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- urja
Anam Cara (Soul Mate)
"When you are blessed with an anam cara, the Irish believe, you have arrived at that most sacred place: home." - John O'Donahue
Relief, that's what he felt. An overwhelming sense of exhilaration that he'd found her. That he could stop looking, that she was here in his arms, smelling of fresh flowers and ummm her toothpaste!
It'd been so hard the past couple of weeks, his nights were filled with dreams of his, woman, and every morning he woke up a little more frustrated until he finally got to the point that he could think of nothing but her, And thought about getting back to her as soon as possible. He wanted to run and not care about the project deal that was supposed to be signed'but for the sake of providing a secured house and full tummy he had to stay back'well it wasn't as if he was not rich 'He was Asad Ahmed khan the richest in town but work too had its own priorities .
But now lying next to her and she in his arms after the mind- blowing act of making love he was satisfied upto the brim. He felt elated and complete.
"asad?"
"Mmm?"
"Seriously, why do you think it is that we've stopped fighting so much? I always thought we'd never stop bickering, even if we were old and stooped and so deaf we could only hear each other with ear trumpets."
Asad snickered at the image. " Well, I think I get your attention now, so I don't really need to fight with you to get it anymore." He suddenly cringed, and I knew even without seeing him he did not meant to let this slip.
My heart froze, then attempted to catch itself up by beating twice as fast. I was scared that I knew exactly what he meant , and I wanted 'no, I needed 'to hear him explain so I could dismiss the guilt monster currently digging its claws in to my gut. But most importantly why did he think that? Was I that bad?
" Asad what do you mean? "
He rolled me off, then , staring blankly up at the ceiling . "nothing, never mind, its fine. Really. Forget I said anything."
But I couldn't. I leaned over him and rested my hand on his chest. " asad'please'"
He must have the desperation in my voice, because he sighed resignedly and closed his eyes.
" it's just ' you know- I felt you always .. seemed to pay more attention to other people, ammi , than me. Najma or ayaan than me. No , wait, I mean .. you always paid attention to me, but everyone else, well . it just seemed like everyone else.. came first'the only time I got the first of your attention , all of your attention and focus , was when we were in a bicker.. I just ' it was nice , you know , being first with you , sometimes , even if it was only because you were angry with me or disagreeable with me, it was nice'."
I lay my head on his chest so he wouldn't see the tears that were threatening to fall. Right now was about him , about his reassurance, not about my own guilt. Had I been that bad as all that? But I always thought that I was the one who felt neglected or at least he was trying to deliberately push me off considering the things he said and get a rise out of me. So all those words and fights were actually to get my attention' ohh god and here I thought he used to hate me earlier'.how dumb of you zoya'tch tch tch.
"oh, asad , I am so sorry. I had no idea you felt that way all this time."
He shifted and looked at me in the eye. " it's fine, it's done , I mean you are here now, with me, so'"
"No asad , it's not fine . I should never have let you think that, ever. You were always first in my attention, from the very start. I was just afraid that someone or rather you would catch on and wonder why. i sppose I did a too good job of hiding it. I figured if, I showed you exactly how much my attention you really had , I'd never do anything but stare at you. Ummm I actually think I have done that though'..stare at you for so long when you weren't looking. And well how my heart accelerated in to overdrive whenever you caught me from falling. Every time I got lost in your eyes. And then would curse myself to let that happen because I did not know when exactly I fell in love with you...maybe on the mehendi night, maybe when you consoled me at the cemetery, on valentine's day'at Mangalpur or even before that when we first met'.I was scared and did not know whether you would appreciate my stares and attention " at this she snickered and looked up at him'
" And honestly , if I went on staring at you people would have gotten a wrong idea of me being a voyeur " . she added teasingly'
Even though she couldn't see him , she knew he had smiled at that, but I further went on to banish his doubts.
"asad, I have a secret to tell you."
He mumbled something incoherent at this, which I took permission to proceed.
"asad, my earring never got lost"
"yeah I know that, don't I, cause I had it" he said
"no" she replied.
"no??...zoya, I am lost here?"
"no, I mean it was with you because I put it there. Umm deliberately. When you picked me up and were taking me to the room. Without you knowing I stuck it on your coat sleeves" and she blushed so much she would have put a cherry to shame.
He raised his head at the announcement. I left my head on his chest, but shifted around to not to look at him.
I could feel his heart to beat a bit faster. He smiled shakily and asked , " really?"
"yes, really" I replied.
With that he brought his fingers to my chin and made me look at him in the eye'." Well Mrs. Zoya Asad Ahmed Khan I am shocked ! I knew you could be devious , I just never knew how early it started." He was grinning proudly now , and I felt the tension hat had settled in my chest finally start to ease.
"well you did tend to bring that streak out of me even then. I smiled. "but back to the point, you were the first person I saw in bhopal who turned my life in to a whirlwind.. I mean starting from the family I have here that is you ammi and najma. You were the first person to grab my attention. you were the first person , in my life even, who I actually wanted to get liked and be friends with' or rather say to get your undivided attention to myself , even when like you said when we fought'.that infuriated me, which , I won't lie, you did often' but I liked it too'it kept me near you.
He chuckled softly. " I think I can figure out how frequently I infuriated you, just fine."
"well , do you understand now?"
"yes I do. " he said smiling. All the memories of them came back to him'.all the moments they had together while bickering, consoling , getting coffee and cheesecakes for each other when either of them were upset. The wish they had asked for up on the falling star of both of them falling for someone completely opposite to each other' everything. He understood that whatever she did was for him and whatever he did was for her.
"Mrs. Khan '.?" He asked .
"hmmm?"
"thank you." He looked up at me and I could see the gratitude in them'.
"thank you, for?"
" thank you , for making me understand all this. I never knew it all began so early. I am a fool actually' no, I was a fool to not catch on to this earlier' or I would have not taken this long to get you. " with that he broke off to kiss her'and things returned back to the way it had to' a feeling of calmness spread ' and they lay in each other's arms peacefully .
"Mr.khan , I have one more things to tell you'."
"what is it??? More shocking revelations??? " and he grinned
I stretched up to him and whispered in his ear " I love you"
"I love you too. Miss new York"
With that he leaned on to her to give her a huge hug and then slowly lowered his lips on hers'.taking her away in to a yet another night of blissful surrender. Entwining themselves on to each other' so this is what feels like , home. In each other's arms'.head to head'skin to skin.. .being with your Anam cara , your soulmate.
ps: here are the links to my os and ts respectively :
os: https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/qubool-hai/3648319/asya-os-she-is-my-star
ss open kisses: https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/86951063�
ss reminiscing mangalpur : https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/qubool-hai/3698914/ss-reminiscing-mangalpur-updated-ch5-pg29-23-09
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