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Part 2
Arnav's anger
They say I am a jerk.What is the definition of jerk?I left India, because I wanted my sister to be happy in her married life.I saw my brother-in-law, everyday was a suffering for him. I thought by the time I will be back, one nephew or niece will be there, probably Di will shift to the lavish apartment bought by Jijajee, very recently.Jijajee sent me some pictures of that flat, I simply loved them.Even, I decided to stay there if Di was not shifting there. I wanted this distance. Di's faults were spoiling not only her family life, but it was being an obstacle in my life also.
It's not that I was being selfish.No. But Di herself was pushing Jijajee to take a drastic step.I have seen in my family that what can be the effect of the dispute between husband and wife.My father was alleged to have an illicit connection with some other woman, where as my mother was fully attentive to him, and we, their two children were there.My sister neither she could give that attention nor she could give a child to her husband.I was apprehensive that my brother-in-law would have an affair.I didn't want the history to be repeated in our family.That is why I left India. Nothing sacrificial in this case, I enjoyed a lot in USA, grabbed some draconian kind of Degrees.I was happy
I returned to India, and I was introduced to Lavanya, a family friend , she had a Degree from an unknown American University in fashion designing. Sophisticated , posh, I mean the usual level of Randhawas.Anyways I was not having an arranged marriage, it involves family, family prestige, one single dispute and everybody come up with their teeth and nails.I wanted a love marriage.Affair between me and my wife, no excess fat of family drama.I was sick of the mentality that marriage is the connection between two families.No matter how the husband wife suffer..but no..family reputation must be preserved.Bull shit.
Again, I was scared after seeing my sister's fate.Her marriage was fixed because of the friendship between the Maliks and the Rampals. Rampals were accepting my handicapped sister because of the high connections of Maliks, you know, the purity of clan, prestige, honour etc etc..and on the day of marriage they left my sister because their reputation will be harmed. Human life was secondary issue, they forgot everything, that Anjali will be like a daughter, she will be loved and cherished by all, crap.Then Di got married due to the gratitude of Ram Manohar Johal ,father of Jijajee.Here I object, marry somebody for love, you marry her just because you want to be with her always without any reason.
I wanted someone whom I will cherish, love and protect without any reason. Lavanya was not that someone.Di was insisting upon her.Yeah, she was being nice to you Di, what did you think that she would have tolerated your guardianship on me? Not a chance.Anyways, I simply did not like her.I wanted someone...someone..like...no idea actually what I was looking for.
Then I made a blunder.I became the reason for the pain to Grewal family.I publicly insulted Khushwant Grewal, for which Payal's marriage was called off. That I really hated. Same drama, see to the bride , she will be with you people.Why concentrate on the other family members? I really hated myself that time.
They say I am a jerk.What is the definition of jerk?I left India, because I wanted my sister to be happy in her married life.I saw my brother-in-law, everyday was a suffering for him. I thought by the time I will be back, one nephew or niece will be there, probably Di will shift to the lavish apartment bought by Jijajee, very recently.Jijajee sent me some pictures of that flat, I simply loved them.Even, I decided to stay there if Di was not shifting there. I wanted this distance. Di's faults were spoiling not only her family life, but it was being an obstacle in my life also.
It's not that I was being selfish.No. But Di herself was pushing Jijajee to take a drastic step.I have seen in my family that what can be the effect of the dispute between husband and wife.My father was alleged to have an illicit connection with some other woman, where as my mother was fully attentive to him, and we, their two children were there.My sister neither she could give that attention nor she could give a child to her husband.I was apprehensive that my brother-in-law would have an affair.I didn't want the history to be repeated in our family.That is why I left India. Nothing sacrificial in this case, I enjoyed a lot in USA, grabbed some draconian kind of Degrees.I was happy
I returned to India, and I was introduced to Lavanya, a family friend , she had a Degree from an unknown American University in fashion designing. Sophisticated , posh, I mean the usual level of Randhawas.Anyways I was not having an arranged marriage, it involves family, family prestige, one single dispute and everybody come up with their teeth and nails.I wanted a love marriage.Affair between me and my wife, no excess fat of family drama.I was sick of the mentality that marriage is the connection between two families.No matter how the husband wife suffer..but no..family reputation must be preserved.Bull shit.
Again, I was scared after seeing my sister's fate.Her marriage was fixed because of the friendship between the Maliks and the Rampals. Rampals were accepting my handicapped sister because of the high connections of Maliks, you know, the purity of clan, prestige, honour etc etc..and on the day of marriage they left my sister because their reputation will be harmed. Human life was secondary issue, they forgot everything, that Anjali will be like a daughter, she will be loved and cherished by all, crap.Then Di got married due to the gratitude of Ram Manohar Johal ,father of Jijajee.Here I object, marry somebody for love, you marry her just because you want to be with her always without any reason.
I wanted someone whom I will cherish, love and protect without any reason. Lavanya was not that someone.Di was insisting upon her.Yeah, she was being nice to you Di, what did you think that she would have tolerated your guardianship on me? Not a chance.Anyways, I simply did not like her.I wanted someone...someone..like...no idea actually what I was looking for.
Then I made a blunder.I became the reason for the pain to Grewal family.I publicly insulted Khushwant Grewal, for which Payal's marriage was called off. That I really hated. Same drama, see to the bride , she will be with you people.Why concentrate on the other family members? I really hated myself that time.
Eventually, I came to know that my brother had fallen for Payal, Khushwant's sister.It happened when she came to meet Khushwant in my office.I must mention that by that time I gave a job to Khushwant to compensate to some extent.Even, I offered that Payal's marriage was my responsibility too.I was with Khushwant in this issue, after all because of me Payal is in this state.
Anyways, Akash fell in love with Payal. Much to my disgust, he started to consult me. This boy, how I could make him understand that we were adults now?Aunt Manorama effect was history.No, every time.."Bhai, roses or tulips..?" Think yourself kid, I have other things to do.
And they say I am the jerk.I thought about everybody,every time, and I am the jerk, they all are saints who imposed their liability upon me.Bloody hell.I started to get annoyed.Because of my stress level, I earned diabetes at the age of 24. Everyone was expecting too high from my side.
Khushwant was set in my office.Secretarial jobs and studying by distance education program, Khushwant managed well.Sometimes I wanted to smooch and make love to Khushwant.
Don't get any impression that I was importing the Gay couple concept in my life or in my house. Khushwant was feminine gender with some extra feminine features.Khushwant Kaur Grewal actually, in short Khushi or KKG.Total desi girl, not in the sense of those poster girls of sweet and polite and cultured Indian with great values, that too I hated.Desi girl means , total desi flavour.She has lips like gulab jamun, but her tongue was like red chilly powder, eyes were like calm lake, but in anger those eyes either evaporates fire or showers rain. The milky face gets bloody red when angry.In short I liked her.If she became late, I used to be angry, not beacause of work, but I missed some time with her.I was even ready to help her in the exams, but no.NO THANK YOU.Fine, absolutely fine.
Di was still pressing about Lavanya.Akash was asking for help as Payal said no to his marriage proposal because of the humiliation faced by Khushwant.Nani was being like.."Anjali doesn't have any, at least you give me a great-grandchild, how many days are left for me in the world..Arnav.."..I was screwed to the highest level.
It's not that Khushwant Kaur Grewal was immune to Arnav Singh Randhawa effect.She gave several hints by her attitude. She was not being angry anymore, not frequently at least.I thought it was a great time to raise the issue of Akash. Khushwant surprised me by saying, "Lovers must not be separated in this way, they must marry.." she also told that she will help to convince everyone.
While fixing Akash and Payal, I tried for her, and then I got to know that she was engaged.You give hint all the time, you show attitude, now you are telling that you are engaged.By the time Akash's marriage was fixed, I got to know that her engagement was broken.Needless to say that I summerily kicked Lavanya out of my range.Di was upset a bit, I told her not to worry, I will marry soon.
Then , miracle happened, Doctor said that Anjali Johal was pregnant.I was very happy.Jijajee will get finally a child.I must mention that I also started to think that what will be the features my our children, our means, me and Khushwant of course.But all of a sudden, Jijajee wanted to leave Delhi, I mean why now?
Later, I saw Khushwant in Jijajee's arm,"If you do not love her then leave her, why you lied to me..."..I understood everything, I mean why Jijajee never wanted to come in front of the family gathering, why Jijajee wanted to leave Delhi. I felt like a moron. Bitch, you are doing two timing! Holding my hand , kissing my chick on occasions, and you are having affair with my brother-in-law,hugging him.
And you brother-in-law, you don't love my sister?Then how is she pregnant?I know very well that over the years you are trying to make her pregnant, if you were so fed up with this relation, you should have divorced her on the first place, now you are keeping an unborn child at stake..damn it you want to leave Delhi, and Khushi's engagement is broken, everything makes sense, you want to elope with her, want to make a new life with her...damn..WHAT ABOUT ME and my sister and her unborn baby?
And Khushwant Kaur Grewal..you, in front of my eyes you are doing everything, I couldn't see this.Yeah, Shyam Manohar Johal has generous amount of property which can give you a luxurious life, and being a Lawyer, he will easily make his way to divorce no matter what.What a timing brother-in-law..I must say.After 9 long years, you decided to practise infidelity, that too with a 19 years old girl and now your wife is pregnant.
I don't care about anything, I just can't let Khushi to enter into such a vile business.I know her family is disgraced by my actions towards her, now they will have a tough time for her marriage. But with a married man..I just couldn't take it.
To be honest, I was more concerned about my sister.After long time good times were there for her.I knew,once she will see her child,she will forget all her agonies and insecurities, then everything will be alright.I honestly tried to save my sister from this shock, not only for her sake, but for me also.
I proposed her in the engagement ceremony of Akash and Payal, all were there. Everyone was too happy to object.Only Khushi was making face as if she was sentenced to death.
And every drop of my blood boiled when I couldn't see her smiling face during the entire procedures of our marriage.I said,"I also have money,more than you could ever think, I am also a man, I will be able to satisfy you in every way, please don't show me this pathetic face..", on our first night.She simply ignored all my taunts and harsh words.And I made a misinterpretation of all.I misunderstood her in every sense.But I kept my patience that one day she will apologise to me, and come to me, and will surrender to me.
She made several attempts to escape, of course didn't succeed.
After few months, I got to know that Khushwant was not having any illicit affair with my brother-in-law. She was engaged to him. My brother-in-law made misrepresentation of facts and proposed marriage to Khushi in front of the family.Grewal family kept silent just because they didn't want to harm Payal's marriage whose marriage was broken once.
How Khushwant met Jijajee?What made Jijajee so desirable and angel like?Thanks to my actions again.She was infamous because of me, some hooligans were harassing her, Jijajee became the rescue ranger and became her Knight in shining armour.Rest you can understand.
They say I am a jerk, of course I have been a jerk all the time, in the matter of Khushwant Grewal Randhawa, my wife.I could not practise entirely what I preached always.I married her , not just I wanted her, I wanted her to get rid of my own insecurities.I failed to cherish her, I failed to love her, to protect her.
Anyways, Akash fell in love with Payal. Much to my disgust, he started to consult me. This boy, how I could make him understand that we were adults now?Aunt Manorama effect was history.No, every time.."Bhai, roses or tulips..?" Think yourself kid, I have other things to do.
And they say I am the jerk.I thought about everybody,every time, and I am the jerk, they all are saints who imposed their liability upon me.Bloody hell.I started to get annoyed.Because of my stress level, I earned diabetes at the age of 24. Everyone was expecting too high from my side.
Khushwant was set in my office.Secretarial jobs and studying by distance education program, Khushwant managed well.Sometimes I wanted to smooch and make love to Khushwant.
Don't get any impression that I was importing the Gay couple concept in my life or in my house. Khushwant was feminine gender with some extra feminine features.Khushwant Kaur Grewal actually, in short Khushi or KKG.Total desi girl, not in the sense of those poster girls of sweet and polite and cultured Indian with great values, that too I hated.Desi girl means , total desi flavour.She has lips like gulab jamun, but her tongue was like red chilly powder, eyes were like calm lake, but in anger those eyes either evaporates fire or showers rain. The milky face gets bloody red when angry.In short I liked her.If she became late, I used to be angry, not beacause of work, but I missed some time with her.I was even ready to help her in the exams, but no.NO THANK YOU.Fine, absolutely fine.
Di was still pressing about Lavanya.Akash was asking for help as Payal said no to his marriage proposal because of the humiliation faced by Khushwant.Nani was being like.."Anjali doesn't have any, at least you give me a great-grandchild, how many days are left for me in the world..Arnav.."..I was screwed to the highest level.
It's not that Khushwant Kaur Grewal was immune to Arnav Singh Randhawa effect.She gave several hints by her attitude. She was not being angry anymore, not frequently at least.I thought it was a great time to raise the issue of Akash. Khushwant surprised me by saying, "Lovers must not be separated in this way, they must marry.." she also told that she will help to convince everyone.
While fixing Akash and Payal, I tried for her, and then I got to know that she was engaged.You give hint all the time, you show attitude, now you are telling that you are engaged.By the time Akash's marriage was fixed, I got to know that her engagement was broken.Needless to say that I summerily kicked Lavanya out of my range.Di was upset a bit, I told her not to worry, I will marry soon.
Then , miracle happened, Doctor said that Anjali Johal was pregnant.I was very happy.Jijajee will get finally a child.I must mention that I also started to think that what will be the features my our children, our means, me and Khushwant of course.But all of a sudden, Jijajee wanted to leave Delhi, I mean why now?
Later, I saw Khushwant in Jijajee's arm,"If you do not love her then leave her, why you lied to me..."..I understood everything, I mean why Jijajee never wanted to come in front of the family gathering, why Jijajee wanted to leave Delhi. I felt like a moron. Bitch, you are doing two timing! Holding my hand , kissing my chick on occasions, and you are having affair with my brother-in-law,hugging him.
And you brother-in-law, you don't love my sister?Then how is she pregnant?I know very well that over the years you are trying to make her pregnant, if you were so fed up with this relation, you should have divorced her on the first place, now you are keeping an unborn child at stake..damn it you want to leave Delhi, and Khushi's engagement is broken, everything makes sense, you want to elope with her, want to make a new life with her...damn..WHAT ABOUT ME and my sister and her unborn baby?
And Khushwant Kaur Grewal..you, in front of my eyes you are doing everything, I couldn't see this.Yeah, Shyam Manohar Johal has generous amount of property which can give you a luxurious life, and being a Lawyer, he will easily make his way to divorce no matter what.What a timing brother-in-law..I must say.After 9 long years, you decided to practise infidelity, that too with a 19 years old girl and now your wife is pregnant.
I don't care about anything, I just can't let Khushi to enter into such a vile business.I know her family is disgraced by my actions towards her, now they will have a tough time for her marriage. But with a married man..I just couldn't take it.
To be honest, I was more concerned about my sister.After long time good times were there for her.I knew,once she will see her child,she will forget all her agonies and insecurities, then everything will be alright.I honestly tried to save my sister from this shock, not only for her sake, but for me also.
I proposed her in the engagement ceremony of Akash and Payal, all were there. Everyone was too happy to object.Only Khushi was making face as if she was sentenced to death.
And every drop of my blood boiled when I couldn't see her smiling face during the entire procedures of our marriage.I said,"I also have money,more than you could ever think, I am also a man, I will be able to satisfy you in every way, please don't show me this pathetic face..", on our first night.She simply ignored all my taunts and harsh words.And I made a misinterpretation of all.I misunderstood her in every sense.But I kept my patience that one day she will apologise to me, and come to me, and will surrender to me.
She made several attempts to escape, of course didn't succeed.
After few months, I got to know that Khushwant was not having any illicit affair with my brother-in-law. She was engaged to him. My brother-in-law made misrepresentation of facts and proposed marriage to Khushi in front of the family.Grewal family kept silent just because they didn't want to harm Payal's marriage whose marriage was broken once.
How Khushwant met Jijajee?What made Jijajee so desirable and angel like?Thanks to my actions again.She was infamous because of me, some hooligans were harassing her, Jijajee became the rescue ranger and became her Knight in shining armour.Rest you can understand.
They say I am a jerk, of course I have been a jerk all the time, in the matter of Khushwant Grewal Randhawa, my wife.I could not practise entirely what I preached always.I married her , not just I wanted her, I wanted her to get rid of my own insecurities.I failed to cherish her, I failed to love her, to protect her.
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