Ishra ss-ishq da rog sayaana#2,pt 18 on pg 134 updt on Mar 23 - Page 5

Raman -sach kehta hoon ishita, Maine kabhi chuniya ko galat nazar se nahi dekha. How can I, she is a baby. Choti bachchi hai woh,how can I lust over her. She is just a baby to me. He was telling same thing again and again trying to make her believe him.

Ishita -aap kyun mujhe vishwas dilane ki koshish kar rahen hai Raman, I trust u. Mujhe bharosha hai aap par. Aap chunnu ko kya kisi ko galat nazar se nahi dekha sakte.she said holding his hand tight.

Raman looked at her and said -u really trust me.

Ishita nodded and he just smiled feeling good.she moved closer to him and settled his head on her shoulder and said caressing his hair softly -U know aap sabse best ho, aur bewakoof hai woh bachche jinhone aapke saath aisa kiya, dekhiyega,one day they will regret their mistake. Aur uss din woh dono aapke paas wapas aayenge aur kahenge , I am sorry papa.

Raman looked at her and said -tumhe lagta hai aisa din kabhi aayega. Woh dono kabhi mere paas wapas aayenge.

Ishita nodded and said -i know aisa din jarur aayega,kyunki duniya mein har kuch mil sakta hai par Ek papa ka pyaar nahi mil sakta. She said and raman again settled his head on her shoulder saying -ab unke papa nahi hai yahan. Maine bahut koshish ki unhe sahi raaste par laane ki, but they didn't leave any chance to insult me. I don't think I can ever forgive them. I don't want them back, kyunki woh mere bachche nahi rahe. They r not my adi rooh. He said and hugged ishita tightly trying to find solace in her. Ishita thought to say something but then thought otherwise and left the convo in mid, thinking now Raman want her company more then anything. She just wrapped her arms around him and both sat silently together.

Sometime passed, they were sitting silently hugging each other when ishita smiled sarcasticly.

Raman looked at her and said -kya hua, why u r smiling.

Ishita nodded saying-kuch nahi, bas apni bewakoofi par has rahi hoon. Main aaj tak kitni dukhi thi yeh soch kar ki main akeli hoon, because I can't bear a child. Mujhe sabne akela chod diya just because I can't be a mother, But aaj dekh rahi hoon ki jinke bachche hai woh mujhse jyada dukhi hai. Atleast mujhe kisi ko iss tarah khone ka dukh toh nahi hai.

Raman looked at her with confused eyes and said -kya Matlab by that u can't bear a child.

Ishita -haan raman yeh sach hai, main kabhi maa ban sakti. She said looking down while Raman was shocked hearing this.

Raman -kya??

Ishita nodded in yes and said -yahin kaaran hai mere akelapan ka. That I can't be a mother.kuch saal pehle, I use to live with my family, my amma -appa.unn logon ne meri shaadi fix kar di thi. Meri shaadi honi wali thi. She said making raman little uncomfortable. He sat straightening himself when she continued -dulhan bani thi main, sab kitne khush the, aur phir achanak sab kuch badal gaya. Main faint ho gayi aur medical check up ke baad pata chala, I can never conceive. Ek hi pal mein sab ujad gaya. Meri shaadi tut gayi, aur appa ko heart attack ho gaya.he died on spot aur amma bhi kuch din baad unke gham mein chal badi, leaving me alone in this world. Ekdum akeli ho gayi thi main. Kuch jyada aata bhi nahi tha, padhi likhi bhi nahi thi. Kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha,ki kaise akele jeeungi. Toh Ek friend me iss dabba service ka idea diya. I started it with very little capital.but with my hard work, I reached where I am today. She said looking down while Raman was looking at her all amazed.

Ishita looked at him and asked -aise kya dekh rahen hai.

Raman -yahin dekh raha hoon ki duniya mein kitni takleef hai, log kaise alag alag reason se dukhi hai aur hume hamesha lagta hai, ki hum hi sabse jyada dukhi hai. But the reality is everyone has a pain of themselves.

Ishita looked at him when he said -yes actually, tumhe lagaa ki tum dukhi ho kyunki tum maa nahi ban sakti aur mujhe lagaa main duniya mein sabse akela hoon. But the truth is, tum mujhse jyada akeli thi. At least I was capable of taking care of myself financially, I had a job to take care of myself. But tum, tumhare paas toh kuch bhi nahi tha, toh hua naa tumhara dard mujhse jyada.

Ishita -yes, I was sad once because of my loneliness and my disability too. But sach kahun toh aaj naa main akeli hoon aur naa hi dukhi. I have u with me.

Raman -yes, u r right, main bhi dukhi nahi, aur akela toh bilkul nahi, coz I have u. He said looking at her, she was already looking at him. Both look at each other and shared a beautiful eye lock.

They were very close to each other ,Raman took his hand to her cheek and caressed her face softly. She closed her eyes feeling his touch while he slide his fingers in her hair sending shiver down her nerve. She clutched the dupatta feeling goosebumps. He pulled her a little and pecked her temple softly. She felt blessed under his touch. She inched closer to him expecting more. He looked at her closed eyes and kissed them. Then he touched her lips with his fingers and she bite her lips in excitement making him desire more for her. He bend to capture her lips when there was a loud knock on the door breaking their trance.

Ishra looked at each other and then withdraw their hands in a jiffy. They looked away when the bang got louder and they heard a lady's voice -raman sahab.

Ishita -laajo, yeh toh laajo ki awaaz hai. She said while laajo cried loudly making Ishra tensed.

Raman -why she is crying, chalo dekhte hai. He said and both ran to the door. He open the door and saw laajo crying.

Ishita -laajo, kya hua??

Laajo -ishita didi, woh chuniya, woh woh kahin chali gayi hai. Nahi mil rahi.

Raman -kya Matlab nahi mil rahi.

Laajo -woh ghar aayi thi, she asked me why u go from ishita didu's house without meeting her. I told her that u heard my words. Toh woh gussa ho gayi, bahut royi mujhse jhagda kiya aur phir kahin chali gayi. Main tab se dhoondh rahi hoon par mil hi nahi rahi. Sahab mere ko maaf kar do, main aapka dil nahi dukhana chahti thi, bas apni beti ko safe rakhna chahti thi. Mere se iss liye galti ho gayi. Pata nahi meri chuniya kahan chali gayi. Mere ko bahut darr lag raha hai. Itni raat ho rahi hai. Kuch Karo sahab, kuch karo. She said crying falling on Raman's feet.