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Varun takes his wife home ... the night is fell ... Sana comes in this apartment for the second time everything is as before Varun has not changed anything he wanted to keep his memories such that they are ... he told her that he had bought this apartment for him and his wife he wanted to see her shadow stay in his place and today this shadow is real ... today she is his wife ... Sana trembles she is afraid of what will happen there are years that Varun has not touched her.. he detects her stress he wanted to reassure her but don't know how.. he always thinks that she did not love him and that marriage is just for her son.. but he know he loves her and he wants her he will not let this occasion go with the wind ... he holds her hand advanced towards the living room and asked her to sit on the couch he said
-: I know that today we are married for our son ... but I want it to be real ... because it's real you're my wife but if you feel uncomfortable today I understand ... it is not easy to find ourselves in this one place after years of separation ... you can sleep in the room I'll use the sofa to sleep
-: No Varun we took this decision both we are Married now we can begin this life today
-: Are you sure ... he asked with a smile ... she answers him yes ... he gives her a gift box and adds... this is for you.
-: What is this ... she asked.
-: It is a sari ... I bought it for you ... I want you to wear it for this occasion
she enters the bathroom opens the box takes the sari between her hands looks at it a moment then she thinks "why he gives me this sari what he wants to prove to me.. that he loves me? or maybe he just wants to take advantage of these moments before leaving me again ... I must not think too much about that ... I should not trust him ... I have a mission I have to finish it for my son ... today I am his wife and he has the right to do what he wants "
Sana wears her sari out of the bathroom walking slowly... Varun looks at her the eyes fixed on her there's a long time he has not seen her beauty his eyes are wet he wants that happiness be real he hoped that this moment be shared and that she want him as he wanted her... he walks toward her took his hand in hers and advance with her towards the bedroom Sana follows him her breathing exceeds her slowly steps before putting her on his bed Varun puts her against him his hand holding her head and whispers
-: I hear your stress in your breath ... calm down ... trust me and all will be well
he looks at her again and asks her to move with him ... he asks her to lie on the bed and he lies down next to her ... he starts to kiss her.. Varun does not deprive his desire ... he took advantage of his desire it did not annoys him that she does not reacted to his kiss and caresses.. he know why she is like that ... he thinks she don't love him as before since it was she who left him but he thinks to regain this lost love in offering her again... Sana is as eager as himself ... this body which landed on her lack a lot ... she wants to hugs him against her and enjoy his warmth and dive with him but she don't follows him because it is he who left her when he got what he wanted the first time ... this assumption will not leave her mind she thinks he benefits from this marriage to take what he wants and let her when he's had enough of her ... she remains without reaction just put her hands on the back of her husband to make him feel her presence allowing him to live this intense moment ... this honeymoon was tough but full of love Varun could give his wife the sincere feeling he has for her ... after this flies in the sky Sana turns on the other side the tears in her eyes she is not crying for what she has to share with him but she is crying to not prevent herself to believe this lie and this misunderstanding which does not leave her mind .. she cries because she believes that Varun uses her for his desires and she cannot be against .. she needed him to save her son ... she wants to be like him enjoy these moments to satisfy her desire.. but she can not ... she can't lie even to herself and think that this life will last forever ... she cries he hears the sigh of her tears... after having took a breath he puts his hand on her shoulder and asks her
-: What happen Sana... why you are crying
-: Nothing ... she wipes her tears to hide her sorrow... he asks her to turn
-: Sana looks at me and tell me ... you regret? you think that you will not have done that
-: No it is not that it's Sohail I miss him it's the first time that I don't sleep with him
Varun feels she lies to him ... Sana is not telling the truth ... he knows that it is not the lack of her son that makes her sad ... he feels she regretted and she does not want that he approaches her ... he wonders if he has not made a mistake by marrying her by that way ... his anger rises and he says
-: And now you find yourself forced to sleep here with me ... you don't support my presence ... you don't like when I touch you... you prefer sleeping with your son ... you got what you wanted now my presence bothers you ... he takes his shirt that he had withdrawn and leaves the room
even if he had the most beautiful time with her.. Varun does not support that Sana ignores him... he has a feeling that she feels the disgust to be with him ... and it makes him sad he does not understand why... he thought change the history. but the past is housed with them in this apartment ... he prefers to go out and not stay with her in the same room for don't get angry and elevate his voice in front of her...but Sana does not want to see him like that she did not want annoy him she loves him anyway... even if he has hurt her in the past even if she is convinced that she will separate with him later... she regrets and wants these some times she will pass with him will be a beautiful memory that she will never regret... she rises from her bed and goes rejoin him in the living room she found him sitting his eyes shining thoughtful... she approaches him sits on the ground at his feet and said
-: sorry Varun I did not mean to make you angry
-: I know you have accepted this marriage for a good reason ... but this relationship cannot be done without feelings ... I feel you far and I know why ... it's me who have pushed you to this marriage but I don't support that you rejected me ... I cannot tolerate that you feel forced doing what you don't want ... I'm a man Sana
-: I know Varun but the past disturbs me ... it dose not leave me quite
-: Forget what happened... he said looking into her eyes thinking she regrets to have leaving him ... leaves it behind you
-: Can be you have forgotten.. but how do you want me forget the... (she means the message that you sent me and that you have abandoned me without explanation but she said nothing silent she does not want to dig into this story which have tore her heart
-: You cannot forget what ... he asks without knowing what she's talking ... tells me I want to know ... but she looks at him without saying anything a silence that still annoys Varun
-: You see? you don't want to talk !! I understood ... let me please and go to sleep
-: I think our life is complicated with this marriage ... this is not what I wanted
-: Whatever you wanted you got it ... said Varun angry ... your only anxiety is to have a child... I hope you fall pregnant quickly... so I'll free myself from this jail life and from you
tears in her eyes Sana rises don't respond to these accusations leaves the living room, and returns in the bedroom Varun's words does not help her to regain the confidence to Varun and it shows her that Varun is obliged to live this life that he does not like and who wants to get rid very soon
the misunderstanding is spread more... since neither of them is decided to tell his secret and everyone both in the message that they received is a lie ... that each of them believes that it's the reality ... Sana leaves Varun on the couch where he spent the rest of his wedding night thinking how it began with a nice feeling of love and desire. and how it ended by this dispute ... he thinks about what he said and he regrets... he finds that his words were too hard "I hope you fall pregnant Quickly ... so I'll free myself from this jail life and from you" it sounds in his ear like an alarm siren "I would not say this... it's not what I wanted ... I don't want her to think that I don't want her... I have to repair this mistake I will present my excuse "he enters the room approaches the bed he wants to ask forgiveness and make her understand that he did not think what he said... she sleeps back to the door.. or can be she let believe she sleeps she heard him coming but the tears in her eyes prevents her to turn around he remains standing for a moment hearing her breathing then he goes out and closes the door
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