MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL
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17. THE END
2 months ago
KARTIK
"If I ever seen Naira with someone else again, I will kill
them I tell Mansi who reading a gothic novella on my bed. Kiran's phone was on
my desk, he had a flashy blue phone. That kept going off every three minutes. Why
were you even friends with someone as promiscuous as him? I had been watching
you wallow in misery, I guess it was kind of comforting seeing you as miserable
as I was. I grabbed Kiran's phone and threw it against the wall. It broke into
three pieces I picked them up and shoved them into a box in my wardrobe.
Getting rid of him had been easiest thing I had ever done, I just broke his
arm, he had promised me he would never show you his face again. He had not even
taken his phone with him as he ran away. You had sent Kiran three texts, asking
him if he was ok. Why did you care so much? Did this mean you were forgetting me
rather than constantly thinking of me? Did I miscalculate this?
"Bhai, I went back to the market... Mansi said, she really enjoyed
going out to the dark markets in town. Where you could purchase drugs, weapons,
prostitutes, any thing illegal for that matter. My first matter of business had
been getting back my credit cards in working order after I came home. I told my
father I wanted to join his company. Suwarna had been crushed by the fact I had
come home. It was quiet satisfying toying with her. Toying with telling my
father she had taken you away from me. She slowly began falling in my father's
eyes. Just as Masi had said little things, become huge in marriages. Little things were fun, like claiming Suwarna touched
stuff in my bedroom. She wanted to know if I was still with you. Because I gave
nothing away. Dadi on the other hand was impatient to meet you. She said if I did
not bring you soon, she would combust possibly. Dadi was just excited by the
thought of me getting married. Not so much meeting you.
"You shouldn't be going out with that crowed Mansi, we only
went there once to buy someone stupid enough to take the fall for your idiocy I
said I was reminded of our initial reason for ever going there. Buying someone
to take the blame for Mansi's crime and to cover up Akshara Singhania's murder.
"How was I supposed to know you have gone soft Bhai, she was
going to never let you marry Naira Bhabi what was I supposed to do? Mansi said
sounding bored, even Masi thought I had gone soft. I had let you get to me.
"Let me deal with it, I am your older brother after all I
reminded her.
"Bhai well you dealt with it in the end but listen to me, I went
to party and they were talking about this new medicine, they use on people it
induces memory loss, I say buy yourself a steady dose give them to bhabi and
you two can live happily ever after Mansi said, she pulled tablet holder and left
it on my bedside table.
"She will forget you two ever broke up, you can tell her
whatever you want, it will be like this fight never existed Mansi finishes
off. I shake my head. No, I will never do that to you.
"I will not do that, Naira will choose me I tell Mansi, she
rolls her eyes. I know you will you just need a push.
"Masi said she wants to see you before you take over your
new position She said, I nod and put Mansi's tablets away in my drawer.
"Oh, and these are for Taiji She said, laughing as she gave
them to me.
"What are these?
"Hallucinogens, they make the person who takes them imagine
things, they are the kind to create episodes, and in drug tests they are untraceable
"Put them in her food I said, Mansi laughs.
"I already have, you know in those meal replacements she
takes Mansi laughed, I half smiled. But I missed you too much too fully smile
at my step mother being drugged.
"See those markets are really informative bhai
"You will not go alone ever again I tell her she nods and
hugs me.
"You know bhai, I can take care of myself She said I had no
doubt my little puppy could look after herself, but I was not comfortable
letting her out on her own with her volatile temper.
"I worry about everyone else I tell her, she laughs, she has
that weird look in her eyes again. Even though all her actions resemble a
normal human, but I know its more a learned mask she has she really doesn't care
about anything.
Besides me.
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I see you, in a cafe. Well this is the first time you see
me. I have seen you, multiple times, but meeting your eyes is different. Watching
you from across your street. You are reading wuthering heights. An intelligent
read. I have no idea why I have those damn tablets in my pocket. I run my
fingers over the lid. The thought of having you look at me with hero worship in
your eyes is incredibly enticing. And I have trouble in deciding between
wanting you to accept me as I am. Or inducing your acceptance.
Someone blocks my view of you and I hide behind a pillar,
you are outside on the road in seconds. You look for me frantically. Before
stopping and your eyes water. You leave. You are still in love with me. I go back
to the office in a far lighter mood. I sit threw six meetings with a light
smile on my face. My father has not come to work at all this week. He is
tending to Suwarna, with her new-found illness.
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"I followed her father like you asked me to, he was asking someone
if there were any nice boys, he could introduce Naira too I turned around, and
I went to my mirror I picked up my hair brush and threw it at full force at my
mirror.
"Bhai Mansi said, hugging
me from behind. I cannot control the anger I feel at the thought of you with someone
else. You are mine. Mine. Mine. Mine.
"I will kill anyone that tries to take Naira from me I tell
her, she nods.
"Bhai you always tell me killing isn't the answer it just
makes things messier She reminds me, yes it does. You have to deal with a
body, you need an excuse and how many times can I use my kid cousin before
people get suspicious? And you had not phoned me, or even looked for me after
seeing me again. Instead you went back into hibernation. Away from me.
The file I was looking at was on the floor, Mansi picked it
up.
"Get her to come here, then tie her up and shove these down her
throat Mansi said, holding up a deserted floor in Ballpit mall, which was
owned by my father.
"You control the cameras and security there, tauji gave you
complete control over there
"What if she forgets ever meeting me? What if there are side
effects? I ask Mansi, Mansi pouts.
"I paid a lot for them don't worry nothing will happen to
Naira bhabi, and if she forgets you just make her fall in love with you all
over again as for the side affects you just give her one a day and she will be
fine even if she misses on dose its fine, The guy told me you have to miss 6 doses
in a row, and on the seventh day everything comes back to you, also you cannot
take it if you are pregnant it would harm a baby...
I nod. Mansi helps me with my plan and tells me about how
she dealt with some unsavoury people at school at the same time. She really
loved the night market.
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I am sorry. This is the only way we can be together. I asked
Mishti to tell you to come here. I would lie later that you were in an accident
and you hit your head.
When I see you, I forget about my plan, because you look at
me like you used to.
And then you tell me how you are scared of me becoming a
monster. You don't say it. Because you are too sweet to. You want to change me
and give me another chance.
Your request is not what I struggle with, what I struggle
with is the fact that you still want to be with me even after all I had done
was not socially right and went against everything your family thought you. I
knew you would choose me. Even when you asked me to leave, hence why I waited.
I knew you would.
"I would do anything for you
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Our lives pick up from this point, I shove the tablets far
back into my wardrobe and pull out the engagement ring I had bought you.
You already said yes, putting this on you would make it
official.
We were finally going to have our happily ever after. I was
so happy, spending almost every waking moment with you. It did not quake my
fear that one day I would wake up and all of this would be to good to be true.
You would leave me. You would hate me.
And it started out with little things, every night rather
than watching you I snuck into your bedroom and slept next to you. You asked me
things, little things about my childhood about my life. You always silently
listened rather than ever said anything. I never told you other things like I watched
you or hacked your phone. Or spent every minute since we separated watching you
afar mostly because you never asked me about our time apart. I could tell it
upset you.
I told you about the fights I got into as a child. The code
my Masi made me follow and how I hated my father.
I was about to tell you what I was doing with Suwarna when
you silenced me.
All you did was ask me to stop. For a second it threw me
completely off, you wanted me to forget what she had done. You wanted me to
move on. You were an innocent you thought this is the way the world worked.
You wanted to live an idealistic life and I would ensure you
did under my control. I would ensure you was always safe and happy.
So, I agreed to not harm them. I was not doing anything
technically my little cousin Mansi was. Just like she had killed your mother. I
had nothing to do with that. I would never do anything to you or your family.
Where I drew the line in this was, I would destroy anyone else that ever tried
to harm you or separate us.
Another thing you asked me for as our wedding got closer and
closer, was me to cut ties with Masi. Masi was like my mother, I told you. You
told me that, you did not want her anywhere near me. You said that she did not
love me. You were wrong Masi loved me. It's just that her way of loving someone
was different from how I love you and you love me.
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"Why have I not received an invitation to your wedding
Kartik? When will I meet your little lamb? Masi asked me over the phone. "Also,
what is this I hear about you suddenly, going soft and not wanting to hurt your
father or be involved in it She said annoyance clearly tinging her voice.
"You don't need an invite to come I said, but I half hoped she
just wouldn't show up so I could please you and also not hurt her feelings. "Who
said I am soft? I asked I knew it must be Mansi, she found it amusing how just
having you near me calmed me down and made me forget I hated my family. She
said often if she did not know any better you cast a spell over me. Mansi never
could understand our relationship and how far I would go for you. I would do
anything for you.
"Your little pup, you don't answer my calls, so I had to
phone her. I hope all is well Kartik, I did not create a beast to destroy Manish
and Suwarna for some little goody two shoes to come in and make him a prince
Masi said in scathing disgust. "You better get your mind in track or I will
have to come in and put you back on track like I always did when you were a
child She said.
"What will you do Masi, I am a grown man now you can hardly
take away tv or food from me I half joke.
"Yes, you are a man now Kartik, but I can still take the
things you love away from you She said pointedly. But I am not afraid of her.
"Naira won't leave me, no matter what you do I tell her,
because you would never leave me. I ask you that everyday before you sleep. And
you always smile and say you won't.
"Oh, it wouldn't be a matter of what I do Kartik, it's a matter
of what you have done already She said laughing.
"Mansi is hurting Suwarna,
Manish is unhappy what more do you want from me honestly? I ask her.
"You should be doing it, getting revenge for your mother.
Not allowing him to host a grand wedding for you while all you do is hang around
your fianc like an infatuated buffoon I remember something you told me about
it all. That revenge makes nobody happy. It just leaves you empty. You are my
light. You give meaning to my existence.
"An eye for an eye makes the world go blind I repeat what
you said to me. And masi chokes on the phone.
"Kartik, you think your sweet nave little lamb will accept
you the way you are then you are a fool
"She already has, tomorrow is my Mehendi and in two days is
my wedding, Masi I am very tired I need to go to bed we can discuss this some
other time
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Where are you. Our function is almost over, and you have disappeared.
Where on earth are you?
I sneak into your room after all the guests leave.
You are in the bathroom, you are washing your mehendi off.
"Shouldn't you be trying your best to keep that on as long
as possible? I ask you. You look up at me and your eyes are swollen with
tears. Then I see what you are doing properly you are trying fever-ently to
wash my name of your hands.
I close the tap and take hold of your hands. You fight me,
pushing me away and hitting me.
I let go.
"Naira what's wrong what happened? I ask you, you grab items
of the counter and begin throwing them at me.
"The wedding is off, I never want to see you ever again You
scream, I don't understand between all the things you throw at me. Eventually I
grab you and hold down so you are unable to move.
My forehead is bleeding at the end of this.
"You murderer get off me you scream. I pause and stare at
you. You know. Who told you?
"Naira listen...
"I will not listen to another lie out of your mouth, what
are those things? You ask me I look in the direction of your head. and my box
of stuff of yours lays scattered on your bed. "You are sick, in your head, how
long have you been watching me? Sneaking up into my bedroom and stealing my
things? Taking photos of me sleeping? Those letters are letters I wrote back in
Switzerland you stole them, And those phones the blue one it's Kiran's right
you hurt him, that's why he ran away You say trying to leave my hold but I hold
you in place.
"I only did all of those things to protect you I tell you.
"To protect me? From what?
"Kiran was going to steal your dance teams moves and sell
them I helped you really and did you not see the way he looked at you Naira, he
made my skin crawl when he leaned into you and ran his hands all over you, you
are so nave Naira you have no idea how bad men are out there, Guru Ma was
abusing you, only after I helped you, you saw what happened you danced better,
you flourished, I had nothing to do with your mother, Mansi did it she thought she
was doing me a favour, Naira I would never hurt you or your family
"What are you going to do now kill me? You ask me when I
refuse to let of my hold of you.
I take you to a chair and force you to sit on it. I use the
scarf on my sherwani to tie your hands together behind the chair.
"I don't do things like this I tell you, "I am not a
murderer
"Let me go Kartik, I swear to god I will hurt you so badly
if you don't let me go You threaten me.
I touch your face and you flinch away from my touch.
Was this the end of us? The love I had seen in your eyes suddenly
no longer seemed to exist in there. All I saw was hurt. I knew who gave you
this, there was only one other person who knew about this box. And they would
pay. I am sorry I couldn't keep my promise to you and be what you wanted me to
be. I don't see any other way than this. I will make anyone who tries to keep
us apart pay. I cannot forgive them. Children do not pay for the sins of their
father in my case no they make their fathers pay for their sins.
I force you to look at me.
"I don't care what happens, I will never let you go I tell
you.
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Epilogue
12 months later
Naira
I am pregnant. 8 weeks that's what the doctor says, so I am
on partial house arrest. Or so I have been on house arrest ever since I had a
blood clot, that had made me so physically weak. It is weird living in a quiet
house I was used to my family chattering constantly all day. I pitied you -my husband- for losing so many
members of your family all so fast after our marriage. Your parents and masi
all in a car accident. I am sorry I don't remember any of them. And then me
being so sick yet you still cared for me so much. You were practically my nurse
even though I often forgot things or lost them. You never got mad at me and
always loved me.
Today is your birthday, and you don't really celebrate ever.
As you have told me but having me near you makes you want to. You are so sweet
and kind that I cannot help but feel happy just being in the same room as you.
Everyone loved you at home, even at the hospital we went to
every now and again. I asked the doctor not to tell you, so I can tell you
today as your birthday gift.
I put my test results in an envelope and leave it under your
pillow. So, when you wake up you find it.
I barely sleep that night in anticipation. I have these recurring
dreams or nightmares are more like it. Of me being tied up to a chair and
injected by someone with something.
I wake up and feel sick again. Your head is pillowed by my
hair immobilizing me. And making it impossible for me to move without waking
you up. You make a soft noise and turn
against me and spoon me against your chest.
My head begins to throb, and I feel you wake up. Flashes
throw me off, of me crying and you shouting at someone.
"I had the strangest dream, ahh my head hurts, I keep
getting these flashes of you were screaming at someone for dropping coffee on
me I laugh because you are the calmest person I ever met. Only you don't laugh
you go to the table and hand me a tablet. I had been skipping them lately since
I found out I was pregnant. Because I wanted to protect our baby.
I pretend to take it and you reach out and touch my cheek.
"You promise you will never leave me? You ask me, I think
that after losing so many family members you feared losing me. Also, with me
getting so sick so I nodded, and you pulled me back into your arms.
"Happy birthday I tell you kissing your cheek, you half
smile.
I pull the envelope from under your pillow and give it to
you. You smile more openly. You pull out the report and stare at the results
and turn pale.
"You have to spit the pill I gave you You say to me, I shake
my head.
"I haven't been taking them since I found out I tell you.
"How many days?
"6
"So tomorrow will be the seventh?
"Yes I say, reach out and make you touch my stomach.
"The baby says Happy birthday I say again. You do not
return my smile.
"I am sure it will be eventful You say, with no expression.
"Very eventful
~~THE END~~
Edited by AnyaRSingh - 5 years ago
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