DIL, DOSTI.. HUM!!#2 ch 43: pg 141/thread #3 added - Page 46

Chapter 37

Geet

It had just struck me.. fm writing to d diary

He was nw addressing all his words to me, as having a conversation wid me!!

Bt I wud wait for d day wen we wud converse widout means of dis diary!!

Being wid u.. was all I wanted.. bt I dint want to interfere wid ur work esp wid deadline to meet!!

But evrytym u wer der in front of me.. I cudnt think staright, cudnt concentrate on work, cudnt do even d simplest of thngs ryt..!!

So I decided to give bth of us dat space, nt wanting to disrupt our professional lives!!

I immersed myself into d one thng I can do best.. work!!

But I wonder who I was tryin 2 fool.. it was like I was building up a frustration inside me!!

Again I had spent 3 days in my personal hell nt having spoken to u!!

Though I did catch glimpses of u at home.. bt it wasn't enuf to soothe my heart!!

Finally relenting to all d emotional choking I had inflicted upon myself, I called u to meet me.. in my cabin..

N I felt so much better..

N den wen u called me SIR, it amused me at first, n den it irked me to no end.. ur being formal wid me!1

.. bt d frustration of not being able to tell u anything.. it was getting to me!!

Infact I landed up being all rude to u mishty!!

Yes u wer..

N I thot u were such a tyrant den..

Bt nw I cudnt even blame wen I was d cause myself!!

I had to make it upto u..!!

N tht too without revealeing much to u coz nw I had decided to tell u d truth, only after dis project.. I dint want u all hassled wid d project n my truth!!

N thts why I had to use d excuse of meeting d client n take u out for lunch..

I was selfish, I guess.. bt I so wanted to spend smtym wid u!!

N even though it was just an hr.. it was more than I cud ask for..!!

U took so much trouble just to spend sm tym wid me!!

N here I was cursing u all d while!!

So dis was.. um.. our first date!!

Though I dint know of it!!

Bt it was d first tym I realised u were human nt just a work driven robot!!

Babaji.. maan is better off nt knowing dis!!

But I was busy wid another project n cud hardly give u ny tym..

N I feared we were back to square one!!

Bt den one nyt, late as I was.. I saw u sleeping on d couch wid d laptop still on!!

Well I wud have felt loved knowing u'd actually been up waiting for me..

Bt ryt den I felt guilt for not giving u ample tym for ur work.. though I did try to keep all ur documents up-to-date!! N provide u enuf staff!!

U did..

Bt dat problem cud only b solved by u!!

Or probably it was destiny tht just cudnt keep us apart for long!1

I never wanted u to feel guilty!!

N den while working, u feel asleep..

Resting ur head on my shoulder!!

For a second, I dint even realize, I was so engrossed in working!! Then suddenly I cud feel ur soft breath fanning d nook of my neck!! N der u wer cuddling to my warmth!!

U r such a seductress..!! u were really testing me!!

It was tuff resisting u..

I had a hard tym controlling my blush..

My breathing irregular!!

If his words had dis effect.. I was actually nervous abt being in his presence!!

But den it was beyond me to talk to u whn u wer in ur senses, hw I cud I betray "us" whn u were asleep!!

Bt d feel of u in my arms was enuf to soothe d ache in my heart!!

It took a lot out of me to get back to work n finish it too.. knowing I had a packed schedule ahead n I dint want ur work pending coz of me!!

Finally having done it, I carried u too ur room!!

Tucking u into ur duvet, u almost pulled me over cuddling to me!! N for a second, I imagined hw it wud be doin dis evry nyt!!

It was such a warm thot!! I cudnt resist pecking ur forehead though I had a lot of other thots!! If only I cud tell u d truth n u wud have me in ur life!! If only..

We wud..

N as much as d thot of it made me shy, I wanted it!!

But only once u'd speak up!!

I scribbled a note for u!!

Not wanting to disturb ur beauty sleep.. plus I cud look at u to my heart's content widout any apprehension!!

No wonder I woke up feeling so content!!

Hw can u care so much for me n still never let me know!!

Then as d project got over, I was so happy for u!!

And as evry1 complimented OUR work, I knew it was OUR magic together!!

Bt den der was dat damn party.. n mishty u know hw much I hate dem n still u kept persuading me to attend it..

N u know I cant deny u nythng!!

Bt whn I saw u der, I was glad I came.. !!

U looked like an angel in dat white saree!! My angel.. n I alwaz wanna see u drapped in sarees!!

Khadoos he dint even compliment me tht day..

I so wanted to hear fm u!!

N den wen u were dancing wid dev, I wished twas me.. bt u know na I never dance in public!!

N plus I never wish to share my personal moment wid u wid ny1!!

N dats why I had to deny u.. for a dance!!

I was so guilty unable to give u smthng whn it was d first tym u had asked me directly for smthng!!

Bt u dint even let me explain!!

It was a torture seeing ur expression like dat.. n worse still knowing it was coz of me!!

N i was upset by ur refusal..

But u made it up..!!

I had to fulfill ur wish!!

By hook or crook..

N I got my chance.. whn I found u alone on d terrace!!

Mishty, I had learned dancing only coz of u!! n I wanted my first dance wid u!! another reason I feared dancing in public!! It was only ur ryt..

N I had finally got my wish!!

The song is one of my favorites.. coz I depicts my undying commitment to u!!

"kurbaan hua.."

N if ever d need arises, I wudnt hesitate to sacrifice evrythng for u!!

My tears just weren't stopping!!

Hw can u love me like dis?

I wondered if I was a bit too selfish in front of his selfless love?

The feel of u in my arms dancing wid me on dis moon liy nyt was nothing short of a fantasy!!

But u made it true!!

I dint even realize wht steps we were doing!!

It was as if sm force was guiding us thru!!

Ur eyes were closed by d tym d song stopped!!

I so wanted u to open dem n look at me..

I wanted to confess to u.. d biggest secret of my heart!!