Chapter 5
Love never dies
"I love you Chakor" he whispered wishing to hear it back but other than the silence nothing returned to his ears... he didn't know when he fell asleep looking at her and their daughter... he only knew in his dreams Chakor was there saying she loved him too pulling a real smile on his sleepy face
As dawn approached the sunlight snuck through the white curtains of Rajvanshi Haveli... feeling disturbed by the sudden disruption Chakor chose to dig her face further in her pillow shying away from the warmth to a more cozy shelter...her sudden movement made Suraj stir in his sleep causing him to open his eyes... for a moment his room felt unfamiliar to his sleepy eyes... looking down there was Chakor sleeping on his chest... his arms were wrapped around her waist having kept her close to him perhaps all night or when their daughter had left the room at an hour they both were clueless about... raising his finger he gently tucked a strand of hair behind Chakor's ears revealing her plummy lips and full cheeks to him... he hasn't shared a bed with anyone for this 7 years ... remembering how he spent those days caused his heart to bleed further... he could picturize himself living in that apartment by himself with only a cold bed to return to... a lot of times he had hallucinated the pillow he hugged as Chakor but prioritizing the misunderstanding Imli overthrew on their relationship he would try to think about everything other than Chakor sometimes lose in Saanvi's memory while drinking except that it never really worked for a long of time
Feeling her stir in his arms.. he quickly closed his eyes pretending he was asleep ... Chakor opened her eyes after that much required sleep... since she got out of coma... she hasn't been able to sleep properly... she was mostly haunted by thoughts ... confusions and Suraj... realizing the name ... she lifted her head from his chest gasping clueless to when that happened ... When did Anjor wake up and how was she soo comfortable next to him ...looking at how his arms wrapped her waist close to him ... it was all an embarassing moment.. until her eyes kept staring at him... she ran her fingers caressing his bearded jawline... he was still asleep somehow by her caress the frown lines on his forehead miraculously vanished leaving a content expression behind causing her lips to twitch a bit
"I can't remember you" She whispered slowly "No matter how hard i try... i just can't ... you say you left me for 7 years what if i had already learnt how to live without you? what if whatever love i ever had for you is already dead from you leaving me?" She continued talking to his sleeping self unaware to the turmoil which her confession ignited in Suraj's chest ... he had to try keeping his utmost calmness not to wrap his arms around her and tell her ... their love can never die ... it was pure and above all misunderstanding ... since they would always end up getting together no matter the odds but he focused on her fingers which voluntarily ran till his cheeks
Chakor eyes moved from him to the room then back to him sorrowfully... according to him they had lived a lot of moments there but none click to her... feeling it was getting too much she unwrapped his fingers from her waist walking to her wardrobe where her clothes were... she never remembered purchasing those dresses.. she doesn't even know anymore if it were her style but she still picked one and walked to the washroom
As Suraj sat on the bed hearing the shower on "I will make you remember Chakor even if it takes my last breath... i owe this to our love for the injustice having done to it for seven years"
Exiting the washroom... she continued drying her hairs with a towel sitting on the chair of the dresser looking in the mirror where along her reflection she could see Suraj's too... he locked his eyes with her causing her to lower it ... walking behind her he remembered the time when he had first tied her mangalsutra around her neck and put Sindhoor on her hairline.. that time it was done because she had wanted to save him
Chakor took the small box of vermillion which rested on the table... should she wear or not? "It's okay if you don't want to wear" He said from behind her understanding her dilemma as she stared at it
"It's not like i don't want to wear it.. it's like i dunno if i should wear it or not" She mumbled honestly to him facing him from the mirror then realizing she doesn't even have a wedding chain.. running her fingers along her front neck she wondered if they had removed it at the hospital when she caught the wedding chain reflection on the mirror dangling in his fingers
"they removed it at the hospital?" She asked innocently yet confused as he shook his head in a no... she could see the pain that overshadowed his face ... somehow a look she didn't like on him... even if she didn't remember him
"You removed it when i came back to Azadganj" He said remembering the exact look in her eyes and wished that time he hadn't been so stubborn ... he had scolded her taking her in his arms and tying that right back around her neck but he didn't ... her eyebrows were scrunched and face reflected only confusion
"I refused to see your pain ... i refused to trust in you... i refused to see your love above the betrayals so you broke the relationship by returning this back to me" it broke him all over and again to say that phrase ... she could feel his pain from his tortured voice... his lips were quivering ... she parted her own to say something to perhaps make it better but what? she knew she'd never take such a rash decision maybe she changed over the years she was clueless about but she would always give people chances ... he must have had really hurt her for she having done that... taking a long breath she knew whatever she was about to do next will hurt him more but she couldn't do otherwise.. so she kept the box of vermillion on the table back to its place ..standing from the chair leaving Suraj behind but before she left the room she heard him say
"i will never force you to wear it instead i will make you love wearing it again" Her decision was silent but clear... she wasn't going to wear it .. the little chain felt heavy in his hands as he remembered how his Chakor looked wearing it proudly
Suraj had gone to drop Anjor to school... she insisted for her mummy to come along but Chakor dread for the time to be left with Suraj ... see that haunted look on his face again make her vulnerable ... she sometimes had stroke of pain in her head while pressurizing herself to remember him.. she seeked for one memory which said if she still loves him or not... she will not be able to pass 30 days leaving him in dark like this on top of that she was hurting while seeing him hurt... she blamed it on her nature which couldn't see anyone hurt
She was standing in her room when Tejaswini entered "Chakor you haven't eat anything" She said placing the food on the coffee table.. a care which seemed fake to Chakor but she was raised better by her maii so forcefully but surely she said "I am sorry if i offended you yesterday"
"you didn't offend me.. i understand you because i've wronged you a lot in past .. Kamal Narayen... threw me out of this house tried to get me killed ... your maii bappu sheltered me... you saved me from dying and you changed my son and me... if anything i've wronged you" Tejaswini was giving her a foresee of the past she doesn't remember... a past she shocked upon learning off... Tejaswini had lived with her parents.. in the basti?? She was also confirming Suraj had changed... in a way more for her than because of her as she could understand
Seeing she was lost in thoughts she continued speaking... "Chakor one request... don't judge Suraj over what he was ... try learning him in a new way... like you never knew he was Kamal Narayen and my son... like you never knew what kind of upbringing we gave him... try to see him from your point of view... from what you see... i know he made a lot of mistakes in the past that you know and you don't but i also know he's repenting for all of that... he broke ties with everybody 7 years ago... he returned only after i lied to Naina about having a heartattack or else he'd never be here" She was desperate trying to make the already bright girl understand but soon left the room when she received nothing but silence from her
Tejaswini had left but her words stayed in her mind... in a way she was right.. she's been judging Suraj for what and who he was... but that was long ago.. people grow and change ... she had herself witnessed that... looking back at the pictures looking at their full smile and glowing face... maybe she should give it a new go ... a fresh insight to this reformed Suraj ... she felt good thinking like that ... as if she got rid of a certain burden on her chest
In the afternoon she sat reading a newspaper updating herself about the present... the more she read the real this whole ordeal became but then she was being disturbed time to time by Suraj's phone which was thrown over the couch by her yesterday... it kept on ringing and disturbing her... she was trying to keep her mind off him ... she almost felt tempted to throw the thing out of the window
Sick of it she picked the phone it said Naina calling... who was that Naina?? If she remembers well even Tejaswini had mentioned about her earlier... it would be rude to disconnect the phone at the face of whosoever it was and switch the phone off but get an idea god... if someone is not picking means he's unavailable quit calling... the more she wished to throw it the more it rang and vibrated in her hands so angrily she picked it up
Before she could say 'hello the person you are calling is not available' a woman spoke ... "Suraj!!!! You have any idea how many times i called you for it to go to your voicemails ... where are you??" The woman complained causing Chakor to wince but she answered keeping her calmness and politeness in mind
"Hello??? i am sorry Suraj is not available right now... you should try calling him back later" Chakor was planning to be curt and short until the woman recognized her voice and took her name
"Yes.. may i know who are you??" She of course knew her name but she wanted to know who was she to her and how did she identify her name by her voice but then an unexpected rudeness replied which triggered her already disturbed rage
"You don't know me??? Really Chakor?? I am Naina... the girl who has been by Suraj's side after you broke his heart and trust" she spatted angrily having witnessed the pain of her friend because of Chakor least she knew the fiery it created within her
Chakor was about to reply in same tone when Naina harshly said "I have no idea what more trouble you're creating in Suraj's life but do let him know i called" and disconnected the call aruptly with an atonished Chakor "How dare she????" she was speechless... throwing the phone angrily on the bed ... she thought about that woman's words... moreover she mentionned having been there when she had broken his heart?? According to his version it was vice versa... what did Tejaswini just said? He had had broken off all his ties apparently not since he was garning the best out of the soo called Naina ... with each second that passed her anger rose.. for once she was believing in the pictures angrily she grabbed one of it which had them smiling toothily to the camera throwing it down crashing its glass pane ... unknown to the fact that Suraj was downstairs with their daughter
"What's wrong daddy?" Anjor was frightened by the sudden crash sound which was followed by more crashes
Suraj was scared for Chakor in the back of his mind he thought whether Imli had escaped and hurting her... "Mummy look after Anjor i'll go upstairs" He left his daughter behind running to the room... inside he was welcomed by a terrifying Chakor who kept on breaking their pictures banging them down "Chakor????? What happened??" He remembered having left her fine... she was confused but not this angry
Her glare of disgust was more frightening ... he tried to approach her but was stopped by another bang of their pictures together at his feet... the only pictures that managed to stay on the wall were ones with Saanvi in it
Downstairs Anjor was standing close to her grandmother scared to what was happening... they could hear Suraj's voice but then followed by another crash "Dadi??? Should we go check what happened??" She asked scared... she had seen her mother like dandewali and right now she was a bit scared for her father she looked at her grandmother who was equally tensed and shook her head in a hesistant no
Chakor didn't realize the little drops which flowed down her cheeks .. him being infront of her angered her twice and she had no idea why???? That woman's words... Tejaswini's words made her want to believe in him... his words... their past he claimed was beautiful but it was all lie maybe... during this 7 years he claimed he was guilty for was spent with some other woman shouldering his injured heart ... she was experiencing a burn feeling in her heart ... a feeling she wished to go away desperately
His 'what happened chakor' was angering her further... grapping a pillow she threw it roughly at his head ... with another 'what happened Chakor' repeating from his mouth like a broken tape
"You happened!!!!!!!" She yelled at him shocking him...he was beyond the phase of understanding... if that was confusing then her next statement was beyond bewildering to him
"You cheat!!!! Trying to fool me you love me while you were abroad with another woman????" Chakor glared at him dangerously... throwing the pillow square and fair on his head
"Another woman?? What are you talking about Chakor???" He snapped receiving another pillow at her end
He was glad it was only the pillow not a vase when she next picked the thing he had feared about "Chakor no!!!!!" he yelled frightfully... attempting to distract her as he walked quickly pinning her to the wall... her breath was heavy causing her chest to heave frictionating against his chest.. her hand with the vase was lifted above pinned by his hand... angry tears were flowing down her cheeks ... her eyes clouding with hurt "tell me clearly Chakor" He asked again more gently letting her soften but retaining her anger
"Naina" She said in a go making him frown
"Naina????"
"She called apparently you've been missed by her... the one who stayed by your side for 7 years when i broke your heart... she was the one nursing it" She said quoting Naina in her own words ... the more she spoke the more her enviness topped her feeling infront of Suraj... he didn't know whether to be happy or sad... this crazy girl wasn't even realizing she was jealous
"Naina is my friend Chakor" he tried to explain while she struggled to release her hands out of his grip
"Do i seem like to give a damn????? i just don't care but atleast don't fool me you love me when you clearly had moved on!!!!!!" she screamed louder
"I didn't!!!!" He screamed interupting her "I didn't move on Chakor... i never did... these 7 years had been hell for me... i was yearning for you whenever i would see a married couple and think about how our life would have been hadn't been that mishap" he spoke genuinely reminscing those dark days of his life
"Doesn't seem so Suraj... tell me did i have a shoulder to cry on too?? someone who's been nursing my heart like Naina was doing to you???" Her words made him tighten his grip on her hands... pinning her body further against the wall with his body ... he knew what she was assuming... "Chakor!!!! Stop that"
"No i will not... i for sure know with or without memory i'd never go to another man having been married to you only because i was hurt or misunderstood ... but you did" She further blamed him saying the right words to her feelings
"She's a mere well wisher and friend Chakor" He tiredly tried to explain but she refused to understand
"Chakor I decided to go away from here because i knew staying in Azadganj and away from you is impossible... Naina decided to follow on her own... there i lived on my own apart from everybody... everytime i will think about you i would see our daughter's picture trying to hate you... it took me your face not to turn into an overall alcoholic... even my mother will make me think about Azadganj and you so i stayed away until i heard she suffered from a heart attack" He watched her close her eyes tiredly as he spoke
Keeping her eyes close she tried to imagine the truth in his words and not see his hurtful face... "You did it once.. why don't you do it again...why can't you leave me again? Why are you keeping hope in this non valid existing relationship?????" She asked opening her eyes locking them with his ... she was tired jungling with all these inner feelings and questions which had no answers
"I can't do that Chakor... not anymore... earlier whenever i would think about you i had a reason to stop but now i don't have that and i will not be selfish ask you to give us a chance for Anjor ... give us a chance for us for the lost seven years which we both suffered... Naina wasn't nursing my heart Chakor... she can never do that... she was just there in the surrounding... her presence or absence mattered me the least... the only one who can mend my heart or break it ...is you" he said finally leaving her hand and cupping her face ... her soft cheeks against his palm was special... their room was trashed but he still kept the hope scratchless in his heart "Trust me Chakor... if i leave you again... i will never be able to stay alive... i might survive because of our daughter needs her father but i will be lifeless" His words went straight from her mind to her heart... she wanted to believe in it... she was believing in it
Precap:
Chakor woke up sweating heavily "Suraj tried to force himself on her" was that just a dream she wondered
Edited by Blushy_Auntacid - 7 years ago
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