Raglak: Love is Pain, Betrayal, losing trusting, losing hope, Part 12 - Page 19

Originally posted by: rbb1

Laura I will try to post the next part tomorrow 😊

Waiting for tomorrow😳

Originally posted by: Shinning_AD

Waiting for tomorrow😳

I will update it in about 8 hours

Originally posted by: clarity

Ray.

How can you be such a fantastic storyteller?

The way you flesh out your characters and the way you draw their feelings out.

I am loving this new Ragini. My fave scene of hers' was when she was driving- liberate and free. How nice would it be if we could see this Ragini on the show.

I totally loved it.

Lakshya and Ragini's conversation was so hard-hitting. Lakshya finally understands how broken she is.

👏👏👏

Hats off. I don't have words to express how awesome this fic is.

Thank you Appu you are too kind, i know i am not good like everyone else but i try its just my thought on how i want the story go

Originally posted by: wayback

Beautiful..

It was magical..

I seriously can't believe that this is your first ff..

Tell me honestly are you some secret writer or novelist 😆

It was great..

The way you should Ragini I am seriously in love with it..

Continue soon... And thanks for the pm

so sweet thank you

plzzz update next prt quickly
I'm desperately waiting for it .

Originally posted by: Marooshmalik

plzzz update next prt quickly
I'm desperately waiting for it .

i am going to post it in few minutes hope you like it 😊

Everyone thank you so much for your patience, sorry for the delay couldn't think of what to write, hope you all will not be disappointed.

Part 6:

Laksh walked out of the house, walking like a living corpse, he didn't know where to go what to do, who to talk too or who can help him. He had no idea what or how to get Ragini, his Ragini to come out of the dark and start living again, how she can live a life all closed up and scared of being touched by anyone. We humans need touch of other humans, to cuddle people to feel wanted, loved and cared for, when people feel bad or low they can ask a friend for a hug and it makes them feel better. What did he do and how was he going to try and rectify his sin, because this was a sin not a mistake.

Laksh went sat in the car, crying his heart out, because that is the only thing he could do he didn't know what to begin to help to try and help Ragini. He knew he had to think make a plan before he did anything. His impulsiveness got him into this mess. At the time he did what he thought was right thought about the consequences of his actions. He could have never imagined that his horrible act would kill Ragini in such way. What had he done even god will not forgive. He hit the headboard hard it hurt his hands but he didn't feel the pain was nothing like what Ragini was going through.

Laksh wants to do anything and everything he can to help Ragini but what and how? He needs to do whatever it takes to make her live again. How did he become such a devil that he didn't know what he did changed both his and Ragini's life forever.

After Laksh left Ragini run upstairs in her room, locked the door sat next to the door and cried, she didn't know why she talked to Laksh she didn't want to let him, then why did she talk to him, tell him everything, why did she do that, she started to hate herself for telling Laksh about what he did and how because of that she is living such a strange life. She is happy yet sad, she is loved yet feels not loved, she has family yet she feels alone, she has friend yet there is distance between them. Her past is still ruling her life and she knew no matter what she can never forget her past it will always haunt her. What should she do she doesn't want to be sacred of people touching her all her life she wants to live a life like she did before.

After thinking about it a lot she decided her first step would be to call her doctor tomorrow morning and make an appointment, maybe talking to psychiatrist a bit more will help her. She knew talking to him helped her overcome the fear of hugging Ram, Rahul and Rohan. You never know it might help her more, she knows the doctor said she has to try and stop over thinking things and go with the glow and things will get better. She knows that she needs to take baby steps to get out of the dark place she is at right now. She got up moved to the bed, lay there thinking of how she has to be strong and do this to be free fear.

Ragini slept after a lot of thinking and debating with herself. She woke up sweating and scared, she had a nightmare of someone touching her and getting close to her. she knew it's because her subconscious mind was still pondering about what she was thinking before she went to sleep. She drunk some water and tried to go back to sleep but it wasn't easy. She got up wore a shawl and stood next to the window looking at the sky thinking to herself what her future holds for her. sometimes she felt like she was living two different lives. One where she was with the Chopra's all happy, liked, loved, and strong. Another where she lives in fear of losing herself in the crowd and not being able to find her away back. She knows life has been a roller coaster for her but she thought life gives you what you can take right?

Laksh was in his room drinking thinking about how Ragini told him to stop drinking and he should think about his health. He never listened to her and he regretted it now. He wishes he could turn back time and change things, but he knew it was not possible. He had to think a way to help her without hurting her, if he couldn't help her he couldn't not forgive himself for not trying or succeeding.

Laksh went next to the window looked at the moon thinking and praying for someone to help him. He wouldn't do anything to help her no matter what or how long it takes him. He was determined and he knew it was not going to be easy but he has to try. He knew Ragini will not talk to him and might ignore him completely but he has to do something he cannot stand aside and not do anything.

If Ragini hits him, beats him up, swears at him, curses him he would be happy because that would be nothing compare to what he did. Ragini hurt his family and he wishes he could have done anything else but what he did he regrets that so much he could never excuse himself. He went to bed thinking about Ragini and their past.

Next day Ragini woke up had breakfast called the doctor made an appointment to see him t 12:00 which would be during lunch then she won't miss time too much from work. She went to the hospital with Ram, attended some meetings, checked few things to make sure everything was running smoothly. It was 10:30 someone called her and said there was a phone call for her, she went to answer the phone and it was he doctor to confirm her appointment.

Ragini talk to some of the kids in the kids ward that always made her feel good and fresh, they she went to talk to Ram before going and told him if Rahul and Rohan need her she will be o her phone. Ram told her not to worry and they will be fine she should take care of her. Ragini grabbed her coat, sunglasses, car keys and her bag and walked out.

Laksh was coming to the hospital to see Ragini but he saw her walking out and was driving somewhere he followed her and saw she was going to see the doctor. Ragini went in he waited outside. He didn't know if he should stay and talk to her or stay and talk to the doctor.

Ragini: Hi Sam

Sam: Ragini, how are you is everything okay, you called unexpected I thought your appointment was next week, but you here, did something happen?

Ragini: actually I was feeling restless and disturbed so I thought it might be good to talk to you and see if that makes me feel good.

Sam: nice to know you like my company and he smiled, Ragini smiled as well

Ragini: you know me too well

Sam: take a sit, so what happened, why are feeling restless?

Ragini: I don't know, I am feeling so alone and scared, I know my family are with me but still I don't know

Sam: since when are you feeling like this?

Ragini: last few days but more from yesterday night

Sam: what happened yesterday night? Did something remind of a bad time in your life?

Ragini: you could say that

Sam: would like to talk about it Ragini?

Ragini: I don't know, I don't know what I want?

Sam: it will help if you talk Ragini, take your time and relax there is no need to hurry, in your own time

Ragini: what do I say Sam my past came in front of me few days ago and yesterday everything just came out of me, it was like I couldn't help myself, I didn't want to talk about my past but I could help it

Sam: your past, who or what from you past Ragini?

Ragini: he came back

Sam: who came back Ragini?

Ragini: the person responsible for me being here

Sam: do you want to say is name?

Ragini: shaking her head no, she is scared if she says his name she might start to care for him again

Sam: its your choice Ragini

Ragini: my ex-husband

Sam: how do you feel about him being back?

Ragini: scared, angry, frustrated

Sam: why you scared Ragini:

Ragini: I am scared because I don't want to start to care about him again

Sam: why would you do that?

Ragini: because we have a history together and believe it is a long history

Sam: why are you angry?

Ragini: I am angry because he did this to me and he is here, he didn't even know how he hurt him, he thought I am still the same as I was before I found out what he did to me and how he betrayed me

Sam: why are you frustrated?

Ragini: because I am letting him and my past still haunt me, rule me and my life. I don't want my past to still make me sad scared or angry

Sam: it's in your if you don't want to let it rule you, you can stop it, it is in your hands Ragini

Rgaini: I know Sam but I just can't shake it off she has a sad smile on her face

Sam: Ragini we decided how to live life and what to do

Ragini: I know I am trying it will take time

Sam: first step is knowing your problem which you know, second wanting to deal with it, which you are trying and third getting over it, it will happen like you said you need some time, he looks at her

Ragini: I am determined and willing to get rid of my fear Sam, I don't want to live in a bubble because I am scared and I will do it one day, I hope just the day is soon

Sam: that's good Ragini when you are willing to do something that is a great step forward

Ragini: thank you Sam, talking to you has helped as always she smiles

Sam: good to hear that, thank you

Ragini: okay I will see you in my next appointment

Ssam: see you, take care and if you need to talk don't hesitate to call or come and see me anytime

Ragini: thank you, bye

Sam got up opened the door for Ragini and she walked out. Laksh was hiding behind the door because he didn't want Ragini to see him. After Ragini was out of site Laksh came in front of Sam. He pushed in the room to see Sam.

Sam: who are you and what are you doing?

Laksh: I am Laksh Ragini's husband.

Sam was shocked, he didn't know what he should do.

Sam: okay what are you doing here, what do you want?

Laksh: I want to know about Ragini, and I want to help her

Sam: I can't talk to you about Ragini she is my patient

Laksh: she is my wife

Sam: Ragini said you guys were divorced

Laksh: no I didn't sign the papers, I am still her husband

Sam: still I can't talk to you, if you want to help her you have to speak to Ragini

Laksh: she wont talk to me she hates me, every time she sees me she thinks of the betrayal and I don't blame her

Sam: if you want her to get better she will have to stop being angry at you, herself and the past

Laksh: how do I do that?

Sam: I cant help you, I'm sure you will come up with a plan

Laksh: if I come with Ragini here in her next appointment will be that helpful to her

Sam: yes but you need her to agree and that might be a bit tough

Laksh: I will try my best, thank you smiles and walks out.

Sam thinks if Laksh can make Ragini agree to let him come in the next session it will be beneficial for them both.

I hope you all liked the update, please leave your comments and suggestions x

Aww this is an awesome chapter cnt wait for the next part. Excellent job as always.

Originally posted by: sandiab

Aww this is an awesome chapter cnt wait for the next part. Excellent job as always.

thank you 😊

Fab update
Loved ragini's initiative to get rid of her fear
Loved laksh repentance and will to win her back n cure her
Wud love to see hw love reblossoms b/w zem if u happen to nt pair any1 else opp ragini
I knw it wud be gre8 even if u pair sme1 else as ur an ace writer bt wud love it mre if raglak pair is kept (since zis is bout zer past, present, love, betrayal n repentance)
Fanx 4 pm n cntinue soon dr