Sanskaar's Monologues II--'The Edge of Chaos' OS Updated Page 1 - Page 6

Originally posted by: Cogito_Ergo_Sum

My Dearest Nynu, Saku, Ramisa and Showrav🤗🤗

Will reply to your lovely comments, during the course of tomorrow.🤗

Loads of Love

Viji

Originally posted by: Cogito_Ergo_Sum

Hey Aheli sweetheart🤗🤗

Will reply on that comment tomorrow🤗

Lots of Love

Viji

Originally posted by: Cogito_Ergo_Sum

My Dearest Nynu, Saku, Ramisa and Showrav 🤗🤗

Will reply to your lovely comments, during the course of tomorrow. 🤗

Loads of Love

Viji

Originally posted by: luana

Awesome? Amazing? No no i m not getting any words to say about your os. The way you discribed sanskaar's character was so amazing and for swara i felt pity on her. Why can't she just stops her abandonment nature and care about sanskaar? Well, i really loved ur os!! Keep writting more..

Originally posted by: iam_aheli_98

Res. Don't know when I will unres?! 😭
Unresed. 😃
I know this a very chotu comment from my side. 😔
But u must know that I absolutely loved this OS Viji dearest!! 🤗 ❤️ Thanks for the pm. 😃

With love,
Aheli.

Originally posted by: Nynaeve

Dear Ms. Viji (@Cogito_Ergo_Sum),

As you are back, so am I.

Despite the heartache and angst that I am going through, it was a pleasure to read your post, which considering the pathos your writing portrays, calling the reading of it a pleasure (?), seems to be a gross misstatement. However, given your perceptiveness with regard to my character and my moods, I am sure you understand what I mean, quite well, if I could take the liberty of saying so. It is also a little disconcerting to have one's deepest desires and darkest fears, so laid out in the open, though it is with reluctance admiration that I admit to the veracity of my emotions penned down by you.

There is only one thing I would like to tell Swara, my Shona; this is how she has left me:

Your deep insights and meaningful analysis of my thoughts and actions have left me overwhelmed, though I do not hold out much hope that my life would play out as you have so beautifully written in the end. However much it pains me to say, I am not sure of Swara anymore.

My state of my mind is a little wavering. I am going to digress, but have you watched the movie, The Shawshank Redemption? One of my all time favourites, of how life treats you unfairly and yet you come out a winner and a better person. Andy Dufresne (played by Tim Robbins) says to Red (brought to life by Morgan Freeman) "Remember, Red, hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things. And no good thing ever dies."

But when I think of those lines and decide to hope, another quote comes to mind, "Hope may be the thing that pulls you forward, may be the thing that keeps you going. But know (sic) that it is dangerous and painful and risky, it is making a dare to the world! And when has the world ever let us win a dare?" I would know, I dared, twice and lost both the times.

So I would try to follow these lines, "I find a calm in the chaos, a method in my madness and a smile in my sadness. I find myself." (R McFreshington).

Thanking you,

Sanskaar Ram Prasad Maheshwari

PS: I wanted to know if could you forward both of my "monologues" to Ms Swara, but then again, there would not be much use of her knowing exactly how I feel, would it?

PPS: In your reply to my earlier message, you had wanted to know if you could call me "Sunny". I apologise for refusing to that request. It is advisable you do not, I do not have any personal objections, but I know my (Sorry, that is by force of habit, I do not think I can call her 'mine' anymore) Swara would never accept it. Whether she admits to it or not, and however much she pretends not to be, she is very very possessive of me.