We don't wish for the easy stuff. We wish for big things. Things that are ambitious, out of reach. We wish because we need help and we're scared and we know we may be asking too much. We still wish, though, because sometimes they come true.
Meredith ( Grey's Anatomy)
Chapter: 18
He opend the ladies room and she was standing holding the counter trying to stop herself to broke down there… he saw her is same state again fragile.. n so innocent .. fearful.. his heart melted yet he was angry with her why she it it..why she do this to him n more to herself … she was trying to breath .. it was choking her.. his touch was doing so just the thought was doing so… he locked the door and just than nupur looked back in fear wht if Rahul is there..
Nupur: mayank… she whispered… no this cant happened… this was not the way nupur want him to see her again… she is not even in a situation to explain.. she doesn't even know she is here or not.. she is in trans…
The look in his eyes the rage .. the disgust the questions all was not wht she want to see in them… she is feeling dead n he made her alive and than threw her to the death row…
He came like a blaze and pushed her against the wall…crashing his weight on her.. it wasn't hurting it was making her feel so good.. his warmth was all she craved for so long.. it was giving her all the strength or was making her weak… she had left her whole weight on him know he will hold her.. and he was holding her tight… to an extend of hurting… he wants to hurt her want to tell her wht he is feeling… he is feeling so many knifes all around his body brutally piercing him every where… but seeing her like this has only increase the pain…
Mayank: why…
She looked back at him in ur asking wht
Mayank: why Rahul damit.. why the hell…
He moved his fingers on her arms in same positions as Rahul was doing and she knew he saw her with him.. and knew pretty well how he is feeling… he was just trying to remove his marks form there… and she was loving it.. her lips curled slightly and he was now more offensive as if she was mocking him.. how could her.. out of all those why Rahul cant just she give him a slight favor of not seeing him… cant she just give a slight one…
Mayank: answer me …. He shocked her … she was appearing drunk… she wasn't yet she was appearing… he was making her feel so..
Nupur: he bought me..
Mayank: why u.. why u let him…
Nupur: I work mayank Sharma.. u bought me for a month and left me.. that is it.. after that who bought me wht he doest to me… why ur concern…
Mayank: don't give me that nupur.. donot…
It took his breath too look in her eyes who has tears in them… and who were accusing them for where he was in all these days.. he knew he too has answer to gives.. right now Rahul kissing n touching her … and than a nite with her noway… all of this doesn't give her an excuse for going on bed with Rahul…. Noway… but than does it means he was thinking to much…. He needs to get his answer this time she will make the choise…
He placed his finger on her cheeks moving them there….
Mayank: donot do that..
He said so softly that made her eyes closed and rest her head back on the wall…. He moved his lips on her neck .. repeating it again… and went to her face..
Mayank: leave him..
Nupur: I cant… she choked and said
Mayank: why
Nupur: he paid me…
Mayank: pay him back…. He said make her go week on her knees..it was th first time he was so near her.. he was using everything to stop her… manipulating it with intimacy trying to have her..
Nupur: its doesn't go like that mayank….
Pls understand
Mayank: I shud understand? I shud … now u listen to me … ur cuming with me or not
Nupur: mayank pls…
Mayank: yes or no…
Nupur: no…
He leave her in a go and look at her.. making her shivery with the rage in his eyes.. she knew it was for her.. after all she was planning her night with Rahul Mehra.. a person he hates and feel so broken infront of him.. and today even he was feeling lost infront of him…. She is has chosen him on Mayank… she can see the pain too there…
He moved away and looked at her …this time with so much disgust that she felt to burn herself right there.. he unlocked the door and left shutting the door making her jump with fear…
The tears she was holding from so long …droped from her eyes… wht shall she do…wht.. he cant do this to her.. he go he cum back.. he do wht evr he wants to …. When she let him have her like this…
Wht does he wants for her.. wht exactly he is seeking…. She kept standing there for sumtime… this not gone help her in anyway… this is touchier and he is touchiering her… not with bruising her body.. but making her alive and killiing her.. again making her n love n killing her…… why he is back when she had thought and beloved he will never… but can she said she isn't feeling good to se him back.. why cant she just get away from all this n run to him… or why she cant make him shut down for the final time…
She called him once n twice but he left..He stormed out of the area and from the party to hell with the business clients he were here for… she cant go back ot all this not at all… fine he was missing but that doesn't make her believe he left her…
To hell with ervything …rahul… no way she cant to this to him too… she knew wht Rahul is to him and she is gona do this … she cant…
gunjan saw mayank cuming out of ladies room and than going out of the venue in rage more than that it was pain…
Gunjan moved towards mayank and called him … trying to catch his speeding steps… and got the grip in the elevator..
Gunjan: stop it…
The elevator closed and in mid way she hit stop..
Mayank: wht gunjan… not now… please… I m feeling like burning evything.. he bang his fist on the wall.. making gunjan scared.. start the elevator…dam it…
Gunjan: no… until u listen to me…
Mayank: go on.. go..
Gunjan: wht are u angry on… the truth .. that she is today with Rahul… he is just a client of her bro… and u have to accept the fact that she is working and that is wht she works…
Mayank: I cant.. I cant take it.. I m not a so liberal…
Gunjan: so than tell her wht u want… wht she should do.. just let me wht she should do.. u came in her life like a breeze and than went away.. and than still claim to stay… yet how ur staying… do she knew wht place she have in ur life…. U bought her for a month but left her mid way.. u bought her and left her like one of her client .. I know u must have treated her like princes but tht doesn't clear anything… did u provide any such security to her that she should think ur here to stay forever…
Mayank: I didn't left her in mid way.. I have to cum back to home…
Gunjan: that wasn't her problem… and after that.. where were u.. or even in all this.. where were u for her… have u gave her call in past days… she waited for his answer .. god bhai…. knowing u I know whn it cum sot mom u forget everything but knowing how fragile ur relationship with Nupur is did u tried to talk to her… wht u said to her when u came for there..
Mayank: I left a note
Gunjan: WHT… wao.. and here ur claiming her… wao brilliant.. u donot get to get angry on her ..got it.. bhai why cant u see that u treated her as one of client… u bought her n after month u didn't bother to look back at her…
Mayank: I didn't bought her… he almost whispered
Gunjan: wht…
Mayank: she didn't took the money…
She sigh and mayank spread his hand in her hairs…
Mayank: its not about..its not about wht she is gunjan… after the last time… I did started to take it.. fine it was hard but I can take it.. I can….. its Rahul.. its Rahul gunjan… he is ba*** a pure animal.. and.. she cant do tht to me…. She knew everything about him n esha… evry bit…. And still.. she chose him on me..
Putting his hand his pocket he hit his head back on the elevator wall…
Gunjan: u cant protect her like that bhai… u have to tell her… all.. all.. u have to take all rights.. more than that.. this was exactly wht she kept telling u to see…. U need to b sure that u are ready to take all this .. all this… there will be so many Rahuls that will or may cum infront of u all that time.. and they will see her like that.. if ur ready to protect her and made her urs… u have to say it… loud and face all too… its not a fairytale .. that u turn the page next and the previous get closed automatically… the past will remain with her with u… with us… always…. u have to tell her that u love her.. don't look at me like that I know that .. u need to tell her its permanent pleasure ur seeking with her… have u even thought having feelings for u and than cant telling u how she feel.. have u ever thought the only person how show a little respect ot her… when today saw her like this how she felt about herself… think.. u need to tell her … and yes she hasn't made any choice im sure abt tht… ask her if she has every give any choice .. but u can give her a way
She opened the door of elevator and went away… leaving a still burning mayank… he just cant take the sight away from him.. the kiss… the way his hand moved on her and more over the thing that will be cuming this night…. He cant think anything right now… he needs air… he cant breath … just cant breath at all…
Gunjan went back to the party and saw nupur standing there in the corner, lost sumwhere.. she went near her ..
Gunjan: ur oky..
Nupur: she chukled.. making her throat wet with liquour… I m fine… I know this will happen.. a day it will happen… and he will feel disgust.. its just… sigh.i thought I can.. but I cant take it.. . excuse me…
The party was on that few mins even gunjan was busy in her crowd…
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It was late at night when nupur tired so much that she was feeling dizzy, she cant be thankful to God for tonite … she cant thank enough… even sumwhere she was thankful to Rahul too… though she knew damge has ben done.. Rahul was right… the damage has been done.. yet she was able to hold herself for sumtime…
Nupur: Rahul I am sorry… I cant stay with u tonite.. will give u back the money..
Rahul: he laughed scarcislly… its oky s**tly… wht I want to have from u .. u gave in.. so no need to sleep with me.. though I love the way u let me handle… mishandle u.. but still the sight u gave me today was the best… have the money.. I just want to see mayank the losser…u were brought here to serve that purpose.. poor him..alway end up with wrong girls… go… good nite… as im gona have one …
She shut the door… and closed her eyes..she was feeling bad for him for them… he knew how he felt about Rahul n serving the purpose of making him feel like a loser was a shit**y think she has evry done…. I think she was ahsmed more than anything …. But she needed the money so much… and she was angry on him … on herself that she didn't stop him or tell him how she feels for him… she knew this mess as much as he is responsible she is bigger way …. She took this all to edge …
She was angry tht he can do any thing to her… she was angry about the pain he didn't care form past 15 days..
she let her body slid down the door abruptly… she cant just get out of the sight of him looking at her with so much disgust.. imagine her like that with Rahul.. it was making her weak, so so so weak that she let her self fall… when sumone hold her in a fear she is in her unconscious…
Mayank who has nothing left in himself.. and was desperately want sum peace … and the only place he knew no matter what he will find it with her… he wants to wait for her to cum home and will ask how dare she let rahul have her… he will scold her get angry with her.. he donot care even if he might be abusive the only think that matter is he wants to pore it out… evry second he was waiting for her … she wasnt there and he was dying evry second… but the night mare more horrifying than he ever imagine was infront of him when he saw her sliding donw the door so much broken that he was fearing she is not even in position to hold her..
Nothing was left inside, nothing anger, missrry, jealousy or ownership the only thing that was left was the fear, fear of losing her… fear of wht if she disappear..
Mayank: nupur…
She looked at him and was surprised no she was feeling a strange emotion she want to smile and let herself be there yet she cant help her self to think wht the hell he is doing here…
Nupur: why the hell are u here..
Mayank: shut up… he picked her up in his arm and went inside and softly placed her on the bed… spreading his hand on her face….. are u oky… nupur tell me wht happened to u…
Nupur: nothing mayank… she moved away her face.. trying to avoid his touch… please leave me alone… I m tired.. just go away…
Mayank: I wont… I wont go away like that..
Nupur: why.. why ur here even.. stop it.. for god sake stop this all.. stop making feel more filthy of myself than im feeling from always… stop behaving as if ur here for always .. stop behaving and claming that u can take it all when u cant… stop being selfish mayank.. stop it … just stop it … just stop it and go away… im still the crap, sl** tht sleeps around people and is the most non reliable person… but I ma stil human.. nd today I lost it… I have lost it finally.. so just go away and let me tear apart… I tired mayank I donot want to see you infront of me reminding me again n again that im the ugly beast in your life… my life flowers has gone dead way before and im not c hanging in anything beautiful…
Im tired… of this feeling.. im really tired.. I m tired of killing my self evry day… I cant take it..that look in ur eyes… I just cant take it .. I cant see my self so ashamed infornt of u… when sumwhere u felt me good… when u are the only person whom makes me feel proud of myself… let me feel im normal person…. But I cant be in n out like this.. I m not capable of doing so… I just cant take it… please have mercy on me… plss…please go. Please… go….
He stood there silent seeing her sliding down… closing her eeys…. She cuddle more to herself closing her eys in tiredness… he moved forwards and than moved out of the room… how she wished he would have stayed and hugged him ..how she wished he would have said he is there with her always.. how she wished he would have said nothing matter to him… just her… he want her… like anything in this world..how she wished he would have said ur the beauty in our story… and he is not gona let her die in hell…
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