DIARIES:ZAROON KASHAF*UPDATED LAST PART 08/11*PG 66 - Page 9

Zaroon itna bura bhi nahi hai jitna main samjhti thi ya yeh keh sakte hai uski tabdeeli ne mujhe aisa kehne par majboor kar diya hai. Aaj jab main uski cabin mein gayi apna isteefa le kar toh usne mujhe hairan kar diya.
"Mr.Junaid mujhe ap se zaruri baat karni hai."
"Kashaf main ap ke hi cabin aa raha tha. Isse pehle ki aap mujhse kuch kahe main kuch kehna chahunga."
Maine usko sunne ka faisla kiya.
"Main..asal mein..main apse mazerat karna chah raha tha."
"Mazerat?"
Maine hairani se uske taraf dekha.
"Haan Kashaf mujhe apni har us harqat ke liye maafi chahiye jisse apko takleef hui hai aur kal jo hua uske liye main bohot sharminda hoon. Mujhe nahi chillana chahiye tha ap par aise. Ho sake toh mujhe maaf kar dijiyega."
Uski baatein sun ke ek pal ke liye toh laga ki main yakeenan sapna dekh rahe hoon magar wo sach tha. Wo waqai mein sharminda tha. Aaj uske chehre par maine kuch alag notice kiya. Woh pehle se zyada mature aur sanjeeda lag raha tha. Main asmanjas mein hi thi ki usne phir toka
"Kuch kahogi nahi?"
"Sir main har us cheez ke liye toh maafi nahi mangne wali kyun ki mera dil ap jitna bada nahi hai. Magar kal meri galti thi aur main maafi mangne hi ayi hoon isliye isteefa bhi saath layi hoon. Isme maine apni yeh laparwahi ko isteefe ka wajah bataya hai. Main apni galti ki puri responsibility le rahi hoon."
Maine apna isteefa age badhate huye kaha.
"Kashaf main apka yeh isteefa kabul nahi karunga. Ap ek kabil employ hai aur sirf ek galti ke liye apko yeh naukri nahi chorni chahiye."
"Magar sir.."
Ajib baat hai aaj pehli baar maine use sir keh kar pukara tha. Main hamesha use Mr.junaid hi keh kar bulati thi kyu ki meri soch thi use sir kehna mere liye ek tauheen hogi.
"Yeh baat yehi khatam hui. Aap please ab kaam shuru kar dein." Bina kuch kahe bas sar hila kar main uske cabin se nikal gayi.
Bohot ajib lag raha hai kyun ki aaj main diary mein Zaroon ka zikr toh kar rahi hoon magar uski burai nahi. Kuch chizon ki adat ho jati hai shayad aur shayad Karachi aane ke baad se ek bhi din nahi guzra hoga jab maine apni diary mein uska zikr nahi kiya ho. Zindagi mein jitni gaaliyan mere muh se nikli hai woh bas is shaks ke liye hi nikli hai. Kabhi socha nahi tha ki yeh din bhi ayega. Usne bohot galat harqate ki hai. Par aaj usne jis tarah se mujhse maafi mangi hai main uski izzat karne lagi hoon bohot nahi par todhi bohot to zarur. Lekin main abhi bhi us purane arrogant,flirt,beparwah,ziddi Zaroon se nafrat karti hoon. Zaroon mein tabdili kisi modze se kam nahi hai. Khair ab ye sab maazi ki baatein hai magar iska matlab yeh nahi ki mere behaviour mein koi badlav ayega uske hawale se , farq bas itna hoga ki main ab usse bura bhala nahi kahungi magar tabhi tak jab tak uska behaviour aisa hi rahe.Zabardasti ke jhagre toh main karti bhi nahi thi. Haan kafi zalil kiya hai maine use par woh unka haqdar tha. Maine use kabhi nuksan nahi pohchane ki koshish ki. Dekha jaye toh usne bhi kuch nuksan pohnchane ki koshish nahi ki agar woh mera nuksan hi chahta toh kal hi mujhe naukri se nikal deta.Khair usne maafi toh mang li hai . Ab yeh sab soch ke kya faida. Good night diary aaj ek aur sukun bhari raat hone wali hai.

Aaj mujhe phir hasi aa rahi hai. Socha nahi tha ki yeh din bhi dekhna parega. Kahan main use itna tang kiya karta tha aur aaj maine khud usse maafi mangi woh bhi apni har ek harqat ke liye. Wah bhai! itni himmat toh na thi kabhi mujhme.
Chalo ab koi ehsas-e-jurm toh nahi rahega mujhe. Usne bhi maafi mangi par mere hisab se toh uski galti thi hi nahi. Usne har mor par meri beizatti zarur ki hai magar mujhe use samjhna chahiye tha. Har ladki ek jaisi nahi hoti. Main use conservative toh nahi kahunga magar woh shayad aisi faltu chizon par tavajju nahi deti. Acha baat hai yeh toh. Magar hum mard bhi kitne hypocrite hote hai. Mehbooba me se hum boldness expect karte hai aur biwi aisi chahiye jo in sab chizon se parhez kare bhale hi hum kuch bhi kare.
Kashaf ek achi ladki hai maine usse maafi mang kar acha kiya magar main phir bhi manta hoon ki uska dimag saathwe asman par hi rehta hai. Aisi ladki maine dekhi nahi kabhi sach kahun toh.
Sochta hoon kya woh bhi mere jaise diary likha karti hogi? Ammi jab mujhe diary likhta dekhti thi toh kehti thi
"Yeh diary likhne ki adat kyun hai tumhe?"
"Shayad taki main kabhi apne har ek lamhe ko phir se jee sakun."
aur woh has dia karti thi. Maine apni diary kabhi read nahi ki,time hi nahi milta magar kabhi toh baithunga shayad apne budhape mein aur yeh saari baatein padhunga. Yakeenan apni soch aur naadaniyon par hasunga. Aaj mann toh bohot kuch likhne ko hain. Magar kal ek important deal hai office jaldi pohnchna hai. Good night.

Ye dono bhi ek dusre ki tareef jyada samay tak nahi kar sakte. After a little praise they are back to "i m right, she/ he deserved it" way of thinking 😆😆😆

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