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Aapki Parwah
With the assumption that anandi has confessed her love to Shiv.
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With the assumption that anandi has confessed her love to Shiv.
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A pang of concern creased Anandi's forehead as she led Shiv from the loo and laid him on the bed concernedly. He had been constantly passing out since last night accompanied by a severe stomach ache. Seeing him in this condition, Sanchi and Choti Ma decided to postpone their trip to Kesarbagh by a day or two. Tucking him into bed Anandi sat by his side and, gingerly pressed her fingertips into a few spots in his belly.
"OUCH..." he moaned as she dug deeper this time making her heart sink with concern. She so couldn't see him like this...in so much of pain.
"Shiv bas thodi der aur...Lal Singh abhi aate hi honge" she mumbled pressing his hand worriedly, feeling miserable not being able to ease her husband's agony in any possible way. Strangely, this time none of her desi nuskhas had worked on him. Ginger juice, kadha and whatever herbal assortment she knew, she had tried, but nothing worked.
Shiv's ears stood up as he heard Jetsar's resident doctor being already on his way to treat him. It seemed to him as if words were taking longer to reach his mental faculties bcoz of the constant nausea and vomiting. But the name "Lal Singh" was enough for him to try and spring into an upright position but collapse back into his pillow wincing.
"Anandi Lal Singh ki koi zaroorat nahin...main theek hoon" as he pouted making a childlike face, for a second Anandi wished to scold him for his stupid argument but gave the thought away seeing his condition.
"Shiv pls zidd mat keejiye. Apni halat dekhi hai aapne. Aise aapko dehydration ho jayega. Pls understand, you need treatment. Right away" she chided, grazing her fingers into his hair, stroking it with love, as if this was the most natural reaction she could come up with.
"But Anandi..." Before he could mutter anything further she tucked a finger onto his pouted lips and gave him one of her most comforting smile making him forget all his pain for a while.
"Anandi, ek baat kahoon aapse"
"hmmm"
"Jiss tarah aap mera khayal rakhti hain...mujhse pyaar karti hain...kabhi kabhi bahut darr lagta hai. Samajh nahin pata ki main itna pyaar sambhal bhi paunga ya nahin. Aapki parwah,aapki achchai, aapka saath...darr lagta hai kabhi in sabko kho na baithun.Agar kabhi bhi aisa hua to shayad main bardasht nahin kar paunga...shayad main mar..." before he could even say those ill-fated words she covered his mouth with her hand.
"Shiv kabhi bhool kar bhi aisi baat apne zehen mein mat laiyega. Aur aapse kisne kaha ki aap mera pyaar kabhi bhi kho denge.Ye pyaar humesha aisa hi rahega Shiv.Baki kuch bhi badal jaye,par ye pyaar kabhi nahin badlega"
A thin layer of moisture filmed Shiv's eyes as her words fell upon like a warm blanket on a chilly night. This was the moment he had ever waited for. Seeing the same love in her eyes which he had felt in his heart, had been the most heartfelt prayers he did ever offer. And to say that her reciprocation of his love had been the most splendid blessing of his life seemed like a gross understatement. It was more...much more!
The two of them were lost in their musings when suddenly a knock at the door broke their chain of thoughts. It was Chotima and Sanchi standing on the door with Lal Singh. Seeing them in their bedroom Anandi moved away from Shiv and made way for Lal Singh to check upon him. She felt her heart flutter due to concern as Lal Singh took Shiv's vitals and pressed his belly making his forehead wrinkle with pain.
"Collector sahab what did you eat yesterday?" was the first question LS asked Shiv.
"Well nothing much...just normal homemade food"
"Did you eat something heavy..?"
Before Shiv could say anything Anandi interrupted.
"Yeah Lal Singh halwa"
"In which meal?"
"Breakfast...lunch and dinner" LS's eyes almost popped out at anandi's answer.
"I mean Shiv had halwa after all the three meals"
"Anandi I had heard that Shiv likes your halwa but too much of everything is bad" LS said making Anandi feel embarrassed. She felt guilty for not realizing that eating too much of something can be bad for health. And even at night she felt as if he ate only for her though he was full. Anandi felt very bad at her careless behavior. In her urge to shower him with her love she ended up making him sick.
"It's ok Anandi don't feel bad...I will right him some medicines and he will be fit as a fiddle. But remember food precaution is a must. Keep him on light food for the next two days at least. And remember he might not be able to ingest the medicines bcoz of constant throwing up. So if that's the case, inform me right away, then I'll have to keep him on injectable medication". Anandi felt angry on herself realizing how much pain she had caused him.
Giving her the necessary instructions about his food and medicines Lal Singh left the place leaving the four of them in Anandi and shiv's bedroom.
"Bhabhi how can you be so careless. You should have stopped bhaiya from eating so much of halwa. But you and your villager ways! As if stuffing someone with oily and unhealthy food is the only way to show your love. And I am sure bhaiya would have eaten just for you...coz he can't say no to you. And see now he has to suffer like this bcoz of you. And if the medicines don't work he might even have to be kept on injections. Are you happy now?" Sanchi shouted on Anandi making a few tear drops escape the corner of her eyes.
"Enough Sanchi! Stop blaming Anandi. And have you even forgotten how to talk to someone elder to you. Is this the way you talk to your bhabhi" Shiv scolded Sanchi in a brisk tone but fumbled midway due to weakness.
"Pls Shiv...you need rest" Anandi pressed him on the shoulder.
"No Anandi this is no way of talking to anyone. She needs to understand this. Sanchi apologise to Anandi"
"I am sorry bhaiya I can't apologize to someone who causes you pain. I won't" rustling she walked out of the room in anger.
"Sanchi listen to me..." Shiv spoke in vain knowing his words would only fall on deaf ears.
"Shiv pls don't say anything to her. She is right. It's entirely my fault. I should have been more careful" Anandi spoke in a distressed voice making meenu smile at her innocence. Seeing her feel so guilty-conscious Meenu pressed Anandi on the shoulder.
"Anandi it's not your fault. You were just expressing your love. And its his mistake too...he should have told you that he doesn't wish to eat more. But I am glad now you know how careless he can be when it's about halwa. And that too such a tasty one. So from now on you will be careful to keep a restriction on him" Meenu said trying to put Anandi to ease and left the room with a contented smile.
"Anandi it's not your fault. You were just expressing your love. And its his mistake too...he should have told you that he doesn't wish to eat more. But I am glad now you know how careless he can be when it's about halwa. And that too such a tasty one. So from now on you will be careful to keep a restriction on him" Meenu said trying to put Anandi to ease and left the room with a contented smile.
"Anandi choti ma is right its not your fault" he said seeing her distressed face.
"But Shiv, even Sanchi was right. I don't even know how to express my love. I am such a fool. And probably that's why..."she fumbled as a thick lump rose in her throat. And in a second Shiv knew where was she going. Moving an inch closer to her, he cupped her innocent face into his palms and made her look into his eyes.
"Anandi aapse ye kisne kaha ki aapko apna pyaar jatana nahin aata.You know Anandi jab main college mein tha...main bahut sare couples ko dekhta tha.College main koi function ho...Valentines day ho ya phir koi party...humeshan ek doosre ke saath rehte the.Par jahan ek doosre ka saath dene ki bari aayi...sab apne aap mein busy ho jate the. Un sabko dekh ke itna to main samajh hi gaya tha ki shayad aaj ke zamane mein ek achcha saathi milna bahut mushkil hoga.Aur shayad yehi karan hai ki jab bhi ma ya papa shaadi ke bare mein baat karte,main taal deta.Darr lagta tha ki kahin jeevan bhar ek aise insaan ke saath na bandh jaun jo mere dil ko kabhi samajh hi na paaye. Aur phir, mujhe aap mili. Aaj ki duniya mein jahan log apne parivaar ki taqleef mein bhi unka saath chod dete hain,aapne ek anjaan hote hue mera saath diya.Mujhe heth singh ke khatarnaak iradon ke bare mein agaah kiya...gaon walon ke saamne mujhe gussa hone se roka...mujhe samjhaya ki gusse se kabhi kabhi baat bigad bhi sakti hai.Aur yehi nahin iss akeli nayi jagah mein mera ek sache dost ki tarah saath diya apne.Aap chahti to meri zarooraton aur taqleefon ko nazar andaaz bhi kar sakti thi.Par apne aisa kabhi nahin kiya.Meri nakseer ke liye zabardasti mujhe vaidjee ke pass le ke gayi...Ashima ka itna khayaal rakha...usse poora gaon ghumaya. Yahan tak ki mere parivaar ka bhi hamesha itna dhyaan rakha.Itna jitna koi nahin rakh pata...main khud bhi nahin. Anandi aapki parwah aapki kamzori nahin, balki aapki sabse badi takat hai.Woh takat jo kisi ko bhi apna bana skati hai. Jo kisi bhi dil mein pyaar bhar sakti hai.Isliye kabhi aisa mat kahiyega ki aapko apna pyaar jatana nahin aata. Apki parwah hi apka pyaar hai Anandi.Aur mere liye iska kya mol hai ye shayad main kabhi shabdon mein bayaan nahin kar paunga. Bas itna kah sakta hoon ki ye meri zindagi ki sabse anmol tohfa hai. Aur apni aakhri saans tak main isse mehsoos karna chahta hoon"😳
Warm tears brimmed her eyes as his words echoed in the air around her.It was strange how he didn't know to what extent his words had penetrated within her. It was the first time she had felt someone accepting her love in the way she loved to offer than a moulding of it. And needless to say this was the most precious blessing destiny had bestowed her with. A man who not just loved her as is, but also accepted her love in its truest essence. 😳
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