Chapter 4
2011 Shanthivan Delhi
Kushi felt that she was drowning. She was
confused. She felt as if she was suffocating & in her terror she
yelled the name of the only person she loved so much that it actually
hurt. She knew he would save her, save her from Shyam, save her from
herself. Her saviour & her tormentor.
"ARNAV ARNAV". Her shriek shook him awake. For a
minute he thought it was a nightmare & then realized that he was
slumped on a chair near Kushi's bed & she was actually screaming his
name aloud. He clenched his fists. Maybe she was reliving his sexual
assault. He tried to move away from the bed. He wanted to pacify her
that he would never come near her again, never touch her, never hurt
her.
Kushi was confused. In the past he had always
rushed to comfort her when he saw her tears but today his hatred for her
overpowered him so much that he was moving away from her in disgust.
She started sobbing softly.
Arnav couldn't take it anymore. Her sobs cut
through him. Probably she would be repulsed but he couldn't just stand
like that watching her passively & do nothing. Tentatively he
touched her. She continued to sob but did not shake him off. Feeling a
little reassured he pulled her slowly towards him. She threw her arms
around his neck, rested her head on his chest & continued sobbing.
He hugged her tightly & kissed her head softly while rocking her
slowly. Slowly her sobs subsided & she was breathing heavily. She
had fallen asleep. But he dint let go of her. He continued to hold her
tightly as if his life depended on it. He felt something wet on his
cheeks & realized that he was actually crying. Tears rolled down
unrestrained & he cried. Cried for himself, cried for her, cried for
his mom, cried for Anjali.
Kushi felt something wet on her cheeks. She woke
up from her slumber to see that she was huddled on Arnav's lap who was
holding her very tightly. She shifted a little & saw Arnav's face,
his eyes closed & his tears. This is what had woken her. His tears,
his agony. She touched his cheeks lightly. He opened his eyes, then
slowly lowered her on to the bed, lay down next to her all the while
holding her hands. After some time he drifted off into sleep leaving her
wide awake.
His tears confused her. She couldn't understand.
She knew that he had heard only the last part of her conversation with
Shyam & had misunderstood her intentions. She had been scared of his
fury. When he started ripping her clothes off she was terrified. Then
she had felt sharp pain when he entered her without any foreplay. But
then at that point she had seen him stiffen & then she had felt him
almost withdraw & then realized that he had slowed down his thrusts.
Even in that extreme state of anger he had automatically slowed down
when he realized that this was her first time. Why did he do that? He
had almost been tender after that. She then remembered him washing her.
His hands were making comforting circular motions on her body playing
havoc on her senses. How could he do that with a mere touch. She felt
ashamed that even while he hated her his mere touch melted her. Then
when he had licked her she had felt strange emotions. Something inside
her exploded. She was aroused & she was shocked by her body's
response. She craved for his touch. She wanted to feel his strong arms
around her, she wanted to feel him inside her but the moment she
started responding he had broken apart. She was confused. Why did he do
that & why was he crying now & holding her so tightly.
Finally she understood. Realization stuck her & she was stunned by the answer.
He had cried for hurting her. He loved her,
loved her more than she could ever love him. Strangely this, his love
broke her heart more than his hatred. As she closed her eyes, she felt a
strange calm come over her. She remembered reading his mom's letter.
Yes she would fulfil her request. She would weather his anger &
return his love manifold with interest.
She knew what she had to do. Kushi Kumari Gupta
would not die so easily. Not before giving Arnav back his life, his
happiness. She would not let that evil pervert Shyam win. She would
fight for her Arnav. She was prepared to die to give her Arnav a chance
to live peacefully without Shyam's evil presence.
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Guys plz note that i am not trying to glorify
domestic abuse or marital rape. Once the plot unfolds where i explain
the events preceding these chapters you would understand.
Till then plz be a little patient with me.
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