Pt8/9/10'True Betrayal' Thrd1 Pg82/91/92(Finished) - Page 53

Omg!! I can't believe this what turn of events!!

First the fact that she opened up to him! Trusting him completely!! But to her surprise he opened up n revealed the fact he was the one for all the misery at the first place!!

Then the war btw hatred n love!! Sad man all ur khushis go thru something that is heart wrenching n difficult to choose :p but she concluded wid out listening to his end! But im glad in this chap that oso came out!

He hasn't slept from that day! Poor felloe really is sad man!! N I'm so glaad he came to her help n den spoke out all that! Im sure hr.ll feel much better! N he confessed his love aww but the situation didn't let us b happy for it :(

Hes gone!! No I cant believe it!! But his returning of d diary n den that note! Mind blowing! I await forgiveness!! Superb note man! Ur end notes are oways fab annie!! :)

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I kept holding my diary, in my hand as my fingers traced those words and my tears drenched the page of the diary. He has written those painful words.

I knew he was standing there. He didn't move from his place. May be he was in fight with himself, he wanted to come and soothe me in his embrace but he was unsure if his touch will soothe me or repulse me.

Repulsion? That was something I could never feel by his touch. As strange as it was, it was true. The hands that had killed Prashant, the very hand that snatched everything I had, were not repulsive to me. In fact, they still possessed that soothing capability. I hated myself for being so vulnerable to him. But I was helpless. Still my resentment didn't allow me to turn and stop him. Those few steps were too heavy to take.

I clutched my dupata tightly when I felt his footsteps fading away and then the door being shut. I felt as if someone had banged my heart.

He was gone. He was in fact gone as if he had never existed. He was actually gone and I was more empty and alone than ever.

Was it possible to forget him? I asked myself.

No, My mind and heart screamed at me. How could his memories fade away when he was already part of me?

I will abide by what you anticipate

Even my shadow will leave your way

Never! My mind and heart yelled at me again. I was torn between several things and didn't know any way out.

I don't know how much time have passed. But the room was dark than ever because there was no sunlight outside to lit the room with its single ray.

There was no one there except me. Not even my shadow. Not even his shadow.

I was the only one, sitting in that room alone, dipped in darkness. His agonized voice was still echoing in my ear. His guilt was still haunting me.

I tried to think through my pain and a low whimper came out of my lips as I recalled the first time we had met. He didn't utter a single word but there was so much pain. Then I started to recall his words each time we met.

Don't look at me like that. Don't look at me like that.

I still remember when he said those words and then I recalled my answer "because I will fall in love with you?" and his answer was something that didn't make any sense at that time.

No, because I will fall in my own eyes.

I couldn't fathom the real meaning of his words then but now I realize it was because the pain in my eyes added to his strife. There was something in my eyes that gave surge to his guilt and he felt more lowered in his own eyes. He couldn't stand the guilt to see so much pain.

Yes, I don't know. But I know the pain that is visible in your eyes. But trust me the pain of remorse is worse than anything, when you don't have anyone to blame nor fate neither people but only yourself.

He was burning in his guilt and remorse. The throbbing pain had conquered his existence. His quilt was eating him day and night and he could blame no one but himself.

I don't put price tag on people. Not anymore. I know how precious a human life is.

Did he really mean that? I asked myself and I couldn't deny the truth in his voice when he had spoken those words. Somewhere, I knew he meant each word of it.

I know dammit. I know you don't need any help but I have already told you that I am in a dire need of your help. I Arnav Singh Raizada need your help.

Arnav Singh Raizada and help are the two opposite things that can't exist together. Was he so helpless in his guilt that he needed all this? Was he truly repenting? No matter how hard I tried I could no longer hate him.

Was it really in my control? My mind asked me and my heart ached at those words.

Sorry? Thank you? I don't deserve these words.

He didn't take advantage of me that day. He couldn't touch me that day because he thought he didn't deserve my closeness. He couldn't even accept simple thanks from me.

Because I deserve each bit of it. I never realized until now that even this pain is not a right punishment for me.

Punishment! Was he seeking and hoping for punishment? But what punishment can be suitable for it? I tried to reason but I knew that I couldn't punish him, without putting myself in pain because his punishment and his anguish will be my suffering as well.

I felt insecure, when I see you walking alone from the office.

Yes I was following you. I follow you each day to make sure you reach your home safely. And believe me that it was never because you needed it, but only because it was my own need.

His life is a misery just like mine and he is shattered and alone. This didn't give him peace either. Loving him was something that was not in my control but still one thing was in my control and that was not to see him again.

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~Last Part 10~

She reached home and found Akash waiting for her. Akash advanced towards her and pounced on her, without wasting a single minute.

"Payal has told me everything. What is all this? What are you doing with yourself? Why are you punishing him and above all yourself?" He asked her, without any pause but she kept mum because she didn't have any answer.

"Akash, sometimes things are not in your control. Sometimes, life controls you and takes the decision for you." She told him in a low voice.

"Oh come on! This is not the Khushi I know. I mean, you used to say that the secret of success is learning how to use pain and pleasure instead of having pain and pleasure use you. If you do that, you're in control of your life. If you don't, life controls you. Where is that Khushi?"

"That Khushi no longer exists," She retorted back

Akash looked away, not knowing how to explain her.

"It's not my life anymore. I have the responsibility of Payal and beeje."

"Oh just stop it, Khushi . Payal is already mine and beeje is my responsibility too. Don't try to be a typical sacrificing daughter. You have a life of you own too. Akash fought back.

"Akash is right," Beeje's voice startled both of them.

"Khushi, I heard everything. I saw everything that day when Arnav followed you, in your room. I was not blind to miss the sorrow of you two. I was not blind to see the love you had for each other. I was not that deaf to miss the guilt in his voice when he was talking to you. Nor was I able to miss the helplessness in that silence of yours." Beeje paused and then continued while Akash patted her shoulder.

"It was nothing but betrayal of fate that led to Prashant's death. He was my son. But I have seen remorse in Arnav 's eyes.

You never heard the detail of his accident. It was not Arnav's fault. The Brakes were failed and he tried his best to save Prashant but.. but it was not in his power too. I knew it that day but it took me 5 days to gather myself to say this. It is hard for me I won't deny, but this is what is right.

You love him. Don't let this guilt and pain hinder you to get happiness of your life. He loves you more than my son would have." She wiped off her tears and smiled.

"Go and bring him back, before you are also left with remorse of leaving a person, whom you love." Beeje placed her hand on Khushi 's head and Akash hugged her.

"Khushi, just go and get him back yaar." Akash said as soon as they broke the hug.

"This family dramatic scene can continue after you get him back." He laughed wiping his tears.

"Get him back, but how? It is the Arnav Singh Raizada Akash. First, we won't know where he is. And even if we know we won't be able to meet him that easily." Khushi smiled. And Akash knew their old Khushi would be back soon as he grabbed the keys and rushed outside.

"Let's go, we will decide in the car."

*****

Only she knew how she had spent those days without him. How her eyes searched every corner, for his one glimpse. How she always had the same feeling of being watched.

She searched for him madly in his offices but she got the same answer that he was not there anymore

"Akash, you go, I will be back soon." She told him and walked where her feet carried her. It was the same time he used to follow her to make sure that she had reached home safely.

She sighed as she stood at the edge of the cliff lost in her thought as her eyes fell on the deep water.

I can't believe that you left me alone. I know you hated that word. You can't leave me alone. I know you simply can't. But where are you? She thought as she kept on staring dark water as its darkness seemed to consume her.

Why my heart fails to believe that you would not be there, when I would need you. Why I fail to believe so? Why? I still have this strange faith on you. She smiled bitterly as a thought crossed her mind.

Pain, Strife, Grief, this is what connects us and if that is the only way to feel you, I am ready to put myself in more pain because I know you would be there to save me. I thought knight in shining armor didn't exist but I did have mine. It's only that I failed to recognize him. She scanned around once again in a vain hope that may be he would be there and then she took one step as her body fell at rapid speed into that deep water.

Cold water felt like needles pricking her body. She started to drown in the water but no one came for her rescue. Darkness seemed to fill her mind and soul but still no one was there. She closed her eyes in pain giving last hope of her survival when she felt herself in someone's strong grip.

It's him. Her heart told her.

Or am I dead? Her mind screamed.

He placed her on the ground and her back touched something hard.

"Khushi," There was so much panic in his voice.

"Oh God, I won't be able to bear it. Oh God, not this," He screamed as he pressed her chest with his hands.

She wanted to soothe him and tell him that she was alright but her lungs felt choked as she threw water from her mouth.

"Khushi, please, nothing can happen to you. I have been dying these past days. I told you that I would go as if I had never existed but I simply couldn't do so. I couldn't leave you alone." He cried.

"I was always there to follow you when you were alone. Till you reach your place safely. But I couldn't make you aware of my presence because I knew that you don't want me, that maybe even if you want me, I don't deserve you anymore."

She felt more pain as more water sprouted from her mouth.

"Please, don't punish me like this. Please," He begged and hugged her.

"Arnav," She was barely able to say his name. He patted her cheeks and the next moment he placed his mouth on hers, taking her lips into a soul searing kiss. The coldness in her body seemed to fade. The emptiness in her soul was replaced with his love as he kissed her lips breathing a new life into her dying heart and soul.

Her hands went to his nape as they both kissed each other carnally and passionately. Today, it was not only pain but also pleasure and happiness that surrounded them.

"I Love you," He told her as soon as his lips left hers.

"I Love you more than the word love means. I love you more than I could ever tell you. But this pain.." She smiled.

"Our love is as intense as this Pain."

His world seemed to stand still to hear those magical words from her mouth.

"My destiny betrayed me and took my happiness away." She placed one hand on his bare chest as she spoke.

"The same fate betrayed me and brought love in my life when I least expected." Her eyes were locked into his.

"My heart betrayed me and fell in love with you." She bent a little and kissed on his heart and he closed his eyes in satisfaction.

"My eyes betrayed me and shed those frozen tears." She lifted her head and placed kiss on his both eyes one by one.

"My mind betrayed me and refused to hate you." She kissed his forehead and then hugged him as she confessed the truth.

"You betrayed me and didn't tell me the truth when we met first time. Everything betrayed me, but now I realize that it was nothing but a TRUE BETRAYAL, since there was no deceit in that betrayal."

He parted her to look into in her eyes that were filled with not only pain but also happiness because of their togetherness. She couldn't wait any longer and initiated the kiss that has the capability to replace every inch of that pain with their love

"Eventually you will come to understand that love heals everything, and love is all there is."

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A truely emotional update.loved it.

U ended it already?.it was such a nice story.it was pain that connected them.finally she could voice out her feelings and he could get over with the guilt.perfect ending.

An abrupt end but still quite very moving. So he was with her all along...sweet...finally pain gone for sure.😊

that was a fab FF.. goin to miss it

wow i loved it very much...
its very emotional...
awesome update...