Fangirl part 7
Hi all sorry for the delay... Now don't think I am making useless excuses or something ... Genuinely it's rainy season aur bsnl network h..ab sochlo bar bar bsnl walon ko galiyan kya dein.. net chalta hi nahi h jab .Lego... sonhere is theb7 th part Hop u all will like it.. .. buddies I request pls do leave ur comments..I takes me a whole week to type these long updates n then I get no response so I felt dishearted at times I feel like I should stop this story because only a few people are reading it... Wese this time I have written in pov form do tell me if u like it or not.. or the old style of writing ie. In dialogues n scenes was better... Here this part is also the much awaited.. the love realisation so here I stop my unlimited bakwas package n u continue reading..
Sanskaar POV-
It had been a month.. I miss fangirl a lot.. our workplace it seems incomplete without her.. I really miss her strange activities.. seems my lab coat is willing to get tained again..But it will be this time.. I wonder..
I don't know y but I like being there with her ... Always laughing gigling.. she has an aura.. n aura which is positive..which attracts positivity... I always feel content around her..yes at another level.. I miss her a lot .. this Sunday is even worse... I cannot meet her...She has an appointment with the doctor... Hope she recovers soon... That night when I found her was a drastic one.. I still feel shivered when I remember my colleague n buddy...N my fangirl like that in pain... I badly miss... Idk y but whenever I see her I feel like going through love stories..uff.. that's so strange... But it happens..in fact just know all I have one in my hand... "Half girlfriend- by Chetan Bhagat".. ahh I have seen her reading the same last time we met at her place.. she said it was so much fun.. she passed her whole week reading the novel n listening to arjeet Singh songs... Well he is my favorite as well... Not the whole week but I have this boring weekend n I have nothing to do instead of reading the novel... Idk how I used to spend all my time alone..now it seems tough..
Ohh..this novel is real interesting..I am loving it .. madhav n riya.. what a story...I am loving it..
It has been three hours I am sitting here on one place reading my novel... I wonder how can I Handel these books now..I felt uninterested in them at a point of time in my life... But now it's me only .. who is reading these books..
Strange.. it is what I am now a days..I am acting strange.. I mean so much unlike me.. I watch films.. I cry with them.. laugh with them.. I listen songs n idk y... In all of them I portray her... I try to divert my mind ... But that is too tough... I now avoid leaving my self free because it leads me to think about her... Yes my fangirl..She occupies my mind every now n then... I can't even sleep at nights..I see her in my dreams .. ohh ..yes I do...
Like the last n8.. I saw myself playing a guitar n there was she singing along playing her guitar..yes she plays it n I never knew that.. u know what I loved her voice.. it was so sweet n melodious like her.. I felt like drowning my self in the sweetness of that voice.. it was attracting my mind.. I find myself wondering upon her voice many a times in a day.. I had decided to record her voice this time but today this doctor appointment seems to be villian.. yes it is
.. it could be on a working day but no it is today on sunday.. n I am here reading a novel n remembering my friend... My fangirl.. uff.. time pls pass soon I can no more handle this Borden which I am experiencing ..
Moving to n fro on the swing .. my left foot under my right thigh..N r8 foot making patterns on the floor in circular fashion..eyes glued to the novel n .. my hands slowly getting numb as they r holding this book at quite some hight do as to help me read it easily... But it is 10 in the mrng now n too much of reading... Yes I don't feel like getting up...But still I need to make myself a cup of strong coffee .. I wonder what will I do after this book will be over... May be sleep again...
So here I lifted my body up n moved towards my kitchen...
Swara POV-
A month.. how I have passed it is what I know... It had been soo tough.. reading novels .. watching films... Daily soap operas n what nots..ahh how can I forget those torturing chores ..sabzi katde.. kapde sametde..
I think I will soon beat Mr Sanjeev Kapoor in chopping Veges..
Neha n Hari ..yes 2 mistakes of my uncle n aunt.. always her tease me about him... Yes .. sanskaar sir... I think it is the wgorst thing if ur family knows about the person u like.. they kep on teasing u...yeah yeah..I know I am madly n badly in love with the guy even before I met him.. but see this is how I fell in love with him... N now it is the most painful state ie. To know weather ur love loves u ..or not.. is there anyone else whom he loves... may be there is Someone else who resides in his heart... These r the things which make me more worried so much worried ki I had no idea that it my turn now...well I can't move so it is Hari n papa who are going to carry me to the orthopedist.. as if everything in my life was going perfect that a new worry stircked my mind a minute ago .."INJECTION".. yes I am scared from them..another problem of my messed up life... Injection.. I wonder how can someone make a whole in my skin in insert a metal pointed pain causing object in it... Egghh... One side is the confusion n my feelings regarding sanskaar sir n ont the other is this doctor ka injection... I hate it all...
We entered in the chamber.. papa n Hari made me lie on a sort of bed in his room.. he examined my leg..saw the x rays .. n then signalled his nurse both these Devils moved towards my fractured leg with sharp cutting blades.. I prayed they had their breakfast n won't eat my leg up.. to my relied they didn't... They removed my old plaster
..I saw my leg it had been quite shrunked as compared to the other one.. yeah a consequence of plaster... They put a new plaster again but this time it wasn't that old white one it was a thicker one..it was covered. Once it was done it was as hard as plastic.. he told my dad that now I can... Bend my knee... OMG... I was.sooo happy.. I am soo happy.. I slowly bent it on his instructions.. I then stood up on my one leg ... N hopped a few steps... Hari n papa did not leave me even for a second.. aww my payara Bhai .. he is soo caring... I took a sigh of relief.. yes I did my butt it seemed to have gone numb sitting in a single position for a month...
I reached my home I was soo happy I hoped n showed all that she I can hop .. I hopped hopped n hopped n hopped... N hopped.. n there was I .. i fumbled n there I was about to fall but my pyara bro Hari he held.. me I was looking at him in utter shock...
"I know you want only ur sanskaar sir to hold u when u fall but for now u have no option except ur Bhai.." here he was again making my fun...
"Tiddi go n sit at one place n don't move... Untill it is necessary.." ...this was dad ..N it made me sad but Neha aww my cutee.. siso .. h came up with a game we three along with dida played.. it.
"So kuch hua ..I mean did u try to to talk with him.." Hari questioned..
"What sort of try u want me to do..?? " I questioned..
"Miss Bose.. if u love him did you try to figure out what he feels for u.."
Hari asked n I simply nodded in a big NO..
He let a deep sigh out..
"Do something.. try to talk to him or there is a simpler way.."
"What.. " I wondered what is simpler.. is there anything simple even...
Hari continued..
" We I mean ur family can talk to him.. u know we can just take ur alliance"...
"Shut up Hari Bhai.." I almost shouted.. "what " his eyes stairing at me in a shock..
"Are u serious u know Na ki no body in our family had done an arranged Marriage.. like dadaji n dadi was a love .uncle and aunt was a love marriage n also Maa n baba was a love marriage.. n here r u insisting me for it .." I splattered...
" Not exactly it would be a love arranged Marriage.." he supported his idea..
" Bhai try to understand Na I just need time n I am not a guy to simply confess.. " I took a stand for myself..
" Umm okay so did you give him any hints.." he quized again.
" Nope .." came my disappointing monosyllabic reply..
" Do something.. behna . N do it asap..before the boy is gone.."
We ended the conversation with these last words he spoke . ... .
Now we were playing again.. but my mind was stuck at his words... "Do something n do it asap..."...
Sanskaar pov.-
It is 12 noon I am on the same place with the same novel .. well the difference is a dried coffee mug on the table near me.. n face covered with the" half girlfriend "... My eyes closed n mind half sleepy... I am tried. .. like Mr madhav Jha of the story half gf is tired of miss riya Somani... Oh.. she is lost again..N so am I ... But I am not like riya Somani 100% I mean I am just lost in my dreamland.. dreaming about what nots.. may be uhhmm... Yes yes I confess I am really dreaming about my fangirl..too.. my I Don't get y she is so much distractive to me.. I at times want to shoot my brain for again n again pondering over her ... Thus girl is not even letting me get sleep.. there also doing something or the other to my lab coat n bike n now she patting on my cheeks. ...hey I suppose she was coming close for kiss but y is patting my cheek... I wanted to hold her hand n crash my lips on hers but my body feels heavy... Oh.. what is happening...
I soon realised that when I fell down...yes I was dreaming..N laksh Bhai was waking me up...
"Oh hello Mr. Dream boy.. wake up its just 12 not Even A perfect time for a nap.."
.. he almost made fun of me..
Ridiculous I thought.. yes I was going to kiss my fangirl n here he came like a villian...
But composing my self I managed to speak.." nothing bas ese hi... " N I woke up with my novel rubbing my head..
He was looking at me with quite a shock..
" What's happening to u.." he questioned.."I mean u are so worried now a days so much unlike u... Reading love stories n watching films with romantic plots.. n listening to songs like 'gerua' 'saiyyan'.. 'hona tha pyaar'.. n what nots.. n yes how can I forget Bengali songs.. "..
" Kya lucky is it written some where ki sanskaar Maheshwari Can't do these things.." I defended myself.. but my brother seemes to have different plans.. a mischievous smile cracked up on his face..
"Do u know who does this.." he said Inna teasing tone..
"Who " I replied ..
"Lovers..." He replied in a naughtorious tone..
"SHUT-UP .". I almost shouted in a reflex n he broke into a fit of laughter...
"Acha u had a love marriage r8.. " I quized n he nodded positively .. hence I continued..." so tell me how it feels when u r in love.." ..
"Okay so listen carefully". He beganbeganith his typical love gutur style.."do u like her.."
"Yes"
" Do u miss her"
"Yes"
"Feel like time passes like a great with her like u never understand how th day ended so soon"..
"Yes"..
"When u read a love Story..or watch a romantic movie or isten to a song do u imagine her... N u"..
"Yes"
"How many times have u kissed her in ur dreams."
"I actually lost the count .. almost every day"...
" How do u feel when she is around?"
"I feel good.."
"Just good" laksh looked at me with wide eyes..
"No very good" I continued "matlab I feel happy.. my heart dances.. I feel peace...I forget all my problems..N just feel like being loved.. I am reminded of our bonding when I see her .. the way she talks ... The spark in her eyes ..her energy level..it's just different"
"Wait wait wait y r u reminded of me when u see her.. Bhai i hope it is her n not him.." laksh again looked at me n this time confused ..
"Shut up... I am reminded of u because u too love me soo much matlab.. u always try to make me smile..N her presence is only more than enough for that.. she made my joining anniversary also soo special... U know I always admire her.." I replied n looked at my bro cum love Guru Again..
" Do u care for her .." he put a last question..
" A lot.. I just feel pained when she is hurt ... I feel like. ..bas kya bataun... ".. I stopped with a deep breath...
Yes I couldn't Breath when I think about her...
"Soo u are finally in love ..." He concluded..
" R u sure" I looked at him..with questioning eyes..
"That u have to decide" n he patted my shoulder..
At n8-.
The day passed I was with laksh n ragini too joined us soon.. we went for evening walks n loads of chatting.. wese I love laksh n ragini they always manage time for me... N along with them my Brother's words are echoing in my mind.. "do I love her n am I sure" .. I think I have to think for sometime...But to do... How to confirm...I think I should give it time if it is in my Destiny then I will surely get to know ...
I closed my eyes... N soon sleep embraced me . ..
Swara POV-..
I can't sleep . No i can never . MATLAB now toh i am begging to bhagwan Ji...that I need a solution.. what to do.. how to give hints. How to know his feelings...egghh... My head pains... Well today I forgot but tommorow i will surely tell him about my new improvement..N yes I miss him soo much... " I love you sanskaar sir" I whispered to my self n slept...
Pov ends...
Somewhere in the night it started to rain ..
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Mohabbat barsa dena tu, sawan aaya hai
Tere aur mere milne ka, mausam aaya hai
Mohabbat barsa dena tu, saawan aaya hai
Tere aur mere milne ka, mausam aaya hai
Sanskaar was wearing his blue shirt and white lower and getting drenched. Water was dripping from his hair and he moving his fingers in his wet hair.. He was singing sawan aya h.. Swara lost all her anger at his feature and ran down...
Sabse chhupa ke tujhe seene se lagaana hai
Pyar mein tere hadd se guzar jaana hai
Itna pyar kisi pe, pehli baar aaya hai
She ran to him getting drenched and gave a tight hug..
Mohabbat barsa dena tu, sawan aaya hai
Tere aur mere milne ka, mausam aaya hai
Now swasan break their hug and swara started dancing in the rain.. Getting drenched , water dripping from her hair.. Her white net saree sticking to her body... And here sanskaar was getting mesmerised seeing her...
Kyun ek pal ki bhi judaai sahi jaaye na
Kyun har subah tu meri sanson me samaye na
Aaja na tu mere paas, dunga itna pyar main
Kitni raat guzaari hai, tere intezar mein
Swara like a carefree bird was dancing in the rain when sanskaar started moving towards her.. Seeing him approaching near her swara started moving backwards... She was about slip when sanskaar catches her...
Kaise bataaun jazbaat ye mere
Maine khud se bhi zyada tujhe chaaha hai
Sab kuch chhod ke aana tu, sawan aaya hai
Tere aur mere milne ka, mausam aaya hai
Swasan share an eyelock.. A passionate one .. He lifts her and makes her sit on a bench near by in the MM garden... He sat on the other side taking her foot in his hand scolding her... Swara listening to it with pout face ... Sanskaar lifted his eyes and saw her which as usual melted his heart...
Sabse chhupa ke tujhe seene se lagaana hai
Pyar mein tere hadd se guzar jaana hai
Itna pyar kisi pe, pehli baar aaya hai
She keeps her feet down and hugs him tight and this time it was tight as well as passionate.. They both getting lost in each other's fragrance.. Soon the break the hug .. Water is dripping from their hair ... They share a passionate eyelock..
Bheege bheege tere lab,
mujhko kuch kehte hain
Dil hai khush mera ki khayal ek jaise hain
Roko na ab khudko yun sun lo dil ki baat ko
Dhal jaane do shaam aur aa jaane do raat ko
Kitna haseen ye lamha hai
Kismat se maine churaaya hai
Soon sanskaar shifted his gaze to her lips .. Their lips were wet due to heavy rain...she turned red.. But closed her eyes giving a positive response... Sanskaar placed his lips on hers.. It started as a soft kiss ... Swara too responded making it a passionate one ... They separated due to lack of oxygen... Swara felt shy and she hide her face in sanskaar's chest
Aaj ki raat na jaana tu, sawan aaya hai
Tere aur mere milne ka, mausam aaya hai
Sanskaar lifted her in his arms and moved into the middle of the garden ... He holding her started moving in circles... Swara too enjoyed it.. They again shared an eye lock... Sanskaar now started moving towards their room.. Without breaking the eyelock
Sabse chhupa ke tujhe seene se lagaana hai
Pyar main tere hadd se guzar jaana hai
Itna pyar kisi pe, pehli baar aaya hai
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Sanskaar POV-
I was in my dreamland..aww.. what a. Dream it was.. again it came..She came.. we were together.. we were caressing we were together all drenched .. we were close..I held her close to me... ... Our lips met sparks flew.. but u know none can let me do my romance .. they all r jealous that is y my phone rang.. I picked it up without looking at the caller .. I was Willing to sleep more ...
But with a sleepy voice I said.. "hello.." n voice on the other side left me startled.. I was unable to believe that weather it is reality i was dumbstruck.. she again said.."hello"..
"Hi.. goodmorning fangirl r u there.." I said composing my self..
"Hi sir ..good morning..."..
After 15 minutes.. I kept the phone.. n I really wanted to hug someone.. I was soo happy.. syes told me now she can bent her knee .. oh I wanted to meet her ... But she said come next Sunday.. I Agreed after a lot of pressure applied by her.. I would have never agreed but she is no less she changed my opinion by her constant subdornness.. uff thus girl now I am dressing up.. I went to the near by temple yes I did... Well yes I like her... No i like her a lot.. like eemm.. yes like I have started to love her.. yes I do .. oh I forgot the place.. I am in temple I am thanking God for her recovery... But this thought that I love her I am blushing .. I am blushing at the moment.. pata nahi.. oh god . .. matlab... Egghh.. kya karoon what to do.. I feel like dancing.. rolling on the ground.. drenching my self in the rain... Infact I want to hug her...capture her lips in mine.. but anyhow I have to wait till the next Sunday...
Oh this wait it will take my life.. I turned n I for the 1st time didn't felt like going to the lab n hence I decided to.meet laksh n ragini ...
I left for mm..
@mm..
I entered..N as usual saw my family on the breakfast table I directly moved to them ..kept my bag on the sofa..I went to my bade Papa..N touched his feet followed by badi Maa..Papa n ..hmm..mom.. all were shocked to see me.. I went to adarsh Bhai hugged him.. n then hugged laksh..
"Looking so happy Bhai.. anything special " he whispered in my ear..
I almost broke the hug.. looked into his eyes.. n again wrapped hands around him .. my smile never vanished for even a second n I whispered back.."yes I am sure...I am sure about her.. "...
Laksh tightened the hug...
"I am soo happy for you" he said..
We broke the hug I held his hand n took him to the sofa were I had kept my bag..
"What" he questioned
I simply showed him his favorite mava Barfi...
"Oho toh aaj koi celebrate Kar raha h..." He teased n I simply inserted the peace of Barfi in his mouth...
Meanwhile I disclosed about her recovery.. laksh simply smiled n I too was about to leave. .. when I herd my mom..
"Sanskaar" she spoke to me after long.. I stopped but didn't turn a tear escaped my eye... .
"Yes" I replied composing myself .
She came to me n kept her hand on my shoulder... I turned a little.. n held her hand.. n mine..I after quite some months looked into her eyes...
They had moisture..
"Still angry..." She asked..
"No i am not ..infact I was never...".. I replied..
" Y r u not talking to me for so long" she pinned ...
" I was busy. " . I made my old excuse...
"Hmm.. all the best " she said while looking down n yet caressing my Cheek..
I too faintly smiled.. n hugged her... But not for long I parted took my bag n left...I didn't even once look back.. all I herd was laksh .. addressing my mom n then her foot steps perhaps she went to her room...
My heart was quite heavy but.. still u know I can't stop Missing her my fangirl.. I so much wanted her to be there for me with me.. I wanted to say so much.. I wanted to talk soo much.. I wanted to confess but 1st I wanted to get hints.. she had been my Friend I wanted her to be my best friend n not for anything I am ready to lose her.. atleast her friendship.. u know u have to be patient at times.. it's better to live all my life with my fangirl as a friend n hidding my feelings rather than disclosing them n hurting her...
Well finally I am in my lab working but it's really tough to diver my attention from her...
This the thing I hate about love u can't just think about anything else...
N here is the consequence..."aahhh.. " I moaned in pain n saw my finger yes I was injured but what to do...now..this was the careless mistake..or rather the mistakes like fangirl used to commit...
Sanskaar POV-ends...
swara POV-
I am the world's big bigger n biggest fool .. yes I am .. Sanskaar sir wanted to meet me today itself .. but I insisted n forced sir to go n work n meet me at the weekend .. but what to do I can't let sir waste his leaves on me.. work is equally important u know...
I love him can't see him in pain but still it would hurt me more if he will face any problems in future .. but the only thing is now I am missing him... N missing him like.. u only there are only 26 alphabets n my feelings can't be expressed in them...
Infact no set of finite letters can define themm... Eggh... I think I am quite cheesy now a days but still I like being me...
N yes this time I will try what Hari said... For sure...But till then no option except for wait wait wait wait wait wait wait n loads of wait for next 6 days... Uhmm... But this is my punishment for driving carelessly...
I again took my novel this time I picked up 2 states n started reading it again.. so as to pass my time...
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