PART-2
The RJ was saying something but Kalpi's mind wasn't on it. Her ears and eyes fixed on the vision on her left side. Raghav smirked as with a shaking left hand Kalpi tried to touch him but then retreated the same back.
Seeing him smiling Kalpi blinked twice and again extended her hand to touch Raghav. "Maybe this is true, maybe my Raghav is in fact with me. Maybe my wait is over and I can finally say sorry to my husband" Kalpi's hypnotized mind forgetting the rationality of the situation that in normal circumstances Raghav cannot be there. In those few moments Kalpi was too happy to be able to see Raghav after a separation of two weeks.
The gentle smile on Raghav's face never leaving, he himself extended his hand and gently brushed Kalpana's left hand with his own. He knew that Kalpi herself would be unable to. Kalpi shivered with the cold breezy touch, "Why, why are you so cold?" she asked Raghav. Raghav sighed "It is cold outside, that's why. I waited so long for you."
"Oh" was all Kalpi muttered while lowering her eyes in confusion. "See, I told you to turn a bit and you will find me right with you, forever. I am only yours Kalpi, only yours" Raghav said and indicated with eyes to look ahead somewhere. "What?" Kalpi mouthed.
"Thank You so much sweetheart, for choosing my way. I love you Kalpi, I love you. Welcome to my arms, to be with me forever; this birth and every next birth" Raghav's voice said while his eyes never left Kalpi's. Confused Kalpi looked ahead through the still thick layers of fog and her eyes widened to see that the car was going the wrong way. It was running off the road and was about to fall right into the gorge. "No!" Kalpi screamed hurriedly turning the steering wheel and the car back to the safety of road. "Raghav, we were going to..." Kalpi spoke looking in Raghav's direction, only to find that he wasn't sitting there anymore. Her eyes widened again with mouth agape; Kalpi felt a few sweat beads trickled down her forehead.
She tried to ease out her labored breaths while the song which was now playing in the radio caught her attention.
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aa jaa, aa jaa, aa jaa,
COME, COME, COME OVER,
aa jaa, aa jaa, aa jaa,
COME, COME, COME OVER,
tujh ko pukaare meraa pyaar, oh
MY LOVE CRIES OUT FOR YOU,
tujh ko pukaare meraa pyaar,
MY LOVE CRIES OUT FOR YOU,
aajaa, mai.n toh miTaa hoo.n, teree chaah mein,
COME, I'VE BECOME EXTINCT IN YOUR LOVE,
tujh ko pukaare meraa pyaar...
MY LOVE CRIES OUT FOR YOU...
Kalpi saw to her left side and saw Raghav sitting there again. "You'll never leave me again now, right?" he asked and his eyes steeled for a fraction of seconds. "I won't let you; we belong together" he said and Kalpi could only whisper in her heart, "Oh Raghav. I really hope this is my imagination." But the song continued to play, and played more havoc with her senses.
aakhiree pal hai, aakhiree aanhen tujhe, DhoonDh rahee hain,
TIS THE LAST MOMENT, THE LAST SIGHS ARE LOOKING FOR YOU,
Doobtee saansen, bujhtee nigaahein tujhe, DhoonDh rahee hain,
GASPING BREATH, BLEARY EYES ARE LOOKING FOR YOU,
saamne aajaa ek baar,
MATERIALISE BEFORE ME ONCE,
aajaa, main to miTaa hoon, teree chaah mein,
COME, I'VE BECOME EXTINCT IN YOUR LOVE,
tujh ko pukaare mera pyaar...
MY LOVE CRIES OUT FOR YOU...
"Mumma" just then a little girl's voice further startled Kalpi. It was "Riya" her three year old daughter's voice. Kalpi looked in the rearview mirror and saw her daughter was sitting on the back seat. Shocked Kalpi looked towards Raghav who only smiled more. "We belong together. How could I leave the symbol of our love, our daughter behind? Alone?" Raghav said and Kalpi looked back to see her daughter's bright and happy eyes staring back at her.
dono jahaan kee, bhenT chaDhaa dee maine, chaah mein teree,
I'VE SACRIFICED BOTH THE WORLDS IN MY DESIRE FOR YOU,
apne badan kee, khaaq milaa dee maine, raah mein teree,
MY BODY'S DUST, I'VE MINGLED IN YOUR PATH,
ab toh chalee aa iss paar,
AT LEAST FOR NOW, CROSS OVER THIS SIDE,
aajaa, main toh miTaa hoon, teree chaah mein.
COME, I'VE BECOME EXTINCT IN YOUR LOVE,
tujh ko pukaare mera pyaar...
MY LOVE CRIES OUT FOR YOU...
"I waited choo maaacch for you Mamma... I missed you", "You Know Dadda and Me were preparing for your belcamm (welcome) Even Dadi'(paternal grandmother) was coming to help us. See, Dadda promised me that I will see you soon; he fulfilled his promise. After preparations he brought me to you" Kalpi's little daughter's voice which normally music to her ears; was only serving to increase her anxiety this time. No, no it cannot be; how can her daughter and her husband both be here? "It isn't true; it's only a bad dream I am seeing with open eyes. My husband and my daughter both are completely fine. I will meet them soon" Kalpana re-assured herself but it was only short-lived.
itne yugo.n tak , itne dukho.n ko koi, seh naa sakegaa,
FOR AEONS OF TIME, NONE WILL BE ABLE TO ENDURE SO MUCH OF PAIN,
teree qasam mujhe, tuu hai kisee kee koi, keh naa sakegaa,
I SWEAR BY YOU, NO ONE WILL BE ABLE TO DISCERN THAT YOU BELONG TO SOMEONE,
mujh se hai teraa iqraar hoy,
OH, YOU'VE GIVEN ME A PROMISE,
aajaa, main to miTaa hoon, teree chaah mein,
COME, I'VE BECOME EXTINCT IN YOUR LOVE,
tujh ko pukaare meraa pyaar...
MY LOVE CRIES OUT FOR YOU...
Soon Raghav's voice echoed in her ears again, "Leave me again will you?" Raghav asked and smirked before continuing "You forgot me" he said in a complaining tone. "But don't worry; I won't leave you so easily. Just like I am yours, only yours; you are mine, only mine. And I won't leave my Kalpi behind alone. I am waiting for you" Kalpi's eyes widened when she saw Raghav was leaning forward to hug her. "No" Kalpi screeched, using her force to pull herself away from Raghav's reach while she returned her forgotten focus back on road.
teree nazar kee, os pade toh bujhe pyaas milan kee,
A GLANCE FROM YOUR DEWY EYES WILL SLAKE THE LUST FOR UNION,
tere badan kee, ot miTe toh rahe laaj lagan kee,
IF YOUR BODY GIVES UP THE GHOST, THEN PASSION'S HONOUR WILL BE SERVED,
mil jaaye chayn qaraar...
COMFORT AND PEACE WILL BE ATTAINED,
aajaa, mai.n toh miTaa hoon, teree chaah mein.
COME, I'VE BECOME EXTINCT IN YOUR LOVE,
tujh ko pukaare, mera pyaar hoy,
OH, MY LOVE CRIES OUT FOR YOU,
tujh ko pukaare, mera pyaar,
MY LOVE CRIES OUT FOR YOU,
tujh ko pukaare, mera pyaar.
MY LOVE CRIES OUT FOR YOU.
Credit for Lyrics: http://nasir-eclectic.blogspot.in/2009/01/241-translation-of-sad-songs-of-rafi.html#axzz3lBUwpZ3s
But what she saw made Kalpi's heart nearly jump out of her chest. Her car had left her lane; it was almost in the centre of the road. But what caused her throat dry was the sudden appearance of a bus from opposite direction.
Kalpi's car had just turned a curve and before she could bring the car back to the right lane, this bus arrived in sight. With all her might and focus Kalpi tried to steer her car away from the jaws of death. "No Raghav, no God. I cannot die now. I have to live, for this" Kalpi thought, her hand momentarily touching her abdomen briefly. "I have to live for Raghav's baby; for our baby who hasn't even entered this world. I won't disappoint you again Raghav, I won't" she thought.
By the time fog in Kalpana's thought process was cleared she breathed a sigh of relief to see that her close encounter with death was over. After almost touching the car, the bus had safely crossed it. She was safe; her baby was safe, her baby was the new light in their lives. She wanted to live for him/her and the way Raghav would be proud of.
"Yes, everything is fine. Thank You God, Thank You so much" Kalpi mentally thanked God for making everything right. As she saw ahead, everything was in fact going to be right eventually; she'd crossed the fog zone. Now everything was crystal clear, it was only a matter of time. The RJ's voice in the radio was still saying something, but did it matter now? Kalpi knew that her God was with her. Kalpana did not need this distraction anymore. The radio was switched off and Kalpi turned her attention back on to the road. She wanted to know how her husband and her child were.
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The way to home was tougher than Kalpi had imagined. Kalpana could see the remnants of landslide and fallen trees, electricity poles in some places even though most roads were cleared. She had to take a detour once and after some struggle with the small bumps she got along the way just fine. Kalpi had at last reached her colony, her home. Her heart beat rapidly to see the state it was in, edges of some land was gone in landslide and five other homes were buried in landslide from the mountain above.
Kalpi's eyes drifted to the side her home was situated. Darkness was all she could see; Kalpi drove slowly and found some relief with the visuals. Their home seemed safe, being away from danger zone and the affected area. But, it was still engulfed in darkness. "I hope, I hope they'd not gone there" Kalpi thought, knowing well that one of their closest friends lived in one of the affected homes. Sometimes once a month the families used to have sleep-over at each other's homes; or just met each other during dinner. In Kalpi's absence chances of Raghav and Riya having dinner there was a possibility she couldn't negate. She was worried for their friends too, but right now her family was the priority.
With slow steps Kalpi moved ahead and reached the doors of her home. Her back faced their verandah as her trembling hand raised up to knock on the door. Electricity was not re-instated it seemed, the only option Kalpi had was to knock. She knocked twice, but no one answered. She knocked twice more and this time closed her eyes, deciding to count till hundred before counting again. Her ears itching to hear opening of the bolt and the door, "Maybe till then someone would answer" she thought.
The counting had reached just ten when she heard someone opening the bolt from inside and creaking of the door. Slowly and apprehensively Kalpi opened her eyes to see Raghav. He was standing there, in front of her; his kind eyes staring right into hers. He looked tired, Kalpi couldn't believe her eyes. "Raghav" she whispered. Her fingers moved on their own to touch Raghav's cheek, needing to feel him to believe in this reality. Unless and until Kalpi touched the physical form of her husband, felt his touch she would have taken this as yet another of her nightmarish hallucinations.
What she saw and felt in car hadn't left her still; and then she felt it. "Kalpi...Kalpi! Where are you going?" Raghav's voice broke into her thoughts again making Kalpi frown. She looked down to the cell in her hand and felt that now Raghav's eyes were also transfixed on her cell-phone. Raghav had understood everything and a smile was added in the welcoming gaze of his eyes.
Kalpi switched off the recordings of Raghav and Riya's voices which she had been playing in the car. She'd wanted to feel them beside her and she was successful. The messages which they'd sent in these two weeks; and some recordings which she'd made sneakily when Raghav was teasing her made Kalpi almost hallucinate. Though Kalpana's worried thoughts for her family had turned them almost into nightmares.
Now Raghav was in front of her and Kalpi did not believe this visual yet. She kept the cell in the purse and raised her trembling hand again to touch Raghav.
But before Kalpi's fingers touched Raghav, his arms were already draped around her. Raghav was hugging her tightly, running his hands all over her and smelling Kalpi's hair. "I missed you. Now that you are here, I can believe that this nightmare is over" Raghav said in Kalpana's ears. "Though on inspection the authorities found our side of the colony out of danger, they still asked us to evacuate for a few days to be on the safe side. I refused, I refused Kalpi. I knew you would return tonight and you would look for us. I did not want to see you any more worried than you must already be" breaking their hug Raghav looked into Kalpi's eyes. He held Kalpi by the shoulders and asked hopefully "You looked for us right?"
Raghav's eyes held love and questions to which Kalpi could only smile. She hugged Raghav tightly, allowing him to feel his wife in his arms again. "Yes Raghav I did. I looked for you, all through the day I thought only about you and our daughter. I am sorry I hurt you so much. I thought I needed this space to bring myself back to sanity. But I was wrong, in this process I blocked you out. I did not share this with you when all I wanted to do was be myself with you. I am sorry, I know I was wrong. I allowed my work and a third person to come between us. But now this won't happen again. Pakhi was..."
"Ssshhh" Raghav kept his fingers on Kalpi's lips. "No other words are needed nor the name of any other person, even if it is to make things right between us. We both are enough for us Kalpi, we always were. I am sorry too, instead of clearing your doubts I angered you more. Instead of talking about what I felt, I let myself dip in work till neck. I too ignored our family; I am as guilty as you think you are. But, but last night when I saw death at such close quarters I realized your importance. I realized if it was my last breath last night, then I wanted to take that breath in your arms. I wanted to tell you how much I love you and how sorry I was. I wanted you with me; even though I was glad you were away from danger. I, I am sorry too Kalpi" Raghav completed while looking down.
Kalpi cupped Raghav's face and made him look into her eyes. "We are together now and this is all that matters" Kalpi said and Raghav smiled. "You are right" he said, their moment interrupted when squeaky voice of their little daughter filled the air.
"Mamma" Riya shouted from across the corridor. Her big black eyes looked delightfully at her parents and then at her mother. Dropping the doll in her hands she came running and encircled her little arms around Kalpana's legs. "Mamma, Mamma I missed you so much; and I was so scared without you" she sniffed and Kalpi dropped herself on knees to come down to her daughter's level. She engulfed Riya in a tight hug, kissing her face all over. "I am sorry my baby, Mamma also missed you so much" Kalpi cooed in Riya's ears. "That means Mamma will not leave Riya again?" Riya asked wide-eyed innocently.
"No my baby, Mamma will never leave her baby again" saying so Kalpi kissed her daughter's cheek once more. "Yeeaah, Riya will tell Dadi (paternal grandmother)" she freed herself and ran back into house. Kalpi looked questioningly towards Raghav "Mom is here?" Raghav nodded "Yes she reached this afternoon. She was worried on hearing about the landslides." Kalpi smiled, "Okay, Thank God you and Riya were not alone. I was so worried. Let me go and meet her."
As Kalpi stepped inside her home, a feeling of relief and peace engulfed her. "This is it, this is where I belong and it is good to be back" she thought and looked towards Raghav as he walked behind her. She tugged his hand and pulled him towards herself. "Whoa, desperate much are we?" Raghav teased Kalpi.
Kalpana shook her head "No, I want to tell you something." She held Raghav's hand and kept it on her abdomen. "Just feel" Kalpi said. Raghav's curious gaze raised up to Kalpana's asking a silent question. His heart understood yet wanted to hear it from his wife. "Is it?" he asked and Kalpi nodded. "We're going to be parents again, you are going to be Dad" she said and shyly kept her head on Raghav's chest. Dumbfounded for a few seconds Raghav hugged Kalpi on feeling her welcoming weight. Hugging her by shoulders, he nuzzled in Kalpi's neck and placed soft kisses there. "Thank You my love. Thank You for this news, you are truly the sunshine of my life. I promise never to leave your side again. I love you" he said.
"I love you too" Kalpi replied smiling in Raghav's arms. She placed a light kiss on Raghav's chest and let herself drown in the feel of her husband, in the thoughts of her family and in the dreams of a future where they shall always be together. It was a long night yes, when she had thought it might be an ending. But in an ending Kalpi found a new beginning; through the thick fog Kalpi found the right way. The scary hallucinations would not be there anymore. What awaited Raghav and herself was a beautiful reality. In a few more hours it was going to be morning, one which would fill their lives with light, never to leave them again.
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction using characters from the show "Ek Mutthi Aasmaan" on "Zee TV". The characters are owned by creators and owners of the show.