Letter from Ragini to Swara

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medha

@ToujoursPur

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Posted: 9 years ago

Hello Sis,

I never could bear you. Still cannot. I have absolutely no idea why you do not understand that. But then you were always a bit slow.

Swara, remember when we were kids..and you used to hang around the colony with your friends? I used to stand in the balcony and look on..too shy to join you guys? I waved everyday. Only you responded cheerily...the others were never bothered. I badly wanted to be as cool and popular as you.

What is it Swara, that you have and I do not? I am prettier than you. I am way more intelligent, way more talented. But you? I have only one question to ever ask you. Its Why. Why ,why ,why are you always the first choice and not me?

Lakshya was chosen for me. But see what happened. He fell for you. My half sister.

I adored you Swara. I was so damn happy that I had a sister. Lonely me, would finally have the sibling I'd always wanted. Someone who would take my side, stand up for me in front of my Grandmother's dictums. Someone who would have pillow fights with me. Someone who would tease me about Lakshya...someone who would dance with happiness in my baraat. I dreamt of chatting with you on the phone for long hours...doing our Husbands' burai on the phone. And you were that.

I killed you .Killed my sister that day, when with an almighty push, I threw yourself and all my sanity in that river. I should not have. After all, you are the only person who has steadfastly ever been there for me.

I wanted to win Lakshya. Force him to choose me. Thought you the evil witch impending my fairytale.

And I would do it again. I do not regret it. Regret never erases anything. It's useless. What's done is done.

I believe in screwing my competition. Anyway possible. Thats the only way to get what you want. Clean eradication...and the market is yours to monopolise.

So I did. I made your life a playground where I could wreak havoc. But Swara...I forgot. All that is gold does not glitter. Lakshya is fake gold Swara. I deserved more. You deserved more.

I guess Karma bites you in your ass huh? I have everything...and its hollow within. And look at you. I, the devil, snatched Lakshya from you...and God immediately replenished your empty hands with your soulmate. Its like freaking losing a rupee and finding a hundred. See how fortunate you are?

You don't yet. I told you, you're slow.

I wish sometimes I can rest my head on your lap and tell you my woes. My sister will listen to me. But I cannot of course. I lost my sister in this madness.

Abash'd the Devil stood and felt how awful Goodness is/ And saw Virtue in her shape how lovely.

Read Milton Swara? Its his quote. Paradise Lost. Thats the difference between you and me. You are blessed because you are an angel. I am hardcore...but I am still not worthy.

Its amazing how you can strive and strive and yet not get what you want. And its even more amazing how you can stupidly and carelessly reject a diamond as coal...and still be the richest person ever.

You know how they say that only rich people ever say that money is nothing.

I love Lakshya Swara. Way more than you ever could. But he never glances my way. You had the correct impression of him when he first broke my heart. This guy was not worth it. Exactly,sis.

I wished you would never out me. Keep my secret, cover up for me like you always did. Thats what sisters do right? They pull each other's hair...but if the parents ground A, B quietly takes her place so that A can go meet her Boyfriend?

Then maybe, just maybe...things could have been ok. Who am I kidding. Of course it would not.You had to reunite, my, our parents. Dunno, why they fell apart if they were, that great a couple.

As your enemy, I want you to suffer heartbreak like I do everyday, when my Husband chases behind you. See, taking him from you did not mean a lot to you. You were with him because he adored you.

But now that you are in love with Sanskaar, oh yes, you are...if I replace him with Lakshya...you will be heartbroken.Really shattered. Water and wine are very different Sis. Wine is tantalizing, but not good for you. Water gives you life. I guess you still need to work out who is who. Slowpoke.

And as your sister...Sis...live your life with the one who worships you. Cherish him. Love him as he deserves.You owe nobody apart from him, anything. No matter what you do for them they do not reciprocate when the time comes.

Trust me, I know.

I really am not your pretty baby sister anymore,

Ragini.

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This letter was written because Viji(CogitoErgoSum) wanted to read one from ragini to swara. Viji...hope it matched your expectations..I had to post this before I left for work.😳

Edited by medhasankar - 9 years ago

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Cogito_Ergo_Sum

@Cogito_Ergo_Sum

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Posted: 9 years ago

Medhu dear... 🤗 🤗

As I already told you yesterday, (on your letter from Ragini to Lakshya piece), you've made Grey my favorite color! 😊 I love the way you do that dear, with dominant streak of gray painted first, and then with little fluttering brushstrokes delineating the grays...from light to dark, all within the overarching Gray palette. Am I making sense? 😉 If not, you have only yourself to blame, since your work has made me feel so thrilled first thing in the morning!

I did also want to say, that your letters are outstanding for something very unique that they achieve. They show the grays inherent in not only the writer, but also the recipient. And as far as I am concerned, Swara is a gray character, too. I know most people would be astounded at me saying a paragon of goodness is gray. But you get me when I say that, don't you Medhu? Anyone so clueless of what is good for herself, so selfishly selfless that she causes immense pain to someone who adores her more than himself, is by definition, within the gray space. Only, she doesn't know it. I get the feeling Sanskaar does, though. He loves Swara both because of, and inspite of, who she is. That's true love, isn't it?

I felt like a schoolteacher when I read the last line in your post, asking if it had "matched my expectations". 😆 My dear, I would have said, to borrow a phrase from the Harry Potter novels, that I would have given you the Wizarding O.W.L equivalent of an "O". 😉 Anyway, as far as I am concerned, your works are invariably an "O" or an "E" , so its time you prepared for your career as a "writing auror" 👏 👏

Coming to the letter itself, it touched me on so many levels. Ragini's desire to be as popular as Swara when they were kids, to have friends like she did. Her lonely, forlorn desire have a sister, she could do all the "sisterly" stuff with. And how she was so glad, when that came true, for a brief while.

I love the part where you articulated Ragini's frustration and pain. The "I am prettier, more talented and more intelligent that you. But why are you always everyone's first choice!" bit. Amazing.

And the bit about how she, the devil snatched Lakshya from Swara, but then God immediately replaced him with Swara's soulmate. And how Swara still doesn't get the difference between a diamond and pieces of coal! Wonderfully put.

And to round it all off, there was this lovely snippet about the difference between water and wine---one tantalizing, and the other the very fount of life. I disagree with you very, very slightly in this, that Lakshya can really, fit into neither category. 😉 He is hardly tantalizing enough to be termed "wine" 😛 And as for water, perish the thought!! I would rather have sand!

Medhu...reading this, reminded me of Eve (Ragini) and Alexandra (Swara) from "Master of the Game". One of my absolute favorites from Sheldon. You have come very, very close to the master, in your portrayal of the sisters. I guess there is no higher praise than this, which I can bestow. You truly deserve it!

Love

Viji

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tootiefrootie11

@tootiefrootie11

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Posted: 9 years ago

Medhu 🤗

Par excellence is my verdict for what it is worth. I have always loved and admired your analysis of the dimensions someone like Ragini has. She is in the true sense a contradiction in terms and you get that across so beautifully. I love her honest acknowledgement of why she hates Swara. You want to hate Ragini for her actions and the person who only looks on the surface of characters will most likely easily hate her, but you explain her so well, you can't hate her. You feel for her despite not being able to accept either her logic or her actions. To me, she has shades of Draco Malfoy but in much more devious way- she hides her anger, hatred and frustration behind a mask of innocence but the basic premise of what underlies those hateful emotions is rather similar. As you say, true blue Slytherin in HP world!

I also like the way the letter brings out Swara's brand of magnanimity, her chirpy waving to Ragini when others ignored her- Swara is one of life's almost too good to be true characters and unfortunately sometimes such people bring out the worst in those poisoned by their own shortcomings.

The Milton quote made my heart sing! I told you my history with Milton right? I am sure it managed me my A grade when I was told it was impossible to get that:). The following also came to me whilst reading this:

"The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven.." This is so Ragini - she had made her own hell and now she cannot crawl out.

It also makes me wonder with Ragini how she can ever be reclaimed (although I know they will do this in the show, possibly cack handedly) as I recall:

"Never can true reconcilement grow where wounds of deadly hate have pierced so deep..".

I also love how Ragini gives Swara the unvarnished truth about Sanskaar that Swara is too dumb to see but of course Ragini is not. Her dilemma between on one hand wanting to destroy Swara and on the other hand, knowing deep down that she is fatally flawed herself in thinking and doing this, is so powerful.

Truly an experience to read! Lovely!

Love always xoxo

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The.Lannister

@The.Lannister

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Posted: 9 years ago

Excellent as usual👏

Any attempt to figure out ragini leaves me feeling sorry for her partly, while the other part just wants to squash her like a bug! Maybe I feel sorry for her when I see what laksh has done to her and want her detroyed when I see her evil intentions for swara.

Being an only child and an introvert I could understand her excitement on getting a sister, that wish to share gossip about their husbands, etc. She must have seen swara's agreement to marry laksh as the ultimate betrayal (even i personally think it was wrong of swara) and then to get laksh but still never have him. If only she could see that it was laksh who screwed their lives and not swara...but she does see that and even then continues to hate on her sister but love this man whom she is hell bent on destroying. My head is spinning now!

I guess ragini's own lines define her situation best:

Mohabbat buri hai, buri hai mohabbat

Kahe ja rahe hai, kiye ja rahe hai

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medha

@ToujoursPur

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Posted: 9 years ago

Originally posted by: The.Lannister
Excellent as usual👏

Any attempt to figure out ragini leaves me feeling sorry for her partly, while the other part just wants to squash her like a bug! Maybe I feel sorry for her when I see what laksh has done to her and want her detroyed when I see her evil intentions for swara.

Being an only child and an introvert I could understand her excitement on getting a sister, that wish to share gossip about their husbands, etc. She must have seen swara's agreement to marry laksh as the ultimate betrayal (even i personally think it was wrong) and then to get laksh but still never get him. If only she could see that it was laksh who screwed their lives and not swara...but she does see that and even then continues to hate on her sister but love this man whom she is hell bent on destroying. My head is spinning now!

I guess ragini's own lines define her situation best:

Mohabbat buri hai, buri hai mohabbat
Kahe ja rahe hai, kiye ja rahe hai

😉

Hey Shruti,

yes..i want the same...which is why she is confused too in this letter. There are two different avatars..the old Ragini and the post Laksh advent one.😕

I am an only child and an introvert too. I would have liked friends as well...but the introvertness does not inspire much of those. Books don't care about that though. So they are the besties.😃

your Ragini Summary got my head spinning too. This character is real borderline lunatic. But she is so interesting..that its a good spin.😊 and yes...yesterday's lines were certainly her greatest justification(?) for herself.

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Silpa

@iam-in-love

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Posted: 9 years ago

Its jst awsm yaar... U described Ragini's feelings vry well... Having a sister aftr a long time is very special...
I really angry to Ragini whn she trying to destroy SwaSan & but sometimes I felt really bad for her whn saw Laksh's behaviour towards her... She destroyed her own sis life for him... Eveythng she done just for him...to get him... & still she thinking that its Swara who destroyed her life...

excellent work yaar... Keep going...

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moonstonespirit

@moonstonespirit

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Posted: 9 years ago

I have told you earlier too, but I dont think anyone would understand Ragini the way you do. This is so amazingly well written.

What Ragini felt for Swara was not just pain jealousy. She had craved for companionship, acceptance. At the end of the day, she was a lonely soul with her heart filled with dreams. And Swara was someone who gave her all of this. But Laksh falling for Swara set this domino effect that tore apart all her dreams.

The last part of the letter was bone chilling. She wanted Laksh, so she tried to kill swara. But now she is giving Laksh to Swara because she can destroy all three of them with one stone. It would hurt her immensely to watch them suffer, yet she would make them suffer.

Ragini is a good judge of character. And her assessment of Swara was bang on. She knows Swara like the back of her hand. She can make swara dance to her tunes quite easily. The only hurdle she would face would be Saanskar. He would shield her sister with his life even when her sister is blind to his affections. And it was this blind trust, this respect and love she wanted. She wanted to be cherished like her sister. I think she didnt really envy swara but she envied the bonds people had forged with her.

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medha

@ToujoursPur

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Posted: 9 years ago

Originally posted by: CogitoErgoSum
Medhu dear... 🤗 🤗

As I already told you yesterday, (on your letter from Ragini to Lakshya piece), you've made Grey my favorite color! 😊 I love the way you do that dear, with dominant streak of gray painted first, and then with little fluttering brushstrokes delineating the grays...from light to dark, all within the overarching Gray palette. Am I making sense? 😉 If not, you have only yourself to blame, since your work has made me feel so thrilled first thing in the morning!

I did also want to say, that your letters are outstanding for something very unique that they achieve. They show the grays inherent in not only the writer, but also the recipient. And as far as I am concerned, Swara is a gray character, too. I know most people would be astounded at me saying a paragon of goodness is gray. But you get me when I say that, don't you Medhu? Anyone so clueless of what is good for herself, so selfishly selfless that she causes immense pain to someone who adores her more than himself, is by definition, within the gray space. Only, she doesn't know it. I get the feeling Sanskaar does, though. He loves Swara both because of, and inspite of, who she is. That's true love, isn't it?

I felt like a schoolteacher when I read the last line in your post, asking if it had "matched my expectations". 😆 My dear, I would have said, to borrow a phrase from the Harry Potter novels, that I would have given you the Wizarding O.W.L equivalent of an "O". 😉 Anyway, as far as I am concerned, your works are invariably an "O" or an "E" , so its time you prepared for your career as a "writing auror" 👏 👏

Coming to the letter itself, it touched me on so many levels. Ragini's desire to be as popular as Swara when they were kids, to have friends like she did. Her lonely, forlorn desire have a sister, she could do all the "sisterly" stuff with. And how she was so glad, when that came true, for a brief while.

I love the part where you articulated Ragini's frustration and pain. The "I am prettier, more talented and more intelligent that you. But why are you always everyone's first choice!" bit. Amazing.

And the bit about how she, the devil snatched Lakshya from Swara, but then God immediately replaced him with Swara's soulmate. And how Swara still doesn't get the difference between a diamond and pieces of coal! Wonderfully put.

And to round it all off, there was this lovely snippet about the difference between water and wine---one tantalizing, and the other the very fount of life. I disagree with you very, very slightly in this, that Lakshya can really, fit into neither category. 😉 He is hardly tantalizing enough to be termed "wine" 😛 And as for water, perish the thought!! I would rather have sand!

Medhu...reading this, reminded me of Eve (Ragini) and Alexandra (Swara) from "Master of the Game". One of my absolute favorites from Sheldon. You have come very, very close to the master, in your portrayal of the sisters. I guess there is no higher praise than this, which I can bestow. You truly deserve it!

Love

Viji

Ore baba😉. I am now in my car...bustling off to office..and I got such a huge letter from Viji to me. Yippee. thanks Ma'am.😃

Master of the game is one of my favs too...i adore sheldon's works.😃

Yes, I totally get you when you say swara has her own skeletons in her closet. they are her pet evils, which harm her goodness more than anything else..impending her way to clear judgement and true love. Sanskaar seems to have shouldered the responsibility of protecting her from herself as well as against all odds.😉

An outstanding OWL for me.👏 I was not so happy even when I scored a rank in my ca finals. Always wanted to go to Hogwarts😭.Actually joined Pottermore just to see a letter with Hogwarts crest on it.😆 Got sorted into ravenclaw or slytherin every freaking time😳.

And water is Sanskaar. Necessary for swara's life. Wine is Lucky...you are right.maybe I should have put cheap liquor instead.😕

But Ragini sees him as wine. Tantalizing yet bad for health, which she gets now.. Its not for swara's realisation . ragini sees Sanskaar as something as imperative as water. she wishes swara would too in her heart of hearts.

Love--

Medha

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Sakura24

@Sakura24

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Posted: 9 years ago

Wow Medha!

I am feeling once more that it indeed was Ragini writing the letter. So true are everything she said there. Her inner struggle of her love for her sister and her love for Lakshya is very well portrayed. This is sort of a latter that one should paste over Swara's eyes and refuse to take off until she has come in term with everything it says...but as Ragini would say...she is slow...

I really liked what you said about she wanted to do all that sisterly stuff with Swara, the hours long telephone call thing is so true...I as a person with many sisters can guarantee you that... But she cannot go back to that phase because she herself had killed her sister... that was touching.

This Ragini knows that once done it cannot be undone and her phrase regret is useless is really spine chilling in a way. For Ragini and from where she stands, regret is indeed useless.

She had understood about Lakshya in the end...good...now at least her actions would not be based upon a love that is indeed not worthy for her. There she'll have to admit that even she was slow in understanding.

The advice she gave on choosing Sanskar as a sister touched me as well as her challenge of never letting her attain the happy ending as an enemy left me frightened.

I'm so captured in here at the moment, all I see is Ragini, all I hear is her words.

Thanks for the PM :)

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medha

@ToujoursPur

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Posted: 9 years ago

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Originally posted by: iam-in-love
Its jst awsm yaar... U described Ragini's feelings vry well... Having a sister aftr a long time is very special...
I really angry to Ragini whn she trying to destroy SwaSan & but sometimes I felt really bad for her whn saw Laksh's behaviour towards her... She destroyed her own sis life for him... Eveythng she done just for him...to get him... & still she thinking that its Swara who destroyed her life...

excellent work yaar... Keep going...

Thanks Silpa,

glad u liked it..and

understood Ragini so well.

I wanted a sis too. but only child. tough luck.

Laksh is the root for this trouble.🤢