aj dekha hai tujhe der k bad
aj ka din guzar na jaye kahin
na mila kar udas logon se
husn tera bikhar na jaye kahin
arzu hai k tu yahan aye
aur phir umr bhar na jaye kahin
ao kuch der ro hi len 'Nasir'
phir ye dariya utar na jaye kahin
Nasir Kazmi
Chapter: 20
Mayank: but first have some food .. ur sick.. n going back will make u more terrible… n ur not in too good state for this…
Nupur: hmm n I m hungry too… I n would love to have pan cakes with good creamy coffe..
Mayank: huh.. hello.. I like my would b wife to start behaving as wife oky
Nupur; wht do u mean by tht..
Mayank: I mean doing all the wifey things u see… waking up in the moring , making breakfast, taking out my things.. n all… wao
Nupur: I cant wakeup so early in the morning .. so sorry…
Mayank: n I m not planning to compromise on my nite activities so cant shift office to nite.. he said with a grin…
Nupur: mayank go away… she blushed n put the duvet on her n pretend to sleep… n he removed it n kissed her cheek…. Moving out of the bed…
Life can be wonderful just if he is beside her… she smiled looking at him who has gonne to make sumthing good for her to eat…. He who has 1000 people roaming around him to do the slight thing for him…. Never levee a chance to make her feel so special n loved…. N she love tht so much about him.. simple things he does.. no extravaganza no show of.. but ya she can nevr forgot the date… The date…. She actually felt like princes,,
He went out smilingly n dreamingly to … n colloide with the table there… ouch.. n caressing his knee he look at the papers fell on the floor… collecting them n just looking at them he placed them back…
Mayank: nupur get up nah.. I m leaving now…
Nupur: why… she got up and he placed a pillow behind her back to give her support… I m fine mayank….
Mayank: ur not… so take rest … n have this food… n I have to go office dad n samrat are out of country so its just me….
Nupur: oky…
Mayank: can I ask u sumthing… ur gonna be honest
Nupur: ya u can… .. I have always been honest..
Mayank: when u donot want to…. Wht made u take Rahul's call…
He was looking keenly observing the sudden change of expression n uneasy ness..
Nupur: mayank u urself said it over.. thn why
Mayank: u didn't fine me anything worth of doing anything for u…
He said with pain hurt and a bit of anger inside him too for himself…
Nupur: mayank u…
Mayank: yes I just looked at ur debits… why u return my money… u should have taken it…
Nupur: I donot want to.. I donot want to take money form u…
Mayank: u can take money from Rahul
Nupur: he pays me of work mayank…
Mayank: donot give me tht…
Nupur: mayank.. this wht I work.. or use to work… I need money thts why I work… n yesterday I need it so desperately… so I have to…
Mayank: u could have just given me a call… or when u know there is no money at ur account u should have taken my cheaque
Nupur: why donot u understand … I take money from those who use my body like filth n make me bliev I m one… I take money from those who make me ashmed…. N I cant take it from u n place u also in those… taking money was making all those days as sumthing so ….
Mayank: why r u so much in debits… or it has always been such…
Nupur: no it wasn't always… I actually stop taking new clients n almost haven't worked from many days.. I just couldn't n thn …
Mayank: ur going to threw back the money on rahul's face… no listen first…. U might not take money from me as ur boyfriend.. tht I just donot when we were … but I have all the rights to clear everything as ur fianc since u have not said no to my proposal so ur one….
Nupur: mayank.. pls until we get married… pls..
Mayank: nupur..
Nupur: dekho wht has been done with Rahul has done nah…. Mayank I donot want to be with u for money…. I donot want to be another Esha in ur life..
Mayank: ur not.. n u know tht..
Nupur: yes I know but sumwhere I have done to many things like her… unintentionally but still I have …. N taking money will be the last thing tht I want to do.. I know u have all rights on me but please… pls try n understand..
Mayank: I donot understand this… it will nt matter me a thing.. this amount is nothing…
Nupur: but its is all the thing tht has made my life worsed… so pls… just go to work n cum back fast… I want to tell u all…
Mayank: ur too stubborn u know tht…b ut still nupur I would have really liked if u would have…it seems I cant just
Nupur: sigh… hay… its not tht… u n me are almost no no actually the most weird couple.. meet in the most weird meeting and are linked with eachother in most wired way
Mayank: n ur the most weirdness' talker ever
Nupur: shutup.. I know this money means nthing to u and I get the fact that u want to do everything for me.. n it gives me all the pleasure n relief … but I donot want to be esha in ur life and I donot want u to be any of my clients… taking money from u makes us both tht…
Mayank: but u promise tht if u will be needing again anything u will ask me…
Nupur: sigh.. oky I will..
Mayank: good… he smiled
He kissed her ..
Mayank: okay..bye….
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"this is where the dark part starts this is the part wch made me write this story.. I was watching a TV show n the achor was interviewing a Port***…. This was her story… n the anchor person asked her about why u don't leave this n get married n all… she just simply asked.. will u marry be n give repect…"
The day was longest for her as she was again n again going back n thinking how shw will say it all to him, form were she will start …. It was hell for her…. Yet she knew she has to pass this road if she want to start beautiful with him…
He came back home with a fear of hearing something tht he will never be able to remove from his mind…. All day he was just thinking about the fact that wht could be the reason.. the facts he knew now sure of it.. tht they cant change anything between them yet… he even knew tht this will be the most painful part and he needs to be thre for her …. She was siting on the floor having her back rested with the bed… she is waiting to let it go n he is there to make her let that all go away….
He went towards her n sat beside him she turn to his sudden appearance n smile weakly.. he moved his hand on her lying on her thigh… n enter winged his fingers with her… given her all the strengthen she needs n tell her he is all ears…. Nodding his hand to start ….
She took sumtime more than not knowing from exactly where to start from… where too… its all is a mess n she didn't knew wht to pick frst…. So she thought of starting from the very beginning..
Her time making her self collect herself was racing his heart beat so much… he was fearing of her condition more than anything… and than he heard her slow voice.. tht indeed has tht weakness in it wch was making him take in a deep breath…
Nupur: I was born in smila… in a lower midclass family… baba died when I was pretty young so mom has to earn all, n do everything… though I use to take care of house when she was out but still…
Mayank: how old u were than
Nupur: 7-8 maybe….
Mayank: ur so good at English.. n many things… u doesn't seems to be of small place or illiterate..
Nupur: she smile… I m not.. I was in my last year of skool when… she paused… I love studying thts why wht so ever we were taught in a government pretty low class skool I use to pay so much attention.. there was a neighbor of ours he use to sell the used books n papers n news paper.. wch he collects form different homes… he use to put the heep out side his home n I use to take out things n read them… thts how I have strong language n knowledge…
Sigh..mom got remarried as she has too.. it wasn't easy for her to do all alone… I was 12 when she got married…. He was nice man initially use to take care of me a lot… with him mom had a son…
Mayank: Adi..
She looked at him returned the smile on his face
Nupur: ya… Adi .. adi was my little kid more thn mom… mom n uncle use to b out mostly to earn n all so I use to take care of him … mom was stressed but I didn't knew she use to take at times drugs to control her strees…. So her condition was getting worsen da by day…
Mayank: u never get to know she is in drugs
Nupur: I was too young and I didn't have tht much knowledge so I thought she is just sick… he nooded in yes…. And she took a deep breath… as I grow older uncles behavior started to change towards me..
This was when Mayank knew wht was cuming.. the more he was listening his heart start to sink.. she has work so hard since she was little she has worked so hard… for slitghtest things she has struggled … from such an early age.. yet this was given at her home… the place one find security was the most worse thing evry imagine… the place where u feel the safest was the place… his heart was caught in a fist.. and it was getting more n more sqeezed with pain…
Nupur: I was 15… I hardly knew many things about a man n woman relationship… it was a small city I donot have to many friends n I wasn't a bio student … ucle usually at time will cum n sit near me n touch me n do things tht I would nevr like… if I say sumthing he use to say he is just loving me.. I started avoid him .. nt caming out of my room n all… I use to spend as much as time with adi I can… I have my whole world in adi n my books….
But than I wasn't able to avoid one thing….
Mayank's hand made their way to her shoulder squeezing n rubbing her back… as much as he can transfer strengthen to her…
Nupur: one day mom was out for work…. N he came in my room… I was a bit starlet n I asked him wht he wants .. food or sumthing I will serve.. he said.. he just want me…. He came near me n griped my hand.. pulling me close…. N start kissing me.. I tried to stop him but he didn't ….and than he threw me on the floor… n thn.. she paused… and he hugged her more closing his eyes…. the pain the feel was so strong I was thinking I will die with it… but he didn't stoped… n…
Mayanks hugged her more tightly… he was feeling he will stop breathing any moment…. N the way she was narrating it all without a single drop of tear in her eys… he knew her tears are exhauseted in all this… but he was feeling his heart bleeding.. he kept her there close to himself.. he was just hating the numb way she is saying ttht… as was complaining yet was amuse to…
Nupur: he didn't stoped mayank he didn't .. no matter wht I did he didn't…
He clutch her tightly and let her be there for sumtime.. she stoped as if was trying to get out of the pain again,.. it was the same pain but this time it was soul.. tht was brusied.. he cant just define wht he was feeling.. his breath was getting shorter… it was unbearable for him.. he placed his head on her .. trying to sooth her as much as he can…
She got the relief there wht she wanted.. she made sum space between them and he let her…
Nupur: he said if I tell sumone anything about it.. he is gonna take away mom n adi from me… n whtever he has done is nothing to worried about.. its just a way to welcum ad**hood ….. n its his responsibility to make me know tht…
Mayank: bast**….
Nupur: I nevr felt his words right… cuase I was ashmed of myself lying like tht…I just couldn't see myself being infront of sumone like this.. it was.. I dint left my room since than for weeks.. I stop meeting anyone.. I was just so ashemd…. mom was in least state to know anything about all this… she was whole drug addict… but than worse came… I was feeling sick n dizzy n all..
Mayank made a hige sigh knowing wht was cming next.. he just cant put himself to know a 15 years old kid going through all this… how can me God so horrible with this such a fragile princes… he closed his eyes trying to making his emotions not to flow down… though she was just saying it like tale yet he cant help to imagine every part… evry part infornt of his eyes. N more over… the fact that from a little sweet inncont she was made wht… now he knew why she is so pure … so pure …
Nupur: I went to doc n the result came as positive.. I was pregnant ….she chukled pitfully …. My mom who was already in drug state beat me n did all tht she can to accuse me… n I wasn't getting a thing… the lady doc was old whn n looking my fearfull face she knew I even didn't knew wht has happen with me… she told me all… n I was left shocked…. I went though DNC n all… I was just doing everything mechanically I didn't knew wht was going on with me.. n above all wht .. why he did it with me.. n wht now he is appearing as if he has done nothing … why evrryone is acusing me rather than at once asking me wht I m going through.. wht happened to me…
He made my agreed on sending me to my massi's place to avoid my futher interaction with tht man I was sleeping around…. Yet he sold me… n I landed my in a house full of w***…. That first night was horrifying… watching everything so openly around me was horrifying…. It was..
She was completely in his arms… and he kept placing sum kisses on her head… and rubbed her head with his cheek…
Nupur: The lady incharegd there said to me… either u give urself willingly or we will sumone force u.. few times n u will be gone.. yet my fear , my lost of any thing to fight n not knowing anything tth is going around me.. why these girls are laughing n smiling after such horrible things.. those I wasn't even able to see… how can I let them… so they use the other way.. n true few time n I was gone…
He took her in his arms n squeeze her tight… n she clutch to him tight…. Going thorigth all this back was terrible for her…. He knew it when he cant think about this…. how much she has faced… she wasn't able to put things of all tht in words.. she has skiped so many parts n he even don't want her to go in details of all this… she kept herself in his embrace she went this strength… yet she adjusted herself such… tht keeping herself here she can say it all to.. she wants to finish this….. he too wants her to fisnih the story..
Nupur: thts how I become this…wht I am….
His voice came as whispere as he his thorat was choking
Mayank: than how u came here n now u donot have anyone around here….
Nupur: I came here an year back…. Almost.. the who** house…. The lady incharegd shifted few girls here.. human trafficking… I was pretty n young have quite years left for all this … so we and 5 girls were bought here to be sold… but god knows wht helped us.. we knew will be dead in few days as no girl has evry return back alive ..
Our lady incharged had an attacked n I took tht opportunity to escape from there.. yet I didn't have passport nor money nor anything …. I have to have sum money to live here… I spend sum nights here n there but I knew it wasn't safe.. plus I was starving..
I asked job here n there… yet they asked me in return.. losing all strength to fight.. I took the first client… n that's how it start it all… n I m here in fornt of u..
Mayank: u never tried to quite…
Nupur: I did.. but I cant earn tht much mayank to live my life here…I didn't was a gratitude or sumthing….. House rent, food, billing… maybe I was so use to do this tht I didn't mind giving myself in this… I nevr felt tht I can have another life n this.. who will accepted me as normal.. if go here n there sum or the other person do recognize me… n than the will have there way…. Until I meet u…
She look upto him with a smiled..n found his eyes all teary …she sigh at looking at his state… he was complete seems broken in her pain… she hugged him back pulling him more n more closed… he just time by time kissed her hairs.. he has no consoling words, no words at all… wht he can say.. he understand the pain no he doesn't.. he cant even make himself feel I slightest of all this…. Yet the only thing he can do is to promise himself… tht he will never let anything anything more worse happening in her life… he will not let any dark thing came in her life now…. It will be bright n sunshine now.. enough she had.. more than anybodies tolerance she had… but now its over… the nite is over… its day tht they will welcome… n tht so very soon….
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