Chp 7
Pooja went up to the cupboard near by, bent down and took out a large paper bag from inside. She sat on the bed with the bag. Kabir was closely observing her.
She took out the file which appeared to be a medical file.
She handed a film, a sonography film to kabir and said its the first picture of ved. Kabir took the film from her hand with his shaky hands. He remembered kavya and vyom his friend were so excited during kavya's first sonography test. He had mocked them at the time for being too mushy. He now understood how emotionally overwhelming this moment was. He marvelled at the image as pooja pointed out tiny ved in it. What confused kabir though was a tint of sadness in pooja's voice. Next, Taking out a box from bag, she opened it and removed a clay molds of two tiny feet and hands. Kabir immediately guessed it to be ved's. He couldn't stop tears falling from his eyes. Pooja said she got it made for sake of memories. Kabir taking those clay mold in hands said my son with reverant emotions. He thought his heart would burst out with love for his son. Ved, his son was so tiny when he was born.
Pooja was silent; letting kabir experience this emotions. Than with shaky hands she took out other box and there were another set of identical foot and hand clay molds. Kabir looked at those, feeling puzzled he turned to pooja. She was sobbing, kabir sounding alarmed asked who's molds are those. Pooja with a feeble voice said pari. Your twin daughter. We had twins.
He had a daughter too? It was more than a week, he only saw ved. where was his daughter? she was too young to be left alone. He franatically turned to pooja for answers....Pooja had a far away look in her eyes she started talking.. I was feeling nauseous from couple of days. I thought it was some viral infection. On amma's insistence, I went to a doctor. She told me I was pregnant. I couldn't believe at first. I asked her if she was sure. From that moment on I felt fiercely protective for our unborn baby. I wanted to run away in case anyone found out. But than I had to secure the future of our child too. I went to office took the money, covered the trail incase someone found out. Within two days, I had to leave. I bought a flat in Mumbai. I was on a mission. I hired a movie crew to help me fake an accident. I didn't want to take any risk hence used a stunt man to drive my car over the cliff. Once satisfied with the accident optics, I gave it a colour of suicide by leaving behind a suicide note. I took a flight to Mumbai, hired a full time nurse incase there was an emergency. Soon, it was time for first sonography. I went to the Dr. , She told me there were twins. I was estatic. But she warned me that these pregnancies are often difficult. I vowed to protect my babies. I took complete rest. Everything was going well. Babies had started moving and kicking. She unconsciously took kabir's hand and placed it on her stomach. It was 7th month. One morning while I was drinking tea, babies stopped moving. Nurse immediately called Dr. ;Tests were done, it was revealed that One of the babies had started loosing weight. Dr. Said they had to deliver children as both of their lives were in danger. She turned to kabir bursting in tears, kabir! !! and just like that my world turned upside down. Kabir saw she was reliving the pain all over again. He too couldn't control his tears. As I gained consciousness after the operation, they told me it's a boy and a girl but as they were weak they had kept them in incubators. They both were so tiny And they had tubes inserted in them, it was heart wrenching. After 2 months when i could finally get them home; i got the molds done for memories. But pari was weak she couldnt survive. She never woke up from the sleep. I...I failed to protect my child. I failed at being a mother. She collapsed into kabirs arms. Resting her head on his chest she cried her heart out releasing All the pain she had buried inside her from past 4 years. There she had laid out her deepest secret to kabir. Her insecurity, weakness. Everything. kabir hugged her while they both weeped. Grieving for their baby. Together. She showed him the videos of their kids, the time they were born. Soon it was morning pooja got dressed and asked kabir to accompany her. It was the last and final thing that needs to be done. She thought. Kabir and pooja went to the grave of their daughter. On the tomb stone it was written 'pari kabir mittal.'
Kabir placed his hand on the grave. Pooja placed her hand on his, over the grave and told him, In presence of our daughter, I promise you kabir mittal, I will never come between you and your son ved. I know, I failed to protect our daughter but I have tried my best to be the mother ved deserves. After hearing this truth, i will not fault you if you don't want me near ved.
Kabir looked into pòoja's eyes, she looked hollow, lost,resigned. There was an emptyness in them that mirrored his. Dios!!!! She was living with the guilt that she killed her own child. Kabir cupped pooja's face waited till she looked in his eyes. He didn't like this defeated pooja. He had always admired her fighting spirit.
Kabir : you have done lots of mistakes in your life. You have done horrible things to me but pooja you have been the best mother to ved. When I see my son, I feel nothing but pride. our daughter still lives on in ved. She is still here with us, watching over her brother like little Angel from heaven. It wasn't your fault.
Pooja did not say a word. She realised kabir was far better person than her. She felt ashamed of herself. She left. She was sitting in ved's room thinking about kabir even after all this time he didn't blame her instead He had comforting words for her. Why was she suprised? Kabir despite being p.k. Mittal's son always stood up for truth. By Telling him everything, her heart felt light as if a burden was lifted from her heart. She realised, He could have used this opportunity to humiliate her, take away her son from her but he didn't. (A small voice in her heart spoke) because kabir understands you. He would never hurt you. He never has!! He gets you like no one else. He was her anchor. Her salvation. She was stunned at how important it was for her what kabir thought. Growing up due to all the experiences she never gave a damn about what society thought of her but kabir's opinion mattered. Like an epiphany, she realised she loved kabir. She had unconsciously depended on kabir right from the start when her revenge was complete and she was trying to find her footing in factory And that night when all her defences were down she could no longer fight herself against her feelings for kabir. If she didn't love kabir, she never would have given herself to him. He was her first and her last. Fresh tears rolled down from her eyes. She had hurt and deceived the man who she loved the most all because she was scared and had trust issues.
Kabir might have not taken away ved from her due to goodness of his heart but he would never love her and more importantly never trust her now.
Kabir sat down near the grave. He had thought he wasnt capable of feeling anything anymore but the ache in his heart was evidence that he was still vulnerable. He knew he should be angry at pooja, but somehow he felt her pain, he had always sensed her pain almost like there was a connection between them. When dhruv had kidnapped her, he had felt dread and restlessness; emotions which he had not experienced even while serving in army. He never allowed himself to think that he cared for her. Pooja a broken, orphan girl with a fighting spirit tugged at his heart like no other woman. He was tired, Exhausted fighting with himself over his feelings for pooja. He could no longer deny that he was in love with her. Sadly, he realised pooja would never love him back. She will never forget that he was P.K.Mittal's son. There will always be distrust between them. At the most she might come to respect him but she will never trust him. She might have revealed this truth, out of pity for him, Which was ironically more distressing. He decided to keep distance from her and live his life for ved.
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