The Forbidden Magic. - Page 33

i guess finally i am coming closer to understand whats forbidden...

so she is scared of love...i hope she will overcome it

she know needs to know tht yes it is love ...just not infatuation...this confusion is awww...u cant solve it...uff

oh gosh...maheen is scared to fall in love ...she still only "like" zeeshan & his company ...that is obvious coz he make her feel like a princess & but yeah love has to be from both sides...zeeshan has done everything for her...understand her, cared for her,wiped away her tears , loved & respected her...like noone does but in return still maheen haven't done anything for him...is it becoz she is not in love with him .or she is but her parents example is blocking her mind to admit that she actually love zeeshan!!!!!!!! gosh such a fantastic update kinza...ur writngs r not only romantic , or make me smile ,they also make me think ...*sigh u r such a gifted writer magician!!!!!!!!!! i m becoming a huge fan of ur writings, loving it more & more with each day passing!!!!!!!!God bless u!!!!🤗

Brilliant update...Beautifully written...
I can surely understand maheen's situation...Her dilemma is obvious coz i think she dnt have that love for zeeshan which he ws looking for in her eyes...Im sad for zeeshan but there's nothing to do if she dnt feel the same...
I hope this magic will not be forbidden in the end...
Cont soon...

awesome updt kinza
thanks for the pm

Updated my comment on page 51...😳

okay sweets .. so i am really nervous for all your reactions after this .. but all i want to say is that .. these characters were meant to behave like this ..

Chapter # 14:

A new morning began, London was under heavy shower. It had been raining the whole night, and still at dawn it was raining.

Right when Zeeshan expected sunlight to shine and enlighten the world, even thick clouds came by, yet again throwing the world in darkness. His intuitions were never wrong, but how ardently he was praying that today they should turn out wrong.

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"you don't like rains maheen, then why do you want to meet me so urgently?", his heart was pounding heavily against his ribs, while maheen on the other hand was calm, "we need to meet Zeeshan, what about River Thames, please"

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Zeeshan had reached first and was standing in the shade, when he saw Maheen coming towards him, fearlessly walking in the rain, not at all bothered about all those drops which were drenching her completely.

Seeing that sight, all the fears in Zeeshan's mind took the form of final confirmation and he decided not to let things slip from his hands. He'll take the step before anything goes wrong.

"Maheen', he faked the excitement and hugged her tightly, now the rain drenching him completely, "what happened sweetheart?', you were so eager?", he kissed her cheek and Maheen just stood motion-less, "we had to talk, about me"

"as always, so what service can I offer today to my love, what is the problem?", he again pulled her close and Maheen smiled, "you know na my parents had a divorce?" she said with a smile and Zeeshan nodded plainly, "and you know the reason was that they both realized that they had never loved each other, so they moved apart after 15 years, leaving two shattered children behind, me and my brother",

Zeeshan had always wanted to know the real reason of Maheen's despair, and everytime he imagined the time of her confession, he used to think that it will always be full of tears and pain, but today her eyes were calm and silent.

"and you know I always alleged my parents for destroying my life, I always used to think that what if they both would have compromised, for the sake of their children, what if they could have sacrificed their own wishes and lived together, it wouldn't have been so difficult", she said, now blinking her eyes to let the lingering water droplets fall and Zeeshan was just listening.

"but now I realize that it was not their fault, they were in a forbidden relation, and forbidden relations are meant to be broken, they can never survive", she again smiled and this time Zeeshan thought he had reached the verge of loosing her when yet again she started speaking,

"their relation is just like..

And before she could complete, Zeeshan sealed their lips to silence her. He kissed passionately while Maheen just held onto him, without giving any response, but Zeeshan was persistent, until he pulled back a little,

"I love you Maheen, marry me"?, he whispered those words in her ears and Maheen closed her eyes.

"I don't love you Zeeshan",

And Zeeshan's heart lost it's beat. Her voice was plain, dry and which shook him within was – her voice was honest.

"for once will you stop showing attitude and start behaving like normal girls do when they are proposed?", he chuckled and pulled her close, but he knew his touch was not affecting her today.

"I am serious Zeeshan, I don't love you", she repeated and this time Zeeshan didn't demand seriousness because he knew she was never this serious before.

"maheen do you realize what you are saying?", this time his tone also complimented her seriousness.

"I do realize Zeeshan and I am glad that I realized it before any damage was done, I realized it before it was too late, and I realized it at the point where i won't regret leaving nay painful remains of this relation", she took a step further and took his hands in her hands,

"I don't love you Zeeshan", she opened her eyes wide and there was never this assurance in her eyes. Zeeshan was shocked to see that clarity – no confusion , no dilemma.

"I have realized that the companionship we share is no where near love, and neither is it that deep to bind us for a life time, I don't feel that way Zeeshan,", she cupped his face and Zeehsan pinned her against the barrier,

"stop it maheen!!, this is not funny anymore, and neither is this all adorable, do you understand!!, do you have any idea what the hell do all your words mean", he was angry, but his eyes were showing the helplessness and yet again maheen was about to speak, when he cut her, "if you don't love me then what have we shared maheen?, what relation?

"I don't about you Zeeshan, but for me, you were the first ray I found leading me out of darkness, you were the first person I met who was so persistent to show me love, remember Zeeshan, it is always you who forced me, our fisrtm meeting, our fisrt date, our fisrt kiss, it was always you .. I never..

"but you allowed it!!, didn't you?, it happened with your consent, how can you say that maheen, you always happy near me..", his eyes became more desperate in search of nay emotion which he could name was for him,

"I accept, but I just agve in because I wanted to explore companionship,", she cupped his face again, "you make me happy Zeeshan but last night I realized that I don't love you, I never talk to you about you, I have never even felt the need to asking you about you, I seriously am not bothered about your pain, your miseries, your woes, I was just sucking hope and strength from you … that is it .. I don't love you.."

"But I do", he held her hands on his cheeks and kissed them , "I do care about each and every misery and pain of your heart, I care about you maheen, I love talking about you, and I promise I will never complain, I will never demand anything in return, but please don't say that you don't love me.., please..

"You know what Zeeshan, I wish I could believe your promise, but I have seen life to an extent that these fairy tale promises do not mean anything.", she smiled

"you don't trust me , Maheen I swear..". he again kissed her hands and Mahhen withdrew them , "please Zeeshan , I shared a beautiful relation with you, and I will enevr forget hwta your companionship brought for me, but please I don't ..

And before she could complete her sentence, Zeeshan held her from waist and sealed their lips together. Maheen yet again tried to push him away, but he was more determined then she ever had sensed and thus she stopped protesting , and kissed him back slowly, until he pulled back, "you still don't love me?', he asked resting his forehead against her and she shook her head., 'no!", her own breath was displaced, when Zeeshan's lips travelled down her neck, "my closeness ahs no effect on you",he was placing butterfly kisses on her neck when finally she was able tp push him away, "stop behaving like this Zeeshan, if you don't believe my words then you can look in my eyes, if you find anything which you can name as love then I am ready to marry you"

She stood there rock solid, with eyes inviting him to look in, and Zeeshan hurriedly tried finding any tiny glimmer of hope, but there was nothing. Finaaly all his hopes shattered and unable to think anything else,, he just hugged her,

"why don't you love me maheen?", after a while his broken voice echoed and Maheen separated him from herself, "I don't know Zeeshan, and why are you forgetting everything you taught me, that love just happens, it cannot be forced, companionship can be delusional, why are you forgetting all that Zeeshan..

"because I love u so much maheen", he yet again cupped her face, "I don't want to lose you, i promise not to complain ever , just don't go away .. please ..

'try to understand Zeeshan, I cannot give birth to another maheen and then leave her dreading the relationship her parents shared, … please.."

She again hoped him to understand but he was just too persistent and he again held her hands, "listen maheen, I think you are just afraid after your parents 'relationship, sweetheart it is not necessary that history will repeat , I promise,..

"all promises fail when life takes turn, life is not a fairy tale, where a prince will keep on showering his love to a girl who cannot love back", this time he pushed him away, "no one is asking you to love back , I will never..

"you will Zeeshan, you will ..maybe you don't realize but I now you will demand, and maybe that will be after 15 years too, so the relation which will break after 15 years, is breaking today… I am going to France, I called mom yesterday and well .. she asked me to visit her, even dad agreed, so I am just going to meet her, after that maybe London or maybe somewhere else .. I just ..

"you are not at all bothered.. "Zeeshan was dumfounded to see her talk so normally like this .

"I told you I am not .. Zeeshan ..i don't love you .. you were maybe the fountain of love, which I have drained out .. ", she said with tears trickling down and finally Zeeshan gave up all his tries because finally his practical side told him that she didn't love him.

"good bye and thank you", she kissed his cheek and was about to move away when Zeeshan held her from her hand and pulled her back, he looked in her eyse yet again and she allowed him too, she allowed him to clear all his doubts,

"Falling in love with me was forbidden ..", she freed his hand from her waist and rushed down the bridge and Zeeshan took a deep breath, "yes it was .. because You cannot love back .. alas!, the forbidden magic it was .. ", and with this he closed his eyes .

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