Loving sumone is not about loving the perfections, its about having the mess all around u, still wht u feel is a feeling of bliss when you are with Your love
Chapter: 19
It was somewhere in the night… She opened her eyes.. and tried to move out of the bed… she was feeling week feverish…she might be having some.. to much of stress her poor nerves are taking… she was feeling so thirsty that even due to so much of tiredness she moved out of the room and sight shocked her nerves more..
He was there.. right there.. he didn't went away.. all night he was there with her.. how can he leave her like this… he just didn't want her to feel more miserable having him around… so didn't went near her…. But yes he kept checking her on n off….
Why she cant think placing herself on his place…. He just couldn't make his nerves clam at thought that his presence is making her feel so bad… he was just ….
He heard foot step n raised his head form the sofa he was sitting there whole nite n thinking of her words… sigh looking at her.. and he moved towards her and she remain glued at her place….. and stood infornt of her..
Mayank: will it be really bad thing if I said I like u…
He said with all the passion, emotions, dreams and wished he had in his heart..and this expression made her shuddered abit.. not abit too much.. she moved back n hold the wall for support.. but he placed his hand on her waist telling her when he is there why she always move back…. Its more than enough time tht she move forward….
Mayank: is that will be really bad think if I said I like you..he moved more close to her.. leaving just a blink distance away from her…
Will it be a worse think If I say I donot like you rather I love..
A wincing moan escape her lips n he has to hold her as she finally felt like she is to weak to stand …. He has said it… he really mean it nah… she was feeling she will die with this feeling right here… yet he hold her tightly making her know tht he is not gonna let her die …. Its not going that why.. not at all…
Mayank: Is that will be the awful thing to hear that yes I hate man around u… I hate it when I feel like a loser who cant hold u away from all that…
She griped his collar trying to hold herself … his fingers were making patterns on her cheeks.. n his eyes were so intensely passionate….
Mayank: will it be wrong if I want the permanent pleasure with u… forever one.. happily evr after one…
Her tears finally made there way from her eyes… it was dream u didn't want to woke up from…she rested her head on his forehead.. Finally letting go her breath finally breathing….
Nupur: than why u left me…
Mayank: I didn't left u nupur… I can never… I was just stacked in things… in me… in people around me.. I know I behave as a jerk not letting u know all.. atleast I should have told u once… but that is wht I am .. I mess things… hearing about mom I just couldn't cum up with anything… nothing…
He spread his knuckles on her cheek
Mayank: u cried whole night… that night when I left.. ur face was all rich with tears.. I just couldn't get enough in myself to wake u up n tell u im leaving this all in between n going … not away from u but just to sort sumthing…. I didn't want that night to end like that.. it was so many things all together that I was all messed up… I was in alchol too… I just wanted when we talk again I can have all things settle…
I never left u… u seems so tired that night …. I just wanted u to take sum rest… I never thought u will believe I left u when I gave u reason where I m going…n told u that u can stay here… I though u will…
Nupur: ur not gona move away from all this again.. I wont be able to take it…I swear I wont be able to take it… mayank .. ur not gonna get feel disgust of me..
She asked him like a helpless child feared and broken..
Mayank: I wasn't scared with the mess…n how can u evr thing of the fact that I can feel disgust of u… whts wrong with u nupur… I knew everything than how can i… . I just want to know I m not forcing myself on u…
Nupur: ur not… ur an idiot.. I was just not sure I deserved u or not… I wasn't sure u really wanted me forever… I was scared I m scared.. u will leave.. I will make u leave
Mayank: shh he softly pecked her…. never… I want to stay here.. maybe im not able to take everything the way I supposed to but it doesn't mean I don't want u with me… I can take anything but not the fact that I don't have any rights on u… not the fact that ur not mine and any fu** can have u..
She brought him near and kissed him hard this time… taking out all her anger frustration and pain in it… he pulled her closed … gosh he missed her so much near him… he wants to tell her he is there n will be there moreover she is here…
Nupur: don't do that again mayank please…. I m dead u made me alive… don't make me dead..
He kissed her again stopping her words
Mayank: donot think about that… donot evr does… he removed her messed hairs from her face… ur tired na.. fever??…sigh…. .why u came out
He want to kill that bas***d.. evrytime he saw her like this he want to kill him n more over himself he cant protect her… he just wont let anything happen now…
Nupur: I was thirsty…
Mayank: go I will bring sum…
Nupur: no.. she hugged him… I m not letting u go…
He smiled and kissed her hairs… and grip her legs… making the cross around his waist.. and she comfortably adjusted her… he carried her to the kitchen to pull out sum water and then took her to bedroom…
Softly placing her on the bed.. he give her water .. and then lie down with her… she cuddle to him.. but he made her move away from him.. she frown and than he placed his head on her shoulder and snuggled to her…
Mayank: I haven't slept a night since then… I m tired too… really tired.. From trying hard for smallest peace of life.. whenever I feel evry thing is fine now.. it just turns out to be biggest mess… so please let me…
Nupur: I m sorry .. I m not gona make u run anymore… I m not… she hugged him to herself.. and he pulled her close..snuggling in her… yet her warm body was making him hate himself more n more…
Mayank: ur oky ..
She knew wht he is feeling right now… the miserable state she is in …. Is not because he wasn't able to protect her… sumwhere he being in her life has started to matter so much from quite long tht she wasn't to comfortable in all this… he gave her a reason to fight from this all..
Nupur: I didn't…
He raised his head.
Mayank: wht? Ur not… tell me..
Nupur: I didn't let him….i just
Mayank: let whom wht..
Nupur: I didn't slept with him.. I said no.. I just cant..
This time he moved away n looked at her trying to read her….n kissed her ..pulling her on himself.. he crashed her on himself.. he hugged him tight.. as much as he can…
He was relieved more than being happy… he was relieved tht she didn't have to make herself go through tht .. pulling away from him she wants to explain…
Nupur: I didn't wanted to make u feel bad …. I just have to…. Do this… I ddint chosed him on u it was
Mayank: nupur it wasn't about me… it was about u.. u know wht kinda beast he is… n I just… sigh.. forget it… its over now… just can u please do one thing
Nupur: wht
Mayank: donot see him ever… no matter wht donot please…
Nupur: okay… she smiled tht was reflected on his face too… and than he hugged her back to catch sum peace full time…
She can see he was tired… as he slept almost in min… she sigh at the though tht sumwhere she herself forgot about him always searching for peace around her…. And sumhwere she knew all these days yes she suffered but she wasn't alone to feel so… he has suffered too…
She almost deliberately forgets about his mother….. n today seeing him so lost n tired she knew he has gone much more than just emotional trauma around these days…n that was true as it was about his mom.. she knew how much she matters to him… she even didn't asked him how he was n how she is… n this time she will make him say it all to her.. but right at this hr of night all she wants is to get in him and just sleep….
………
Morning came with the most relieving view for him… last night whn he saw her with Rahul he was almost in the fear tht they will never become forever for each other… but then within last night it happen… she hasn't said tht she loves him n he even doesn't want to hear it yesterday just for returning the confession… but the way she has wanted him has said it all…
Now things should be execute fast… he wants everything now now.. no more wait he has patience of….
He spread his thumb making his skin feel the velvet touch under them… and she snuggled more in him… he knew she is awake now… just not letting him go… nor he wants to….
Mayank: morning…
Nupur: she opened her eyes to see him…. N she knew this was exactly she wants her eevy morning to be…. Its more of dream to have him again there with her… its like a dream
As if he reads her eyes n fears in them … he knew this look as he has this inside him too
Mayank: im here nupur…
And she hugged him back receiving a kiss on her head….
Nupur: mayank
Mayank: hmm
Nupur: howz ur mom… wht happened…
Mayank: she is fine now.. at home… yesterday she came back.. she had an stroke
Nupur: a stroke… she raised he head to look at him… ur were in such trouble n I doubted on u.. I m sorry .. I should have been there with u….
Mayank: I wish u had been.. but then our relationship is such.. with all the doubts n no reliabilities… so it wasn't ur fault… I should have said clearly to u…
Nupur: I should have read u more … n believed u … why she had an stroke she was in stress….
Mayank: sigh… she got to know about us…
Nupur: WHT.. matlab… she raised herself more to have proper look.. n to listen
Mayank: she knew I was living with u.. n
Nupur: who I am… god… how she get to know…. Gunjan..
Mayank: she didn't meant to tell her.. she was just telling samrat out of excitement n mom heard n than all…
Nupur: ur mom didn't ask u to explain…
Mayank: she did… I told her to believe me..
Nupur: believe u on wht mayank… u shouldn't have came to me.. wht if she got to know again n she will be…
Mayank: relax.. I can tell her all now.. I know she will understand..
Nupur: I don't think so… she will understand his son is in love with prost***..
Mayank: she just need to know his son is in love with a this girl…. Thts it
Nupur: u can tell her u left me… or sumthing anything tht makes her feel good
Mayank: u want me to lie… n and hide this …
Nupur: if its better for her… n it doesn't matter
Mayank: it does… for me it does.. nupur ur not sumone I m ashamed of understood… so I will not hide or give other excuse on this ..got tht…
She moved forward n this time kissed him sharply.. she love him so much… so much she loved the fact tht he is not ashamed of her… he could have hided this n she will never mind it…. But this has made her so relax n happy….
Mayank: ouch.. so I need to be careful about one think…
Nupur: wht
Mayank: if after wedding we fought .. n we make up…. kissing can be bruising… or should I say many things can be… he said with a smirk…
Her expressions from blush changed into amuse… wedding did he just said wedding… he is kidding…. She knew there in relationship he is serious abt… he really loves her.. but wedding.. she never thought wedding … he will be planning wedding…
Mayank: wht …
Nupur: wedding?
Mayank: ya.. ur not planning to get married to me… huh… u broke my heart again….
Nupur: no yes but
Mayank: no or yes..n wht it is but
Nupur: mayank ..its
He chuckled
Mayank: its wht….
Nupur: is a big thing sigh…. Ur family.. ur mom already..
Mayank: forgot it.. are u in it or not….
He spread his fingers on her cheek…
Nupur: wedding.. my wedding..
Mayank: nopes..our wedding….
Nupur: I will be the bride..
She was saying all this in daze..
Nupur: I am gona wakup anytime soon haina
There was no sigh of humor on her face.. she was dam sure it's a dream.. he kissed her slightly nibbling her lip….
Mayank: no it isn't a dream nupur… it isn't,. the way we are going I donot want to take any risk of letting u go away from me… marrying u I want now… just now…
Nupur: u donot know anything about me
Mayank: I know wht I should be knowing.. I love u
Nupur: but I want to tell u all… will u able to take it
Mayank: I donot know I will be able to take it or not.. but I want u to purge it out.. and get out of ur life.. all that is bad.. n wht ever it is will not change anything … im here n will b here always…
Edited by drfizaahmed - 12 years ago
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