YuvAni SS- part 11/page 15 - Page 2

"Suhani... Suhani..." Yuvraj was furious, he couldn't believe that Soumya could stoop so low, first she did all what she could do to get rid of him, even trick her own childhood friend, get married to that idiot of a man... now when she realized she will not get a luxurious life with Krishna... she's coming behind him, "How disgusting!" he muttered angrily. This was all Suhani's fault, what was the need for her to bring her so called friend here? "Suhani!" He screamed, attracting all the other's attention except the person he wanted to talk to,

"Why are you shouting Yuvraj?"

"Where is Suhani? I looked for her everywhere..." Yuvraj looked at Sharad who was standing next to his mother,

"Ruko, main jakar dekh tha hun," said Sharad,

"Kahi bhi jaane khi zarurat nahi hai, usko akal agayi toh who chali gayi,"

"Iss waqt? Kahan dadi?" He asked as he moved forward, worry creeping up his nerves.

"Aise mat pucho, I'm sure you are happy, We know that you don't love her and you were blackmailed into this relationship, now that she's gone you can finally move on with Soumya, whom you love," She exclaimed, looking extremely satisfied with her reply, Yuvraj looked at him mother.

"Maa ji," Pratima was shocked, "Aap... Yeh" Sharad held her as she stumbled.

"Ab yeh sab natak band karo aur jao... sab jakar so jao,"

"Chachi, don't worry... You sit here, bhabi ghar hi gayen honge, We'll call them and see." Sharad made Pratima sit and tried calling Suhani,

Yuvraj looked at his mother and then at Sharad who was desperately clicking away numbers in his phone, somehow Yuvraj knew that she wouldn't have gone to her parents.

"Ma, main dekh tha hun," he told his mother who didn't reply him but just sat there with a blank face.

The roads were muddy and secluded, his eyes didn't rest as he drove down the road looking for her, he didn't know what he should be thinking but he was hurt...

"Suhani... Kaha ho tum?" he whispered, his phone vibrated,

"Yuvraj, Bhabi unki ghar par nahi hai," Sharad rushed, "where are you?"

"I'm looking... Mandir khe paas hun,"

"Shayad bhabi mandir mein hain," Sharad replied with a tinge of hope,

"I'll check,"

Maybe' thought Yuvraj, he knew that Sharad and Suhani got along with each other very well, unlike him Sharad understands Suhani better. Yuvraj got off his car and thought back to his moments with her as he ascended the stairs, hoping and praying for another chance to amend his mistakes.

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Suhani stood in front the murti, her eyes closed and her hands raised, unlike other days, she prayed for her own self, she prayed for strength, she prayed for courage. She knew that God wouldn't leave her , she knew that he would guide her to take the right decision. The mangal sutra dangling in her neck was her right; it was given to her under God's will.

"Meri madat karna," She said and turned around just to witness Yuvraj who was standing there staring at her. Seeing him there reminded all of what she went through just hours back but instead of hurt it was anger which filled her heart. She walked forward, looking at him straight in the eye. She didn't stop when she reached but continued to move past him.

"Suhani... Suhani... Ruko, meri baat toh suno," he rushed, blocking her way

"Jab baat karna ta tab toh baat nahi khi aapne, Ab hatiye aur mujhe jaaney deejiye,"

"Suhani, you have to listen to me... you can't blame me for everything," he didn't understand why he was so desperate to make her understand, but he wanted her to know that he wasn't at fault,'

"Give me divorce, it will all be over,"

To others what she said must have sounded right, why live with a person who didn't love her? Why live with a family who didn't accept her? Why should she live a life which is based on betrayal? But it sounded so wrong to her, because even after everything she still loves him and asking for divorce broke her from the inside out, her lips trembled as she tried to keep herself straight. She was still stuck in the same place, same hurt... so how was she to make everything right? Did she even want to make everything right?

She didn't walk out of that house because she wanted get away from him or others, it was just a reaction for the hurt she felt... she didn't sit here for hours because there was sudden envy she felt towards all of them she was here because she needed some time for herself and finally she didn't ask for divorce because she cannot afford to bare him to burden him it was just a way of expressing her anger.

Suhani didn't look at him when she took a step to her right and walked past him, she couldn't bear to see happiness or relief in him as a reaction, it was something beyond her might at that moment. Suhani halted as Yuvraj held her arm;

"Divorce?" he asked,

She closed her eyes for a brief moment, trying to gather herself, she didn't want to breakdown in front of him, she didn't want to give into her urge of falling into the comfort of his arms. "Haan..."Her voice trembled, but she continued anyway, "Ab tum mujhse pyar nahi kar the toh is shaadi ka kya matlab? Yeh toh hona hi nahi tha..." she tried to loosen his grip but his hold was too stiff.

"I tried to fit in so much... I tried so much to impress dadi, I tried to gel in with the bhabhi's... kitna kuch hua... kitna kuch kia, kyun? Kyunki I thought you loved me... now when I know that you don't then what's the point Yuvraj?"

Yuvraj tried to make her face him but she kept her gaze down looking at how his hand encircled her wrist,

"You love S... you love her," she gulped back her hurt, "she loves you... where do I fall here? Mujhe jaane dho..."

Yuvraj felt a gush of sympathy as he gazed at her, he could feel her effort to stay strong but he could see her crumbling from the inside, he wanted to tell her that he didn't love Soumya instead he hated her for leading everything to this point but he knew that it wasn't going to help Suhani, he struggled to find comforting words but he was never a person of sweet words... his clearly failing effort made him angry, was she the only person who is hurt here? He was hurt too... only he knew what he went through at the beginning days of their marriage, only he knew how hard it was for him when Soumya came back to their life. Then the guilt... did she think that he was a heartless person? He had to avoid her hopeful gaze everyday... every night and every moment she looked at him, the restlessness... the burden he carried throughout these months was making him crazy. His wound has gotten old but Suhani's wound was deeper and fresh that was the only difference.

"Jaane do mujhe," Suhani struggled to break free from his grip,

"Chup... bilkul chup," he flipped, "Yeh bakwaas band karo aur mere saath ghar chalo," he told her as he maneuvered her forcefully towards the car, it was past midnight and he didn't want to do all these talk here or now.

"Mujhe nahi jaana, who mera ghar nahi hai," she screamed, tears of anger misting her vision.

Yuvraj halted and she kept her hands on his chest as a reflex.

"You are still my wife and I have all the rights to take you home, so behtar yahi hoga khi tum aao, aur bakhi baatein hum wahi karlen,"

She moved back, breaking free from his hold, "Mujhe nahi jaa na,"

"Zid mat karo Suhani, ghar pe sab pareshan hain, your parents, maa, Sharad,"

Suhani shook her head, the tears she held back running down her cheeks, "koi bhi pareshan nahi hai... no one loves me, no one is waiting for me... everyone just wants to get rid of me," she moved back, "tum sab bas apni man mani kar thei ho..."

"Aisa nahi hai Suhani,"

"Aisa hi hai... if they did they would have told me,"

"You know that I wouldn't leave you alone here at this time, Suhani it's late, yaha koi nahi hai... where will you go?"

"Tumhe kya... mein kahin bhi jaun kuch bhi karun... jee un ya marun... tumhe kya?"

Yuvraj tightened his jaw, strode towards her, "Mein insan hun Suhani, galathi ho gayi mujh se... sab se hothi hai..." his phone rung just when he was going to continue, he remembered his mother, her worried face, "Ma bohot pareshan hai, please main tumse haat jhod thi hun, unki khatir toh chalo,"

Suhani stayed unmoved and Yuvraj moved back dejectedly, his phone rang again,

"Kya? Kya hua maa kho?" Yuvraj ran his fingers through his hair, "Doctor kho phone kia?" this broke Suhani's resolution and she rushed closer to him, "I'm coming, Sharad tum wahi rehna... main abhi... waha... Suhani," he looked at her, his face edging with worry, she nodded, "Ma koh bolo woh meri saath hai aur hum dono wahan arahe hain, teek hai," he started the car as Suhani got in, they both didn't utter a single word throughout the journey back home.