Partial or total absent of Light- darkness the only thing I feared to death.. I am strong independent girl. Aims and dreams already achieved a 26 year mature female.. my life is perfect.. well in ways of profession.. but as a family I don't know what to comment.. my mom loves me immensely.. but then again life without a partner seems so incomplete.. yet I cant think of getting one.. my profession life is successful.. I am the creative head for the famous women magazine 'The Diva' and assistant creative for the Free Bird advertising company. Both the under one main company bound with. It was a great pleasure for me to hold up to these posts.. nevertheless I loved creativeness. And my other probably only passion was Painting.. I always brought my imagination into my creativity of my hands.. routine was 4 days in a week I was engaged in the advertising company and next 2 days working for the magazine.. half of my free time was spent painting or reading novels in my balcony with a sip of coffee. I spent my weekends with my mom. Life was Perfectly Imperfect though. I needed a partner. But never craved for one. Whenever i gave my romantic life a thought my mom's words sprang in my ears 'men are not trust worthy, they leave us alone. They cheat. They never meant to be committed'. This is what I heard and learnt from my mom. And that's the main reason neither I dated anyone nor I had an interest with. But yet again life missed something special.
Until and unless, that day came.
I was in the 4th floor of my office. it was the last working day of the week in Free Bird. i would be buzzing back to office after 3 days hence last moment works were getting wrapped up in a hurry. It was already 7pm. I was really late today compared to all other days today I took Over Time. I glanced once more at my watch and sighed. The more I tried to hurry the more it got worst. But I dint let it go, I gathered all my strength and finally ended up with the files.. I locked my cabin only to find I was the only one in my floor. I sighed again, it was Christmas eve and many were on their leave and rest got into their homes as fast as possible. Christmas!! I loved this season. It always bliss to feel the winter chills between the festive celebrations. I headed towards the hallway and then to the lift. I patiently waited for the lift to open up. After few seconds finaly the lift landed back. I dint care to see who was in and who not. As of now all I bothered to get home and aid my bed for a sound sleep. I was Hell tired.
As the lift reached 2nd floor something happened which took my breath away. The lift suddenly halted giving me a shudder and then the lights went off.. as I said the darkness is worst feeling I experience in my life. I started hyper ventilating. It was then I realized the presence of one more individual in the lift, until then I was least known. My hyperventilation's increased as I screamed shivering. My screams was brought to halt by the warm touch I experienced first on my shoulders and then on my both arms. some strong source was holding onto me. Shaking me and above all comforting me. I felt a shiver run down my spine. Within split of seconds I felt presence of a man right infront of my eyes. his eye elated in dark. Those dark brown color of his eyes brightened in dark. I could feel myself drown in those hazel orbs which glowed in dark.. my heartbeats were gradually increasing. I sighed. But the fear of darkness still lasted. I felt myself hyperventilating again. I couldn't bring myself out of it. he slowly moved another inch close to me. Almost getting his body close to mine. 'Are u okay ?' he asked with concern it was when I felt my heart skip a beat. I again got lost in his eyes. but the fear got over me again. I found myself confessing to him the fear of darkness. He kept comforting. But all went in vain. My fear increased every second. But it would be wrong if I don't mention how blissful I felt in his presence. Finally he took me into the hug patting my back. I was astounded! I never expected this but I couldn't think of anything then. All my focus was on the darkness. I found myself safe in those arms. he wrapped his arms tightly around me and slowly patting my back. Also muttering frequently 'eveything will be fine. Don't worry im here..' I don't know why I felt it was the safest place in earth.
After what seemed ages finally the lights were back. And within split of seconds lift resumed.
I was taken aback once lights were back. I drew myself behind from his embrace. I dint know how to react. The proximity did bring some fluttered feelings in me but yet again he was stranger and I felt imbecile . slowly pinning my hair behind my ears I looked up to meet his eyes. I hands were still on my shoulders. I stiffened. He looked so handsome! A perfectly well built body. Those genuine concerned eyes. Perfectly curved lips. That medium sized little bulged nose. Neatly brushed yet messed hair.. decently tugged suit. He was gorgeous Looking Man!!
Our eyes were in a tight lock for few seconds I felt oblivious to real world. He shook me to bring me back on earth. I looked at him and gave a weak smile. 'are u okay ??' he asked really concerned and cautious of my fear few minutes ago. I nodded and sighed deeply getting my senses back to normal. Bringing myself out from the little disturbance took few minutes ago. I looked back at him with the same weak smile and mumbled thank you. Before we could converse further ground floor had come and the doors flew open. I withdrew myself back completely from him. he smiled saying 'my pleasure' he nodded.
We went out of the lift. 'you work here ??' he asked politely. I nodded 'yes I assist the creative team of Free Bird. he smiled wide. 'nice to meet you. I am Reyaansh Singhania one of the Board of directors in Free Bird'
'Hi Mr.Singhania I am Kria Ghai..' I smiled looking away from eyes. I felt a verge of getting lost in eyes again.
We bid bye to each other as we reached parking lot and departed towards our ways. Least did I know we were meant to meet.
For next 2 days I was busy with my magazine as it was last week before month ended and we had cover up the final edits before the magazine released its monthly edition. But my mind kept hovering around Mr.Singhania. he was certainly the charmer.
Later that weekend I was spending time with my mom like always. Somewhere our first meet did create a long lasting mark on my memory but his thoughts decreased later the next week.
Again the last working day of the week came. I always hated the Thursdays being the assistant I was left with all completion of files. How I hated these Thursdays. It had been few months that I have started doing Over Time on Thursdays. It was 31st evening. And I wanted to enjoy myself but I was stuck with this last moment file!!!
There was still a lot finalizations to be made. I was still struggling with files I heard a tap at my cabin door. 'come in' I muttered before drowning back into files. It was few minutes since I had welcomed the person in. since then I dint hear anything from the person concerned. I looked up to see HIM. he was sitting casually in the couch reading magazine [ The Diva ]. A unknown smile crept over my lips.
I kept looking at him. it felt good. It was already dark out. The whole world was busy with New Year celebrations and I felt low thinking I would be celebrating it all alone. He felt my gaze on him, he looked up with a smile on his face.
'good evening Miss.Ghai' he greeted taking the seat front of mine. Why does he call me Miss.Ghai ? ewww its odd. 'good evening Mr.Singhania.. im surprised to cu in my cabin' I raised my eye brows after giving the smile.
'well I was passing through ur office and I came to know your quite busy with your works. Since it was New year eve I just thought to wish u in advance'?'
'oh that's really kind of u Mr.Singhania..' before I could complete he interrupted 'may I ask u wat ru doing ???'
'umm well finalizations of all projects of this week.. that's lot of a job u c..' I said I a disguise!!
He chuckled 'may I be some of ur help ?' he offered politely.. his face was so cute I couldn't deny him. I nodded and the very next moment he slid his chair next to me glancing at my laptop screen.
He instructed me few things and helped me in finalizations. I was awkward at the beginning but how can I fail to admit how brilliantly he helped me out. He was a good mate. The time kept moving. We chatted.. we joked.. we started knowing each other's professional details more than personal one.. we took a break at around 11.30.. taking coffee cup in hand we sat in the large swing hung in the balcony of my office. the beautiful sea view and the cool breeze made the moment more amazing. His sense of humor and sweetness was more attracted to me.
'so Miss beautiful what are ur plans for this new year ahead ??'
I was taken back with the new name tag given to me Beautiful ? I felt my cheeks flush.. I looked away taking a sip of coffee.. I dint want to get into the name tag and him to realize I blushed. Hence I chose to ignore it. 'well as of now I wanna finish of my assistant course. If luck gives the hand may b I get promoted here as one the creative team member ? than as an assistant!' I completed looking at him he was amazed
'so what about u reyaansh ?' tat was the first time I called him through his name.. he looked elated I smiled in return. 'u can call me Rey..' 'all my friends and family refer me the same!' he took another sip of coffee before staring at me. I looked away soon and mumbled REY more audible to myself
'I am thinking to take over this office..' I was astonished with his answer. I dint expect that though. I know he is one of the board of directors and 50% partner of biggest advertising company THE SINGHANIA's. the latter is that main company under which The Diva Magazine and Free Bird companies are bound.
We usually talked thru eyes.. silence talks had become quite often between us. And it was then become his rountine to show up at my office sharp at 7pm every Thursdays!! And then we together finalized up with the weekly project files. It was great working with him. chatting along and having a coffee break staring at the sea view. We talked about random things. but I could see from his actions he was attracted by me. Calling me Miss Beautiful had approved that he found me attractive. And to me he was impressive. The complete descent sweet loving person. And not forget he has always taken into point to drop me home! As im afraid of dark he insisted in dropping me over. Gradually our friendship grew quite stronger. Evry Thursdays after attending board of director meeting he would be showing up at my cabin. And I would be waiting for him. we would work till 11 and then he would drop. This was my new routine to imperfect life.
I did discuss about my friendship with Rey to my mom. She shrugged and instructed me not to get closer to him. she did realise my little crush on this man. Hence she had to give some warning and that was expected from her. I agreed. Afterall my mom had lived a life of a independent mother since my dad had backed off from his responsibilities. My mom n dad were classmates since high school and in college years they confessed their love for each other. Like all other teenagers they did have some dreams and wishes. But one decision of getting married to my dad my mom regretted. My dad had been a good husband but when I was born at quite early age, my mom was just 23 then. He wasn't irresponsible but being a subtle individual he backed off from the growing responsibilities of family and profession. Later on my mom brought me up as single mother with the knowledge of never to trust a guy. That's why probably im still single. I nevr blame her though because I have seen her dying every. Since I shifted to my own apartment for getting easier access to my office, my mom stayed with her college friend. I was happy my mom got another female to share her thoughts in my absence.
It was on Thursday evening while I was working on my files. Luckily that day creative team insisted in helping me out with finalizations. I was amazed but it went on. Therefore I finished my work in time. It was 7pm and I was desperately waiting for him to appear. If he knows me well then he should know I get hyper soon!!! I felt the restlessness shiver In my body. I quickly took my fone attempting to call him.. it appeared 'swtiched off' cursing all my stars I walked out of office at 8pm. I waited for the lift to get down soon. In 3rd floor I felt some uneasiness. I felt someone's strong gaze on me. It was getting intensified more and more. Somewhere I felt it would be rey. hence I decided to turn around. To my shock or a co-incidence I saw him just seconds before lights vanish and me clinging on his arms for my dear life.
That was moment of bliss. I was in his embrace the first time I saw him. but it wasn't that intense as now. I felt his grip tighten around my back comforting me with his concerned words. Hearing his voice after a week!! I felt more safer in his arms. I loved it I admit. Least did I know his embrace had a power to get me out of my fear. I a smile involuntarily curved my lips. His warm body was crushed to mine. I felt heavens lying in his arms. 'hey relaxxx..' he said last time before the lights came back and we were taken into awkward moment..
As I came out of the lift I remembered he hadn't shown up in the office lately. I growled at him walking away.. he called after me running behind. I shrugged moving towards my car.
Before I could open car doors, he grabbed my arms pushing my back against my car he looked deeply into my eyes..
'listen I am..'
'Rey whats this ? do u know I waited for u so long ? why dint u show up ? how can u ditch me like that rey..' all this while rey kept trying to convince me.. but I went along with my ranting as I thought its my authority. How I got the feeling I hardly know. But Thursday evenings was dedicated to him. for 3 months we have been sharing Thursday evenings together how can he just not appear without even saying anything ??
Finally he yelled 'BAATCUTTER!!' to stop my ranting around.. 'Kitna BOLTI HO TUM ??' he asked amazed..
That was the first time he spoke in hindi. We never conversed in hindi.. but it felt great to hear hindi from him.
'BAATCUTTER ???'
'yes!!! because tum meri baat kaat thi ho!!'
He pouted. I couldn't help but smile at him.
'now will u listen to me ???' I nodded
'the meeting went for a long time, but then I thought ki..'
'u thought what ??'
'well I was thinking.. ki kya tum.. ummm will u be my date tonite ???'
I was spellbound with his question. It was a surprise. I kept fighting with the urge to kiss him.. but I held myself back. And being a gentlemen he had managed to be the sweetest person hence I couldn't deny him. after all he was my crush too. a date wouldn't be that problematic though.
A table for two. Like I always loved, beach side candle nite dinner. Wow!! What else would be best at the moment ??
We chatted a lot.. laughed giggled.. shared the darkest secrets to silliest moments.. I never thought I would be so close to anyone especially a guy. I cant forget how good partner he was.. may be at work or at discussion he proved to be perfect. The name calling 'Miss beautiful' is always something I loved to hear.. !! he kept addressing me baatcutter since that incident nevertheless I loved that too..
Days flew by.. months rolled. The friendship got stronger. We called spoke for hours everyday.. met on every Thursday and later went on date at nite.. And I was transformed from independent to dependent gal not much of that sense but yes I was dependent on REY. my mom kept instructing me not get emotionally attached to him. I tried my best to stay away but wenevr he spoke up I had to give in. it wasn't late wen I realized the strong emotions I had grown towards him. he always gave an hint of how much I meaned to him. it was as though his whole life was dependent on me. Somwer I loved the feel but then again my moms words were breaking my ears. I had to get out of this. Later or sooner I had been into this trauma. I knew he liked me but living a life without him would become even worse if I became more attached to him. I had to pull myself apart before I get more hurt. Wen it comes to emotions person tend to become selfish.
One Thursday evening when I was sitting in my cabin.. I was a mess. I dint know how and what to do. I had heard from other workers that meeting would last for more time than usual. It was already 8.30 and I finally completed my work in a hurry purposefully. Once I finished I rushed out of the office towards the parking lot.. out in the parking area I heard someone running behind me. I knew it was him. I acted as if I dint care.. but he was way to determined and stronger than me.. he finally grabbed my arms and turned myself towards him
'wats wrong baatcutter ? tum aise kyu..?'
'rey I don't want to speak to u.. pls leave me..' I ordered
'but wat did I do ?' his expressions wer changing into sad ones.. I gulped
'do u know how much I waited for u ? u dint hv a courtesy to tell me huh ?'
'but I had sent..'
'pls I don't need ur excuses!! Its high time ..!!'
He tried to convince me.. no reasons I continued to fight with him. seriously its sounded awful the reasons I gave.. the accuses I did was lame.. but again I knew I was hurting him and I had to ..
'just don't speak to me again!!' I yelled before driving off.. once again not giving him a chance to speak. I accused and bashed him. he was hurt I knew it.. his eyes were watery I could see it.. I felt a flinch at my heart. If it wasn't for my mothers words I gues I wouldn't have done this..
The followed days was hectic. My mind kept running behind rey. he never called after that. He was hurt. He was hurt!!! That was all I was feeling guilty in. finally the Thursday came.. loads of work on my head, no mind to do any of those. My insides kept telling me to ask sorry.. but my ego dint let it. it was 7pm. I closed my eyes took a deep breath thinking he is not gonna come I should focus on projects. The moment I shifted my eyes to my laptop screen I felt my cabin door open slowly.. I looked up to see rey coming inside casually. Without doing much noise he sat next to me.
Wenevr we worked together we divide our works .. he was extremely clever in working with files finding flaws fixing them. Whilst I was good in PPTs and presentations. That's how we shared our work. He started with his work. Glancing through the file, he quietly did all taks without uttering the word. I felt embarrassed.
God always seems like playing cupid at times im with him. one or the other day it so happens that I should face the fear of my life. Darknes!!! Suddenly the systems turned off making gheee sound and then lights gave up.. immediately I shifted towards him. I hugged him tight chanting 'don't leave me please don't leave me..' he consoled me like all while.. wenevr I needed him he was there. whatever I wished he made them true! He was perfect in all ways.. when I opened my eyes I realized I had cuddled towards him in the couch sleeping peacefully on his chest.. I looked around the lights were back.. as I made myself straight he woke up 'are u okay now ??' he as concerned in his eyes.. I couldn't hold back 'why are u here ?? after all what happened last Thursday ??' I asked without wasting much time. He smiled
'I know that u dint mean what u said. I promised to help u out wenever u needed me. I promised to protect u from dark that's y im here.. I know u will ask forgiveness wid me. Until u ask for it im not gonna bring the topic. U and I both know it wasn't my mistake..whatever u said did hurt me kria' saying wich he left.. first time he had called me from my first name.. never before I loved my name. I loved my name to b called by him.
he had come to my office. did all work he promised me for. even after my such a stupid act!! now i agree he is the one !!! he is the only one i can count on.
After few minutes I came out of the office only to find him standing near his car leaning so innocently like a kid. My mom's words again eroded my ears but before I gave it a thought I went to him. he opened the passenger door for me which I closed it.. he looked at me confused.. I smiled kissed his cheeks nd asked sorry looking down embarrassed for my behavior. 'kria ?' he called me. Lifting my chin up through his index finger he stared into my eyes.
'I was waiting for u to feel sorry for ur behavior because I and u both know u did it on purpose . I still don't know the reason though!! Never wanna learn. I just want to be with u kria.. u mean world to me. I have never met a gal who is as beautiful and as cute as u. I have never seen a gal so innocent and pure from heart. I love being with u.. kria ?'
Aniticipation increased its peaks.. I knew what was coming.. switching my ears off for my mom's words I looked at him..
'I I love u kria.. I really do with all my heart..' he said cupping my face.
A lone tear escaped from my face. I smiled ' I love u too rey..' I said and we closed the gaps between our lips. It was a soft gentle kiss. He took my care like a princess. He dint deepen the kiss much but locked his lips with mine for longer time. The feeling was above all. Heavenly!! Awesome! Megical!! My lips trembeled as we parted to gain some oxygen.. I looked in his eyes our forhead met before we laughed.
Paradise!! I was in the paradise of Love.. rey was the creator. Im the princess in there. he is such a good boyfriend.. he never let me down.. staying by my side in all sorrows pain and happiness he indeed stood up for his promise.. evry Thursdays we worked together. Everyday we spoke for hours on the fone.. random dates on week days.. text messages.. love care trust was all life about. I even introduced rey to my mom. She had strongly confessed she dint like him. she said she dint any men all are cheaters.. but she also confessed 'he was a gem of a person' wich I took as a good sign.. lately I never heard anythn gud about men from my mom's mouth..
My life had turned romantic! Silly fights.. cute sorrys.. endless talks.. silence talks.. coffee chat.. dates evrythn was perfect with him. my imperfect life was perfect with him he completes me..
and i also resumed back my painting habbit after REY's visit to my house. i was eager in showing him my paintings.. he was awestruck with my creativity. i felt proud.. then after he was my regular guest to the house..
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