amma appa silently looking at ishitha who was crying inconsolably in her sister arms
'ishitha without telling the matter if you go on crying how can we solve your problem ?' her sister tried to make ishitha spell the beans
she recalled the last two days how raman was ignoring her she was about to disclose the matter to her akka but stopped thinking to solve the issue between themselves
sitting with them for few minutes in silence she left her father home leaving them in worry thinking what happened to their strong daughter
mihir who was busy in explaining him about the new marketing strategies they are about to introduce noticed that his brother is not paying any attention
'bhai i am discussing about important thing but you are not at all paying attention to me' questioned mihir bringing raman out of his thoughts
'mihir we will discuss about this tomorrow,i have a headache i will leave now' said raman taking his coat
'bhai what is going on with you since two days you are not ok and you are not paying attention at work,is everything ok?' asked mihir
'kuch samaj nahi araha hu mihir mera dil kya bolna chahta hi yeh mera dimak ko nahi samaj raha hi' said raman
'dimak nahi raman thum ignore kar rahi hu jo baath thumhara dimak aur dil bolna chahthi hu' said mihir
making raman to settle back on the chair getting back into his thoughts
don't think too much raman,i understood you doesn't want to share this with me,so i suggest if the matter is about money then listen to your mind no if it is about your loved ones then listen to heart
dil ka baath sunna chahthi hu mihir lekin ye tho kuch darr hi mera andhar voh mujje peche kench rahi hu said raman
daar kis baath keliye aapko ? asked surprised mihir
ishitha ka dil mey mere jagah ka daar thought raman not answering the same to mihir
acha teek hi math bolo aur jaldhi sey aap yeh tension sey baahar aajavo kyounki mi raman bhalla nahi hu iss company ko jyada dhin sambal karne keliye
said mihir walking out of raman's cabin
raman bhalla ko bhi dil hotha hi mihir exclaimed raman after mihir left
...
he was surprised to see his home all silent in the early evening 4,he silently walked into his bedroom to see
his wife sleeping which is wierd according to her routine,thinking she might be stressed out he silently left to fresh up
he was worried when she didn't wake up even after listening sounds in their room and outside where all the family members were speaking about the marriage they attended,before he can wake up her ruhi barged into their room calling her mother loudly 'ishimaa'
he saw her opening her eyes to see him and their daughter infront of her
he couldn't stop himself to smile a little when his daughter landed in her arms laughing happily saying that she won the running competation in her school and her mother showering number of kisses on their little daughter congratulating her
after showing her tropy to her mother she turned towards her father who instantly picked up her kissing her cheeks congratulating her
'ruhi tell me what gift you want from papa for wining in the competation?' he asked
i want to have icecream with you mama papa romi chachu and everyone in the home said ruhi making him tear up,she is not materialistic and can be never like her biological mother he thought
papa will you bring icecream? asked ruhi looking at her father who was all silent
ishitha silently left the room as she understood he was thinking about shagun
'sure beta,do one thing go and ask everyone what flavors they want i will get it' said raman while his little daughter
ran out of the room to get the list of everyone favourite flavors
when he walked into the hall after few minutes his daughter came back with the list
'you had noted everyone's favourite ruhi?' asked raman
no papa mamma said she doesn't want any icecream said ruhi making raman shift his gaze towards ishitha who was already looking at them
its ok ruhi we can't force anyone for anything said raman walking out along with their daughter
while ishitha left to their room in tears seeing raman's ignorance
senior bhallas who witnessed this understood that their DIL and son didn't patched up this time
and prayed to God to remove the distance between the couple
later in the night when he walked into their room,he saw ishitha sleeping on the couch and he glanced at the bed where she let shagun sleep when it is her place
sighing at his fate he settled on the bed to catch sleep so that his thoughts can be halted temporarily
after he slept she opened her eyes 'why you are doing this raman,if you are angry at me scold me but why you are killing me with this silence and why your silence is hurting me so much why i am getting affected with your ignorance
why my heart is crying seeing you going away from me,what my heart is intending to tell me,why you are not giving me a chance to apologize you'
she thought
with continuous thoughts which has no end she drifted into sleep
he woke up in the mid night after hearing some painful cries,when he switched on the light,he got worried seeing ishitha sitting with her head on her knees crying in pain
he rushed towards her 'ishitha look at me,what happened? he shaked her making her to look at him
he was shocked to see her nose bleeding 'what the hell your nose is bleeding,what happened to you?' he questioned her
'nothing you please sleep' she said not wanting his attention when he didn't gave a chance for her to speak in last two days
are you mad you are bleeding come get up? he said pulling her hand
she wriggled out from his hold but the next moment she lost the balance with her giddiness and fallen back into his arms
raman who was really scared seeing her unconscious rushed out with her in his arms
...
doctor what happened to my wife is she alright? she fainted all of sudden asked a tensed raman
mr.bhalla your wife is fine,we have done tests the results will be coming in another 10mins later we can discuss why this happened and now she is in sedation
informed doctor while raman walked towards the cabin where ishitha shifted after emergency seeing her still
his heart ached
...
raman was eagerly waiting for the doctor to speak up while the doctor was busy in examining the reports
mr.bhalla your wife has a problem in fallopian tubes do you know that? doctor questioned
'yes i know' said raman not understanding what the doctor wants to tell him
she does't have this problem from birth but by seeing her reports we can say that her abdominal tuberculosis infection was spread to fallopian tubes as they did late to identify the disease
said doctor while raman was thinking about ishitha's medical problems connecting with doctor's words
so many years had been since you married questioned doctor
it is just nearly 9 months answered raman
ok she might need to go IVF treatment to cure her fallopian tubes,as she can't conceive normally said doctor while raman looked at him like what the heck you are saying
please first tell me why she fainted? questioned raman controlling all his anger
see people who suffered with tuberculosis should take proper diet,they shouldn't skip meals i think your wife is not taking her food properly from few days and the stress level is high because of which her BP got fluctuated and the bleeding is also because of the same
ask her not to skip her meals and she has to take these medicines which i am prescribing for a week
i think your wife is stressed out because of infertility problem,when her health gets improved we can discuss about the procedure she should undergo
said doctor
to give an end to the doctor's talk he silently nodded and left the room with reports
when he reached ishitha's room he saw her wide wake taking the medicines which nurse had given her
when the nurse walked out he angrily throwed away the reports on the side table and marched towards her 'didn't God given you some brain?why you are skipping meals if this could have been serious what if your tuberculosis got relapsed'
questioned her little low in voice considering the place
'so what i will die this is not your problem' she shouted as she couldn't hold back her grief which she was holding from past two days and now when she was hospitalised he was speaking and questioning her
kisiko bhi meri parwa nahi hi she cried hiding her face in her palms
eventhough she did mistake he couldn't ignore her in this situation when she forgiven him for his many mistakes
the problem is they are doing mistakes and apologizing but they are not thinking to solve the root cause of their mistakes thought raman
her loud sobs made him come out of his thoughts,grabbing the bottle he poured the water into a glass and forwarded it to her
'ishitha see here and have this water' said raman to get no response from her
keeping the glass aside he removed her palms from her face to see her worn out face,he softly wiped her tears,when she couldn't bear the difference between them she fell in his arms her arms around his waist while her face cocooned on his shoulder her tears wetting his shirt telling him the depth of her grief
'please raman don't keep me away from you,i can't live with these spaces,if i do mistake scold me give me some punishment but not your silence'
cried ishitha
while raman patted her back consoling her
'ishitha i didn't intentionally ignored you,i and my heart totally messed up with your one act' said raman
i am sorry raman i shouldn't have brought shagun to our home i am sorry please forgive me cried ishitha
listening her words he pulled out ishitha from his embrace 'shagun ko ghar laaya tho laaya lekin thum usko humara kamre mey kyoun laaya,humare bed pey?' he couldn't continue as tears brimmed out of his eyes
raman i am sorry i am really sorry said ishitha
raman who was really angry recalling the day couldn't stop himself from bursting out on her
'damm it i don't want your sorry ishitha,i want the reason why you brought the woman who lived with me and had two kids with me,the one who is cheating me right under my nose by having an extramarital affair with my boss
and the one who made my son against me,and the one who left me and my 6months old baby' shouted raman
while tears rolled out from her eyes seeing the pain he went through by recalling all the worst days of his life because of her
i am sorry raman she said sobbing
no ishitha i want answers why the hell you brought the lady into our home,i know i did hurted you many times,by making you apologize to adi and shagun for no mistake of yours,and then by hiding the matter of amma's accident i tried to save adi being with shagun,i hurted you by accompaining them for picnic
but never ever i brought her to our home our bedroom to our bed ishitha cried raman
whenever i had to agree with shagun for adi's sake i died 100 times inside
i am unable to think how can a woman bring her husband's ex-wife to her bedroom,this is out of my understanding
i thought we reached a level from ruhi's parents to caring life partners but lately i understood that it is only from my side
voiced a hurted raman
raman i am sorry i didn't thought to hurt you cried ishitha
until unless you tell me the reason of you bringing her to our home i won't forgive you ishitha,i called you 1000 times worried about your wellbeing but you never attended my call even for once
and directly brought her to my home,during adi's case you ignored me thinking i am supporting shagun then now why you yourself brought her to our home
tell me ishitha ' forced her holding her arms shaking her to spill our why she didn't thought about him before bringing his ex to their home
i was afraid raman she whispered making raman to froze at his place not able to interpret her words
'afraid?' he questioned
yes raman when i saw shagun on the road drinking and screaming i took her to ashok's home but their i got to know his brother throwed her out of their mansion
listening that i am afraid,i thought if shagun become homeless she may try to come back to you using adi,and it reminded me amma's accident time where you hid about adi being the culprit just because shagun's saying
i thought you will abondon me, the thought of losing you and ruhi made me to think irrational i thought if i give shelter to shagun just for one night will keep her safe as she is adi's mother and if anything happens to her adi won't be alright,if adi is not
ok then you are not ok,you will be at shagun's service which i couldn't tolerate instead of you if i take care of her
i thought atleast i can keep you away from her but i never thought i will rub off your old wounds' cried ishitha after pouring out her insecurities
raman was in tears listening ishitha's words, he never thought she would have such type of insecurities in her about him
here he was dying that ishitha may not have any feelings for him,but there she is doing impossible thing a wife can do just because not to loss her husband
a doubt popped in his mind thinking she loves him or she just want him to not to loss ruhi
is this because you thought i will snatch ruhi away from you or you doesn't want to loss me ishitha he asked in trembling voice as he doesn't want to listen that all her fight is just for ruhi
she looked into his eyes listening his words,when she brought shagun she only thought to keep her position as raman's wife and ruhi's mother safe
but when he avoided her,her heart and mind tried to make her understand what she feels for him but she ignored them
but now if she hide her feelings she know she may loss her husband which she doesn't want at any cost
she throwed herself in his arms crying silently answering him with her actions,raman wrapped his arms around her hugging her close to his heart that she not only cleared their misunderstandings but she disclosed what his heart trying to say him from a long time
i am sorry ishitha because of my insensitiveness i hurted you so much not anymore,you and ruhi are my priority and adi he will be always my son and i can only fulfill his valid wishes
never ever think that i will allow other woman come between us,you are and will be my wife for this life and next lives
he said cupping her face and wiping her tears
'jhansi rani ke bina raavan kumar nahi ji saktha i tried a lot but i couldn't stop myself to fall in love with you head over heels'
said raman joining his forehead with hers while she smiled shyly listening his heartful confession
raavan kumar ke bina jhansi rani bhi nahi ji sakthi said ishitha with tearful eyes
'copy cat' said raman while she planted a wet kiss on his cheek which he never expected
i think i should take a second thought on doctor's words said raman caressing the place where she kissed
what he said ? asked ishitha
'doctor said i can get a junior jkr from this senior jkr only if she wills 'explained raman with a wink
all ishitha could do after hearing his words is tear up in her husband arms
i never thought we would reach here said raman
i too said ishitha
both smiled seeing each other as they crossed a big step in their life,now they are together in every thick and thin of their life
Book Talk
Anupamaa
