hai guys . sorry bit late. tanks for ur wonderfull coments
Part-12
Part12-1:
Ahem was thinking in his room."What difference will it make to u whether her head is covered or not". Yes, it makes a difference for me, everytime she covers her head, everytime he remembers her stupid mistakes and that fiathful day when his laptop was washed. Ahem thought "Now he have to check his temper as being a teacher to that girl means
to interact with her and to clear her doubts.He tried to be calm with her during the whole conversation but atlast ended up messing it again shouting at her to stop covering her head. She looked so confused. Again i have rose her feelings up." Ahem was thinking what might be she is thinking in her room. "My room, its my room and why are u thinking
about her. She can interept whatever meaning she want, but from tomorrow i will make her realize that she is not meant for me. But it is unlike me, why did i always demand her,like she was there to obey me only. Why always i show my authority over her when i think her as a stranger". Ahem remembered the moments when he dragged her out of kokis room,
tucked her pallu in her waist...K stop there.Ahem do not want to remember that incident ever, How on earth he went storming towards on the pitch and tucked her pallu. He was angry that she left the ball because of her pallu. But that dint mean to go tuck it away.Ahem was thankful that she dint misinterupt the gesture. Leaving his thoughts he went to sleep.
Koki was relieved. How shocked she was when she saw Ahem's room. Her first thought was gopi.But she made sure that she remains in her room and she never disobey her. Though koki hoped that if gopi have helped Ahem he might be thankful to her but later thought it was not right as Ahem would be grateful for her for some time and will be back to his normal
behaviour as the time slowly passes by. Koki thought to leave Ahem until the project and then she would step in. Gopi on the other hand remained confused. "Ahemji asked me to remove the pallu, why maybe because in order to make me feel comfortable. How thoughtful he is". She knew that Ahemji was helping her because she is helping him and thought not to
keep her hopes up as last time. She felt dissapointed that Ahem thought their relationship was just a give and take relation and hoped that he will realize someday that their relation is much more than that. Gopi decieded "Ahemji i will not dissapoint u and will study very hard. I wont waste ur help and time". Next day Ahem was in office planning the strategy on
how to take lessons to gopi. He knew now that he have to be patient with her as her teacher but that was the least he could do. His temper always raises up whenever she opens her mouth. But for the life long freedom he have to be patient now. That night after dinner Ahem told to koki that he would be busy working in his project so not to disturb him.Kokila felt
strange as no one have ever dared to enter Ahem room when he was working. Ahem sensed his mom was thinking and told "mom my concentration gets disturbed when someone knocks on my door to keep water or anything". Saying so he gave a glare to mani. Kokila felt reassured and spoke"Loi pidni dhobi dofod, keep everything Ahem requries before he rests in
his room". Mani nodded in response. It was decided that gopi would study in his room. Hence it was needed for his room to be safe and not to be disturbed. Ahem went to his room opened his laptop and started his work and after some time gopi came in.
Part12-2:
"Ji..."gopi spoke.Ahem snapped at her "come inside". She immediately rushed inside and Ahem went and locked the door."Bad start,control urself Ahem". But he got angry when he saw her standing near the door. What if his mom sees, cant she think logically. Gopi was upset too that the start was bad. She knew her presence will make him angry. "Kanaji how hard might
be for Ahemji to control his temper because of me".Both remainded silent for a while. Ahem dint knew how to proceed as until now he never spoke to her in a normal way. Gopi was too upset. Ahem knew he have to start "Suno, close the door immediately and lock it as no one should see u". gopi simply nodded her head. "Why cant she say something", Ahem thought "
She never does mr.modi".
Ahem gave up and sat on his couch. "Be patient, ur a teacher",he spoke "Gopi come here". She walked towards him, still head bent.Ahem noticed she was upset and scared but he was least bothered. He was here to teach her and nothing else matter and moroever it will be a advantage to him if he remains strict with her. She will not try to come close to him. Ahem spoke "gopi i am
going to teach u english today and then we will later do hindi and atlast maths as english is important now-a-days and hindi will be useful in ur daily life and maths will be useful for ur daily payments for grocories and checking bills".But the actual reason Ahem picked these subjects were, he dont want to get embrassed again in front of his clients, hindi because next time she could
read a letter which was written to her and finally maths so that she could help his mom to run the household. Gopi on hearing Ahem's schedule slowly lifted her head up and looked at Ahem. Her eyes shined with gratitude and this time Ahem looked down. "
monster, selfish *^*&^*&^. Mr.Ahem modi ur the most selfish creature in this world". "Yeah i know". He made her sit next to
him and wrote the English alphabets and made her repeat after him and told her to pratice until she learnt it by heart. Gopi sat on the bed and Ahem started his work. He felt peace as today today's teaching has been done. "That girl will take till tomorrow to understand the alphabets and then she will realize how different their two worlds will be. He was a fast, bussiness man and she is
a slow household learner." It was half an hour and Ahem was so immersed in his work that he dint notice gopi was standing beside him. "Ji.." she sounded out, Ahem without looking at her spoke "do u have any doubts". He smiled within himself thinking "cant even learn the alphabtes without any doubts, how will she learn further". gopi spoke "ji nahin woh i completed learning them".
Ahem head snapped up so fast that gopi stepped back immediately. He stared at her a whole minute before coming to realization. He shouted "what" and stood up. This made gopi nervous and started trembling. He snatched the book from her hands and checked it. She practiced the alphabets more than Ahem told her to do. "I cant believe this. How can she learn so fast, it just half an hour damn it".
Then he remembered the incident where she repeated his address twice, at that time he thought she remembed the address because her brain was tension free and empty. But today he realized, she have a excellent memory indeed!! Damn". But Ahem modi was not so easy to get impressed and to accept defeat from his illitrate wife. He caught gopi's hand and dragged her to the couch and made to sit
next to him and made her look at him. Ahem demanded "repeat the alphabets".gopi dint knew all of a sudden why did he became mad. She thought "maybe he got angry because i disturbed his work". Gopi inorder not to waste anymore time immediately started ranting alphabets. Ahem was amazed at her speed but still not satisfied. He gave her a book and ask her to write the letter which he dictated.
She did it perfectly. Still Ahem was not satisfied. He asked her to repeat the alphabets in reverse order. though it took some time she did perfectly. Finally Ahem accepted defeat and slumped back thinking she was very fast at learning. But somewhere back of his mind he felt proud and impressed. "Why". He looked at gopi. She was looking at him with doe eyes fearfully, expectantly. Ahem knew
he have to praise her in order to boost her confidence but his ego came his way". it was just 45min she started studying and still not late to sleep too and she was waiting for him to give her next lesson. Ahem dint knew what to do. He was so confident that she will learn these by tomorrow and he dint prepare any schedule for her. So he took the notebook and wrote hindi alphabets and explained her.
Part12-3:
The same scenario repeated again. This time Ahem dint get mad but made her study barakadies of hindi. He had to admit that if any other person of her age if recites all the alphabets in front of him, he would strangle them but gopi sweet voice made it bearable.It remainded him of parrot talks. She soon finished the work and Ahem made her do some words in english and hindi. He was amazed how fast
she got the gist of the words in hindi but she was still slow in english and this fact made Ahem rejoice. He asked her to stop now as it had been nearly 2 and half hours and asked her to leave. He gave her some homework saying to note down the words of the household or other items she will use tomorrow so that he will explain the english meaning to it and also her hindi grammer would be increased.
Gopi nodded and was about to leave when Ahem caught her hand suddenly. She looked at him in surprise but Ahem remained her to be silent and slowly proceeded towards the door. He opened the door with one hand and peeked outside. The coast was clear. He turned towards her and told "now u can go". She had her head bent and was looking nervous but happy. Ahem shouted "Ab Jaun Yeha se". She looked
at him frightned and again looked down. "whats dis girl is doing" Ahem thought. Then he felt the realization that someone was tuging his hand down and looked at his hand. Now he knew why she was not leaving. Her hand was gripped in his lock. He caught her hand earlier and have never let it loose. Immediately he released her hand as though hit by an electric shock and she rushed outside from his room.
Ahem and gopi both thought "did it again".Next day became a busy shcedule for both gopi and ahem. Ahem was in the office balancing his work and also mentally preparing her course to do tonight. He now knew her processing capabality and decided to first proceed deep with hindi and then simultaneously proceed slowly in english as he know it will be a bit difficult for her to adjust herself to the slang. Here gopi
was busy with the household work and keep repeating in her mind the items and made them a note whenever time permits. Gopi knew that she should not keep her hopes high but still she was looking forward for the night after dinner. It was the only chance to view her Ahemji to her heart content. Ahem was waiting in his room working. A soft knock and immediately she rushed inside and closed the door. This was
the quality Ahem liked in her, she never repeats the mistake but always performs a new mistake in an unthinkable way. Gopi stood near the door and Ahem knew as always he have to intiate. "Why cant she be normal with me, it will make me convinient too. Her stammering and slow procedure irritates him as he hates waiting more than anything." "did u do the homework", Ahem spoke strictly. Gopi nodded and handed
him a note book. He observed that there was a happiness in her eyes. Usually Ahem temper would burst out at the sight of her watching him lovingly. But this happiness was new and Ahem knew that this happiness related to her studies. Probably this was her first time to write something on her own. Ahem felt good that she was intrested in studying even at this age as most people feel uncomfortable and hope lost feeling
akaward to study. Ahem looked at the note book and was very shocked. Her note book had been half filled up almost coming to the end. He checked whether she carelessly left spaces among the words but infact she jammed the words in order to save the space. Before he knew he blowed at her "What's this?". Gopi who was expecting a praise or atleast a satisfactory nod jumped a feet away from him ,tears sprang instant in
her eyes."ji..mein..". Ahem dint gave a chance to her "why cant u do a simple thing. I have asked u to note down the things which u used today in ur daily work and here u have noted down everything visible to ur eyes. What do u want to prove that ur a better and fast learner. Then why do u need me. Go and prepare urself if u think u r that smart!!".Gopi was still unable to make a sentence but tears started to stream down her
face."Now stop those tears and answer me. What is this?". Gopi spoke tremblingly "ji..woh ...ye ..this is the home..work u given to me..The things i used today!!". Instantly he became calm because his anger was replaced by shock."what", he spoke barely audible. He again looked at the book.Indeed their are the items of daily household but these many!! He always thought that she too worked like Rashi only in the morning and
evening. All the remaining work was done by his mom and kaki and servants. He never knew that this girl handled this entire work. "Why cant she, u have handled the entire bussinees, so does she handles the house". He again went through the book and looked at her. She was standing far from him, head really down and silently sobbing. Ahem mentally slapped himself. "
U are her teacher but dint realize the hard work she went
through today." He now knew how difficult for her to remember the things and jolt them down while paying attention to the other things. Instead of appreciating her effort, he blasted at her.He checked the pages and saw 2 or 3 mistakes in her hindi grammer. Now it was his turn to speak to her and explain to her. But no voice was coming from his mouth. "
wow Mr.modi to shout at her u dont need a second hesitation but to praise
her u are taking the entire day.Part 12-4:
He have to talk to her. His guilt was eating him again. But he cant help shouting at her. He was prepared today to impress her but again she caught him off guard. He made this plan to prove her unworthy to him but instead she is the one giving blow by blow everyday. He saw she was eyeing the door and slowly her feet were turning towards the door. "Did she want to leave". Suddenly in a second the very thought left a stabbing pain in
his heart. The pain was so much that it showed on his face.Gopi who was watching him saw the pain flashing on his face and before realizing went near him and gave a glass of water saying "are u k". Ahem lifted his hand indicating her to stop giving him water. Not because he dint like it when she handed him the glass but for the fact since he was so confused now. "Why did i have such a pain. was it a heart attack". Ahem knew he was healthy
and his habits are perfect and why did he had a such a stabbing pain. He saw that gopi was slowly backing away. Hurt on her face. Without even realizing what he was doing, he immediately caught her hand and made her sit down right next to him. Gopi was surprised but more frigthened thinking he will scold her more now for trying to give him a glass of water. "mujhe maaf kar dijiye", she spoke timidly. Again Ahem was confused "why is she
asking for sorry when i have to say it. Is she indicating that i have to say sorry?". Ahem noticed that her face was genuinely saying sorry. Then like a ligthing , it struck Ahem that she always ask for appolozy whether it is her mistake or not. "does this girl have such low confidence" He often had thought that she was saying sorry because she was guilty. Now thinking back Ahem felt afraid to analyze how many times he scolded her without her fault
and with her fault.Ahem knew he had to appolize but instead he spoke "i saw ur work. its k". Gopi head snapped up. Fear replaced surprise, surprise replaced confusion, finally confusion replaced by happiness.She was her book in her hands and her face lit up. "ji thank u". Ahem looked at her strangly. If he were in her place, and his teacher would just say its k about his entire day hard work, he would have killed him right there. But her she was feeling
elated for his words. Ahem noticed she was really easy to please. Ahem spoke "so do u want to study now or do u want to leave". Gopi looked confusion at his question and looked everywhere in the room and looked at him and looked down. He waited 5 minutes for her to answer, but still there was no reply. "why dont u speak?", he asked irritatingly. She looked at him. He thought there would be fear in her eyes but there were fresh tears in her eyes.
Tears of despair and hopelessness."Ji..woh...mein...mein...nahi janti. I dont know". Ahem was really shocked with herself and himself also. Natuarally this sentence would make him mad thinking why cant she take a simple decision. But the state she was in clearly told him she was not playing, she was really very confused. He could tell it by her eyes. Ahem noticed that only to know her feelings, he have to check her eyes and they would tell the story.
Ahem spoke "gopi, what happend i asked u a simple question, do u want to study or do u want to rest".Ahem immediately knew it was a mistake asking her again because she felt more uncomfortable and looked in utter despair. Ahem first thought to leave this and ask her to go to her room.He spoke "k go to ur room and rest". He noticed that her tension was washed away and relief spread over her face. All her turmoil was gone and obediently she started
collecting her books, a look of dissapointment in her eyes. She was just about to leave when Ahem shouted "stop".She thought maybe he wanted to check like yesterday but instead he came stroming towards her and looked at her intently. Gopi noticed that there a gleam in his eyes. Ahem spoke excitedly "When i asked u to leave, u started obeying me though u dint like it. U r looking dissapointed because u wanted to study and i asked u to leave right?"
Gopi simply nodded her head thinking how did he knew. Is he a mind reader. Ahem continued "u got confused when i asked u to reply my question or to say when u have to make a decision. U were unable to make a decision hence this made to uncomfortable rit?" Gopi was more surprised and nodded her head. "Yes" Ahem rejoiced.Finally he understood one thing correctly regarding her. Ahem spoke "But gopi, why did u became confused in the first place,
dint ever no one asked ur opinion",Ahem said it in a mocking tone unable to control his happiness to realize she was unable to make decisions whereas he could."Yes" she replied. That answer immediatley made Ahem loose his grin mentally. "What",he said surprised. "Ahemji no one until now asked my opinion. I just do what people tell me. First mami used to tell me, then rashi ben, then maaji and now u"gopi spoke innocently. Ahem stood there dumbfonded
looking at her unable to respond."shall i go Ahemji".gopi mistook his silence as anger. Ahem gave a slight nod and gopi immediately dissapered. Her words were ringing in his mind. "How can a person lead a life without decisions".To make a decision one have to open thier mouth and speak.Present their views."How can a person lead a entire life without any protest". Now he knew why she never argued back, why she never got angry at him. Because she never learnt to speak.
K seriously is it boring or too detailed
too long . or one sided story
suggestions are welcomed.
Part 13 - Pg 21
Edited by shaina.sharma - 14 years ago
