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I am Nabeela aka Nabi or Nabs. I am here with an OS that I wrote on KriYam. It is actually a return gift to @THEfanOFheartz for her VM that she made on KriYam. If you haven't seen it yet here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xbzpy4N7dS0
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KriYam OS: Aaj Jaane Ki Zid Na Karo...
It was close to midnight and Sayyam still hadn't returned home yet after Sambhav's confrontation. Everyone in the house was shaken and scared, especially Suhani Aunty. Krishna couldn't even begin to imagine what she was going through after Dadu's kidnapping and finding out that Sambhav is alive. She was torn between trying to save Dadu and revealing the truth to Sayyam.
After the whole Sambhav's revelation fiasco Suhani Aunty had come Krishna to tell her the whole truth..the truth about Sayyam. And after hearing that Suhani Aunty was...raped by Sambhav it took all her self control to not go and punch the guy black and blue. How can any man stoop so low as to violating a woman's dignity?! How...why..does such brutality exist in this world.
All she could do was hug Suhani Aunty in that moment because she didn't know what to say. Both of them cried their hearts out while clinging to each other and Suhani mader her promise, "Tum Sayyam ko ye sach nahi bataogi Krishna, usse khud pata lagne do. Abhi hamme tumhare Dadu ko bachana hai ok?"
Krishna: "Par usse hak banta hai janne ka..."
Suhani: "Mai Jaanti hoon beta. Par wo abhi kisse bhi baat par vishwas nahi karega siwaye Sambhav ke so let him discover the truth on his own. Sachhai zayada der tak nahi chup sakti."
Krishna: "Theek hai Aunty, jaise app kahe. And I am sorry...for everything"
Suhani: "Tum sorry kyun keh rahi Krishna is mein tumhari koyi galti nahi hai. Aur jis ki hai usse to saza zaroor milegi. Jao ab jaa kar aram karo..Good night"
They hugged again and retired to their rooms. Sleep was far away from Krishna and she couldn't help but pace in her room. Now it made sense as to why everytime Suhani had tried to say this truth her mamu had stopped her, especially in front of Sayyam. Sayyam was already so broken with the fact that Suhani Aunty had abandoned him and to add to that he also knew that his mother had tried to kill his father and now he finds out that his father is alive. That is a lot to take in...even for him.
She knew how it felt to be all alone in this world. After all she was an orphan herself. Yes she had her Dadu and Suhani Aunty with her but parents are parents. She couldn't recall one night where she hadn't longed for her Mother and Father. And now she finds out that her Ma was killed by this Sambhav! Killed?!...Unho ne kisse ka kya bigada tha...
She didn't deserve this. Suhani Aunty didn't deserve this...and neither does Sayyam.
He needs to know the whole truth but if she told him she would be breaking her promise to Suhani Aunty and moreover he wouldn't believe her. He was blinded by the fact that his father is alive. Right then she heard a noise coming from the garden outside and rushed to check what it is.
And there he was, Sayyam sitting on the bench with Tiger's head lying in lap. He looked...well broken and hurt. Krishna instantly wanted to comfort him but held back. Maybe she should just let him be for the moment...
Sayyam: "Pata hai Tiger mein bachpan se ab tak bas yahi sochta tha ki meri maa mujhe kyun chod kar chali gayi..."
Krishna stopped in her tracks and turned around...
Sayyam: "Mujhe lagta tha ki shayad mujh mein hi koyi kami thi isliye wo mujhe chod kar chali gayi. Ya shayad isliye ki wo mujhse kabhi pyaar hi nahi karti thi."
There were tears in his eyes. He had gone through so much...and she understood..how it felt to be kept from ever feeling lloved...
Sayyam: "Aur phir pata chala ki meri hi maa ne mere papa ko mar diya. Unse bohut nafrat karne ki koshish ki...unse rudely baat ki...unse badtameezi ki.. par phir bhi mujhe koi sukoon nahi mila. Aur ab mujhe pata chalta hai ki mere Papa zinda hai...par meri maa abhi bhi unhe mar ne ke liye tayyar hai..."
And he was crying...and Krishna had tears in her eyes as well. And all she could think was "Tum poora sach nahi jaante Sambhav..tum poora sach nahi jaante..."
Sayyam: "Abhi aur bhi hai Tiger.. Meri maa kehti hai ki mere papa ne Krishna ki Maa ko mar diya is lite unhone mere papa ko marne ki koshish ki. But mere papa kehte hai ki Krishna ki mom ko marne ke piche ek wajah thi. Par mein? Mein...kya karu... mein kis par beleive karu...Uss maa par jisne mujhe peda hote hi chod diya ya phir uss baap par jo mujhse pyaar karne ka dava karta hai..."
At that moment Tiger lifted his head and licked Sayyam's face. That dog was one of a kind..he always knew when Sayyam was sad and he would always try to make him feel better.
Sayyam gently rubbed his fur and said, "Tu ek hi jisne mujhse bina kkuch mange pyaar kiya hai Tiger..." and he hugged the dog. Krishna couldn't hold the tears at bay any more and they fell. She was glad that at least Sayyam had Tiger with him...warna sab ne usse akele kar diya tha...
She lingered a little longer than necessary and before she could leave Tiger had noticed her presence. He barked and hopped down from Sayyam's side to come stand at her feet with his head tilted. She wasn't gonna lie, initially when she met Tiger she hadn't been very fond of him i mean that dog had chased her around the fountain for god's sake but now she found herself attached to the big guy!
She wiped her tears and knelt down to scratch his stubble. "Hey Tiger! How are you?" she asked him in a cheery voice and the dog responded with cheery bark! "That's like a good boy..." she said while petting him.
Sayyam was surprised to find Krishna standing behind him when Tiger barked. He quickly wiped his tears away and watched the interaction between Krishna and Tiger. They had grown to like each other a lot lately. But wait...If Krishna was here the whole time then had she heard all that he had said to Tiger..and saw him..cry as well...Oh Shit!
Realizing this he slipped into his no-nonsense/ sarcastic look and approached her, "Tum yahan kya kar rahi ho?" he said glaring down at her.
Krishna looked up and the first thing she noticed was his red eyes, "Wo mein...mujhe neend nahi aa rahi thi toh mein tehelne ayi thi..." she said still petting Tiger.
"To yahan nahi kahi aur jaa kar tehlo..." Sayyam said turning his back on her.
"Arre ye acha hai..meri marzi mein kahin bhi tehel sakti hoon!" She said standing up now.
"Theek hai toh phir mein aur Tiger heh kahi aur chale jaate hai. C'mon Tiger!" He said while pulling tiger by his leash. He was almost inside the house when Krishna said something that stopped him in his tracks.
"Tum roh rahe the na?" she said with as enough courage as possible. God knows how Sayyam would react to it...most probably he would shout at her again but she couldn't help it.
Sayyam turned around slowly and asked, "Kya?". Shit! She saw me crying...
"Wo tum.. yahan par bait kar roh rahe the na..?" she repeated her question.
"Tum apne kaam se kaam nahi rakh sakti...kyun har cheese mein taang adati ho!" He turned to leave once again. But...
"Tum hamesha yahi karte ho na...Peet dikha kar chale jaane jaise tumhara profession ban gaya hai." Krishna said with irritation. How long was he gonna do this..?
"Kya kaha tumne mein...mein peet dikhta hoon. To tum kya kar rahi ho haan? Jis insaan ne tumse shaadi karne ka vada kiya tha aur phir usne hi shaadi tod di usse abhi bhi dosti nibha rahi ho?!" Sayyam was shouting now. She though I was turning my back on things?! How dare she!
"Haan meine dosti nibhaye kyun ki dosti nibhane ke liye ki jaati hai tod ne ke liye nahi. Iska matlab ye nahi hai ki maine Yuvan ko maaf kar diya. Uss ne mere saath ko kiya wo galat tha but at least jaise wo hai wo wahi dikhata hai. Par tum? You cover up your emotions! Tum apna gussa ek mask ki tarha pehen ke ghumte ho. Dunya ko ye dikhane ki tum kuch feel nahi karte but actual mein tum feel karte ho but isse accpet karne se darte ho!" Now Krishna was yelling as well.
Sayyam was stunned for a moment which caused him to take a step back. No one had ever called out his bluff like that, not even that woman that was supposed to be his mother.
Krishna sighed and continued, "Dekho Sayyam, mein jaanti hoon ki you are going through a lot. And mein sirch itna chahti hoon ki tum apne aap ko akele mat samajhna..."
"Kyaa...kya kaha tumne? Akele...Ye tum keh rahi ho?! Are you serious? Tum janti hi kya ho akelepan ke baare mein haan? You're whole life you were sounded by people you loved, people who cared about you, people you could rely on. And tum mujhe akelepan ke baare mein lecture de rahi ho?! Wooowww...great! Kitni Mahan ho tum...seriously!" Sayyam's tone had turned sarcastic towards the end. Howevr he realized a moment too late what he had just said. He could clearly read the hurt in Krishna's eyes as they welled up. She glared at him with tears in her eyes for a little longer and turned to leave.
But before she could take another step she was stopped by Sayyam holding her hand. She was hurt and she was furious and it took everything in her to not turn around and push him away so all she did was, "Haath Chodo Sayyam!"
"Krishna...I...I am sorry. Mere woh matlab nahi tha..." Sayyam said genuinely.
"Meine kaha haath chodo!!" saying this she turned around and pulled her hand out of his grasp. "Tumne kya kaha tha abhi? Ki mein akele pan ke baare kuch nahi janti...shayad mujhse se behtar akelepan koi aur samajh hi nahi sakte. Kyunki akele woh nahi hota jisske pass koi nahi hota akele toh woh insaan hota hai jis ke as pass log hote hue bhi koi nahi hota. Woh insaan akele hone ke saath saath tanha bhi hota hai. Aur mujhse se behtar ye koyi bhi nahi samajh sakte. Aur mere is halat ke zimmedar tumhare Papa he jisne mere Mama ko mar diya!"
"Dekho mere Papa aise nahi hai! Tumhara Mama ko marne ke piche unki koi valid wajah hogi..." Sayyam said while stepping closer to her and without breaking eye contact.
Krishna couldn't believe this! Suhani Aunty was right there was no use arguing with Sayyam because as of now he refused to believe anyone but Sambhav. She chuckles sarcastically and said, " You know what Sayyam? Tumse baat karna bekar hai..." and she turned around to leave. This time determined not to turn around at all and she almost made it inside the door as well but today was not her day.
"Theek hai, Tum bhi mooh pher lo mujhse...jayse sab kar rahe hain!" Sayyam said out loud.
Damn him! When she wanted to talk to him he pushes her away and now she wants to leave but he taunts her. But the way he stopped her melted her heart a little. He though she was abandoning him too...like everyone else. But that wasn't true, she didn't want to abandon him and that is exactly why she halted.
She turned around and what she saw almost broke her too. Sayyam was on his knees with his head bowed down and hunched shoulders looking so...defeated. He looked up for a brief moment and his eyes were still red and there were fresh tears welling up. In that moment he looked almost fragile enough to break.
Krishna rushed to him and knelt beside him. She put her hand on his shoulders to reassure him that she was there. She hadn't left him.
"Sab mujhe chod kar chale jaate hai Krishna. Ma, Papa...Sab! Bachpan se aaj tak mein akele hoon. Pata hai..pehle mein bohut rota tha ye soch kar ki meri Ma aur Papa mujhe chod kar kyun chale gaye. Phir jab bada hua to pata chala ki shayad wo wapas nahi aane wala isliye saari emotions aur feelings ko dil ke andar chupa kar rakha. Aur tum sahi thi, shayad ghussa hi mera mask ban chuka hai. Shayad isliye kyunki i thought that aise karne se dard kam hoga par mein ghalat. Abhi bhi utna hi dard hota hai.." Sayyam said while tears were flowing down his cheeks. He couldn't stop himself. Today of all days he couldn't stop himself. All his life he didn't have anyone to share his pain with but now there she was Krishna. Even though he had hurt her, manipulated her...she was still here somehow. Maybe that's why he couldn't control himself from breaking down today.
Krishna didn't say anything. Even if she tried she couldn't say anything. What do you say to that? Maybe for once in his life Sayyam just needed someone to be there for him. Someone who could just listen to him. And that's what Krishna did. She was just there for him, offering him her silent support.
In all of this she didn't realize when Sayyam had hugged her. And when she did she was..taken aback for a moment. She didn't know what to do. So she let him hug her tightly yet she remained rigid as to hugging him back.
She felt his tears soaking her kurta on the shoulder and still she was frozen. She was scared that is she moved even an inch she could ruin the moment.
After what felt like ages, Sayyam finally realized that he was...hugging Krishna. So he pulled back slowly and now he was a face to face with her.
Krishna could see that his eyes were still red from all the crying. She should have broken the eye contact but she couldn't bring herself to do it just yet. Something had changed between them today. She could read it in his eyes.
Sayyam was as much in a dilemma as Krishna. He couldn't bring him self to break the moment just yet. When he looked into her eyes he realized that he had revealed a crucial part of himself to her. And she somehow understood him. He didn't know how but she did. He also saw something else in those eyes. Care. For him. Because in all these years no on had look at him the way Krishna was looking at him now. No one had looked at him with so much care in their eyes and that scared him.
Krishna knew the moment was over when Sayyam broke their eyelock and stood up. She stood up as well. He flicked his hand through his hair and there was frustration clearly visible in his eyes because he was looking anywhere but her. Krishna realized that he was pulling back and decided that maybe this was enough for one night.
"Um..uh...raat bohut ho gayi hain so... goodnight" Krishna said awkwardly.
"Uh...yeah..goodnight!" Sayyam replied with as much awkwardness.
Krishna turned around and literally ran inside the house while Sayyam stared at her retreating figure. In all of this Tiger had just sat there with his tongue lolling out of his mouth and as soon as Krishna left he let out a double cheery bark to which Sayyam replied, "Kya?"
Tiger let out another bark while making a puppy face.
"Ye jo bhi kuch hua, it was only a one time thing," Sayyam said. It looked like he reassuring himself rather than Tiger. But Tiger knew better and he tilted his head one more time as if saying, "Are you sure about that?" to Sayyam and went inside the house.
~~~~La Fin~~~~
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