OO Rabba (SS): Thread 1 - Page 49

PART 11

Geet was restless as since morning she had not seen Maan as she herself was unaware wat was going inside him. He though in the cottage itself avoided her so tat he could think through which he could tell her wat he feels, tell her wat he went through. He sat there for the whole night, the next whole day and finally he came with an idea. He knew tat it was tough and very difficult but he had to do this as this was only the way he could tell her, his Geet wat he feels about all this.

The moment the door opened Geet felt a bit at peace but a look at him she knew tat he did not sleep for the whole night but before she could even say a word he picked her up in his arms and headed downstairs where another shock awaited for her. she saw tat the hall was dimly lighted while there were two large photo frames placed at a small distance from each other. A close look and she saw one was hers while the other was his. she looked at him for answers but she did not say a word. He slowly placed her on the comfortable couch making her lean behind while he moved away and stood right in the centre of the room. She just kept staring at him and she could say there was something that she utterly failed to understand.

Jaan.. I know wat I have done I don't deserve your forgiveness for it and nor I want. But believe me I cant see the pain in your eyes, cant see tat you shed tears for the person who does not deserve you. I don't want to say anything but hope tat you will understand from this small act wat I feel and there after it will be you who will decide whether I deserve you or not and I promise if I don't get any answer from you I will go far away from you and the baby so tat you can live you life without my shadow in it but just believe this Jaan.. Maan Singh Khuranna only loved, loves and will always love one girl in his life and tat his Jaan.. his Geet.

Maan keenly observed Geet and her expression but this time there was nor pain, nor anger but plain blank. He moved towards her portrait and placed a soft caressing hand with a smile and looked up at his Jaan.

Geet Handa was her name.. the name which was not less than a pure angel in my life. since the time I first saw her I could say tat she was the one who was made with pure love by god only to spread love and unfortunately or fortunately I fell for her. But MSK was scared, scared for the first time tat would she ever believe me. Would she ever think about me. Though I was MSK, but I was scared of her rejection as I could never voice my feelings and emotions for anyone.. not even my own family.

He slowly bends and places a soft peck on the portrait while his fingers still on it.

I know you would be wondering tat why did I get you here and wats all this. don't worry I wont do anything tat will hurt you its just tat I will enact about some lost months which would have been the best months in our life but we lost them.

( from here.. Maan will play both the roles.. his and geet's. its an act which he will put in front of her. so red as usual will be Maan and Blue will be geet .. which will be played by maan himself)

Geet was not getting him anything when her eyes just shocked to see wat Maan was doing. She saw Maan going near his own photo and standing with his eyes lowered as if he was shy.

Maan.. sunno.. na..

Maan goes near her photo

Hmm Jaan.. kya hua… is there anything you have to say..

He comes near his photo and touches his photo where it looks like Geet is playing with his tie.

Maan.. suniya na…. i.. i..i mean.. who.. me.. you..i mean.. i..

Maan goes near her photo and touches her cheeks like he always did when she used to do his tie and kissed her cheeks.

Jaan… wats the matter.. kehna hain kuch. Do you want anything.. I mean should I cancel my meeting so tat we can.. I mean.. pura din..

Once again he comes near her photo and jerks his hands as if Geet jerking his turning away from her photo facing his back.

Chiii.. aap na.. har waqt yahi dhimang mein rehta hain.. chaddo.. I will not tell you want I want to say.. chadoo… jao apni.. khadoss boring meetings mein..i will complain to angel tat Dadda not ready to listen about her. Dadda.. very bad..

Haan complain.. tell angel tat how Mumma makes it difficult for Dadda to get ready for office.

Maan stopped in between his words and looked up at her back. He realized wat she said.

Geet.. wat did you say.. I mean.. angel.. complain..

He saw geet now fidgeting with her saree pallu and almost trying to move away when he he stops her and turns. ( now facing the photo)

Jaan… angel.. I mean.,.. me Dadda.. you Mumma.. really.. our angel… our dream… ohhh god…

Maan hugs the portrait expressing his happiness as if it was real while other side Geet was smiling with tears in her eyes. she could see the happiness in his eyes as if he was living in those moments in real. Maan caressed her photo placing numerous kisses over all her face.

Jaan.. I cant say how much happy I m… I Dadda.. my Jaan.. mumma.. ohhh..

He bends and touches her belly on the photo placing kisses.

Hi angel.. welcome.. you know.. your Dadda and Mumma.. waiting for you since long. I don't know.. wat I will do when I see you in real.. our angel.. our dream.. our Muskaan… Muskaan Maan Singh Khuranna… my geet's replica… oh.. god… thank you so much..

Maan stands and once again hugs the portrait with tears.

Thank you Jaan.. you gave me the best gift in my life.. our angel.. our Muskaan..

Angel.. no.. he.. he will be Armaan.. my little Maan.. not muskaan. Ok..

Armaan.. no Muskaan.. my angel.. you prince will be later..

No Armaan.. and tats final.. your Muskaan later..

No.. Muskaan and tats final.. Maan Singh Khuranna ne keh diya so keh diya..

Dekho Maan.. its Armaan. Not muskaan.. and Geet Maan Singh Khuranna ne keh diya so keh diya… no change.

Maan hugs the portrait nodding his head but he knew tat it would be an angel. He wipes of his tears as he felt the pain of missing all this when he was far away. He looked at Geet who herself was in tears.

Don't cry Jaan. I did not mean to give you pain but this is wat I would have felt when first time my Jaan would have told me about our dream. I missed this phase of sharing the happiness of being parents and m sorry for it. I know tat those days I will never get and I will repent for them for my whole life.

Maan moved little and hid behind bringing some big teddy's other soft toys.. a cradle and everything and arranged them as if he is putting up a nursery for their angel while Geet just sat watching him. he pulled the portraits closer.

Jaan don't.. just few minutes ok

Maan.. this is not fair. I know you are upto something and I want to know wat it is.

Jaan.. sabar ka fal mitha hota hain.. so few seconds.

He slowly opened her eyes (his eyes as he was geet now) and was shocked to see while tears were spilling from his eyes.

Maan.. yeh sab.. baby room…

Haan Jaan.. our baby will stay here. Did you like it.

Maan hugged his own portrait like Geet would hug and kissed it all over.

Love it Maan.. its beautiful.

He ran ( as geet) all over touching everything and expressing her happiness while he was in tears like he would be at tat time.

Maan.. when did you do it.

When my Jaan used to sleep at night. Its my surprise for you Jaan.

He hugged her portrait while his eyes fixed on geet sitting there.

Pyaar hai ya saja, aye mere dil bata
Tootha kyon nahi dard ka silsila
Is pyaar mein hon kaise kaise imtihaan
Ye pyaar likhe kaisi kaisi dastaan
Ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar
Dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar
Ho ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar
Dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar
Pyaar hai ya saja, aye mere dil bata
Tootha kyon nahi dard ka silsila

O..O.. Rabba.

Maan once again hid behind and tied up his stamoch with a small pillow as to show her bulging pregnant belly. Geet was shocked to see him doing all his while his tears were not ready to stop. the more he wiped them the more they came. He moved closer to his own portrait and touched it as always Geet does when he is asleep.

Maan… Maan..

He jerked his own hand like he does when Geet disturbs his sleep at nights.

Maan.. aaahhh.

Tat was enough and he got scared and looked at Geet portrait and kept his hand on his own stomach like he would have kept on hers.

Jaan.. are you all right.. wait I will call. Mom.. nahi Dadima.. nahi dad. Nahi wil call.. Doctor.. Jaan relax… kuch nahi hoga.. kuch nah hoga..

Than suddenly he laughed like Geet would laugh holding his stomach like Geet does now protecting their baby.

Maan.. main theek hoon.. see your Jaan and angel is perfect.

No.. you are not… see.. you are in pain… I know.. you need doctor.. lets go..

Maan.. me feeling hungry..

No hungry.. doctor.. Mom.. dad.. Dadima.. geet… geet is in pain.. dadima…

Enough.. kyu chilla rahe ho.. sab so gaye hain.. and me and our angel is all right.. we are perfectly fine.. see..

Maan looks at her photo with his big eyes, which are questioning her as to why she screamed like she was in pain

Maan.. feeling hungry..

Maan caressed his fake belly like Geet does when she feels hungry

Me… no.. angel.. wants to eat.. matka kulfi…

Maan made some weird faces.

Wat.. matka kulfi.. are you crazy Jaan.. raat ke 2 baje… ice cream.. chalo.. so jao… kal subah kha lena..

He tried lying down like he would make geet do it but jerks hands.

Abhi.. means right now.. I need.. mata kulfi.. righ now..

Jaan… its late.. I know.. I m MSK.. par tat does not mean ki I can get it at 2 baje at night.

Kyu.. MSK… ho na.. when you say Jaan I can do anything.. why cant you do this.. I don't know.. I want it mean I want.. nahi tho I will not sleep and wont let you to sleep..

Are you crazy jaan.. don't you know you need to sleep.. chalo so jao.. kal subah dekh lenge..

Tho kal subah so lenge.. abhi ke liye I need matka kulfi.

Maan licked his lips like Geet does.

Ok.. main hara tum jeeti.. chalo lets get ready.

He gets excited like Geet and jumps down like Geet does but instantly changes to Maan.

Kya kar rahi ho Jaan. Careful na..

He faces baby faces like geet.

Sorry..

He acts likes he make geet to get ready and picks her in his arms while

Maan I can walk.. see please let me down na..

Nahi.. I cant.. kya pata tum phir se bhagne lagi tho. You know na I cant afford to loose my Jaan and angel..

I love you.

Both had tears in their eyes feeling tat this could have been real if they were together. Maan wipes his tears and says.

I know this is nothing but this would have been like it. I don't know how would I react when I would do all this.. but I missed everything. I missed your seven months of pregnancy. I missed pampering you.. I missed showering my love on my Jaan and angel. I know I can never get those days and months back as.. my fate did not allow me…I know I was wrong.. I know I deserve to die after wat I did but why cant I get another chance Jaan. I was wrong… I know I was wrong but I was scared.. scared after knowing tat I would die very soon. Scared after knowing tat my death would give you a life of a widow. Scared to see wat would your reaction be after knowing tat your Maan was suffering from deadly cancer. I still remember Jaan when I had a small accident you died thousands of death just seeing a bandage on my head and this was cancer. How you would react, how would my family react. How could I see you all breaking and dying each second. How could I see our dreams crashing down and I did I did the worst thing blaming you for everything. Saying tat you were not worth of my love…. saying tat I loved Pari.. saying tat I never realized tat you were never my love, saying tat Pari was carrying my angel within her. throwing you out of my life and house with my own hands gave me deaths but still I did not die.. kash main mar jaatha Jaan.. kash main ushi din mar jatha when I thought to show tat I betrayed you. but nope I could not. those seven months.. seven months not less than hell for me.. I was waiting for my death but it never came.. it never came nor I could see tat my own friend played with my life.. I never knew tat I was getting fooled but tell me Jaan.. wat could you have done when you would know tat you are going to die..

He cried and cried putting his head in her lap waiting for her one word but she did not say anything. he looked up with his teary eyes but she did not say a word. He slowly stood up hurting his own hand by breaking the glass table leaving the hand to bleed while Geet just looked at the blood dripping from his hand. She wanted to stop him, she wanted to cocoon him in her arms but her body, her mind, her heart was not with her. they were numb with the feel of his act. She was a lifeless body right now seeing her love her husband bleeding but there was no pain on his face but only pain of losing his love his jaan. She tried to say something but she could not. she saw him moving she tried to reach her hand to stop him but she could.

Precap: will she stop him.

So how was it. I tried my best to show Maan and his pain and hope you like it.

PAINFUL UPDATE