Chapter 12.
May 1, 2016.
Shravan:
Eleven odd days. Only eleven odd days have crippled me without her presence. I had been living for 27 years now without her. And there wasn't this void. But now there is.
It is like I have tasted the best icecream and now I can't have it anymore.
And it frightens me. These emotions. These emotions are high. And I have never liked being high on anything.
Today was Sunday and worse than any other six weekdays because today, now that I'm free from work, all I can think of is her.
She has plagued my head so bad.
And I'm afraid she has plagued my heart too. Only that I didn't want to acknowledge it.
I grab my car keys and drive to her house.
I cannot stand this anymore. I have f**ked up, I know. So, shall I make up for it, now.
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1 May, 2016.
Suman:
"Preeti!" I screamed when the doorbell kept ringing and I had no wish to get out of my bed and check on the door. I have, as it is, been very sleep deprived. Due to work. And due to this one hell of a man.
There wasn't a reply. That was when it struck me that Preeti was out with her college friends to a three day trip to god knows where. I had had a little too much of beer last night. And alcohol never was a good idea for me. Ever.
I rubbed my eyes with the heel of my palms and walked out of the room. I didn't even bother with what I was wearing. Or how I looked straight out of bed. Like a nincompoop ofcourse.
The incessant ringing was already pissing me off. Who, in the hell, was being so impatient early in the morning?
I opened the door and was greeted by a swooning kiss, which I knew I couldn't even try to resist. It was Shravan, who else.
I pulled back before I knew I'd dissolve in the kiss totally and without so much as any argument.
"What the..hell." I wanted to scream but it came out as a whisper. My lips were tingling with the sudden hard kiss that I had been charmed by, few minutes back.
Now, definitely, I felt I should have checked my appearance and clothes before I opened the door because I was barely even in a proper night suit.
Last night was horribly hot, so I had slept in a very thin and comforting grey tshirt that was probably thrice my size. It ended on my mid thighs.
"Shravan." I sighed and held the corners of my tshirt tightly. I didn't know if I wanted him over her, inside her in this minute or outside her house.
No decision has ever been so difficult like this one.
"Suman." He whispered back and held my wrists pulling her close.
"I just need to.." He sighed.
She wondered what right word was he trying to think of.
"..talk to you. And ...kiss you. And make love to you. Now." He looked in my eyes. And if looks could make someone do what the other wanted, without words being needed to be used, I was sure, by now, I'd have been with him doing what he just stated.
"I haven't brushed." It was the first thing I uttered and heard him chuckle.
It really had been awful 11 days.
I missed him. Undoubtedly.
I ran away, immediately, to my room and locked it. Going to my bathroom, to brush and evaluate what needed to be done. Right about now.
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1 May, 2016.
Shravan:
20 minutes. I had been counting every second since she had gone to washroom.
I agree, it seemed a little lunatic on my part but I couldn't help but count. Moreover, I felt like she has been deliberately been inside for that long.
I sighed and knocked on her door.
Who knows she slept or something, inside?
"What, Shravan?" She sounded annoyed. So, ofcourse, I realised what's been happening inside.
She had been thinking. And the more she thought, the more she was riled up against me and I don't even blame her.
I sighed and sat down right there against the washroom door.
"Its okay if you don't want to see me. It's okay if you don't want to ..be with me. It's okay if you can't love..me anymore." I muttered softly. I was taking a chance. Taking a chance to speak whatever I felt.
"Please don't hate me." I sighed and pressed my palms against my face.
"It's okay if you want time. It's okay if this one apology wouldn't make up for everything. I will try everyday. Just don't abandon me. Don't snatch away my peace please. I can't live without talking to you. You are my calm." I blabbered.
I haven't, I swear to everything holy that is in world, talked this much ever.
Or even apologised.
"Please." I added, pleadingly.
The door clicked open.
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Present.
Suman:
I had been under heavy sedatives, hence I had been sleeping alot. I had asked for it though. I didn't want to constantly be reminded of my baby's demise. It was as it is painful to the body. And worse for the awake mind.
But now that the heavy medication was wearing off, and my eyes were fluttering and about to open (They pained alot. Everything pained alot), I heard a light snore.
Who was in my room, my brain was at work already. Preeti didn't snore. Pushkar?
I don't think he'd be in my room.
I whimpered softly and the snoring stopped.
Finally, when I opened my eyes, it took me a few seconds to adjust to the lights.
And to adjust to that gorgeous face I hadn't see in about six months.
Shravan.
I was sure as hell I was hallucinating.
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Present.
Shravan:
I swallowed the lump that was in my throat. She looked much weaker when awake than while she was asleep. And to think what she had endured all this while, I shuddered internally.
All because of me. All because of me.
"Suman." I mumbled softly. Keeping my palm over her head. Caressing her silky strands.
Her eyes shone with ..happiness for a split second before they turned to surprise and finally settled on something I couldn't pinpoint. I hadn't see that in her eyes ever. And I did know alot about her. I suppose I did.
So this was new.
After a few seconds, her lips moved but not a voice came out.
"Do you want water?" I asked softly.
"I .." Her voice faltered.
"I want you to go." She muttered. She looked weak but I knew that what she said was with some resolve.
Damn it.
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May 1, 2016.
Suman:
I kneeled down. He looked like a puppy that had gone astray.
I sighed and cupped his cheeks and planted a kiss on his forehead.
He had sincerely apologised. I knew, he had.
"I forgive you." I murmured.
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A/N - Hi guys. I know its terribly late for me to post this but I had been sick on and off so I apologise.
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