smriti...u mad mad gal..u made me soo sentyy.....u tld it wud b sad...bt shit..
i didnt think a fic smallr cmpared 2 ur long hyper fix cud move me soo mch....
they shud giv u n awadr or smthin...if it ws in me i wud make the bestes award fr u....bt i noe...tujh nautanky ko kuch pasand kaha aata hai..
bt this fic srsly tchd me...soo ossum.....when u descrybd the prt...ashi wud tikl her nd she wud wake up screamin..it ws soo sweet...
i srsly wishd u cud hav writtn this as 5 shots or smthin...
I srsly felt lyk killin u when i read these prts.......gawd..they made me soo sadd....
Originally posted by: smritisashi
Life is so strange, so uncertain, one minute its all juvenile and the other its worse than a curse. She was aghast at the irony of it all. We live, we love and then we let go. We feel so secure in the beauty of present that we forget the fathom of the future and end up in believing that what we have would always be there with us. But as the saying goes nothing lasts Forever, not even your only support system which keeps you on the move, and the worst part is, three days down the line we even tend to forget that we were dependent on any such support system, because the ruthless word called Life moves on and on till a day when perhaps it would engulf you too in its final abode.
But before moving on today, Ashi has to do the mammoth task of laying her mother down. That mother who was chirpy and bubbling with jolly laughters' just a day back, was now just one or two hours away from taking her final plunge into the mysteries of mortality.
Since yesterday ashi had done nothing but howl and cry and scream and curse. But now she had stopped all that and regained her cognitive senses, coz for once she had to live for her mother, yes perhaps the irony is that she realized this just when it was all going to be over, but still this was the most crucial stage, as its said Alls Well That Ends Well.
Her mother was suffering since yesterday evening, her closed eyes and agonized face pleading ashi to let go of her, but as always ashi held on to her, cursing her damming her to even think of leaving her alone.
She was her mom, Anvesha Banergee Ray's mom, how would anyone dare say that she was going and would never come back to give her a huggy or to bear her tantrums. No ways, she would do anything to keep her with her, why because even she knew that this lady was the only person in this whole wide world who would love her selflessly and would do anything under the sky to bring one smile on her face and to gulp away all her tears.
But did she ever realized that this lady was much more than just her mom? She was an individual with her own identity but all Ashi had done was shrink her to just the label of being her mother and the poor soul bore it with pride and honor coz for her that was the best acknowledgement ever.
Ashi knew life would come to a stand still and the air would always be an empty void resembling her mother's persona but now it was high time that she stopped being selfish, this was the one time were she instead of being the reason for her mom's agony would rather be the one to end her trauma.
And so she like a good daughter, indebted to her every inch of skin, stopped crying, coz she knew that if there was a way to hold her mother back from even the god of death was her tears. Her mom would never ever leave till shes assured that her daughter is fine and there is not a tear droplet sticking her beautiful eyes and hence she waited and gave her daughter her own sweet time to fight with her tears and till then she fought with her last breaths
So now all ashi did was prepare her mother's farewell. She had herself decorated the case in which she would rest…she filled it with yellow lilies and scented it with her moms favorite aroma and made sure that its air was not too hot as her mom's skin would crack in heat. She dressed her mother in her favorite attire…a crystal white saree. which she had brought for her from her first pay cheque, her diamond necklace which so smelled like her and her priced ring which her father had given her on her sixteenth birthday, ashi wanted to keep the necklace with herself but she knew her mom would feel incomplete without it.
And so her mother was all set for her fimal journey. One look at her would make anyone speechless at the gracious beauty that had always defined her elegance and even today it did not leave her.
Ashi felt like pranking her like she always did when she was busy taking her beauty nap. She exactly knew that one tickling finger on her right toe would make her jump out of her sleep and she would be all hyper and scared and shouting, "Mummum ki je kori tum ek din mujhe heart attack se maar dalogi" and then ashi would make her innocent face and her mom would all go draining kisses over her and irritating her with her shona munny cuddling.
But today her mom realy needed the beauty sleep to end the movie of her life with a victory smile so all ashi did was to hold her hand and sooth it with her own as Sonya had always done when ashi was struggling to sleep peacefully
She saw her mums eye lids closing slowly and steadily, every minute the light of life fading in them, but every single look she exchanged with her, she knew she was telling her to be brave and strong and was prommsing her she would never ever leave her alone even after the end
They exchanged their final smiles and now there was nothing left to be done or said as they both knew that their belief in each other was immortal and they would always be there even after life itself. Ashi held her hands and rested her head on her mom's pillow, listening to her painful breaths and waiting for the time when the room would be silent siphoning the arrival of end.
now i hav tears in my eyes...yeess...believe it or nt...jise aap kehti thi ki i need class 2 read goth poems is teary cuz of u....
ashi nd soniya hav olways been soo closse to mee.....theyr lyk sum1 i luk upto....soniya as a loving mommy nd ashi lyk the dotty fit fr a mumma lyk her....now i cnt help bt think of olthe bful momments they shared....i really ws hopin nce july when i knew i wud b leavin fr dubai tht mayb star1 will show repeats now nd i cn catch up on the scenes i had missd erlier....shiot yaar..i hate str1......ashi soniya wudnt hav been ashi soniya widout priya ns souniya........nd this fic culd capture the most mature prt of their relationship.....i mean they olwayz fytd..they olways made up...bt only they cud understnd wht the oder really really wnted.....nowin its tym 2 strt thinkin her as n individual...she cudnt do tht earlier....i makin such random posts tht i dun even noe its makin sense or not...bt m jus really tchddd.....im soo glads this topic cam up 2day.....
luv u loadssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
ur mummum...........................
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