OS: His Eyes Don't Lie (Updated Last Part (4) on Pg 8) - Page 3

Part 3

My God! He is so stubborn... Ziddi Kumar... It has been two weeks and this man has been acting like a two year old... I am so irritated with him right now... Oh I am going to kill him... once this mess is cleared... I am going to kill him... these last two weeks have been a nightmare!... he can be so cruel... every day I learn something new about him... these days it is more bad than good... but still I do... he deliberately tries to provoke me... to insult me... to humiliate me... and it hurts!!! it really hurts... if it weren't for those darn eyes... then I would not know what he really feels and I could just leave... I could just believe all that foul garbage that he spews and move on... but I cant!!!

I cant because I know him... who am I kidding? I would never leave him... Vandu Akka says that we women try to hide and live with our husbands flaws because we love them... had she told me the same thing in June this year I would have laughed at her... told her that no women with common sense would do such a thing... but that was before I fell in love... that was before I realized that He was important... that common sense and matters of the heart needn't always go hand in hand... look at me today... one year ago... I was a successful dentist... life had no complications... it was moving on just fine... and then I met Ruhi... my life had a meaning... but it also had a villain... Raavan Kumar... the unwanted byproduct that I got with Ruhi... I hated him... but life still moved on... today my life is a mess... there are so many complications that I have stopped trying to sort them out... there is so much of negativity around that at times I want to just give up... but I don't... because I realized that in all this chaos I found the thing that was missing in my life... I found the person that completes me... the person whose presence makes me strong enough to face any problems... yes there are problems... yes my family is hurting... but I know that everything is going to be OK... that we will come out of this... because he is there with me... because his presence is my greatest strength... now also my life is moving on... but instead of being a passerby looking at it move on... I am living the journey... all because of him...

Suddenly I hear my phone ringing... it is Vandu Akka... the moment I receive the call she starts off... asking me where I am... why have I been off the grid for so long... when will I be back... I zone out and suddenly a thought brings a smile... now I understand what He means when he says that we Iyer women like to lecture... I shake my head to get back to reality and listen to Akka... I assure her that I am fine and just needed a break... I promise to be there as soon as possible... I cut the call and only then realize that there are 92 missed calls on my phone... wondering why every one has called I glance at the time and realize that I have been here for five hours... after the argument with him today morning I was so angry that I left the house and just walked... I walked all the way to the Yamuna river bank and sat here... I like this place... this is my sanctuary... after Subbu left I spent hours here and today I didn't even realize when I came here... now I realize that everyone might be worried...i immediately call home and assure Ruhi and Mummy ji that I am OK... just needed a little space...

As I clear my call log I notice that more than half the calls are from an unknown land-line number... I wonder who is worried about me more than my whole family put together... As I call back on the number I realize who it is... I smile as my guess turns out to be true... the receptionist at PSR doesn't even ask whom I want to talk to... she has instructions to transfer any calls from me to Him... suddenly I hear yelling on the phone... He is in Raavan Kumar mode... shouting at me for being irresponsible... for not caring about others... I get up and begin walking towards the auto stand... his screaming and yelling is soothing... because it tells me that he cares... I don't say a word to him... just cut the call and ask the auto driver to take me home...

As the cool early winter air hits my face I remember my life one year ago... so much has changed since then... so many ups and downs... but the one thing I learnt in this year is that I am going to have to fight for my happiness... for his happiness... for Ruhi's happiness... because I am stronger... He may be one of the most influential businessmen in Asia... but when it came to love and relationships... he was pudding... few hours ago I wanted to give up... wanted to leave everything and go away with my daughter... but that was a moment of weakness... now I am strong again... just hearing his voice has given me the strength again...

I am paying the auto driver when I see a group of ladies from Amma's prayer group walk up... why are the here?... I see one of them carry a cradle and it clicks... I had forgotten that today was Vandu Akka's baby shower... till yesterday I was making plans with her about today... and one small fight with him and I forget my Akka... no wonder everyone was so worried... I walk towards my home... greeting those ladies from far as I hurry home... the next few hours are going to be rough...

After assuring evertone at home that I am fine I rush to get ready... Simmi has taken charge of Ruhi... she has been my go-to person in the last few days... perhaps because no one understands my situation better than her... this blind belief in my husband... she says the difference between our situations is that my husband is a good man... while hers was the vilest man on earth...

I wear a royal blue kanjivaram saree and walk towards Amma's flat... I don't want to go... Only for Akka am I going to attend a function in which every second is going to remind me that such an occasion will never come in my life... I never like such occasions... and if it weren't for my family... I would walk away from it... if it weren't for Akka and Jiju... I would stay away from it... everyone thinks that I am OK with Akka's pregnancy... and I am... but every once in a while... I feel jealous... not because Akka is having a baby... but because Raman, Ruhi and I can never have the moments that Akka has with her family during the pregnancy... Raman and Ruhi deserve it... but my reality doesn't allow it...

I am walking towards Akka when I begin to hear the whispers... I ignore them and move forward... Ruhi holds my hand... she knows that all this baby related talks makes me sad... how I wish he was here... I assure Akka that I am fine and go on to help the others... Mummy ji, Mihika and Simmi have taken up the duty of being my guards... any time some random lady mentions him they dive in and change the topic... Mihir and Romi are standing near the kitchen passing food... I laugh when I see them shoot dirty and intimidating looks at Akka's mother-in-law Chandran Aunty... they are warning her not to mess with me today... Appa, Papa ji and Jiju are talking to Subbu... for some reason they think that Subbu's presence is affecting me... it is not Subbu's presence that makes me sad... it is His absence that affects me... Subbu is not even an after thought any more...

The function starts and I slowly begin to move back... Mummy ji comes and stands next to me... it gives me a funny feeling when I see Mummy ji ready to fight the world for me... until now I only had Amma... but now I have Mummy ji... the bond I have with Mummy ji is much more than what I have with Amma... because she also understands His pain... I turn to the other side only to realize that my whole family is standing with me... Simmi, Mihika and Papa ji are right next to me... Mihir and Romi are taking guard on either side... ready to pounce on anyone who dares to hurt me... and Ruhi... she hasn't left my hand since I entered... I am feeling blessed... but I still want Him here...

The rituals start... Amma looks at me... I am feeling bad for Amma... she wants me to be there... but knowing Chandran Aunty... she wants to protect me... I nod to her and she smiles... marrying him was a good decision... seeing my family with me, Amma and Appa are at peace... previously such occasions were an emotional nightmare for them... but today... they can enjoy Akka's motherhood without feeling guilty...

The rituals are going on when I hear Akka calling me forward... Sometimes I wonder... is this the same balanced, intelligent collage principal or an airhead... Akka wants me to be a part of the rituals... and I do too... but the drama surrounding it hurts... but she never gets that!... so once again I move forward... resigning myself for rejection and taunts... after the ceremony I am going to talk to Akka... she needs to know that she doesn,t have to do all this to show her support... I walk forward knowing that there is going to be a big drama... how I wish He was here... he would know that I don't want to be here and would have just taken me away from here...

I hear Chandran Aunty making a fuss... there she goes again like the same old broken record... my infertility seems to be a big issue with her... I keep quiet knowing well that it is no use telling her anything... maybe it was before... but now she is not a part of my life... to the people who matter I am complete just the way I am... I look around for Ruhi and see her ready to fight for me... Simmi sees me and I nod my head... immediately she takes Ruhi, Ananya and Shravan to our flat... I have had enough... I turn to walk away when I see a sight that makes me smile... Amma looks angry and Mummy ji is trying to pacify her... my family is ready to fight for me... but they know me... they realize that I don't like such confrontations so they are trying to control their Punjabi anger... to the extent that they are pacifying Amma... how I wish He could see this... then He would know that I am the luckiest person on earth... because in spite of all the hardships... I have so much to feel proud and happy about... I am walking away when I hear Chandran Aunty take His name... call him a good for nothing drunkard and cheat... I turn around and look at Jiju... hoping he would say something but he doesn't... I am disappointed... He has become an outcast for Jiju and even now Jiju doesn't defend Him... I see red... I turn around and for the first time answer back to Chandran Aunty... I answer back to her and all the self-righteous ladies who think that they can speak ill about me and my husband - "I have moved on... you and you younger son have no place in my life... I don't care about Subbu but hope that he has moved on too... you need to let go... find someone else to be your target... oh and one more thing... before you dare to say anything about my husband I think you should speak to your son..."

I have a feeling of accomplishment... today I cleared the last cob web from my past... I am walking towards the exit without paying attention to anything when I hit into something solid... for a moment I am disoriented but then I begin to feel safe... I look up to see him shaking with anger... but that doesn't hold my attention... what pulls me is the shock and remorse that I see in his eyes... Finally the war is over... he may have been winning the battles these last few weeks... but I have won the war... because his eyes are telling me that he has surrendered... that he now knows what I want and he is going to fight to get me what I want...

While I am letting victory sink in he pushes me aside and walks towards the crowd... he turns to Vandu Akka and tells her what I have been trying to tell her for the last so many years - " Vandita... Ishita is very happy for you... but you need to realize that it is not her infertility which hurts her... it is the fact that at every such function like this she becomes the entertainment target... you know how she hates being the cause for trouble... so show some sensitivity next time and allow my wife to decide how much she wants to be involved.." - I feel bad for Akka but am glad that she finally knows how I feel... that I don't have to worry about her feeling bad if I don't attend such functions in future.

He then turns to Chandran Aunty and says - " you really have no life is it??? you feel guilty that Subbu did not get the best life partner in the world because of you... but that is your problem and may be your son's if he hasn't moved on... my daughter has warned you... I have warned you... but you just don't listen... so here it goes... the next time that you are the cause for Ishita's pain... or if I find you even enjoying Ishita's pain I am going to destroy everything that matters to you... trust me... I can..." - I hold his hand and am tugging him towards the exit when he stops... he walks to Jiju and says - "Bala, I am done... I gave up everything to protect you and you couldn't even stand up for my wife... I never expected you to go against your mother and support Ishita... but the least you could have done was to pacify your mother and diffuse the situation... I am done... deal with your problems yourself because Ishita and I have our marriage to look after... we cant compromise it for anyone from now on..." - he pulls me towards the door and we walk away... I am just glad that no one heard the conversation between him and Jiju... because the Raman I know would have regretted letting the cat out of the bag once his anger subsided... only his last sentence was loud enough for everyone to hear... and for that I was glad... because today the whole world knew what I had been saying for the last few weeks...

Now I feel like I am walking on clouds... the feeling of anticipation is making me float with happiness... because even through his anger I can see that he has accepted his fate... his eyes now hang on to me and greedily try to take in everything about me that they missed in the last few weeks... his eyes tell me that I have won... but being only human I want more... I am tired of this war that we have been fighting... I want the words now... and I know that they are going to come soon... because his eyes don't lie...

Well... that is it for now... hope you all like this part also... will update the last part soon!!!

Enjoy!!!