Part 3
Yuvraj's POV-
"This is coercion..." She said.
"Not if you let yourself feel...c'mon Suhani..." I said. In some ways, it was coercion. She was unwilling to, mentally, because she was so focused on what she thought was right and she thought she knew how I felt.
"Forget everything that's happened. Forget what you've heard...look at me..." I said. "Look into my eyes...if you don't believe what you see then...then you can leave..." I said. I didn't want her to leave but at this point, I had to let her choose, otherwise I would feel miserable.
I placed her hands on my shoulders. She looked bewildered and frustrated. I touched her hair and then her face lightly. "I'm not playing any games here. Everything that's happening right now is between you and me only."
She burst into tears yet again and this time I couldn't control myself. I hugged her tight and she hugged me back. At last I grabbed her face and kissed her lips. She was unresponsive. I stopped.
"I shouldn't even be in this room. Imagine if..." She stopped.
"If we went too far and someone found out..."I completed her sentence. I laughed sarcastically. "Like we'd have committed a sin or something..."
She looked sad and teary eyed. There was longing in her eyes but also pain.
"You don't even love me...everything has changed. Everything I thought was real...wasn't." She said.
"Suhani..." I said. I didn't know what to say because I was at a loss for words. I thought I would do a better job expressing my feelings through actions at the moment. Maybe she would believe my actions more than my words as well. My hands were shaking now because she was completely unwilling to do anything. She didn't want to even be in this room. I didn't want her to leave. I needed an outlet for what I was feeling for her. I had to do something quickly before I lost her even further and anything I did tonight ended up becoming another bitter memory of hers. I held her face again and kissed her cheek and nose. Then I kissed her eyes one by one.
I moved her hair aside and kissed her neck slowly a few times. I stopped. She was still frozen. I turned off a few lights and the room was now dimly light with a few lamplights. I made sure the door was locked. She watched me and I went back to her.
"I'm ready..." I said. I didn't know how else to say it. Her eyes widened and she looked unconvinced.
"Why?" She asked.
" I'm sick of everyone mentioning divorce, separation, how I didn't love you, humiliating you for the fact that I wasn't ready to have a physical relationship with you yet...but that's all in the past. I'm more than ready now..." I said.
"Why now?"
"Because I can't imagine ever giving myself to anyone but you..." I said. I said. She inched closer to me and looked into my eyes.
"You're not lying, are you? Promise me this isn't for my happiness."
"It isn't...well, that's part of it, but it's...also for me..." I said.
She looked down and perhaps this time, it was from shyness.
Just then, Menka and Ragini Bhabhi went by our room again and we both heard them giggling. Suhani was so startled that she hugged me. I hugged her back.
"These two gossip all night...my poor brothers." I said.
"Yuvraj, I heard Soumya's voice too..." Suhani whispered.
"What?" I answered her back in a whisper.
"She's with them."
"Makes sense..."
I took the opportunity to hold her tight. "Let's not make any noise, lest we get caught." I said. She was tugging on my shirt and looking at my face with the most innocent expression.
"You should be happy. This is truly romantic. We're like those forbidden lovers...meeting when we're not supposed to...afraid of being caught." I said. "I mean, what should I say if we get caught? My wife spent the night with me in our bedroom...wooo...so improper...scandalous." I said. She smiled.
"Someone else is supposed to have a claim on you now..."
"She'll never have me. Not even in her dreams." I said. "I'm taken..." I added.
I didn't make any more moves for a while. I only hugged her and she hugged me back. She looked into my eyes and I looked into hers. She seemed happier now. I smiled. She didn't smile back so quickly. It wasn't her usual, spontaneous smile. She touched my face and raised herself on the tips of her toes and kissed my cheek.
Suhani's POV-
I wanted to and then I didn't. He was everything I wanted but I still had so many fears, so many questions and doubts. I was thinking throughout and he was watching me. I kissed his cheek and kissed his lips softly and he kissed me back. That was enough to send sparks of electricity throughout my body. He wanted this? I know I did but I wasn't as willing as I once was. I was hesitant. It seemed like he only needed a sign I was ready and he'd continue. I was nervous and confused. With every kiss, I realized he wasn't going to back out tonight. It was up to me. But I couldn't stop him if I was an equal participant in the act.
I thought about what he said. I tried to feel and not think. Things escalated. My heartbeat tripled. I tugged on his shirt and hugged him for dear life. I felt his mouth against my neck and I didn't know what was impacting me more, his touch or the feeling of my hands on him. I froze there for a moment. He let me go and looked at me worriedly.
"Are you alright?" He asked.
I nodded. He backed off seeing me in tears. I didn't know if they were happy tears of sad ones, but seeing the guilt on his face made my heart melt and I pulled myself together. I kissed him and this time I didn't hold back. I'd held back long enough but just once I wanted him to feel what I felt for him since the day I fell in love with him. I completely let go of any doubts and fears I had at the moment and kissed him passionately and he responded with the same passion.
I took his hand and pulled him towards the bed and he followed me, not taking his eyes off me even for a second. I lay down and he crawled towards me and kissed my forehead. Right now I could only see him and see nothing else, not even reason. It was just us and no one knew I was here.
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