Chap 27 When the time has come
One year later
All those months went so fast and so smooth, she couldn't believe her luck, her fortune. He spoiled her so much, he was tender, soft, well understanding and always answering to all her demands. They kept working together, and in their office, everything changed also, he was more realaxed and the employers were impressed with the new Asad Ahmed Khan. It was truth that happy marital life can change you a lot, and love change both of them.
As usual, she was waiting for him, looking outside the window, the only thing that never change was his love for his work, and he always liked to work, a lot. As much as she can argue with him and he promised to change, he never changed. She loved him and his passion for his work was his signature. When they stepped in their marrital life, Asad planned to have a house next to his ammi's house, he wanted to have enough privacy and to be close if his family needed them. They only needed to make 10 steps to be in his mother's home. Zoya could stay with his family when he will be abroad. She was happy with this and her house was the perfect cocoon of love, for the both of them.
What happened before and Akram's event were behind her now, but sometimes, it happened that she woke up sweating from nightmare. She always saw herself holding the gun and shooting, even if in real, she never pulled the trigger. She never talked about her dream to Asad, it was a past and she had to erase from her memory. Actually, they never talked about what happened to both of them, they chose to let it behind. Those dreams came in the beginning and stopped during the first 3 months of their life together. She looked at the watch and he was not here yet. Each time, he was late, she couldn't control her stress. She developped phobia each time, he was out of home and she couldn't stop herself and couldn't relax until he will be under her view. Sometimes, she spent some minutes just watching him, silently, hidding and admiring him working, or training or even working in his office. She needed to see him all the time, she was not like this before, but she couldn't help but to be scared each time, he was absent. She always felt a pain under her chest with passing minutes, even he already texted her that he will be late, she can't stop herself. Finally, she saw his car on the door and she finally released her breath. He came tiredly, his tie loosened and holding his suitcase. She smiled in relief, seeing him coming. She ran to the front door and waited for him, welcoming him with her biggest loving smile. He was tensed and he was massaging his forehead when everything vanished looking at her beautiful face.
-hi, beautiful,
-hi Asad, he held her by her waist and pressed his lips on hers, in a deep and soft kiss. They parted and she stroked his hair affectionnally, aware of his headache. Are you ok ?
-seeing you, I am always fine
-dinner or coffee ?
-coffee, she nodded at him and went to the kitchen while he left to his room, to change.
-Asad your coffee ?
-thanks baby, he opened his laptop and started to work
-don't tell me that you are going to work now ? You didn't even change, Asad, she said exasperatly, he was still in his work clothes.
-I have to check my mails only, it will be short I promise
-really ? She put her hand on her hips and he just gave her an innocent look, fine, I will take a shower and I hope to see you laying in the bed when I will be out, ok ?
-ok, take your time, baby, he said and she rolled her eyes knowing that he will not stop working.
Asad was still working at home, he had a lot to do since he was happily married with the love of his life. Finally, they were married after so many obstacles. All this events were now behind them and in their life it's only love, love and more love again. Since she entered his life, he redoubled effort in the work to support her , even in her most trivial needs, nothing was too good for his beautiful wife. She was supportive but still she didn't like him working hard and she always forced him to take a rest. He used this moment, before she entered their room to work a bit. But the break came too early, she came out from her bath humming happily, he didn't want to look at her, he knew that he will be distract and he will end by closing his laptop. She looked at him and rolled her eyes. She came and sat next to him.
-Asad, she just said
-I know, I know, I'm close to finish, I promise just give me few minutes, it's really important .
-mmh, ok, well, I guess I will come another time for my deal, I'm so sad that you will miss this deal, she sighed deeply and faked to be sad
-a deal ? what kind of deal ?
-let it be, finish yours and we will discuss later
-ok, he got back to his computer
-Asad, we are already married for one year now and you already ignore me, at least you can wait 10 years before, she growled frustrated
-Zoya baby, I told you I have to finish this and promise I will listen to your new deal and I'm sure it will be interesting.
-well, I don't want to tell you about, you upset me already, so forget about it, she turned and went to the bed.
-Zoya, please, listen I'm sorry, see, I will close my computer and I'm just here for you, come and sit next to me, he taped slightly the sofa next to him.
Zoya, arms crossed, looked at him, capriciously, and sat next to him, still wearing a mask of disapointement.
-So tell me, but she didn't respond, he opened his laptop again, and she stopped him this time. Ok, I will talk. So, Mister Khan, this is a deal that will require you a lot of attention and effort. It is involved a consencus of merger of two partnership and it implies that this combination can generate in the future a strong connection.
-it sounds interesting actually, he said surprised, continue
-it is Mister Khan and I'm sure I can convinced you, so first step, I need your full attention, can I have it ?
-you have it of course, he turned to face her
-ok second step, it involved you to be relax, she untied his tied seductively and Asad smiled knowing where it will lead them, she started to unbountted his shirt, one by one, the button loossened and exposed his chest to her. She pulled down his shirt until his forearms. She placed wet small kisses along his neck and teased his skin with her teeth
-what was that for ?
-the signature of the contract, she smirked
-oh like that, and he began to tickle her and she laughed hardly
-Asaad, Asaad stop it, she tried to push him but he enjoyed listening to her laugh and he continued his torture. Please, what...was...thaaatt...for ? She asked between her laugh
-signature of the contract baby, he lay her down and he posed on his four and looked at her, so this is your deal and like any deal, we need to give it a name, so what the name of your deal Mrs Khan ? He asked naughtly kissing her neck slowly
-Asad and Zoya's babies, she moaned
-I accept this deal, and I don't think I can refuse this kind of deal, especially for the strong connection, he winked at her. She smiled shyly. Let's start now.
He lifted from the sofa and held her to the bed where they started the next step : fusion of Asad and Zoya's bodies.
9 months later
They kept trying for those last 9 months but Zoya was still not pregnant, she started to become restless and imagined many dark ideas, what if she can't be pregnant ? What if she will never have babies ? What if she was sterile ? Days after days, she became sad and upset, she always used to check her period which were always on time. She read a lot of books about being pregant, she checked all the serious and non serious website of pregnancy and she did most of them. Even sometimes the weirest things, she wanted so much to be pregant and this idea became slowly to be her obsession. She stopped her contraceptives months ago and her period became to be irregular, and with each delay, she felt joy but turned to be just a small delay.
She consulted Nisha after three months, but she had reassured her that it wasn't necessary to worry after one year and if needed they will do tests. She also advised her to make love on the day of ovulation, close to 14 days of her cycle, having physical contact that day increases the chances of conceiving. During those last 6 months, she waited tirelessly this famous day, 3 month ago, one moment it fell when both were at the compagny. She barged into his office and closed the door.
-Asad, it's now, she untied his belt and started to kiss him
-Zoya, what..What are you doing ? he was taken back
-it is the fourteenth day and I'm at the good temperature, she removed his tie.
-Zoya, listen, listen, he pushed her and held her wrist, we can wait when we will be at home, ok ? He tried to put sense on her
-it will be late, if my temperature decreased , it will be too late, you are wasting time
-Zoya, could you just stop it now ? I don't want to do it, here his eyes grew wide, he was in the office and he was in mood to share their lovemaking with his employees.
-why ? don't you think it s risky and exciting at the same time ? You don't feel a rush of adrenalin in your vein, baby, she continued to kiss his neck hungrily
-Zoya, listen to me, I'm not in a mood for having sex here
-why you don't want me ? She said sadly
-it's not the question, of course I want you and I love you, but we are at work, we should do it, let's wait next month.
-please Asad, what if it's the right time ? What if I'm ready for it and my body too ?
-what if it didn't happen this time but next time ?
Her hand fell and her lips started to shiver, he cursed himself from hurting her.
-Zoya listen to me don't cry baby, listen to me, there is not exciting making love just for making babies, we used to make love because we need the other, it was a pure pleasure but now it became mechanical.
-I know and I'm sorry, but please just this time and I promise, I wont do it again, please Asad for me, just this time, she held his collar and grew her eyes widely to tenderize him. He kissed her forehead and sighed in defeat.
-ok, just this time, she jumped excitely and wrapped her arms around his neck
-I love you and so please I want your best and strongest seed. He rolled his eyes and he couldn't retract back, he just prayed that it won't happen again, so he gave her what she asked.
But nothing happened that day, and she kept trying again and again and as if the destiny was against her, this day always fell when they were both of the office. Asad accepted 3 times, because she balckmailed him each time, and he fell each time. Each attempt, she had to convince him, she used all the technique that she had under her sleeve. So for the 4th attempt, Zoya barged again in his office holding this time her thermometer.
-Zoya, what's now ? Don't tell me ? He massaged his temple
-It's the time, see I bring the proove
-not now, I have many thing to do, he said firmly
-come on Asad, it will be quick, please, please, please, she pouted at him
-I said NO, he said with authority but she was deaf. He was boiling, he was fed up of this stupid game of her, he was just used for her deal, he didn't know that he will regret doing this for her.
-baby, she sang coming to him, she let her fingers on his shoulder, caressing him.
He jerked her hands and stood up away from her, he was fuming, he was closed to blast on her, but he tried to control.
-Asad, please, look, I'm at the good ...She didn't get the opportunity to finish when he took it from her hand and threw it on the wall
-I SAID NOOO, he yelled at her. Zoya gasped at his sudden anger she didn't expect this from him. Just go away now, I have many thing to do, he tried to cool himself, but inside he wanted to break everything.
-FINE, as you wish BOSS, it's because you don't love me right ? You don't love me anymore, she cried and left angrily.
Asad pinched the table hardly, he was no more going to do this, it became impossible and she became impossible.
In the night
He came late, he didn't want to talk to her, he was still angry at her and hurt by her selfish behaviour. She was so obsessed by being pregnant that she was not anymore the Zoya that she was at the beginning of their marriage. He came inside his room and she was already on the bed. She was upset too, he didn't accept this time, she always managed in convincing him but today, it wasn't possible, she had crossed his patience. She was angry because of him, she lost an opportunity, she needed him for this she can't do it alone, she needed him.
He went into the bathroom to wear his nighties clothes, it was the first time that she slept without waiting for him, she must be really upset, he thought. He sighed sadly, he may have reacted impulsively, he lost his cool and the better way with her it's to explain, an easy and soft explanation might have avoid their fight. He knows how she was sensitive concerning this subject and he felt responsible for this mess, he should have react better, but today was too much. Zoya didn't sleep, she can't sleep without him, she always waited for him, even when they argued about small thing and they never slept being angry toward each other. She was waiting for him to take the first step.
He went out from the bathroom and the room was in the dark. He lay down next to her, staring at the ceiling first and then at her back, he knew that she wasn't sleeping, he knew her better. She loved him and he loved her, he didn't want to go on sleep without talking. He slidded his hands under her top and rubbed her skin slightly.
-Zoya ? she didn't respond but she smiled feeling his hands. He came closer, his front was now against her chest, he kissed her shoulders, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yell at you like this.
She moved her shoulders in disagreement, he kissed her neck, whispering how much he was sorry for being rude at her. Finally, she faced him.
-you hurt me Asad, she sniffed
-I know I'm sorry, it's just that I don't want to do this anymore, especially in the office and doing love like animal, it gave no pleassure and no excitement to me or to my little soldiers. He tried to say a joke
-I know and I don't like it too, but it's just that this 14th day is acting like a sadistic day and always fell when we are working, I hate that day, she agreed with him. I'm sorry for forcing you, she pecked his lips.
-I love you Zoya
-I love you too, my favorite beast
-but doing love at home, I'm not against this idea, he teased her cheek
-listen Mister Asad Ahmed Khan, I said I'm sorry but I didn't say that you are not going to be punish, so tonight, keep your hand away from me, you will sleep in your side and me at my side.
-What ? It's not fair, Zoya, I said I'm sorry
-I know and I accept, she pecked him, but not tonight, she pushed him and turned to her side giggling at him.
He huffed frustrated and annoyed by her rejection, but the major point was that he can sleep now, because they were no angrier to each other.
It's had been already two year for their marriage, and still no babies in her womb. Today was their marriage anniversary, he planned to have candle dinner in private just the two of them. This year finished with a bitter note, she became vulnerable with the passing month. He wasn't in hurry to be father and he wanted her to relax, to enjoy first and after to try again, sometimes having break, was important. But she was too stubborn to take away her project. To cheer up her mood, he planned a romantic dinner, he wanted to seduce her again, to show her how much he loved her and how much he missed his old Zoya. She didn't talk so much during the dinner, her old habbit of talking was lost. Her smile didn't reach her eyes and he did everything she liked, the meal that she loved, he chose the dress for her, he decorated the house romantically. He saw that she was making effort, but still, he felt her trapped in her sadness.
-can I dance with my wife ? he extanded his hand, she smiled at him and gave him her hand. He wrapped gently his hand around her exposed back and she shivered. He smirked, he still had effect on her and he loved how she responded to his touch. They started to twirled slowly, lulled by the music notes. She seemed dreamy and her mind was bit far, her eyes was on her hands posed on his chest and he stared at her. She didn't look up once since they started to dance. He decided to bring her back, he lowered his head, to captured her lips in a soft kiss. She smiled softly at him and then he sealed her lips with his in a deep and intense kiss, he wanted her to stop from thinking. He poured all his emotion in this kiss and she first responded sligtly and then urgentlty, when his mouth became more demanding. Her arms wrapped around his neck and her leg popped in response. She forgot how he could be passionate and intense as fire beeing in his arms. She deepened the kiss and felt herself coming back months ago when her passion of love was burning inside of her each time she was him or each time he touched her. During this kiss, she forgot about her sadness. He could feel her reacting and responding as before, with fevor and with hunger. Both were lost in this kiss, and they realized how she was distant with him. They finally jerked asking for breath.
-I love you Asad, was the only words who came out from her mouth
-I know, jaan, and I love you seeing you again. Her tears were brimming with tears.
-I am sorry, Asad, I am really sorry, she pursed her lips
-hey, what's wrong ? Why you say that ?
-I am sorry because it's already two years and I didn't give you...She stopped
-Zoya, you are my precious present and I can't dream about something better than having you in my arms
-But, Asad, I...
-Sshhh, Zoya, I want you to know that what is important for me, it's your happiness and I will do anything for you. I want you to relax, it's only our second year together and we have all the life to have children. Let's enjoy our life together, we are young, we are in love, when babies will come soon, we won't be able to spend time together in peace, he rolled his eyes exageratly and she chuckled. She cupped his face and captured his lips gratefully.
- I am so sorry, Asad, I didn't take care of you as I was supposed to do, I am sorry because of my willing to be mother, I make you live a hell those last month, I am sorry because I forget about you and I should do, I am sorry but I love you Asad, I love you a lot.
-Sweetheart, life will not stop after those two years, I love you and I want to enjoy to be just with you and I don't want to share you with anyone. He held her possessively and she chuckled soflty. He wiped her tears. By the way, I am your baby, right, and I will not accept to share your attention to anyone else, am I clear ?
-oh possessive ahmed khan is back ? She teased him
-exactly, Miss Farooqui
-who's this Miss farooqui ? She raised her eyebrows
-oups sorry, Mrs Zoya Asad Ahmed Khan, he rectified his mistakes
-that sound much better, Mister Khan. He lifted from the floor and she let out a surprised scream. Asad, what are you doing ?
-well, I want to take care of my baby and I have another gift for you, he winked at her
-where ?
-let's go to our room and I will show you
-naughty Mister Khan, where is your manners ?
-how can I have a manner when I have a sexy and beautiful wife like you, I threw them in the waste.
-come on Asad, let me down, she said shyly, he nodded his head in no. Once he reached their room, he closed the door with his foot and showed her how much he missed her.
In the evening
Zoya jerked from her sleep, she was pale and was sweating in fears. It was again this nightmare, it has been months that she didn't see it. She looked around and Asad was still sleeping. She drank a water to calm her heartbeat. She woke up and stood by the window. She didn't know why she always saw this dream after so long. It was the past and she didn't pull the trigger but why in her dream, she pulled it on Akram, she always opened her eyes before she could see him falling down. She lay down next to him and trailed her eyes on the scar on his chest. After two year, his injuries healed to let a curved and colorfull scar, which can be notice. She always felt the same thing each time, she glanced at them, she felt her tummy clenched painfully. She never touched them and her fingers burnt and shook, each time she was close and even during their love making, she never kissed them. Each time her eyes fell on them, she always remembered what happened when she thought she had lost him. He stirred from his sleep lazily and called her softly
-Zoya
-mmh, go back to sleep, Asad
-are you ok? He yawned
-ya,
-come on , he spread his arms and she posed her head on his chest, holding on him tightly. He kissed her hair and came back to sleep. She needed to talk to Nisha, only she can share what she felt, she didn't want to talk this to Asad. It was too painfull for him too, she needed someone neutral of this story. She was still disturbed but his soft breath and slow move of his chest manage to relax her mind and she dozed off.
The day after
Nisha, was not only her friend but her doctor in whom she trusted the most. She followed her since the beginning, giving her advice for her pregnancy. And today, she needed to talk to her about all her doubts. Days ago, Zoya gave her all her check-up and she made a lot of test without telling Asad. She knew that he will be angry on her and this pregnancy drove him mad. She didn't want to increase the rift between them more. Yesterday morning, she received a call from Nisha invite her to come and she was restless the whole day. However, their last night they found each other again and this was what she loved in their relation, no matter how far they can be, one of them, in turn found a way to come back to the other. Unfortunatelly, even if both decided to take their time for having children, she wanted to check first, if she can expect or not. And today, she went to meet Nisha to know about everything.
-Nisha tell me, is everything alright ?
-Zoya, calm down, a priori everything seems normal but we will have to go on further test and this time Asad will have to be with you. I guess we have to check Asad, just in case, the problem was from him.
-No, I don't want to tell Asad about it
-why Zoya ? Men can have problem too which can be solve and we are in century, that concieving became possible, there is a lot of ways nowadays.
-no Nisha, I don't want to involve Asad. If the problem come from him or not, I don't want to involve him at all. I have to protect him
-Zoya, you can't protect him from this, one day, he will know.
-but not now, she said shaking
-Zoya, you know that stress was not good for conceiving babies, it decreased the conception.
-I know, but I can't think about anything else, since one year, it was my obsession and Asad was suffering from this and so am I.
-is everything fine between you ? Are you happy with him ? Nisha asked worried
-of course, Nisha, I am the happiest women in this world, Asad makes everything to make me happy, he spoiled me, he was very loving, he is a good husband, a good friend and he is very patient with me. How can I tell him such a thing that...She suppressed her cry
-Zoya it might be really minor thing or subtle that can be only detect by more sensitive technical. Trust me, talk to him, Zoya. She moved her head in no vehementhly. Zoya how you feel ? Is everything ok ? I feel that there is something more ?
-I am scared, Nisha
-about what ?
-about everything, I am scared not be able to be a mother, , I am scared of life, I am scared of Akram, he might come back, I am scared once I will be a mother, if I will be a good mother, I am scared to loose again Asad and I am scared of everything.
-Akram will not come back and what do you mean by loosing Asad again, Zoya ?
-what if by my fault something bad happened to him and I loose him forever ? Or I loose my baby? Her eyes opened in horror.
-this is the major point of your blockage Zoya. You are still trapped in this moment when everything stopped around you. Asad is alive and Akram will never come back because he was not anymore from this life. You should not listen to your fears, you should fight them. Did you and Asad discuss about all of this ?
-No and I don't even know why I am still feeling like this. I know everything that you said, but I can't stop myself and I can't understand why ?
-Zoya you should open to Asad about, maybe you have some question that he was the only one that he can answer and he was the only one who can understand you better than anyone because he shared it with you.
-Nisha, why talking about this grievous past,
-because it cost you now and it was a burden that you are caring and I don't know why, but you have to let it out.
-No, I don't want to talk about
-Zoya, do you need a psychologist?
-No, I am not crazy, she said outrageous
-Zoya, she chukled, talking to someone who can help you to understand you and to help you to deal with all this nodes that your brain creates during this moment, it can be helpfull.
- I don't know Nisha, I don't know, let's first resolve the thing step by step and after we will see if the blockage was mental or bodily.
-ok, I won't force you but talk to Asad
-I will try.
She held her friend and Nisha conforted her again and again. She knew that Zoya went throught a lot, she saw her how she went crazy when she thought that Asad die, something in her, had broken and this was maybe the keys of her fears nowadays. This part in her needed to be reassure. Nisha came back to her task still lost when she received a surprised and unexpected call.
Few days later
-I was really surprised when I received your call, and I have to be honest, I didn't expect it. How can I help you mister Khan?
She was really surprised when Asad called her and asked for a meeting in her cabinet. He looked secretive and asked her to keep mute about their encounter. She was curious to know what he wanted from her.
-Nisha, actually...I don't know how to say...but you are Zoya's best friend and ...I guess you talked already but...He adjusted his collar, he was embarrassed, he didn't know how to express his feelings
-what's wrong Mister Khan? You can tell me everything, she tried to reassure him.
-I am worried about Zoya, she wanted to be a mother and I see that it's killing her inside days after days and I can't see her like this. And if I came today, it's to make all the test to see if the problem was coming from me.
Nisha smiled softly and couldn't help but to be proud of him, and she was also comfort about the love that he had for her.
-but Mister Khan, you know that it's better if both of you make the test together
-I know but I want to protect her, if the problem was her, I don't want her to feel any pain . I prefer to deal with you and to find a solution.
-but one day, she will know about it, she used the same word as she used for Zoya, she felt living the same scene but with him.
-I know but not now.
Nisha smirked, those two were the same, they protected each other and loved each other a lot, forgetting about themselves. She knows it will be difficult to convince them, both were stubborn in their decision.
-Mister Khan, how do you find Zoya? I mean emotionally? He let a long sigh
-she is really disturbed by this, and she lost her confidence. She looked lost and sad, and I tried to cheer up her mood, but nothing help. Sometimes, I caught her staring at me when she thought I wasn't looking at her. She cried in the bathroom alone but she always say, she is alright, but I know she is not. And I don't know what to do.
-did you discuss about that ?
-actually not really, I always told her that it doesn't matter to me and I am happy to have her with me. Having babies was not my priorities, she is My first priority, but not matter what I said, she took all the burden and responsibility for this failure alone, but we are two in this story, and it looks like she forget about that point.
-most of women are anxious by nature, we tend to think hugely and take too much to heart. Zoya was in a phase where she hopes a lot and as a woman, having a child is in our genes, you are married and having a child is the next step and this step was a huge step and the most she waited the most it increased her anxiety and her fears. She was in a failed phase and that feeling has weakened her as a woman. It's a vicious circle, until she didn't prove to herself that she can do it, she will be unhappy. That is why, she seems lost to you.
-but what can I do more, Nisha?
-you have to reassure her, to talk to her, even if you have to repeat a thousand time. Your love will give the patience that she needs.
-ok, I ll do it, but I need also to do all the analysis that are necessary for me, I will deal with her heart and I want you to deal with the science part.
-this is perfect, Mister Khan. Well, I want to ask you something, did you both discuss about what happened with Akram?
-No, never, we decided to let this behind, why you ask this? He frowned for a second
-just like that, some trauma can come after many times, especially in phase of stress and anxiety, so I was just wondering if both have discussed about and closed this chapter.
-this chapter was closed for both of us and for the moment, the only thing that she think about day and night, it's pregnancy.
-Ok, she said simply, she can't say further but she tried to give him a hint about. Well, Mister Khan, I will give an appointement for all the analysis that I need and we will see after. If the test are good,then I will call one of my friend, he is a fertility specialist, and he will guide you.
-Thank you, Nisha for everything. He shook her hand gratefully. He left and his heart was lighter, she reassured him and he did the first step to get back his wife to happiness.
He went back home early this day, she didn't like seeing him working a lot and he wanted to surprised her and to removed all her anxiety. She was in the kitchen, cooking and she didn't see him coming. He tiptoed and came from behind, holding her waist softly.
-Asad? She gasped, she didn't expect to see him so soon
-hi sweetheart, he kissed her temple and posed for long second, first she smiled softly and after each second, his lips sticked on her skin, her smiled widened and she giggled softly.
-Asad, she wrapped her hand on him, are you ok? She asked surprised
-I love you, he simply said
-I love you too, she shook her head gently
-No, I mean, I really love you, he said again, and the vibration of his voice was deep, to tell her all the love that he had for her.
-I know baby, she chuckled
He turned her and stared intently into her eyes.
-I-LOVE-YOU, Zoya, he emphazed each of his words. Her smiled froze and she didn't know but couldn't hold on the sad and panic sensation that she felt.
-What's wrong, Asad ? She stroke his hair, you scared me
-Zoya, I didn't tell you enough how much I love you and how happy I am to have you. You are my love, my life, my wonderful dream. Every day with you is lucky day for me. I only want to see you always smiling and always happy. I know that I work a lot and I don't give all the time that you need and you deserve. But you have to know that you are my precious gift, my unique love and my breath of life, and I love you for all this love that you have for me.
Her eyes were moisty by his words, she was tie-tongue , she didn't know what to say or how to reply at this wave of deep and pure love, only her eyes were expressive. She held him and buried her face in the crook of his neck, breathing deeply.
-I love you Asad, I love you so much, so much, she sobbed
-I love you too, he held on her tight
How I wished I could give you a child to give you back all the love that you gave me, she thought sadly.
How I wished I can remove all this pain and to tell you that your happiness only matter to me, he thought
Both were deeply in love and wanted to give the other what they think they deserved, but both didn't look in the same direction.
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