shot her a defiant yet confused glare she just put it on and led me around till we stopped walking.
"Ma what is thi-" She opened my blindfold and I could not continue as I lay my eyes on the most beautiful sight I have ever seen (after Angad).
We were outside in a huge garden that had a fountain in between and flowers every colour imaginable scattered across the site. But even though that would have been enough to take my breath away, that was not the best part! There were about 20 plates of colour all arranged in a pretty pattern around the fountain and water balloons arranged outside of that pattern. I looked around trying to absorb what was happening and I caught the expectant gazes of everyone on me. Wait- behind me! A large, warm hand cupped my face and I turned to see Asngad standing there with a dreamy gaze resting upon me. I would have returned it if it were not for common sense kicking in . I whispered harshly to him to make him understand.
"Angad, what are you doing? These people were waiting for somebody to start playing!"
"Do you know who that person is?"
"No." He came closer to me and looked as if he was about to kiss my neck but then he whispered
"You…" Only I could comprehend my emotions then as they were a total flurry of happiness, surprise and love. Then Angad stepped back slightly. By then I had realize that he had put colour on my cheeks and I was standing there like an idiot this whole time. Before I could say much something hard hit me and I felt myself-drenched. The blood rushed to my cheeks as I shouted "I am giving you a head start Angad Khanna, one… two… threee!!!!!!!!!!!" I bolted after him with a water balloon in my hand waiting for revenge and I got him! Our play continued for hours or so whilst my mum was looking on watching a boy and a girl, childishly playing the game of love in the crowd of people playing Holi and could not stop the moisture in her eyes from collecting as she saw Angad and Kripa laughing with each other oblivious to the evil world around them and she knew, that they would always have their sanctuary, their heaven… of love.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2vzfeRmFjQ
Tu hi dhoop tu hi chaaya
Tu hi apna paraya
Aur kuch na jaanu
Bas itna hi jaanu
Tujhme rab dikhta hai yaara main kya karoon
Tujhme rab dikhta hai yaara main kya karoon
Sajde sar jhukta hai yaara main kya karoon
Tujhme rab dikhta hai yaara main kya karoon
Rab re bana di jodi..haii
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