The simmering pain: Raglak STORY Note 11/3/16 - Page 8

Ragini with a determination and set mind walked towards guest room where kavita was staying. She saw kavita was still awake...lights we're still on and she was lost in some thoughts. Seems this was a long night and nobody had slept reasons best known to them as to y. Seems this was a cursed night...a night which was spooky...which felt was going to bring a storm in e everyone's life...and she was the one who was going it to bring in everybody's lives once again. Taking a deep breath...she knocked at the door..kavita saw her..both still in there party attires..

K: Ragini...arrey...plz come inside.

R: I saw you awake...and I wasn't sleepy myself...so thought if i could join you...only if you have no problem..

K: sure...u don't know I also was dying ty o talk to someone...I am so happy...today...

R: I can see that...it's showing on ur face..ur eyes..ur gestures...

K: Really...I think only u can understand my feelings...how it feels to get your love...I feel so lucky...seeing my dreams cone true...

R: I had thought u would be celebrating with sanskar. After all it's such a big and happy occasion in ur lives which you both have been waiting for so long...

K feeling a oil embarrassed and awkward. Actually she was hurt that she was lonely when sanskar had to be by Ger side. Ragini was watching every emotion flitting across her face. She had been there..done that...she could easily read her pain,her hurt. Kavita trying to hide her pain said..

K: Arrey actually he was very tired...so I thought not to disturb him.

R: hmm...so tell me..how it feels. ??

K: just ecstatic...simply mind blowing...I feel like flying..shouting from roof top...

R;: and sanskar??? He must be feeling the same...

K halted her thoughts...yeah she had also noticed..sanskar looked weird.

K: I don't know ragini. Frankly his reaction isn't like what I thought...but I know he's very happy ...he knows I had been dreaming of this moment since the moment I came out of my coma.

R: Thats ur side. But do y actually feel he's happy..??? U truly love him right. Then u must surely know he us happy or not..

K: of course he is happy...what do u want to say?? That he's moved in..that he's faki g his happiness that he's bothered by this engagement and is feeling forced to do it...

R: I never said any of those things kavita. Then y this guilt trip and doubt? If both of us or happy and this is what u two want then y such insecure thoughts.

K was speechless at what ragini said. She didn't know that she was actually insecure.

R: Kavita, just a kind advice...time is a big big healer. One can then a blind eye to situation at hand but can never keep on running from it. They gave to gave it someday...and that day will either make you or break you..this is never the solution. Rest is up to u..the life you chose...u will have to bear it. U still have time...imagine..

U itself say things change with time,wounds heal...y can't a person move on and fall in love.

K: look who is talking?? I know what all you have done to get lakshya and now he's accepted you and u are so happy that u got love of ur life...similarly I will get my sanskar back too...he had loved me once and he will again...I will everything in my power to get him for myself..

R gives a slight smile...kavita watches her teary eyed herself a ty impact of raginis words and being forced to face the truth about her and sanskars relation.

R: Kavita...u really think I am happy. U really think the one I love is happy. ? Do ubreally think I get this acceptance happily or as a self pity coz I left lakshya with no choice...I don't know much about u kavita..but I can see that sanskar us becoming ur obsession more than love...and u too are going on a path..where there is only pain,heartbreak,insult,loneliness...u r emotionally blackmailing him into accepting u and please don't deny that. U can blind everyone but not me. Don't become me kavita. Will u be able to live with a gulit whole life. Its hard but accept it. U know swasan love each be other,swasan have moved on in life...and uvverywell know sanskar has done engagement only as a duty towards you...u r making him guilty and forcing him..how long can such a relation sustain. He respects you and his time with you a lot. Will he be able to respect you if he comes to know that you knew about him and swara.

K: swasan themselves told they married unwantedly and got divorced...am not coming between them...

R: don't give me this shit kavita...u and I both know where u stand and what u know. Don't burn like me...u won't be able to ever be gulit free...this insecurity and inferiority will never let us live happily in this marriage. U r cursing all three of you...ur one step will decide everyone's life. I wish u r better person and real enough to understand what I want to say. Rest ur choice. I have lost everyone coz of my deeds.. lost everyone's trust...but u have a chance...if u e er truly loved sanskar think about it kavita...think about it...don't destroy itself...

Kavita is stunned to hear rag I no. She could pain oozing out from her every word. She couldn't bekeive this,was the evil ragini everyone talked about...she was scared of thinking what ragini was telling...was she also getting obsessive...just to be secure herself she was hurting sanskar the man who was ready to sacrifice his happiness all over again...she knew feel in her heart that this wasn't her sanskar...he was different...he was someone she didn't relate to..his choices,outlook everything had changed...she was trying hard to ignore it and live in Ger own bubble but ragini forced her to face it...this was what she was afraid of..to face the reality...she saw a silently walking away ragini lost in her own thought...was ragini right...was she herself right...of course she was right...of course..of course...but was she really..????...

Loved how Ragini told kavita's that she is becoming like her n not to force sanskar into a relationship

Can't wait for next part

L goes to his room mulling over his own conflicting thoughts. Was he doing right?? Will he have to stop so low now?? Willbhis conscience let him live with what he was about to do?? Will he ever be able to face the consequences?? He had no choice he thought..Ragini could be only satiated if she felt that L had truly started feeling for her Ragini only wanted her haq and shecwas anyways ready to take there marriage to next level thinking it would bound him to her forever. Once she got what she was lusting after..may be the witch may finally come under control..It was no use trying to explain her anything now. The demobs had take over her completely. There was not an ounce of sensibility leftvin her. He pitied at her condition. Even showing her the mirror wasn't enough coz she was blinded totally in her hatered,her obsession,her deviousness...when somebody losses that fear of respect they may fall to lowest level of abyss and still not regret...this is what was happening with her. She had become utterly entirely shameless. Only he could stop her now by doing withcher what he was the right thing to do with his love and not enemy. He wouldn't regret any of it. He was going to be called cruel but he only had this one way left to counter her..but he wasn't sure how far would he be able to keep up the pretence or will he even be able to touch her without flinching or showing anything via his expressions...he had to bring out the lusty m a n in him now..would it be disrespect to her womanhood...yes I know it would be...but she's forced me to fall to this level of disgust...and she deserves this. Finally shutting all his thoughts...just focussing on the lady waiting in his room he opened the door expecting a warm welcome after his scene there in balcony...but surprised to find room still unlit in dark...and a spooky silence...a,silence which meant ragini wasn't in the room...surprise was a small word...his,expressions,we're indefinable...this isn't what hechad expected.

Its been almost an hour and yet ragini wasn't back in room. This was strange. After the balcony play...he was sure she was ecstatic,she was I guess happiest till date he had seen her...he was expecting the way despo she is...she might gave decorated the room in 10 min itself...but...

Something wasn't right. Not able to control himself he walked back towards the balcony looking out for her.

Rags had been dreamily gazing at the moon just rewinding the last year and her whole life in her mind. She had totally forgotten that it was too late and she was yet sitting on the swing with curled legs. Too tired... she felt suffocated in house. She doesn't have strength to face L back in there room. After talking to kavita,she came back to balcony with a cup of hot chocolate milk. She could feel the harsh cold weather but she felt and wanted to be alone and block her mind and thoughts to everything g around her. She wanted to become blank...blank like a notebook ready yo be ready written...she wanted for once to rewind and watch her whole life till now and decide the next course..when she lost to sleep there on the swing itself was unknown to her.