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PART 1
It was a calm cool night but not all in the Dhillon family were able to sleep.
Sunny lay deep in his thoughts, he tried to keep his mind blank and forget what he had witnessed today...
All these days he had seen Preeto try to bring Simran and Rajbeer together in order to save her own sister from her evil mother-in-law...his love and respect for Preeto had increased ever since Preeto confided in him and he had resolved to make her task easier even if it meant constant heartache for him.
Some days ago Simran had called and announced gleefully how happy she was that Rajbeer agreed to go to Goa with her. Preeto encouraged her and gave her some tips also to get close to Rajbeer.
This morning Simran had come and announced to the entire family that Rajbeer and she were engaged and Preeto was responsible for the courage she gave Simran..
Sunny watched as Rajbeer looked on at Preeto while she squirmed under Simran's hug, was it his gaze or the happy girl's hug wondered Sunny.
Beeji had returned the previous evening and she seemed quiet and thoughtful too..
Beeji was pacing in her room.
She had not gone to just any prayer meeting; she had gone to seek answers also and she took the trip to Pathankote to meet Sunny's bebe- the phone call she had with her was quite disturbing for beeji coz the call had got disconnected but the last thing Bebe was saying was to conduct the wedding soon...was she being senile and did she forget the wedding or was it something else?
When she met Bebe the same dialog was repeated and Beeji was shocked on coming to know that no marriage had been conducted..she made Baani swear that she would not reveal anything.. when she got back to Amritsar,she called Rajbeer first and when he said he was at Jogi's place now, she and Baani had gone straight to meet Rajbeer.
Beeji and Rajbeer spoke at length about what Beeji had come to know. She knew if she went home and met Preeto first she would not be able to talk to Rajbeer again and Beeji was deperate to talk to her son first. She knew he was the one most affected by this fake marriage business..she knew she could rely on him to seeek answers because she knew how stubborn her daughter was and she thought of all the times that Rajbeer had been there for her, of all the help he had done.
Rajbeer had listened carefully - he was happy that Beeji knew of his love for Preeto and she had given her blessings also...This made him ponder more as to why Preeto refused him and he said he too was in shock as he had discovered something in the trip to Goa that he went on with Simran.
Simran had been strange during the entire train trip of 39 long hours-talking in riddles,making a fuss about everything over Rajbeer, saying strange lovey dovey things- it was like a whole new Simran...Rajbeer agreed to the trip as he wanted to contemplate what all he had heard Preeto talk..deep in his heart he didnt want to believe what he heard her say and about her being a gold-digger. His mind though told him to use logic and belive that all women were basically the same..he had thought of every break up they had and analysed every situation they were in but could not bring himself to really think Preeto was what she was presenting herself to be now.
Simran's last talk about how she was seeing him differently after his accident and about how she could not bear to be away from him for even a second and had rushed to the hospital to see him , had touched a raw nerve when he remembered how desperate he had been at that time to see Preeto.
Rajbeer screamed at Simran to leave him alone and he walked off to the hotel room , banging the door on Simran's face when she came whimpering after him!
A few hours later when he was done with venting out his anger in the lonely room, a gust of wind ruffled the newspaper in the room and he remembered about the ads in the local papers , he remembered the airforce officer telling him it was Preeto who had done the search on him, he remembered Simran saying something about Preeto's belief in finding him...
He went searching for Simran to apologize to her for his rudeness and to ask her about that matter again.
He had found Simran looking desolate in her room with an ugly doll - one with too many ribbons he noticed even in this state 😉 - cuddled in her arms!
Rajbeer sensed something was not right at all, he had never seen Simran so desoalte, he quickly rushed to her and engulfed her in his arms...Simran was shell-shocked!
Here was the man who rejected her so badly a few hours ago and now he was here in her arms just the way she wanted it to be forever...all her feelings which she had not been able to share with either Preeto or her mom thanks to her broken mobile (she had flung it in frustration earlier and cud not even remember the numbers as she was feeling sooo numb) came bubbling when she felt Rajbeer's assuring hug...she couldnt stop herself from hugging him back tightly, she
couldn't stop herself from seeking his warmth , from seeking the love she so desperately wanted from Rajbeer...she felt she had waited for him forever and could not stop her lips from trying to find his...
Rajbeer's felt someone had poured cold water on his back when he found Simran kissing him..he pushed her away harshly unable to accept what was happening..
Simran looked at him with hurt in her eyes now- a hurt he had seen mirrored in his eyes when he thought of Preeto with Sunny..what could this be?
Simran could no longer tolerate Rajbeer's now cold now warm attitude..she had borne every injury of his from his accident thinking she could get him back from his depression but this rejection of her deperate love was something that broke her being..she screamed out at Rajbeer when he asked her what she was doing..
What do u think i am doing? i am always expressing the love that i have for you ... i am expressing the love that has crossed our childhood friendship and has made a new person of me. I ask u rajbeer what are you doing? sometimes you talk like you love me and sometimes you reject me so badly? Ever since the accident in manali u have been hinting to me about ur love but u are not saying anything to me directly.
What is in your heart? why are u so afraid?
Is it because you think i will not reciprocate and you will lose our friendship? Then u better listen to this - She threw the doll at him ! This is something i wanted to confess to u long before your accident.. long before i died when i thought u were lost...if it werent for Preeto's belief in your return , u would have found me dead ! If it werent for Preeto i wouldnt have had the courage to keep my love's flame from burning so you could find your way back- this is exactly what she said to me..if she had not encouraged me to talk to u again we would not have been here today and i wudnt have tried to tell u what i feel ...why is it u can tell preeto about ur love for me and you cannot tell me but u treat me this way!
Rajbeer could not believe his ears..Simran felt her knees go weak and she passed out in sheer exhaustion..Rajbeer tenderly placed her on the bed and listened to what the doll was repeatedly saying over the din..it was Simran's voice which she had recorded on her birthday..
Rajbeer thought of that day when he was with Preeto - convincing her over the letter she had written to him when Simran was waiting for him...he remembered the guilt he had felt when he almost lost Simran and how Preeto had given him peace of mind..Now she was doing the same for Simran?
But why? Didn't she know how much he loved her and her alone? What was the meaning of this what he was hearing in the doll's recording, what had happened a while ago? He remembered Preeto talking about Simran to him also several times..what was happening? And Simran? When did all this happen? What was he going to do now?
Simran opened her eyes and looked around, Rajbeer was still there by the foot of her bed looking like his world had come crashing down..all that happened a while ago came flooding back to her mind and she she could not stop the tears from her eyes...she knew that what she had been ignoring all these days was true..Rajbeer did not love her.
She knew she had clung on every hopeful word her mother or Preeto had said in the hope she was not being confident of her own love and she had made herself blind to Rajbeer's reactions to her. She convinced herself so well ,she shut herself in her cocoon and had beleived every lie she told herself.
But now she knew her best friend was just that- her friend and that his heart did not beat for her the way hers did for him.
She lay in her thoughts watching him and wondering why she gave him this pain, she remembered how she was the one who in their childhood days had taken under her wing a shy withdrawn boy and sheltered him from any pain anybody caused him.
She remembered her heart telling her that Preeto was important to him in a way that no other girl had ever been for him and how she chose to find hope in Preeto's words when she married Sunny. Simran remembered the promise she had made when Rajbeer had no one around she wud be there and today she had hurt him.
She rose and Rajbeer looked up - both of them had nothing to say , he crossed over quickly and hugged Simran wanting desperately to protect her from himself.
He wanted everything to be the way it was before but he knew it could never be and he was the main cause of the hurt he was seeing in her heart now.
When Simran quietly tried to take the doll away from Rajbeer, he stopped her. Simran! I always love you and without ur friendship in my life i dont even know how to live. Simran i can do anything for you, i will be the love you want me to be and spend the rest of my life with u .. i will make all your dreams mine but please never leave me . . .
Simran forced her beating heart to slow down, here Rajbeer was saying everything she wanted to hear and somehow she knew what it meant wasnt exactly what she wanted. He was placing her friendship above all else in his life and he was willing to think of her as his lovee, but all she wanted was to be his love.
She stopped him by placing her hand on his lips , i know Rajbeer - i know. I too cannot think of a second in my life without u ...dont say anything more today , i am very tired. I would like to sleep and u too need to get some rest. If u dont mind we should get back home tomorrow itself- we need to take the flight home asap. This trip was done mainly as Preeto told me to get close to u and get to know ur feelings.
Those words again, it pained Rajbeer to hear that Preeto had said that but he quickly gained his composure and said "Simran i can do anything for u" but Simran knew she had seen what she wanted to in that split second. She had purposely taken Preeto's name so she could be sure... she would not be deaf to her heart's words hereafter, she would not be blind to her Rajbeer's true feelings. Simran felt both empty and loved at the same time...it was a strange feeling.
It was a calm cool night but not all in the Dhillon family were able to sleep.
Sunny lay deep in his thoughts, he tried to keep his mind blank and forget what he had witnessed today...
All these days he had seen Preeto try to bring Simran and Rajbeer together in order to save her own sister from her evil mother-in-law...his love and respect for Preeto had increased ever since Preeto confided in him and he had resolved to make her task easier even if it meant constant heartache for him.
Some days ago Simran had called and announced gleefully how happy she was that Rajbeer agreed to go to Goa with her. Preeto encouraged her and gave her some tips also to get close to Rajbeer.
This morning Simran had come and announced to the entire family that Rajbeer and she were engaged and Preeto was responsible for the courage she gave Simran..
Sunny watched as Rajbeer looked on at Preeto while she squirmed under Simran's hug, was it his gaze or the happy girl's hug wondered Sunny.
Beeji had returned the previous evening and she seemed quiet and thoughtful too..
Beeji was pacing in her room.
She had not gone to just any prayer meeting; she had gone to seek answers also and she took the trip to Pathankote to meet Sunny's bebe- the phone call she had with her was quite disturbing for beeji coz the call had got disconnected but the last thing Bebe was saying was to conduct the wedding soon...was she being senile and did she forget the wedding or was it something else?
When she met Bebe the same dialog was repeated and Beeji was shocked on coming to know that no marriage had been conducted..she made Baani swear that she would not reveal anything.. when she got back to Amritsar,she called Rajbeer first and when he said he was at Jogi's place now, she and Baani had gone straight to meet Rajbeer.
Beeji and Rajbeer spoke at length about what Beeji had come to know. She knew if she went home and met Preeto first she would not be able to talk to Rajbeer again and Beeji was deperate to talk to her son first. She knew he was the one most affected by this fake marriage business..she knew she could rely on him to seeek answers because she knew how stubborn her daughter was and she thought of all the times that Rajbeer had been there for her, of all the help he had done.
Rajbeer had listened carefully - he was happy that Beeji knew of his love for Preeto and she had given her blessings also...This made him ponder more as to why Preeto refused him and he said he too was in shock as he had discovered something in the trip to Goa that he went on with Simran.
Simran had been strange during the entire train trip of 39 long hours-talking in riddles,making a fuss about everything over Rajbeer, saying strange lovey dovey things- it was like a whole new Simran...Rajbeer agreed to the trip as he wanted to contemplate what all he had heard Preeto talk..deep in his heart he didnt want to believe what he heard her say and about her being a gold-digger. His mind though told him to use logic and belive that all women were basically the same..he had thought of every break up they had and analysed every situation they were in but could not bring himself to really think Preeto was what she was presenting herself to be now.
Simran's last talk about how she was seeing him differently after his accident and about how she could not bear to be away from him for even a second and had rushed to the hospital to see him , had touched a raw nerve when he remembered how desperate he had been at that time to see Preeto.
Rajbeer screamed at Simran to leave him alone and he walked off to the hotel room , banging the door on Simran's face when she came whimpering after him!
A few hours later when he was done with venting out his anger in the lonely room, a gust of wind ruffled the newspaper in the room and he remembered about the ads in the local papers , he remembered the airforce officer telling him it was Preeto who had done the search on him, he remembered Simran saying something about Preeto's belief in finding him...
He went searching for Simran to apologize to her for his rudeness and to ask her about that matter again.
He had found Simran looking desolate in her room with an ugly doll - one with too many ribbons he noticed even in this state 😉 - cuddled in her arms!
Rajbeer sensed something was not right at all, he had never seen Simran so desoalte, he quickly rushed to her and engulfed her in his arms...Simran was shell-shocked!
Here was the man who rejected her so badly a few hours ago and now he was here in her arms just the way she wanted it to be forever...all her feelings which she had not been able to share with either Preeto or her mom thanks to her broken mobile (she had flung it in frustration earlier and cud not even remember the numbers as she was feeling sooo numb) came bubbling when she felt Rajbeer's assuring hug...she couldnt stop herself from hugging him back tightly, she
couldn't stop herself from seeking his warmth , from seeking the love she so desperately wanted from Rajbeer...she felt she had waited for him forever and could not stop her lips from trying to find his...
Rajbeer's felt someone had poured cold water on his back when he found Simran kissing him..he pushed her away harshly unable to accept what was happening..
Simran looked at him with hurt in her eyes now- a hurt he had seen mirrored in his eyes when he thought of Preeto with Sunny..what could this be?
Simran could no longer tolerate Rajbeer's now cold now warm attitude..she had borne every injury of his from his accident thinking she could get him back from his depression but this rejection of her deperate love was something that broke her being..she screamed out at Rajbeer when he asked her what she was doing..
What do u think i am doing? i am always expressing the love that i have for you ... i am expressing the love that has crossed our childhood friendship and has made a new person of me. I ask u rajbeer what are you doing? sometimes you talk like you love me and sometimes you reject me so badly? Ever since the accident in manali u have been hinting to me about ur love but u are not saying anything to me directly.
What is in your heart? why are u so afraid?
Is it because you think i will not reciprocate and you will lose our friendship? Then u better listen to this - She threw the doll at him ! This is something i wanted to confess to u long before your accident.. long before i died when i thought u were lost...if it werent for Preeto's belief in your return , u would have found me dead ! If it werent for Preeto i wouldnt have had the courage to keep my love's flame from burning so you could find your way back- this is exactly what she said to me..if she had not encouraged me to talk to u again we would not have been here today and i wudnt have tried to tell u what i feel ...why is it u can tell preeto about ur love for me and you cannot tell me but u treat me this way!
Rajbeer could not believe his ears..Simran felt her knees go weak and she passed out in sheer exhaustion..Rajbeer tenderly placed her on the bed and listened to what the doll was repeatedly saying over the din..it was Simran's voice which she had recorded on her birthday..
Rajbeer thought of that day when he was with Preeto - convincing her over the letter she had written to him when Simran was waiting for him...he remembered the guilt he had felt when he almost lost Simran and how Preeto had given him peace of mind..Now she was doing the same for Simran?
But why? Didn't she know how much he loved her and her alone? What was the meaning of this what he was hearing in the doll's recording, what had happened a while ago? He remembered Preeto talking about Simran to him also several times..what was happening? And Simran? When did all this happen? What was he going to do now?
Simran opened her eyes and looked around, Rajbeer was still there by the foot of her bed looking like his world had come crashing down..all that happened a while ago came flooding back to her mind and she she could not stop the tears from her eyes...she knew that what she had been ignoring all these days was true..Rajbeer did not love her.
She knew she had clung on every hopeful word her mother or Preeto had said in the hope she was not being confident of her own love and she had made herself blind to Rajbeer's reactions to her. She convinced herself so well ,she shut herself in her cocoon and had beleived every lie she told herself.
But now she knew her best friend was just that- her friend and that his heart did not beat for her the way hers did for him.
She lay in her thoughts watching him and wondering why she gave him this pain, she remembered how she was the one who in their childhood days had taken under her wing a shy withdrawn boy and sheltered him from any pain anybody caused him.
She remembered her heart telling her that Preeto was important to him in a way that no other girl had ever been for him and how she chose to find hope in Preeto's words when she married Sunny. Simran remembered the promise she had made when Rajbeer had no one around she wud be there and today she had hurt him.
She rose and Rajbeer looked up - both of them had nothing to say , he crossed over quickly and hugged Simran wanting desperately to protect her from himself.
He wanted everything to be the way it was before but he knew it could never be and he was the main cause of the hurt he was seeing in her heart now.
When Simran quietly tried to take the doll away from Rajbeer, he stopped her. Simran! I always love you and without ur friendship in my life i dont even know how to live. Simran i can do anything for you, i will be the love you want me to be and spend the rest of my life with u .. i will make all your dreams mine but please never leave me . . .
Simran forced her beating heart to slow down, here Rajbeer was saying everything she wanted to hear and somehow she knew what it meant wasnt exactly what she wanted. He was placing her friendship above all else in his life and he was willing to think of her as his lovee, but all she wanted was to be his love.
She stopped him by placing her hand on his lips , i know Rajbeer - i know. I too cannot think of a second in my life without u ...dont say anything more today , i am very tired. I would like to sleep and u too need to get some rest. If u dont mind we should get back home tomorrow itself- we need to take the flight home asap. This trip was done mainly as Preeto told me to get close to u and get to know ur feelings.
Those words again, it pained Rajbeer to hear that Preeto had said that but he quickly gained his composure and said "Simran i can do anything for u" but Simran knew she had seen what she wanted to in that split second. She had purposely taken Preeto's name so she could be sure... she would not be deaf to her heart's words hereafter, she would not be blind to her Rajbeer's true feelings. Simran felt both empty and loved at the same time...it was a strange feeling.
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