AsYa OS : What If I Lose Her? (updated part 3) - Page 3

PART - II

It has been passed one hour since she is in emergency room but no assurance from the medical team. This time when a senior doctor came out of the room Asad confronted the doctor. But before he could ask anything the doctor asked for the patient's family.

"Yes doctor we are her family", Asad replied. "How is she? Is everything alright?" Asad bombarded with questions.

"Who are you to her?" Doctor asked.

Asad went blank. Is he in real? Is the time to ask such questions?

Sensing that his temper is raising Dilshad quickly intervened in the conversation.

"I'm her phoopi. But what's the matter doctor?" Dilshad said.

"The patient has lost too much blood. And we don't have much supply of this kind of blood group. We need blood immediately."

"I'm ready to donate blood. What I have to do?"Asad asked being impatient.

"Her blood group is O+."

Asad sighed in defeat. He is A+. He can't do anything.

"I can donate blood. I am O+ too." All the heads turns towards the direction.

"What? Why are you looking at me like that?" Najma wiped her tears and said the doctor, "Doctor what I have to do?"

Doctor immediately assigned the job to a nurse and ordered her to hurry up.

Asad and Dilshad patted her head proudly and she left with the nurse. "She has grown up Asad." Dilshad said emotionally. Asad just nodded still can't believe his eyes.

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After some time when the doctor informed that everything is under control and that she is much stable now Asad asked Dilshad and Najma to leave for home and came back after some rest. When Dilshad didn't agree with him after so much pestering, he sent back Najma with driver citing that she needs a proper rest now.

He got some coffee for Dilshad and sat beside her. Getting him alone Dilshad asked him the question which is nagging her continuously.

"Beta, can I ask you something? Aur tell me the truth this time."

"Jee poochiye na ammi." Asad replied in confusion.

"What happened in Mangalpur? Are you tensed because of something happened there? Don't tell me that stupid office excuse." Dilshad again warned him.

Asad tried to protest but at last gave in and told her everything about Mangalpur incident. How Zoya found out the truth behind Mariam's marriage and help her to elope. And in all this she landed herself in trouble. How she has been buried alive and what could have happened if he, Yash and Aarti couldn't find her in time. He too told her that there could be high chance about them finding her missing and can came looking for her. After listening everything Dilshad gasped in shock. Tears made their own way through her eyes, "Meri bachi itna kuch sahe gayi and you guys didn't tell me once? So this is the reason you being over protective and strict about her?"

Asad nodded silently and apologies for not informing her before.

"So you love her?" Dilshad asked after some moment of quietness.

"WHAT!" Asad asked in shock! Has he heard correct? He looked at her as if two horns have grown up in her head!

Dilshad has expected him to react oddly but not in this way! "What what? You love her don't you?"

Has ammi gone mad with the shock? He should have never told her about that incident. Now what will he do? They are in hospital; if he contacts them they can surely do something. "Ammi what are you talking about! I don't love her! You know that I don't believe in such things. It never exists Ammi"

Now it's time for Dilshad to think if she needs to consult a doctor or not for him. He is in love, even a blind man can see that in his eyes and he doesn't even realize it? He really is this much emotionally challenged? Is this the man who said he can do anything if she just opened her eyes just some moment ago? Is this the man who said no one can separate them even Allah? Does he really have not realized his feeling? So what if he couldn't realize it himself, she is here to make him realize that. She can't just sit and see him destroying his own life. She took it to herself and composed herself.

"So you don't love her?" Dilshad asked sternly.

"Of course not ammi! I don't know from where did you get this idea." He said unbelievingly.

"Then why are you so concerned for her well being?" She asked again.

"Ammi she is my responsibility! It's my duty to check on her. If anything happen to her what will I say to her api and jiju?"

"But she is not your responsibility, its min. You are right Asad. We should call her api and jiju to handle this situation. She is nobody to us. Wait I will call Anwar. And they will take her back to New York"

"No ammi!" Asad shouted. Dilshad gave him a confused look. "..I mean they will be tensed if we inform them and Zoya will never want them to know about it. She will be hurt if we inform them. No ammi please don't call them, please."

Dishad turned her back towards him and smiled, "And why do you care for her? What if she felt hurt? They are her guardian and they should know it." She again turned towards him, "..and Asad most importantly you said just a while ago that those goons are behind her, so it will be safe if she goes away from here. She should go back."

"No she will not go anywhere. She will be with us forever!" Asad said stubbornly, still couldn't understand why his ammi is hell bent on sending her away from him.

Dilshad shook her head amusedly, and he says that he doesn't love her! Ya Allah why is he so stubborn? She resumed her act!

"Forever? Asad what are you saying? Why she will stay here forever? Have you forgot that she is here for some work and will go back to her land as soon as she is done with it. Then she has to start a new life with her husband and a new family. My bacha! I hope she get a loving and caring husband.." Dilshad spoke dreamily and eyed Asad through the corners of her eyes to check his reaction.

"No she will not marry!" Asad said restlessly. When Dilshad again give a confused look he added, "...I mean, wo...actually...wo... ha she has said that she will not marry this early." "What's wrong with ammi! First she wanted her to go away and she wanted her to get married? I will never let that happened!" he thought.

"And who will listen to you? Who are you to her?" Dilshad asked

Have I said it aloud? "Ammi what are you talking about, I don't know" Asad turned back to go.

"Asad", Dilshad said sternly, she understood that now she has to put some sense in his brain, "ruko beta. I have not finished yet. You don't know what m talking about right? Okay then give me some answers first." Asad turned towards her. "Tell me if you don't love her then why u want her to stay with us?"

"Because Najma loves her, you love her as your own daughter, she is happy with us. Because of her our house has become a loving home" Asad said in a trance.

"Yeah I agree but why will she stay here forever?"

"Because she loves you guys like her own. She respects you as her mother."

"But she has to go her own home one day when she finds her life partner.."

This made Asad uncomfortable. How can she find a life partner? She is here to stay forever. She can never go away. Yes she will never go away. His ammi is thinking way too much.

Watching him uncomfortable Dilshad hits her final blow, "Why are you so uncomfortable with the idea Asad, when we are comfortable with this? Do you really want her to stay for us or for you? Why her leaving makes a difference? Why were you so much scared seeing her lifeless? Why you fear separation from her?"

Asad stood still for sometime facing his back, "Ammi I think you should go home and rest for a while" Dilshad sighed dejectly.

"Thik hai Asad, if you don't want to answer me at least ask this question to yourself WHAT IF YOU LOSE HER?" with that Dilshad left for prayer room.

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It has been few moments till Dilshad left with her questions but Asad stood still where he was.

WHAT IF YOU LOSE HER?

Asads mind is numb with this question, "What if I lose her?" he felt scared. Yes he is scared to lose her. But why? He has smartly answered his ammi's question but every time he has stored a question for himself, "why". He really doesn't have answer for this particular question. He sat down on the bench and rewind all the incidents took place till the day he first met her.

He had seen her in the maszid for the first time looking ethereal in a bridal atire, crying bitterly. That was the first time he prayed for a stranger, he has asked Allah to bless her with all happiness in this world. Then in their next meeting he realised what she is in real! He smiled a little. Though he acted rude and all angry he was amused by her bold nature. Then she arrived in his house as their guest, all the time they fought and bickered in everything and anything. But in all this small incidents when she become a family member to him from a guest he couldn't put a finger. Then he felt scared for the first time for someone other than his ammi and sister in Mangalpur.

"Nurse quick! Arrange all the necessaries. She is becoming serious!"

Asad's trance broke with this sudden movement outside Zoya's room. He tried to look into what happening. He quickly asked to the nurse about this sudden rush.

"Sir, the patient's condition is getting serious.. it's like she is losing the battle" the nurse informed and moved away quickly!

He felt his heart beat quickening; the fear of losing her has totally gripped his mind and heart. He felt suffocated. He wants to be near her. "No, this can never be happened. He will never let this happen. She needs to fight." He fisted his hand and ran out from the hospital.

Dilshad was returning from the prayer room when she saw that Asad ran passed her she tried to call him but he didn't hear her. When she reached Zoya's room the hustle bustle told her that something is wrong. Upon asking the doctor she got to know that Zoya is in serious condition and they are trying their best. Dilshad gasped in fear and called Najma.

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Asad drove the car in lightening speed breaking almost all the rules and stopped outside the darga where they met for the first time. He got down and made his way to the darga. He raised his hands and prayed...

"Ya Allah whenever I asked something from you it was always for my family, but today I want something for me. Zoya. I want her for me. Not because of ammi and Najma I want her for me. I scared to lose her, I don't know why but I just want her to be my side always. It's suffocating me to see her like this. As if our heart beats are entwined. If anything happens to her I will die too. If I want to live now, that's only because of her. I am not the same Asad, without her constant chattering I can't be in peace. Mujhe nahi pata mera kya rista hai unke sath. I don't know what love is, par agar unke liye mera yu tadap na mohabbat hai to phir mai unse mohabbat karta hoon. Unki hare ek sans mujhe meri wajood ka ehsaas dilate hai, agar ye mohabbat hai to mai unhe mohabbat karta hoon. Mera dil bas unke liyehi dhadakta hai ab, agar ye mohobbat hai to ha mai unse mohabbat karta hoon. Unke wager meri koi wajood nahi hai Maula! Rahem kar Maula. Mujhe unse juda mat kar. Mera dua Qubool kar. Chahe tu meri jaan le le par unhe ye Zindagi lauta de."

Asad cried his heart out. Everything is meaningless without her. Suddenly this colourful world has become back and white without her smile. He is feeling chocked as if there is no oxygen left in this nature. He is losing her. He wanted to hold her but he can't. Suddenly a cold breeze touched his eyes. He opened his eyes to find Zoya smiling at him. He couldn't believe his eyes. He forwarded his hand to touch her face when his phone vibrated in his pocket, breaking his trance. He looked carefully around him but found no one there. Was he dreaming? The constant vibrations alert him to pick up the call. He left the darga while receiving the call.

"Hello"

"Asad where are you. Wo Zoya..."

His heart stopped beating for once, "What happened to Zoya" he asked in his shaking voice fearing the worst.

"Zoya, she... she.."

"She what ammi? Please ami say something. Is she alright?" Asad asked holding his breath."

"Asad she..."

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Okay that's it for now.

What do you think? Is she alive? That was a fatal accident...I can only say this much...