Hey guys...i hope you all still remember me.Its been quite sometime i have posted anything over.But here i am with another swaron OS .Its not very long or should i say my shortest os till now...Its not as good as the previous one's, i hope its atleast readable.😳Anyway go ahead and enjoy reading.
Together till eternity...
"Dear jaan,
First of all I would like to wish you a very very happy birthday..Today is the most special day of my life.This day brought you to this world, to my world.And then you became my world.Whatever gift I give you on this day wouldn't be enough.It wouldn't be enough to return the love, the care,happiness, satisfaction and the feeling of completeness you brought in my life.Since the day you entered my life and after our wedding your love and care has only been increasing.You lost your own identity to support mine, you forgot yourself in taking care of me.Honey,You made me feel heaven on earth.You were the one who made me feel alive.
But all I did was to hurt you.Give you immense pain in return for your selfless love.If it wasn't coz of me you would be very happy today.The perfect married life that we once had, could have been still yours.I still remember you telling me all the time that you will even give me your life if I ask you.Back then I never understood the intensity of your words.But now that I feel what you meant, it hurts Sharon.It hurts a lot.I still remember how blindly you trusted me.And how I didn't even realize when I broke it.Your trust, your heart.I cant even imagine what I would have done if I were you.May be I would yell at you,be angry, hit you or god knows what!!!All of which you never did. Or May be I would have done the same thing as you.Probably Leave you forever.And that's what you did.You knew it right?That there cant be anything more hurtfull for me than loosing you.Knowing that I lost my love, my life, my everything because of my bloody mistake.Because of my betrayal.
I know there's nothing in the world that can justify my deeds,that can purify me.Only I know what it takes for me to not kill myself while saying that I lost control over myself because of a few drinks.Only I know what it took for me to not rip off my own head the moment I saw that pain of betrayal in your eyes,when you saw me with some other girl.Only I know what it takes for me each day, each second to stay alive with the fact that my wife killed herself because I broke all the promises I made to her without even thinking once.Only I know what it takes for me to not tear apart every single nerve in my body,each time I remember you.Which is usually with my every breath.But the one thing I want YOU to know is that I love you jaan.I really do.You must be thinking what kind of a shameless bas***d I am to say this after cheating you brutally.You know what?I agree with you...
I have no rights to call you my jaan after what I did. I don't even deserve to call you mine.Infact I don't deserve anything at all.Not even to stay alive.But still I did stay alive for so long because that's what you wanted when you left me all alone.That was your way of expressing your agony.That was your way of punishing me.But now, I cant take it anymore Sharon. I feel guilt in my every heartbeat. Please forgive me.I cant stay away from you anymore.I'm coming to you.Trust me Sharon, this time I wont fail. We will be together till eternity..."
With this swayam put down the pen and carefully closed his diary placing it on the bedside table.He laid down on the bed and closed his eyes, waiting for the effect of poison to take over him.To free him from the unbearable pain and guilt.To take him to his Sharon world.To leave the world on the day his love had stepped in his world.
"Guilt is perhaps the most powerfull companion of death..."
Warning: No killing after reading🤢I still have to do a lot of emotional atyachar..😆
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