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Part 8
Ek lamhaa aisa barpaa hua...
Dekha jab husn-e-yaar ka chehra...
Nazrein ussi par thehri thi...
Aankhen aur dil beqaaboo hua...
Yeh kaisa manzar hai...woh meri god mein hai...aankhen band kiye hue...usse jagane ki koshish kar raha hun...
Jiss ehsaas ne baandha tha...aaj woh ehsaas dard ki shakal ban gaya...
Woh ehsaas jo uska dard mere liye...uski takleef ka ehsaas meri aankhon se chalak raha hai...
Uske aankhen band hai...par mera dil toot raha hai...
Ek baar woh aankhen khole...
Ek baar mujhe woh dekhe...
Ek baar woh kuch toh bole...
Main usse baar baar lagaatar...keh raha tha...
Tara utho na...pls ek baar mujhse baat karo...
Ek baar meri pukaar sun lo...
Ussne aahistaa se aankhen kholi...mujhe dekha...
Ek khushi dil ko mayassar hui uss lamha...jab ussne aankhen kholi...dil mein ek khushi ki lehar daudi...
Main usse dekhta reh gaya...aur bekhudi mein kaha...
"Tara"
"Mrityunjay..."
Ussne mera naam pukaara...haan haan ...ussi ne pukara mujhe...
Mujhe kaanon par yakeen na aaya...
Aankhen kholte hi main...ussne mujhe pehchaana...
Sidd dekho usse main yaad hun...
usse main yaad hun...woh mujhe iss haalat mein bhi pehchaan rahi hai...mera dil rone laga...usske munh se apna naam sun...
Aur ussne kaha...
"Tum kahan gaye the mujhe chod...main kab se akele baithi thi na..."
Yeh kya keh rahi hai main yeh soch raha tha...
"tum mujhe chod kar mat jaana...mujhe andhere se darr lagta hai...jungle mein andhera hota hai na..."
Woh ek dum bachcho jaise baat kar rahi thi...
Baar baar aankhen band karti ...phir kholti...
"yeh kya ho raha hai...hum kahan jaa rahe hai"
"kahin nahi Tara...tum thik ho"
Woh phirse kehne lagi...
"tumhe pata hai...mera fav song kaunsa hai...~Sajni~...tumne gaaya na mere liye..."
"Bolo hun na main tumhari ~~Sajni~~"
"haan Tara ...ho tum..."
Ussne sar par haath rakha aur kehne lagi...
"Yeh kya ho raha hai...mera sar dard kar raha hai...hum kaha jaa rahe hai..."
Main baar baar usske sar par haath pherta aur usse kehta...
"Tara tumhe kuch nahi hua..."
Main rone laga...uski haalat dekh...woh baar baar aankhen band karti...phir kholti...behoshi ke bhi iss haalat mein usse hamari mulaaqat yaad hai...
Mere aansun...aur mujhe rota dekh...
Woh apne unhi pyaare haaton se mere aansun pochne lagi...
"tum kyun ro rahe ho...chup ho jao...mat ro
..."
Ussne phir aankhen band karli...
Kaisa ajeeb nazara hai...meri baahon mein hai...mera aansun poch rahi hai...behoshi ki haalat mein hai...phir bhi usse mera khyaal hai...
Main phir usse uthaane laga...
"Tara...Tara"
"Haan bolo...hum kahan jaa rahe hai...mujhe kya hua hai...
Mera sar dard kar raha hai..."
"tumhe kuch nahi hua hai tara..." maine uska haath thaam usse bharosa dilaaya...
"achcha...toh phir tum ab mujhe chod kar nahi jaaoge na...jungle mein akele..."
"mujhe uss aadmi se darr lagta hai..."
"Haan Tara nahi jaaunga chod kar..."
Yeh kya baatein kar rahi hai...kabhi aaj ki kabhi pehle ki...
"Pata hai...mere frnds aur hum...clg mein kitna enjoy karte hai na...mujhe kal jaldi clg jaana hoga...kal imp lec hai..."
"Hum jaldi hostel pohonch jaayenge na..."
"Haan Tara..."
Woh kahi ki bhi baatein kar rhi hai...
"Woh mujhe chidaate ...golgappa...aur mere gaal bhi kheenchte hai...mujhe golgappe bht pasand hai...tumhe hai kya..."
Aur muskuraane lagi...
"Unhe bolo na...mujhe na chidaaye..."
aur phirse aankhen band kar li...
Main kya karun...jiss muskurahat ka intezaar kiya...usske labon par jiss tabassum ka intezaar kiya...
Socha na tha iss tarah milegi...aisi haalat mein yunh iss tarah...
"Papa kahan hai...Bhai kahan hai..."
"Woh bhi aa rahe hai Tara..."
Ussne phir kaha...
"woh coffee kitni pyaari thi na...jo tumne mujhe pilaayi thi...smiley waali..."
Usse pata tha...woh baat bhi...woh jaanti thi...woh maine kiya tha...usski khushi ke liye...
Par ussne zaahir na kiya...ki usse pata hai...ya shayad mer nazron mein kami reh gayi jo main uski nigaahon ko padh na paaya...
Jaate jaate jo uski aankhon mein aansun the samet na paaya...
Uski dil ki aahat aur siskiyon ko samjh na paaya...
Yeh sab kya ho raha hai...yeh aise kyun baat kar rahi hai...
Woh mjhse baar baar ek hi sawaal karti...
"Mujhe kya hua hai...hum kahan jaa rahe hai..."
Main utne baar usse jawaab deta...
Lagbhag ussne 50 baar yahi swaal pucha...main baar baar usse jawaab deta raha...
Ussne phirse aankhen band kar li...
Woh baar baar hosh mein aati...phirse behosh ho jaati...
"Mrityunjay..."
"Haan Tara..."
"tumhari kharoch kaisi hai...tumhare haath par jo thi..."
Ab toh main kya karun isske iss baag par...itne subconciousness mein bhi...usse meri kharoch ki fikar hai...
Iss par toh meri aankh se aansun ke alaawa zubaan se ek lafz na nikla haan ya naa ke liye...
Usski aankhe phir band kar li...
Uske sar par jo chot lagi thi...woh choti si thi...khun behna bhi band ho gaya tha...
Par yeh behki behki baatein...
"Tara...tara ...uthona...dekhona meri taraf..."
Main usske gaalon ko thapthapa usse jagaane laga...usske munh par paani ka cheenta maarne laga...
Woh phirse hosh mein aa gayi...
"Mrityunjay..."
Yeh keh...mere haaton se zara se upar uth...mere seene se lag gayi...aur rone lagi...
Mujhe pakad siskiyan lene lagi...
Main pareshaan ho gaya...isse kya ho raha hai...
Yeh ro kyun rahi hai...
"tum mujhe mil gaye na...main jungle mein...baarish mein kab se bhig rahi hun..."
"Bolo...tum mujhe chhod kyun chale gaye..."
"Nahi tara ...Nahi jaaunga chodkar..."
Phirse chup ho gayi...
Sidd jaldi bhagoana...Car...Tara ki haalat bigad rahi hai...
Abhi inn kuch palon mein itna sab kuch ho gaya...
Woh phirse kehne lagi...
"Pata hai...meri zindagi mein...mujhe woh mila...woh..."
"Kaun Tara"
"Mrityunjay...kya tum usse jaante ho..."
"Nahi Jaanta Tara..."
"Tum nahi jaante main batati hun...woh ek Roshan sitara hai...Tara ki zindagi mein...jo chamka sirf ek raat ke liye...par zindagi bhar ke liye ujaala kar gaya..."
Usska bas itna kehna...maine usse kass kar apne seene se laga liya aur zor zor se ro pada...
Sid : Mj sambhaal apne aap ko...tujhe usse bhi sambhaalna hai...
Maine kisi tarh khud ko sambhala...ek toh usski yeh haalat...upar se uska yeh kehna...
Woh abhi bhi ussi haalat mein thi...drowsy...delerious...
Main ro raha hun...woh jitni baar mera naam leti gayi...utni baar...meri pakad...usski tarf mazboot hote jaa rahi thi...
Kaise sambhaalun khud ko...usse iss haal mein dekh...
Woh mere haathon mein hai...seene se lagi hai...main usse apni giraft mein pakda hua hun...
Woh pal aisa tha...jo main kabhi na socha tha...kabhi na bhoolun...uski woh haalat...
Usska woh kehna...
Uska ek ek lafz...
Aaj dusri dafa milaa hun usse...par woh ajnabee maalooom hoti nahi...
Uski takleef ka ehsaas mujhe iss tarah hai...woh mere wajood mein shaamil ho...
Yeh baat ...main saal bhar se apne dil se kehte aa raha tha...
Dheere dheere ...chupke chupke...
Yakeen tha bhi...aur na bhi...
Tasalli deta tha...khud ko...haan bhi aur na bhi...
Par uske alfaaz ne aa mere aur uske donon ke ehsaas par mohar lagaa di...
Pehli mulaaqaat ka gehraa asar aisa hua hai...jo hum donon ke dil pe naqsh kar gyaa hai...
Main na jaanta tha...
Usse seene se lagaye...yahi soch raha tha...
Mj...hospital aa gaya...
Sidd ne car roki...aur car ka darwaaza khola...
Main usse god mein uthaye bhaagne laga...
Sidd mujhse pehle...daudkar...pata lagaane laga...
Aur hum usse emergency ward mein le gaye...
Main Tara ko bed par lita diya...
Usska haath ab bhi mere haathon mein tha...
Nurse aa gayi...ussne mujhe kaha...
"aap bahar wait kijiye...doctor bhi aa rahe hai..."
Mujhe bahar jaana tha...dil toh nahi chaah raha tha...usse iss behoshi ki haalat mein chodna...
Par phir bhi...maine dheere se usske haathon se apna haath chudaaya...
Woh pal bhi mujhe utna hi takleef de raha tha...jitna ki usse...
Main bahar nikal aaya...
Aur deewaar se lag kar khada ho gaya...
Doctors ander gaye...
Ander uska treatment start ho gaya...
15 min baad ek lady doc bahar aayi...main tezi usski taraf dauda...
Aur pucha...
"Doctor kaisi hai...woh..."
Doc: Dekhiye...minor injuries hai...khun bhi zyaada baha nahi hai...par she is in delerious condition...so it could be internal heamorrhage... also...
CT Scan is required...
Maine kaha..."haan toh kijiye na..."
Doc: "aap hai na unke saath..."
"haan"
Maine haan keh diya...agar unhe pata chalta ki...i m stranger for her...
Woh log treatment rok bhi sakte the...consent ka naatak karte...
Aur main aisa kuch nahi chahtaa tha...
Doc: haan toh aap counter par fees pay kar dijiye...hum CT scan ke liye le jaate hai...
Maine Sidd se kaha...sab manage karne ke liye...
Maine apna credit card de diya...aur kaha...sambhaal le...
Main uss haalat mein nahi tha...ki yeh sab karun...
Sidd ne woh.sab sambhaal liya...
Woh yeh sab kar raha tha...
Aur main deewaar se lag kar khada...usske baare mein soch raha tha...
Main sochtaa tha...
Ek Ehsaas...
Ek mulaaqaat...jissne mujhe itna mutassir kiya...
Jissne meri zindagi ka rukh badla...
Zindagi mein pehli baar kisi ajeeb se ehsaas ne dastak di thi...
Main nahi jaanta woh kya tha...mohabbat chaahat...kashish...main usse woh sab naam nahi de sakta...
Pehli nazar...pehli mulaaqaat kya kisi ko deewaana bana sakti hai...
Kya kisi ko iss tarah beqaraar kar sakti hai...
Itna ke usska hona...uska aana ...uska jaana...usski muskurahat...uska aansun...uska dard...
Sab apna ban jaaye...
Usse khud mein mehsoos karne lagoon...
Usse wajood ka hissa samajhne lagoon...
Ek baar phirse in sab baatein dohraa raha hun...
Uss ne phirse dastak di hai...
Woh phir mujhe aa mili hai...
Inn saare sawaal ...ehsaas ke baare mein main nahi jaanta...
Bas ab mujhe usski fikar hai...
Bas ek baar woh thik ho jaaye...
Main samjhtaa tha...usska ehsaas ne sirf mujhe mutassir kiya hai...
Par yeh nahi jaanta tha...mujhse zyaada...
Woh mere ehsaas se bandhi hai...
Mujhse se zyaada usse unn ehsaason ne chua...
Woh mujhse zyaada mutaassir hai...
Usse ek ek lamhaa...ek ek pal yaad hai...
Mera kaha hua lafz...meri kharoch tak yaad hai...
Mujhse zyaada usse unn lamhon ki parwaah hai...
Mujhse zyaada...woh uss ehsaas mein jee rahi hai...
Main yeh sab soch raha tha...
Doctors usse CT Scan ke liye bahar le aaye aur usse wahan le jaane lage...
Usse wahan jab le jaa rahe the...main bhi bass usse dekhte hua...usske saath chal pada...
Phirse usse ward mein shift kiya gaya...aur treatment phirse start kiya...
Main usse darwaaze par khada ...uss chote se kaanch se dekh raha tha...
Aakhir kya ho tum...
Ek mulaaqaat ne ...ek ehsaas ne hum donon ki zindagi ka naqsha badal diya...
Sochne ka nazariya badal diya...
Dil ki qaifiyat badal di...
Sirf ek Ehsaas ne...
Ek lamhaa aisa barpaa hua...
Dekha jab husn-e-yaar ka chehra...
Nazrein ussi par thehri thi...
Aankhen aur dil beqaaboo hua...
Yeh kaisa manzar hai...woh meri god mein hai...aankhen band kiye hue...usse jagane ki koshish kar raha hun...
Jiss ehsaas ne baandha tha...aaj woh ehsaas dard ki shakal ban gaya...
Woh ehsaas jo uska dard mere liye...uski takleef ka ehsaas meri aankhon se chalak raha hai...
Uske aankhen band hai...par mera dil toot raha hai...
Ek baar woh aankhen khole...
Ek baar mujhe woh dekhe...
Ek baar woh kuch toh bole...
Main usse baar baar lagaatar...keh raha tha...
Tara utho na...pls ek baar mujhse baat karo...
Ek baar meri pukaar sun lo...
Ussne aahistaa se aankhen kholi...mujhe dekha...
Ek khushi dil ko mayassar hui uss lamha...jab ussne aankhen kholi...dil mein ek khushi ki lehar daudi...
Main usse dekhta reh gaya...aur bekhudi mein kaha...
"Tara"
"Mrityunjay..."
Ussne mera naam pukaara...haan haan ...ussi ne pukara mujhe...
Mujhe kaanon par yakeen na aaya...
Aankhen kholte hi main...ussne mujhe pehchaana...
Sidd dekho usse main yaad hun...
usse main yaad hun...woh mujhe iss haalat mein bhi pehchaan rahi hai...mera dil rone laga...usske munh se apna naam sun...
Aur ussne kaha...
"Tum kahan gaye the mujhe chod...main kab se akele baithi thi na..."
Yeh kya keh rahi hai main yeh soch raha tha...
"tum mujhe chod kar mat jaana...mujhe andhere se darr lagta hai...jungle mein andhera hota hai na..."
Woh ek dum bachcho jaise baat kar rahi thi...
Baar baar aankhen band karti ...phir kholti...
"yeh kya ho raha hai...hum kahan jaa rahe hai"
"kahin nahi Tara...tum thik ho"
Woh phirse kehne lagi...
"tumhe pata hai...mera fav song kaunsa hai...~Sajni~...tumne gaaya na mere liye..."
"Bolo hun na main tumhari ~~Sajni~~"
"haan Tara ...ho tum..."
Ussne sar par haath rakha aur kehne lagi...
"Yeh kya ho raha hai...mera sar dard kar raha hai...hum kaha jaa rahe hai..."
Main baar baar usske sar par haath pherta aur usse kehta...
"Tara tumhe kuch nahi hua..."
Main rone laga...uski haalat dekh...woh baar baar aankhen band karti...phir kholti...behoshi ke bhi iss haalat mein usse hamari mulaaqat yaad hai...
Mere aansun...aur mujhe rota dekh...
Woh apne unhi pyaare haaton se mere aansun pochne lagi...
"tum kyun ro rahe ho...chup ho jao...mat ro
..."
Ussne phir aankhen band karli...
Kaisa ajeeb nazara hai...meri baahon mein hai...mera aansun poch rahi hai...behoshi ki haalat mein hai...phir bhi usse mera khyaal hai...
Main phir usse uthaane laga...
"Tara...Tara"
"Haan bolo...hum kahan jaa rahe hai...mujhe kya hua hai...
Mera sar dard kar raha hai..."
"tumhe kuch nahi hua hai tara..." maine uska haath thaam usse bharosa dilaaya...
"achcha...toh phir tum ab mujhe chod kar nahi jaaoge na...jungle mein akele..."
"mujhe uss aadmi se darr lagta hai..."
"Haan Tara nahi jaaunga chod kar..."
Yeh kya baatein kar rahi hai...kabhi aaj ki kabhi pehle ki...
"Pata hai...mere frnds aur hum...clg mein kitna enjoy karte hai na...mujhe kal jaldi clg jaana hoga...kal imp lec hai..."
"Hum jaldi hostel pohonch jaayenge na..."
"Haan Tara..."
Woh kahi ki bhi baatein kar rhi hai...
"Woh mujhe chidaate ...golgappa...aur mere gaal bhi kheenchte hai...mujhe golgappe bht pasand hai...tumhe hai kya..."
Aur muskuraane lagi...
"Unhe bolo na...mujhe na chidaaye..."
aur phirse aankhen band kar li...
Main kya karun...jiss muskurahat ka intezaar kiya...usske labon par jiss tabassum ka intezaar kiya...
Socha na tha iss tarah milegi...aisi haalat mein yunh iss tarah...
"Papa kahan hai...Bhai kahan hai..."
"Woh bhi aa rahe hai Tara..."
Ussne phir kaha...
"woh coffee kitni pyaari thi na...jo tumne mujhe pilaayi thi...smiley waali..."
Usse pata tha...woh baat bhi...woh jaanti thi...woh maine kiya tha...usski khushi ke liye...
Par ussne zaahir na kiya...ki usse pata hai...ya shayad mer nazron mein kami reh gayi jo main uski nigaahon ko padh na paaya...
Jaate jaate jo uski aankhon mein aansun the samet na paaya...
Uski dil ki aahat aur siskiyon ko samjh na paaya...
Yeh sab kya ho raha hai...yeh aise kyun baat kar rahi hai...
Woh mjhse baar baar ek hi sawaal karti...
"Mujhe kya hua hai...hum kahan jaa rahe hai..."
Main utne baar usse jawaab deta...
Lagbhag ussne 50 baar yahi swaal pucha...main baar baar usse jawaab deta raha...
Ussne phirse aankhen band kar li...
Woh baar baar hosh mein aati...phirse behosh ho jaati...
"Mrityunjay..."
"Haan Tara..."
"tumhari kharoch kaisi hai...tumhare haath par jo thi..."
Ab toh main kya karun isske iss baag par...itne subconciousness mein bhi...usse meri kharoch ki fikar hai...
Iss par toh meri aankh se aansun ke alaawa zubaan se ek lafz na nikla haan ya naa ke liye...
Usski aankhe phir band kar li...
Uske sar par jo chot lagi thi...woh choti si thi...khun behna bhi band ho gaya tha...
Par yeh behki behki baatein...
"Tara...tara ...uthona...dekhona meri taraf..."
Main usske gaalon ko thapthapa usse jagaane laga...usske munh par paani ka cheenta maarne laga...
Woh phirse hosh mein aa gayi...
"Mrityunjay..."
Yeh keh...mere haaton se zara se upar uth...mere seene se lag gayi...aur rone lagi...
Mujhe pakad siskiyan lene lagi...
Main pareshaan ho gaya...isse kya ho raha hai...
Yeh ro kyun rahi hai...
"tum mujhe mil gaye na...main jungle mein...baarish mein kab se bhig rahi hun..."
"Bolo...tum mujhe chhod kyun chale gaye..."
"Nahi tara ...Nahi jaaunga chodkar..."
Phirse chup ho gayi...
Sidd jaldi bhagoana...Car...Tara ki haalat bigad rahi hai...
Abhi inn kuch palon mein itna sab kuch ho gaya...
Woh phirse kehne lagi...
"Pata hai...meri zindagi mein...mujhe woh mila...woh..."
"Kaun Tara"
"Mrityunjay...kya tum usse jaante ho..."
"Nahi Jaanta Tara..."
"Tum nahi jaante main batati hun...woh ek Roshan sitara hai...Tara ki zindagi mein...jo chamka sirf ek raat ke liye...par zindagi bhar ke liye ujaala kar gaya..."
Usska bas itna kehna...maine usse kass kar apne seene se laga liya aur zor zor se ro pada...
Sid : Mj sambhaal apne aap ko...tujhe usse bhi sambhaalna hai...
Maine kisi tarh khud ko sambhala...ek toh usski yeh haalat...upar se uska yeh kehna...
Woh abhi bhi ussi haalat mein thi...drowsy...delerious...
Main ro raha hun...woh jitni baar mera naam leti gayi...utni baar...meri pakad...usski tarf mazboot hote jaa rahi thi...
Kaise sambhaalun khud ko...usse iss haal mein dekh...
Woh mere haathon mein hai...seene se lagi hai...main usse apni giraft mein pakda hua hun...
Woh pal aisa tha...jo main kabhi na socha tha...kabhi na bhoolun...uski woh haalat...
Usska woh kehna...
Uska ek ek lafz...
Aaj dusri dafa milaa hun usse...par woh ajnabee maalooom hoti nahi...
Uski takleef ka ehsaas mujhe iss tarah hai...woh mere wajood mein shaamil ho...
Yeh baat ...main saal bhar se apne dil se kehte aa raha tha...
Dheere dheere ...chupke chupke...
Yakeen tha bhi...aur na bhi...
Tasalli deta tha...khud ko...haan bhi aur na bhi...
Par uske alfaaz ne aa mere aur uske donon ke ehsaas par mohar lagaa di...
Pehli mulaaqaat ka gehraa asar aisa hua hai...jo hum donon ke dil pe naqsh kar gyaa hai...
Main na jaanta tha...
Usse seene se lagaye...yahi soch raha tha...
Mj...hospital aa gaya...
Sidd ne car roki...aur car ka darwaaza khola...
Main usse god mein uthaye bhaagne laga...
Sidd mujhse pehle...daudkar...pata lagaane laga...
Aur hum usse emergency ward mein le gaye...
Main Tara ko bed par lita diya...
Usska haath ab bhi mere haathon mein tha...
Nurse aa gayi...ussne mujhe kaha...
"aap bahar wait kijiye...doctor bhi aa rahe hai..."
Mujhe bahar jaana tha...dil toh nahi chaah raha tha...usse iss behoshi ki haalat mein chodna...
Par phir bhi...maine dheere se usske haathon se apna haath chudaaya...
Woh pal bhi mujhe utna hi takleef de raha tha...jitna ki usse...
Main bahar nikal aaya...
Aur deewaar se lag kar khada ho gaya...
Doctors ander gaye...
Ander uska treatment start ho gaya...
15 min baad ek lady doc bahar aayi...main tezi usski taraf dauda...
Aur pucha...
"Doctor kaisi hai...woh..."
Doc: Dekhiye...minor injuries hai...khun bhi zyaada baha nahi hai...par she is in delerious condition...so it could be internal heamorrhage... also...
CT Scan is required...
Maine kaha..."haan toh kijiye na..."
Doc: "aap hai na unke saath..."
"haan"
Maine haan keh diya...agar unhe pata chalta ki...i m stranger for her...
Woh log treatment rok bhi sakte the...consent ka naatak karte...
Aur main aisa kuch nahi chahtaa tha...
Doc: haan toh aap counter par fees pay kar dijiye...hum CT scan ke liye le jaate hai...
Maine Sidd se kaha...sab manage karne ke liye...
Maine apna credit card de diya...aur kaha...sambhaal le...
Main uss haalat mein nahi tha...ki yeh sab karun...
Sidd ne woh.sab sambhaal liya...
Woh yeh sab kar raha tha...
Aur main deewaar se lag kar khada...usske baare mein soch raha tha...
Main sochtaa tha...
Ek Ehsaas...
Ek mulaaqaat...jissne mujhe itna mutassir kiya...
Jissne meri zindagi ka rukh badla...
Zindagi mein pehli baar kisi ajeeb se ehsaas ne dastak di thi...
Main nahi jaanta woh kya tha...mohabbat chaahat...kashish...main usse woh sab naam nahi de sakta...
Pehli nazar...pehli mulaaqaat kya kisi ko deewaana bana sakti hai...
Kya kisi ko iss tarah beqaraar kar sakti hai...
Itna ke usska hona...uska aana ...uska jaana...usski muskurahat...uska aansun...uska dard...
Sab apna ban jaaye...
Usse khud mein mehsoos karne lagoon...
Usse wajood ka hissa samajhne lagoon...
Ek baar phirse in sab baatein dohraa raha hun...
Uss ne phirse dastak di hai...
Woh phir mujhe aa mili hai...
Inn saare sawaal ...ehsaas ke baare mein main nahi jaanta...
Bas ab mujhe usski fikar hai...
Bas ek baar woh thik ho jaaye...
Main samjhtaa tha...usska ehsaas ne sirf mujhe mutassir kiya hai...
Par yeh nahi jaanta tha...mujhse zyaada...
Woh mere ehsaas se bandhi hai...
Mujhse se zyaada usse unn ehsaason ne chua...
Woh mujhse zyaada mutaassir hai...
Usse ek ek lamhaa...ek ek pal yaad hai...
Mera kaha hua lafz...meri kharoch tak yaad hai...
Mujhse zyaada usse unn lamhon ki parwaah hai...
Mujhse zyaada...woh uss ehsaas mein jee rahi hai...
Main yeh sab soch raha tha...
Doctors usse CT Scan ke liye bahar le aaye aur usse wahan le jaane lage...
Usse wahan jab le jaa rahe the...main bhi bass usse dekhte hua...usske saath chal pada...
Phirse usse ward mein shift kiya gaya...aur treatment phirse start kiya...
Main usse darwaaze par khada ...uss chote se kaanch se dekh raha tha...
Aakhir kya ho tum...
Ek mulaaqaat ne ...ek ehsaas ne hum donon ki zindagi ka naqsha badal diya...
Sochne ka nazariya badal diya...
Dil ki qaifiyat badal di...
Sirf ek Ehsaas ne...
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