My broken heart taani os

Taani's pov

I've been sitting here for ages maybe for hours. I don't feel like moving or even thinking. It's like my existence is fake my identification is limited to a "nobody". The darkness in the wardrobe resembles the darkness that's invaded my life from the start. Nothing ever changes for me I get out of one problem and land into another. Each day I hate myself more this life it's not even worth living anymore. He was always right about me every word of his was right i should have just accepted his words from the very beginning.

Flashback ( taani age 7)

"ever since you were born you've been nothing but trouble your mother died in childbirth and left me with you why didn't you just die with your mother that would have made my life soo much better. Am sending you away to your dadi' s house you'll stay there forever away from me so that I don't have to see that ugly face of yours anymore"

"but dad …."

"don't call me dad I don't want to be your dad I rather see you dead then hear you call me dad"

Flashback ends

He was right I should have just died with my mother maybe dying then would have been better then living this life.

" taani ….taani" came their voices

I put my hand on my ears and pressed it hard trying hard to block all the voices. I just want to be alone for now I want to be away from them all. Wish they would stop calling my name. I don't want them to find me.

"taani.." swayam voice came

It was bhai but I ignored his calls am ashamed to face him because of me he had to face soo many problems he doesn't say anything but I can tell he suffered soo much for me but then again this is not the same bhai I grew up with maybe ive expected a lot from him.

Am sorry bhai ive caused you soo much trouble am sorry I really am

"hello rey did you find taani ive searched the whole house she not here all her stuff is here" I could hear his voice why are they looking for me it's not like am some important person to them.

I waited to hear the sound of the door being closed didn't move I didt want to move I thought about my life. I thought about my life the moments I never shared to anyone but I have never forgotten them.

Flashback (taani age 13)

"taani no one wants to be your friend everyone is school thinks you a wired so am sorry taani I don't want to be your partner why don't you work alone like always"

Flashback ends

I should have learned from their nobody want to be my friends so special about me no ever one wants me ever am just a nobody.

I sat in the darkness think about the life's biggest mistake coming to Mumbai. I came to Mumbai hoping to meet my prince charming the one guy's who I admired for ages. For the first time in my life I was happy to be with him. I set up my life. I wanted to tell how broken I was. I wanted to hell him why I wanted to be house wife and to why I never thought about my career.But the reality is away different compared to dream world. I would have given him my life if he asked for but me being the senseless and dumb girl it took me ages to realise I would never been in the same place in his life to what he is in my life.I was so lost in his love I forget to realise where I stand. He had his dance his friends and his passion what did have nothing except him. He failed to understand all I had was him.

Sometimes I think there is no difference between him and my dad. My dad hurted me through his words and rey hurts me through his action.

I tired very hard to cry but I couldn't not even a single drop came out. There is no emotion within the love for him has slowly drained out of body. Happiness just seems to be another word that doesn't exist in my world.

I sitting here in wardrobe because I have nowhere to go thinking about my future life if I have any I just want to be alone away from everybody but for now I want to stay hidden from the world.

hope you guys like I was gone make this an ff then I thought about making it a ss am not sure but for know its jus an os but if you guys want me to add parts to this then let me know